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I've remade! same url @startold - with a few changes to the muse roster. I'm still setting it up a bit, but feel free to head over there if you'd still like to write

#last rb #goodnight sweet prince

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I've remade! same url @startold - with a few changes to the muse roster. I'm still setting it up a bit, but feel free to head over there if you'd still like to write

#queued

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I've remade! same url @startold - with a few changes to the muse roster. I'm still setting it up a bit, but feel free to head over there if you'd still like to write

#sr / #i'll probably queue a few times

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I've remade! same url @startold - with a few changes to the muse roster. I'm still setting it up a bit, but feel free to head over there if you'd still like to write

#✦ ( ooc ) #hopefully the tags will be more useable over there lmao

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damn right she is

#✦ ( dash games || leona )

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// sorry for yet another ooc post. I think my writing block is more mental, and it won't go away until I actually figure out how to get past it. it's not something that just waiting out will fix.

I feel like all my ideas are just derivative, that I'm just taking ideas from other franchises, friends, that nothing I do is actually mine. I know it's not true, the whole "no idea is original" thing and all that. but I'm struggling now to even think about my ideas or muses, without feeling defeated or unoriginal or that none of it is really good.

I just put my finger on the issue, and I'm not really sure how to go about getting over it. any advice would be appreciated, but in the mean time:

I am once again apologizing for my slow pace. I really appreciate your patience, and I am trying. Thank you.

#✦ ( ooc ) #I won't get too personal. I'm just tired and sick and grumpy #I've got a bad cold and my blood sugar has been a fucking roller coaster bc of it #I start spring break tomorrow so hopefully some rest will help

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// not sure if I just need to clean out following list or if I'm in need of a full remake here.

part of it is, my two main muses rn are from somewhere only one of my friends cares about. I still have an old url for them and if I do remake, I could focus more on them and basically taping the worldbuilding we got with duct tape, and other muses are there for people who don't mind me rambling in the corner and taking a hot minute.

I guess I just feel guilty for my interests lmao, and talking about them on my own damn blog- maybe a new place would assure me people there don't mind? idk.

#✦ ( ooc ) #to be fair anxiety is a hell of a loud voice #my tags are kind of a mess here too #but I don't think tumblr would be good about that somewhere new either #tears at my hair

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#✦ ( ooc ) #not my creation but cannot find the original #Totally Normal Human right there

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WHAT DOES YOUR HEART LOOK LIKE?

MAX -

broken, missing pieces that once were there

Your heart has been torn before, chipped and maybe even shattered. Some pieces will never be recovered, and you are shaped by the loss. But it can still be shaped into something tangible, something good, even with its flaws and imperfections. You don’t have to do all the work of rebuilding by yourself. Allow other hands to leave their fingerprints on the new heart you create from the remnants.

JONES -

a compass that doesn’t waver

You are someone who is certain of what you want. Maybe you always have been, or maybe you made a discovery that you haven’t been able to tear your eyes away from. Your heart is set and certain. You fight endlessly for your goals. Above all else, you know who you are and what you are trying to achieve. Just be careful not to tear yourself or others apart in pursuit of your ideals.

#✦ ( dash games || jones ) #✦ ( dash games || max ) #oughhhh

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WHAT DOES YOUR HEART LOOK LIKE?

MERCY -

an open door, a burning hearth

Your chest is wide open, and your heart is a home. Others are welcomed in readily and asked to stay. You are comfort and love, everything you were never given but so desperately want to provide for others. You have built this welcoming hearth with your own two hands and won’t see anyone else left out in the cold. Be careful to not burn yourself out trying to keep everyone else warm.

tagged by : @colecassiidy

tagging: steal!

#✦ ( dash games || mercy ) #well fuck okay

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cattell 16 factor test.

MAX -

Warmth ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% ( supportive, comforting )

Intellect ||||||||||||||| 46% ( instinctive, unstable )

Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 42% ( irritable, moody )

Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 58% ( controlling, tough )

Liveliness ||||||||| 30% ( somber, restrained )

Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||| 58% ( conforming, traditional )

Social Assertiveness ||||||||| 26% ( shy, withdrawn )

Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 54% ( touchy, soft )

Paranoia ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% ( wary, suspicious )

Abstractness |||||||||||||||||| 54% ( strange, imaginative )

Introversion |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% ( private, quiet )

Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% ( fearful, self-doubting )

Openmindedness |||||||||||| 38% ( closeminded, set-in-ways )

Independence |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% ( outgoing, social )

Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||| 54% ( orderly, thorough )

Tension ||||||||||||||| 46% ( relaxed, cool )

JONES -

Warmth ||||||||| 26% ( cold, selfish )

Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% ( cerebral, analytical )

Emotional Stability |||||| 18% ( irritable, moody )

Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% ( controlling, tough )

Liveliness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% ( wild, fun loving )

Dutifulness ||||||||| 30% ( untraditional, rebellious )

Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% ( uninhibited, bold )

Sensitivity ||||||||||||||| 50% ( fuckhgsjkdfngh )

Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% ( wary, suspicious )

Abstractness ||||||||| 30% ( practical, regular )

Introversion |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% ( private, quiet )

Anxiety ||||||||| 26% ( confident, self assured )

Openmindedness ||||||||||||||| 42% ( closeminded, set-in-ways )

Independence |||||||||||||||||| 54% ( loner, craves solitude )

Perfectionism ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% ( orderly, thorough )

Tension ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% ( stressed, unsatisfied )

tagged by : @sindicate

tagging: @courtclover @reallifejedi / @starbornknight + anybody else who hasn't done it!

#✦ ( dash games || max ) #✦ ( dash games || jones ) #sorry they are just on the Mind rn ghkjsdf #max is really only relaxed until Bullshit happens and then he is So Fucking Stressed #I love how they're clones but also the opposite in almost every category #they drive me batty (pun intended lmao)

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Contrary to popular belief, I do not approve of senseless violence. I only approve of very sensible and rational violence, which is all the violence that my buddies and I specifically commit

#✦ ( musings || jones ) #gOD

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// might fuck around and satisfy jones muse by rewriting roswell from season 3 onwards.

the writers introduced such an interesting concept and possible alien world. such an interesting potential between max and jones. and just. overall a lot of interesting shit with jones. just to get rid of him so easily.

maybe it was a budget thing, or a writing thing. but they nerfed jones so much from how he's described vs. what we actually see. and not just described by himself, but by others too (nora and louise, noah sorta) so it's not just an ego thing. hell, if he was so strong that nora and louise felt they had to make a kid to kill so they could kill him by proxy, we sure as hell didn't see it.

#✦ ( ooc ) #I have a project to do rn but. I am in adhd hell #I've cornered reju in dms so many times to scream about this #bring jones back agenda :( #bonnie and clyde are fun and all so far but. #they don't hit the same #i'll have to dig up my biology ramblings because some of it is SO neat #urgh

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Jones being unprepared to come face-to-face with Max 🤭

#✦ ( self || max ) #✦ ( self || jones ) #god his face #max being so quick to jump in front of iz #and god jones looks. upset. #I have so many feelings about them

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Suffering from a vitamin kissy deficiency

#shitposting #✦ ( self || max ) #in chara maybe? #I miss him I say (can watch s4 anytime) #idk why it's so hard for me to get through

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Jones and Max both discovered their ability to heal by healing an animal.

Jones knew that his ability was dangerous, and he tried to keep it hidden, but as a child, he was extremely compassionate and hated to see anything in pain. He had the means to change it, so he did, when he thought no one was looking. After he was caught and forced to use his healing on prisoners, he blamed that compassion for his situation, and if he wanted to survive, he reasoned, he needed to get rid of it.

Max found an injured bird in their backyard, and in a panic, he healed it. Lucky for him, Isobel was the only one around to see it. He knew that he couldn't risk them getting caught, and so he did the best he could to hide all of his abilities, healing included, away. Instead of learning to control them, he did the best he could to suppress them, so he didn't put Isobel and Michael in danger, not even by accident. That didn't stop the guilt, every time he had to deal with an injured person at work. He avoids the hospital not just because of his fear of doctors, but because of the guilt over what he feels is his inaction.

#✦ ( headcanons || max ) #✦ ( headcanons || jones ) #they are going brrrr rn #they drive me u pthe wall #they are so similar and yet so so different #jones' healing destroyed him. but max not using his healing is eating him up inside. #hmgmmfg

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          𝚒'𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚕 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚒'𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚐𝚘𝚍

#✦ ( promo ) #I admire from afar and 10/10 would recommend!!!