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pov: you're waking up and it's june 1st

(happy pride month yall!)

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at my sketchbook. straight up “drawing it”. and by “it”, haha, well. let’s justr say. Nothing

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Sketches 🕊️ °˖➴

#this is so pretty

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you’re doomed, there’s nothing I can do 

#laurie <3 #me and you everyday!!

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sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

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Anyone: Hey (asks about a special interest of mine)? Me: Becomes an unskippable cutscene

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worst part about getting angry is how much it makes you want to be mean

#real #😭

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Im gonna shuffle my giant playlist of every song i like and if the very first one that plays isnt exactly what i want to hear right this second im gna lose it

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#idk why this screenshot is so crunchy but. Yeah

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i am so bored and gently annoyed while doing almost any of the things that should make me happy.... uh-oh!!

(rambling in tags sorry i should probably just be writing this in a fuckin journal)

#i think maybe i should be on meds or perhaps even in therapy but that isn't happening anytime soon :') #i feel guilty for not being happy there's no actual reason for me not to be #i thought moving out would be like. a cure-all. which was maybe dumb of me. #i thought i'd finally feel like a full on person and not like the ghost of one or something #but no i... still kinda feel that way. lol #not constantly at all #but if i'm at my happiest and still feeling like perpetually a little empty then it's like. okay my problems weren't just my environment #like i really hoped they were? i guess? #idk and i still just feel like all posting this will do is cause!! issues!!! and cause upset!! and i don't want that #i just want to uhhh not be depressed... i think over a decade is long enough!! i would like to be stable now lol #and i'm just anxious about so many things constantly... and my dad recently did not help. unfortunately. #like actually i think that in particular made a lot of these feelings worse. no offense to him he didn't know but damn!! that hurted #anyway ignore me

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y’all remember being 15? That was fucked up

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i love you pubes i love you stomach hair i love you unshaven pits i love you happy trails i love you coarse leg hair i love you untrimmed bushes. i love you body hair

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listening to music i listened to when i was 14 makes me realise im still the same person but taller & with a rare esoteric wisdom that can only be gained through suffering

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childhood was painful but at least my brain was underdeveloped enough to keep vibing back then. take me back

#exactly

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"have you learned how to drive yet" i have the spirit of friendship in my heart. the joy of lifes little things in my soul. the whimsy of magic. the beautiful enjoyment of nature. the answer is no though

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What's everyone's favourite flowers that aren't like. The normal ones. Like everyone's a fan of roses and sunflowers what's a more niche one. One you don't get in gift sets. Mine's sweet peas

#DANDELIONS!!! #sorry i'm really passionate about them.

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