starvinghoul

[starvinghoul]

omggg i feel so badddd i was late to my class today because i fucking over slept ughhhh i was a whole hour late because i didn’t sleep well and i set my alarm for 8am instead of 8pm

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i fucking hate being sick someone save me

#ana #$elf h4rm #an0rexsick #4namia #4n4rexia #4norex1a #bul1mic #bul1m14 #edsno #eatingdisorder #tw ana diary #tw eating issues #tw ed in the tags #tw ed diet #tw ed relapse

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feeling really fucking gross rn. im trying to be 20lbs down by december 18 and idk. we’ll see if it can happen. i’ll start counting my cals seriously tomorrow and after work today imma hit the gym

#depression #ana #mia #anorexia #ednos #$elf h4rm #4norex1a #4n4rexia #4namia #an0rexsick #gross #thynspooo #thinspoo #th1n$po #th1nsp1r4t10n

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im feeling so fucking icky y’all. i don’t know how to stop eating. i wish i had the will power to starve and go to the fucking gym because i just look so fucking disgusting. i need like an ana coach or something

#ana #anorexia #anorexua #depression #suicide #suicidal #depressed #mia #bulimic #bulimia #ed #ednos #thin #self harm #hurting #cutting #worthless #dep #gross #fat #anorexic #pro ana #pro mia #ana coach

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wow hello. forgot i had this tumblr bc I've been using my anime fan account one 

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look how beautiful and fabulous they are. they’re the power couple and it’s wonderful. i’m gonna miss having something to watch on wednesday but i can’t wait for season 2 !!

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this was the BEST ENDING EVER LMG I LITERALLY DIED. THEYRE BASICALLY TOGETHER. IM SORRY IF THIS IS A SPOILER BUT OMG YASSSSS I NEED THE NEXT EPISDOE TO COME OUT PLS LET EPISODE 10 Come OUT AND THEN THEY COME OUT WITH AN ENGAGEMENT OR LORD PLSSS

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school is not suppose to make ppl like this. it used to be about learning and it's about doing well on tests and stupid shit like that. school honestly does make me feel like all of these. it literally makes me sit to my stomach. and it's so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.

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gonna do this

five word prompts

an-exotic-writer:

[inspired by this]

“actually… i just miss you.”

“alright, i’ll leave you alone.”

“and slowly… i was forgotten.”

“and then everything just disappears.”

“and where do i go?”

“anyone could tell from here.”

“are you finishing that or…?”

“are you stupid or stupid?”

“anything, just call me, okay?”

“bitch better have my money.”

“bro… that’s so… not cool…”

“but did you do it?”

“call me now. it’s urgent.”

“can’t you listen to me?”

“cross that. don’t answer that.”

“don’t even think about it.”

“don’t you dare walk away.”

“do it. i dare you.”

“did you think i forgot?”

“eventually… you just move on.”

“even if you still do.”

“everything will fall into place.”

“fight me, you attractive stranger.”

“for once, i need you.”

“for once… i was right.”

“for once… i was wrong.”

“forget i even asked you.”

“forget it. you fucking suck.”

“fuck’s sake, what’s your problem?”

“fuck off. i mean it.”

“give and take. that’s life.”

“great. perfect. nice. fuck this.”

“have you lost your mind?”

“hello? it’s me. i was-”

“hey… that wasn’t so nice.”

“here’s a glass of whatever.”

“how about a hug, hm?”

“how about you make me?”

“i haven’t forgot you yet.”

“i can’t be around you.”

“i don’t need you, really.”

“i don’t need this now.”

“is this your first time?”

“it’s just a cut, really.”

“it wasn’t me, i swear!”

“i said i love you.”

“just don’t fuck it up.”

“just… come back alive, okay?”

“just make sure you’ve eaten.”

“kick his ass for me.”

“killed him? wait, what, literally?”

“life really sucks. feel better.”

“letting go hurts… a lot.”

“let me live, will you?”

“no, i don’t need you.”

“nothing can hurt me now.”

“nothing matters anymore to me.”

“okay it was me… so?”

“people lie all the time.”

“pipe the fuck down, asshole.”

“please, you can’t die now.”

“please don’t leave me alone.”

“quiet. they can hear us.”

“quick! give me your phone!”

“quicker, you freaking piece of-”

“quit it or i’ll bite.”

“quit staring! they’ll notice us!”

“really? do i look stupid?”

“real smooth, tripping over air.”

“rise and shine, sweet thing.”

“rise and fucking shine, motherfucker.”

“seriously? give me a break.”

“so… what are we now?”

“so… did you miss me?”

“so… can we go eat?”

“so… when’s the next flight?”

“so… how did everything go?”

“sometimes, i wish you died.”

“so what? you did it.”

“time passes slower without you.”

“then what do you suggest?”

“the fuck? who are you?”

“then you tell me why.”

“this is not working out.”

“this isn’t what i wanted.”

“this is all a fucking disaster.”

“when did it all happen?”

“who knew you’d be here?”

“why do i even bother?”

“why do i love you?”

“why didn’t you tell me?”

“you’re just… so, so stupid.”

“you can’t be here now.”

“you look like an accident.”

“you really need to go.”

“you know who to call.”

“zero fucks given. next please.”

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not gonna lie

I'm not gonna lie to you, I was obsessed with tumblr for the longest but I stopped going on it for a longtime bc I was trying to focus on myself, but I just ended up getting addicted to Instagram. but while I'm at school, I can't go on it bc they blocked insta, so I must get back on tumblr ✌🏾️

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Alive

so hey y'all. I'm back. that's right this bitch is back. I'll be posting a lot more tho I promise

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one of thos days

do you ever have one of those days where all you wanna do is cry bc it just never seems to end. it's like each second seems like a minute and it can't go by fast enough. bc same

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amen

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Books are many things: lullabies for the weary, ointment for the wounded, armour for the fearful and nests for those in need of a home

(via hplyrikz)

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lowkey

there's a lowkey rumor going around at my school that someone is bring a gun to school today. lolll nice nice nice. I swear it's not me. I may be suicidal and I may hate this school, but I'm not insane. I mean if someone were to hold a gun to my head, I wouldn't try and stop him. if they wanna shot me, then by all means they can. idk. I should stop talking

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so relatable

15257) It's really hard to recover when you still hate everything about yourself .

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I will only ever drink diet. not bc I think it'll be better for me, but bc I hate how sweet the regulars taste. idk what it is. but OH WELL 😂 I've got multiple ones in the fridge bc free country✌🏽️