#[ again!! selfish man!!!

[majimasleftasscheek]

hi I’m upset again

#oof ouchie oof #kiryu not dealing with shit again the sequel #part of me knows kiryu isn't trying to be malicious #but part of me knows that kiryu knew majima would never refuse him and any objection was just arbitrary bullshit #he's a pretty selfish guy in the sense that he thinks everyone is just okay with his decisions that override anyone else's opinion #and he has like zero capacity for self reflection lmao and when he is self aware he just doesn't follow thru #man talks about responsibility as if he knows what that means #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #my art

[dollsuguru]

gojo writers i now Formally understand the joy you all feel when writing about him

#truly. satoru always has Endured every single waking moment of his life #having someone recognize that and NOT fault him for it??? it’s not only what he needs but what he DESERVES #i’m just waxing poetic abt everything i admire about satoru like he really is my favorite man ever #he’s so cool to me i just think he’s the best lil guy out there #and i like the idea of his selfishness/selflessness #bc i think it’s a real fine line and idk if i WOULD call him selfless but then honestly sometimes i would absolutely call him that #he’s soooooooo multi faceted and people don’t give satoru the credit he deserves #he has so many amazing attributes i can’t wait to talk abt them in this fic #it’s midnight and once again my talent of willingly posting when dash is dead is a talent and also part of my charm <3 :3 #personal #snippets

[avallachs]

i’m aware i’m 100% alone in this, but i genuinely adore ascended astarion (especially when romanced) because of how—frankly—horrific it is. it’s simultaneously so cathartic in its brutality but so unsatisfying personally while managing to be narratively satisfying (just as his other outcome is, of course).

#ophelia.txt #bg3 spoilers #the way he still has the shell of his old feelings for tav mirrored in his possessiveness of them. that alone does suggest that he’d #probably not subject them to the same overt cruelty that he suffered which makes it all far more dangerous and insidious. because what #humanity—in as much as it can be called thus—remained to him is gone. what made him HIM is gone and all that remains is an incredibly #powerful being who (if you got his scene after moonrise) hates them for letting him go through with it. he has no love left in him now. #only want and resentment and possessiveness. if he loves tav it’s the possessive and selfish love a child has for a toy. but he doesn’t #even respect them. he’s too paranoid now. too drunk on the power he has from his failure to break the cycle (which he. again. resents tav #for allowing). he said right out the gates that true vampires are never created. there’s only ever a sire and a spawn. and he views tav #letting him bite them as them degrading themselves. placing themselves as lesser than him and it’s the new baseline for how he’s going to #treat them because the man they loved is effectively gone. it makes me feel so unwell. i love ascended astarion like okay king of not #breaking the cycle 🙌🙌🙌

[tacogoats]

Thinking about a Durge who has rejected Bhaal, and whatever person they used to be, but still secretly longs for their lost memories. A Durge that, despite the answers the man could give them, would never re-ignite that strange passion they were shown they once had for Gortash. A Durge that has, for all purposes to the others in their party, moved on. A Durge that, six months after that day atop the Netherbrain, at a party celebrating their new life, receives a strange letter with an even stranger gadget hidden inside.

The meeting at the inauguration was a strange one. Despite Gortash's very obvious elation at seeing what he'd called his 'dearest friend', the man had no hesitation very proudly detailing the Dark Urge's grand scheme; their grand design for the world to be.

In front of all their friends and 'new' lover, of course.

They were furious, and rightly so. Gortash must have known what he was doing. To isolate them, to bring them back to him. The person who accepted them for all they were, all they are, and all they could be - together.

It wasn't enough to win the Dark Urge back to him, and although they'd tentatively teamed up in the end - he had died. Not by the Urge's hand, but in some ways, his own. The group had left Gortash's body within the Prism, and simply moved on. There were bigger problems, and no one really was sad to see him go. Right?

The Urge remembers a letter found in Moonrise Towers. Gortash liked gadgets, according to Ketheric. Evidence was abundant enough with the Steel Watchers, among other things. The item is strangely shaped, entirely too small, and with a simple touch, comes to life.

It reminds them of the strange picture they had seen at the Iron Throne. Gortash's visage shone through a glass, moving, talking - warning them to leave. Answering them, praising them for listening.

What a strange contraption, they'd thought all those months ago.

And then, now, there he was again. A picture, in their hand. A moving picture. Speaking with his voice, wearing his weary face - so, so weary - but not the same as before.

This had passed already. The voice did not answer them this time. It was simply impossible - the man was dead, but not quite gone in this moment.

He speaks of the inauguration like it had just happened. His joy at seeing his favourite 'assassin' again, which he says with a sad smile and a moment of silence. A heavy sigh follows, rubbing at his eyes - which they can see are so much darker than they last remember.

He is tired.

Gortash speaks of their time together, before Orin - and how Orin torments him day and night now that they had both confirmed the Urge's return. She appears with their face, taunting him some days. Other days she sends assassins that wear the same, and he simply cannot let his guard down anymore. But he knew it was them that day.

They can see the exhaustion that pulls down his features, makes his words heavier. This is not the Archduke speaking to him in this moment - it is a tired, broken down man that has just seen a ghost.

Yet they cling to every word anyway, because even though this is a broken down man who is terrified of the ghost - the man still hopes the ghost will remember him, too.

They don't. But he doesn't know that, not this little picture of him, anyway.

The picture says that if they are seeing this recording, it means he is already dead - and although he had planned to sway them back to his side, he may not have been given the chance, and refuses to allow the opportunity to share what the two of them once had slip away.

He would gift unto them the memories that he could, even beyond death. The bloody ones, the happy ones, the painful ones.

And he talks, he smiles, he even cries.

And so do they.

#durgetash #dark urge x gortash #i dont usually write gushy things but i am trying to write fic of this i need to yell a bit #this has been sitting in my drafts i release it to the world now #dont look at me im cringe #i just think that my own dark urge would always long for their memories despite withers's warnings and #knows that gortash is the only person who could give it to them and selfishly sides with him because of it #and when gortash dies he knows all is lost. and accepts it. he has a new life now. its okay. (its not okay) #and when they see that funky lil thing in the letter They Know. They KNOW it's from That man #and there's a moment of hesitation as those words from withers flash in their mind again but nope fuck it. selfishness wins. #and even though the man was a monster - they were once eachother's monsters and - there are his answers. some of them anyway. #and he can finally let go of that : ) #i dont have a writing tag nor do i want one rn this is a rarity for me #bg3 epilogue spoilers #minor spoilers but still

[unlicensedinvestigator]

prince consort gerard of greenleigh, formerly a frog, and soon to be a frog again

#d20 #d20 neverafter #prince gerard of greenleigh #prince gerard #neverafter #frog man #divorcee #as i said in my wip post #I’m a total sucker for romance and I really hope he and his wife reconcile as he realizes his errors in being a supportive #selfless husband #even better I hope that Elody kills the snow queen and goes back to look for her husband #bc she genuinely cares and still loves him #but he wasn’t made for war and now they can have a candid conversation without the war in the way #anyway she sees him and what his doubt and buried self loathing and selfishness has had him become again #they talk and make up #yknow #the stuff of healthy relationship fairytales #I saw someone tag my post about them thinking Gerard would look like murph and i agree but a) let me draw this twunk in peace #and b) I will not make murph fanart. yet. maybe.

[what-do-you-mean-theyre-evil]

Imma put a leash on this bitch ISTG !!!😭😭😭

#AERIN 😭😭😭😭 #you stupid bastard #you selfish motherfucker #I'm going slap/kiss you so much when I find you again I swear to God #How DARE PB give me exactly what I asked for‚ I mean #take my man away? #y'all think 4 measley chapters is enough? #gimme back my man #I don't deserve this (yes I do) 😭 #playchoices #blades of light and shadow #aerin valleros #aerin x mc #prince aerin #bolas #bolas 2

[taikanyohou]

“Immortal Ye, you overpraise him. He is just a child. He only did what he should do. You flatter him.” WORD OF HONOR (2021). Episode 17 / Episode 32.

#word of honor #wohedit #wohdaily #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #cdramasource #cdramanet #cdramaedit #yexie #* #faiza gifs #GOD. I WANNA GO INTO THIS OKAY. #this parallel MAKES ME SO INSANE. #so like. you have zj that's just SO fucking selfish and uses xie wang as a weapon. a tool. dehumanises him. tells him he has to focus and #remain on task all that bullshit. like. he gives NO thought to xie wang and his needs and wants. #and he KNOWS xie wang LONGS for CRAVES to feel belonged and he uses that to LURE him in. gives him such a false sense of security. #rewards him like how you would clean your weapon and polish it after using it so that it's ready to be used again. #and then. AND THEN. oh OH OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. you have yexie. MY BELOVED YEXIE. #you have ye baiyi that YES may be overegging the pudding here BUT he also is a man who does not have time for small talk #he will give credit where credit is due and it doesnt make him feel any less for doling out praise when it is deserved. #and the WAY he says how the SAME THING that zj HATES in xie wang is THE SAME THING that yby praises. #like yby KNOWS just how CLEVER and SMART and GOOD xw is. how LETHAL he is. and i just think they both make SUCH a good team together. #yby doesnt dehumanise xw. doesnt strip him off his humane qualities or his wants and needs. #he recognises them he VALUES them. #and. my GOD. the LOOK on xw's FACE in both scenes. THE DIFFERENCE. #the WAY he is SO taken aback my yby PRAISING HIM in public. how zj COULD NEVER DO SO. #and even THEN zj is all 'oh immortal ye! he's just a CHILD! dont praise him so much!' like. FFS. #FFS!!!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP. SHUT UPPPPPP YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! #just bc YOU never do. just bc you dont even have the BALLS to do so. FUCK OFFFFFFFFF. #anywaaaaay YEXIE? REMAIN SUPREME THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[theradicalace]

do you ever think about how saiki is. a kid. like yeah he's 17 and if you count the time loop he's technically older but he's literally a high schooler. he is actually a kid who had insane amounts of power and responsibility thrust onto him against his will. fucks sake he literally had to Save The World on more than one occasion instead of being able to like. be a normal highschooler. MAN.

#ace rambles #disastrous life of saiki k #thinking too hard about how much it must suck tremendously to be saiki and i'm upset #he's literally such a good kid too he is so endlessly kind and repeatedly goes above and beyond when he doesn't have to #all for no recognition or credit #and yeah he can be selfish but again he is a High Schooler he is Seventeen and frankly i was worse at that age #i just #MAN #i gotta stop watching animes about teenagers i get mad about the stuff they go through

[purgetrooperfox]

I think my whole thing with rexwalker is that I think anakin is straight, but maybe he finds out rex isn't and gets curious. wants to fool around. and I think rex would fall for him, no matter how much he resents his godawful taste. and anakin would 1) be oblivious or 2) ignore it entirely for the sake of This Is Fun And Illict.

and then.

#back on my bullshit #sorry everyone. I'm thinking about star wars again #like rex knows about padme. he KNOWS. he knows there's a baby on the way. but anakin treats him like he matters #what if anakin insinuates that padme knows. what then. #what if anakin was soooooo selfish that he thought he could have it all. rex and padme and whatever he wants forever #MAN I DON'T EVEN LIKE WRITING REX BUT UM. #hhh #leo.txt

[talentforlying]

the mermaid: do you think ever really loved me? constantine: ah, now. listen, you can go back and forth about what's genuine, what's lies. none of it matters. you take it from me ... all love's magic. and all magic has a price.

behold: a guy who has been so starved of affection and approval and visible love his whole life that he takes whatever he can get when the opportunity presents itself to be loved, regardless of what it will cost him. who loves unapologetically and hard and without regret, regardless of whether it's good for him.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #i've resorted to analyzing the 2019 run to keep my sanity bc this latest issue made me BERSERK #but i think about this panel all the fucking time #i know i have true detective on the brain but i do feel like john's an optimist/romantic much in the way that rust cohle is #with a deep & painful knowledge of self and an understanding that he will inevitably close his eyes to that self if it means being loved #knowing that there is enough to love in the world to make loving worth the risk. even if you Are one of the risks #i just think. empathy and compassion in situations where you have every right to be hard and cold instead is at the heart of hellblazer #and we see some of that again in this latest issue #and yes he can be selfish and a bastard and cruel. but he tries to choose not to be and the trying is the point. #sometimes he'll fail. sometimes he won't. it's the TRYING. it's the trying even when you're scared to #am i being normal today? probably not #( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.

[scalproie]

SHUT THE FUCK UP

#HEIHACHI MISHIMA WAS AN EVIL OLD MAN WHO ONLY EVER DID ANYTHING OUT OF HIS OWN SELFISH INTEREST #HE THREW HIS FIVE YEARS OLD SON OFF A FUCKING CLIFF‼️‼️‼️ #HE HAD EVERY OPPORTUNITY TO BE BETTER AND NOT ONLY TOOK NONE BUT WILLINGFULLY WALKED INTO BEING EVIL #DONT TRY THAT SHIT WITH ME AGAIN TEKKEN #TAGGING LATER

[catboyrome]

ian clearly outlines everything all the time!!! i mean he’s literally described, in detail, what bpd is like for him from how he copes w it, to how it affects his relationships and behavior, to all the different aspects of identity and the mood swings he experiences bc of it in his music, lives, interviews, the doc, etc i mean he has talked abt it constantly and been upfront abt exactly how it is for him and ppl rly acting like ‘omg he’s actually mentally ill?? ew’ like if u dont stfu what did u think he was talking abt the last few years????

#.txt #im abt to start up again the gatekeeping rly was only half a joke #the man literally says hey this is how it can be and ppl stillll sitting out here like…… #what did u think he was talking abt #why are so many dpr fans selfish assholes????

[criticallyacclaimedstranger]

Sometimes I am so sad and tired of always fending for myself, of never having that special person who sees me for who I am, and doesn't judge or hate me for it, who loves me and just takes care of me.

Then I look around me, and I see the disasters that my friends are stuck with.

And then I'm happy again that I only date fictional men.

#especially one is right now stuck with the most useless selfish man #they have a kid and she wants more #like WHY #why do you put up with his absolute bullshit and also want to PROCREATE WITH HIM - AGAIN??

[nobodieshero-main]

playing around with one of the final scenes, not because i'm anywhere close to it but bc i enjoy exploring the idea of Keika not just losing a bit of himself, but actively giving it up just because Atlas asked it of him.

#especially knowing that this moment is one that haunts atlas for the rest of his life #he's not thinking of the long term consequences in the moment #he's just thinking that something needs to be done and he can't do it anymore #and cecily can't do it because she's trying to keep atlas from dying #and ahria can't do it because she's trying to keep ALL OF THEM from dying #so the natural conclusion was to ask keika. because someone had to do it and why not pit the most powerful of them against the dragon?? #never mind the fact that keika has never taken a life with his own hands. never mind the fact that keika has only ever killed in defence. #but later. when it's quiet and keika is gone and atlas is at home in his childhood bed he will wallow in his self-loathing #for having done something so cruel to the man he loves. for having made his last moments /torment/ #for having sent him to his death #and then when he finds out keika is alive? alive and changed beyond measure? it's worse because he still killed him didn't he? #AND THEN HE DOES IT AGAIN- #but yeah a probably-not-that-subtle part of keika's character is his habit of living for other people? #like. if he loves you enough all you have to do is call and he'd drop everything to be there #it's not that he's a pushover or can't live just for himself (he's a selfish person) it's just. to him it's the simplest thing in the world #to give what he can when the right people ask it of him. #anyway #the library keeper #snippets

[lostlegendaerie]

problematic fanfic 🤝 original novel

"I care so much about this and cannot discuss it with anyone"

#actually had a cry about this earlier! #mighta also been having to spend all day undoing last weeks work on my Topaz cosplay #and being super overwhelmed (again!) about all the work I need to get done #but man. I love both stories. I love the themes and the characters and I'm making progress #but I'm not. good at working alone. writing for myself #doing ANYTHING for myself bc 1) I was always told that was selfish and 2) I don't know who I am or what I want #anyway I hope people read this fanfic. I hope I don't drop it #I hope I can keep going even when it's hard #but the suicidal thoughts are back and I just. don't want to do anything anymore

[pharawee]

I'm not ready to say goodbye to Haii and Title as Cir and Phu. It's who I saw before my inner eye when I first read The Boy Next World and in my mind they're inextricably linked to the characters. They're such a good fit amd it'll be so hard to unsee them 😭😭😭

#jane watches stuff #the cast hasn't been announced but the writing's on the wall at this point #plus haiititle never stood a chance anyway #i'm really not opposed to bossnoeul #and i get why mame is double casting now #it just makes sense from a marketing perspective #but still #i don't like it for entirely selfish reasons #it's literally a me problem #plus there's this fear that who cir and phu are as (unique) characters will become irrelevant because of bossnoeul's popularity #then again i guess it's mame's characters and she can do what she wants with them #old man yells at cloud