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i love you i love you i love you i will never forget you i will never forget you i will never forget you

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“we don’t talk. i still dream about you.”

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I deeply think that as much as I loved my ex best friend that we could never have gotten better together and then I truly hope her life is beautiful and she's also changing and growing beyond comprehension the same as I am and that even though we might never be together again it's for the best :,)

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- on losing friendships

langston hughes/ @romcommunist & @anguam/ scott street- phoebe bridgers/ @death-born-aphrodite/ cough it out- the front bottoms/ @mazzystarjpg/ my tears richochet- taylor swift

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i thought my suicidal late teens were the hardest years of my life but nothing could’ve prepared me for my 20s waking up everyday with no purpose, feeling so lost, unable to keep up with friendships, watching everyone move on with relationships and careers and being unable to catch up. and I’m such a “life is not a race” type of person but damn I’m losing so hard rn

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Hello god 1 quastion why does the world escape me

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when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

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you were supposed to be the one. you were supposed to be different. you were supposed to be mine.

and all you ended up being was another lesson.

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i secretly wish

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It’s cool to not be totally healed from something 9 months later and it’s also cool to understand that you don’t really heal from anything you just live beyond it and find new happiness and it’s cool to grieve the loss of some sort of innocence you can’t quite name and it’s cool if you’re crying because I am too

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the number of hours we have together is not so large btw. you can linger in the doorway uncomfortably if you want idk. you can forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it if you even care

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(shaking my 14-year-old self) I was so mean to you but I love you, I love you, love you

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I need to be alone for a few hours every day, otherwise I start to spiral. but if I'm alone for too long, I also start to spiral. pretty easy, right?

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it's like i am literally never going to own a house or find authentic love or escape the clutches of late stage capitalism so really what am i living for