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brooklynislandgirl · 3 years

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Beth and UARF!Billy - ❤♡❥ღ💕💘💝💓💌💟💙💚💜💛

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Five A.M.

Beth’s barely awake as she comes into the office, coffee in hand, only to come face to face with the widest grin she has ever seen on Hal Gates’ face. Dark eyes dancing, he relieves her of her thermos cup, takes both her arms in his hands, and swing-dances her around the cramped space where they work.

“We’ve done it, girl!”

Though abjectly confused, Beth can’t help but grin in return. “Wha’ve we done?” She wants to be just as thrilled, wants to share in the old man’s joy. “We’ve got data on white pointer mating! I’m running the compile now, we should be able to parse it and watch the video footage within an hour or two!”

She’s floored.

The shock is clear on her face, even her mouth drops open a little. Often bandied about as the Holy Grail of marine biology, great-white mating is known to exist. Despite decades of research into the habits of the species, that particular bit of knowledge has eluded marine biologists.

“Wha...? How?”

“Mate of mine, Crawford down in New Zealand has taken a fisherman’s eye-witness account on our elusive little friends, and shared video. Crawford sent me all of the data.”

“Oh, Hal.”

Dr Gates nods at her eagerly and once again promenades her around some tables, brushing past a stack of hastily shoved aside folders with charts of migration patterns, weather reports, and feeding data. Then, far more carefully, he hands her into a seat and plops down into an office chair, slapping his knees in pleasure and pride.

“Speaking of mating rituals...”

Beth laughs but blushes at the same time, eyes askance. She suddenly knows what he’s going to ask, or at least of whom.

“...And since we have so little to do until all the research is collated and complied...”

“Must we?”

“No finer time, girl.”

She holds her hands up to stave him off until she gets up, crosses the room and takes a sip of her coffee. Not exactly how she wanted to start the day, but there’s no real reason not to humour her mentor.

“Have at, den.”

“Excellent.” Hal Gates really is an inveterate old gossip.

~*~

❤: who is more affectionate in public? in private?

Beth laughs. Okay, so this isn’t really so bad. “I t’ink I gotta say...I’m more affectionate in public. Mos’ of da time, Doctah Manderly... just doesn’t know what t’ do. Very stiff, hands in his pockets or stand at parade rest.”

The last cocktail party had been a half disaster, between trying to get William to mingle with the public attendees and not leave to check on his seals at first opportunity. The one time he surprised her was when he put a hand on the small of her back though the illusion was broken when she found that the six-foot-six man was trying to ultimately hide behind her. No amount of mock-tails were going to spare him any acute discomfort.

“Probably for da best. No offence, but he’s very definitely...ah....British.”

“None taken.” Hal offers her a wink and taps the side of his nose.

“But even behind close doors? He just... lil uptight, I guess. I sometimes wonder if mebbe he’s worried about havin’ an episode, and some affections are difficult when you have a service dog nearly t’ree-quarters ya size intent on doin’ her job, but I’d say he at least tries when it jus’ da two of us. Fingahs in my hair, brush against my arm. Da kine.”

Hal nods, knowing the specifics without having to drag them out of her.

♡: who is the bigger romantic openly? secretly?

"I t’ink,” she begins, carefully considering this one. “Dat anyone who loves da sea so much dat dey would give up a whole life to dedicate demself to it...got a big romantic soul. What is da ocean, if not love an’ life, an’ all dat we dream of in songs an’ poetry? I only t’ink it’s harder for him to express dat because well..”

She makes a dismissive gesture.

It isn’t that he grasps the concepts of language and expression, they’ve certainly entertained passionate arguments, verbal jousts that have filled the air with sign and countersign.

“Romantically speakin’ I jus’ don’ see him as da type dat I’m gonna find outside my window wi’ an ole boom box, playing In Ya Eyes by Petah Gabriel, ya know? But I also don’t believe he wouldn’t t’ink about it. So secretly? Him. Openly, me.”

❥: who is more likely to plan something big for valentine's day?

“Honestly, Hal...I’d have t’ say him. He’s a planner. Wants every detail to be perfect, will second guess himself a hundred times jus’ to make sure dere no wrinkle in the research. Me? Always been da spontaneous kine, except when it came to really wantin’ to work wit’ you.”

Hal pats her lap, his face soft.

ღ: who is more likely to initiate hand-holding in public?

“Again, it would be William. I don’ know wha’ he’s t’inkin’ a lot of da time, if he’s even aware dat I am dere sometimes. An’ I don’ really wanna make a big deal about it, don’ wanna ovahstep. For me, it’s a much more difficult proposition, is like...touch is where I’m most comfortable, outside of typing endless notes or readin’ data.”

She nods toward the words scrolling along the screen. She fully disclosed her disabilities when she applied for the position so thankfully she doesn’t have to explain now. Most of the other people at the facility don’t even really notice. Except for maybe Ben who sees too much and maybe says too little. That’s to be expected though when you gather a bunch of scientists and stick them in one beautiful place.

“You want him to initiate more, don’t you?”

“I would, yeah. But dere always more important kine and so really guess it nevah really matter.”

💕: who is more likely to make huge declarations of love in front of other people?

“Fair question an’ I guess dat would be me. We...we agreed not to make a big t’ing about any of dis, you know how quirky everyone here is, an’ in case it doesn’t work out, we don’ want da kine t’ get weird. Especially wi’ James an’ Miranda. So if somet’ing like dis were t’ happen it’s probably because he push all my buttons an’ my tempah got da best of me, right? Could see it happenin’ over breakfast. On da beach. Mebbe by da pools.”

Which is why she tries so hard to keep her passions in check. She doesn’t want to blurt out anything that can’t be taken back.

💘: who developed a crush on the other first?

“Couldn’t say,” and in those two words it is the breadth and depth of her honesty. Beth doesn’t have crushes in the same way most people do. She’s never seen anyone and instantly found herself immersed in fantasies, desires, a desperate need to be around them. She might find someone intellectually stimulating and enjoy the conversation. She might notice that something about them calls to her artist’s eye and be aesthetically pleasing in its symmetry, someone might make her laugh but she doesn’t dwell. And by the time there is the first inkling that she might want more out of a situation or relationship, she’s already become close friends. Or she watches as that object of her affection drifts beyond reach and she tells herself she’s happy because they clearly needed something more than she’s even capable of giving.

And sometimes, Beth wonders if she isn’t really broken or damaged in some way. Because she can’t even say she ever had a crush on Billy. She doesn’t know that she can say she has any expectations other than they look good together on paper, and it’s been drilled into her since birth that appearances *do* matter. “Mo’beddah you should ask him.” Gates doesn’t say anything, he only nods.

💝: who spends more time (possibly overthinking) what presents to get the other?

“William. For same-same reasons as Valentines Day, an’ da need for everyt’ing to be as exactin’ as he can make it. Like, how hard and how long it take him to find...or more likely, *breed* dem two purple neocardinas in my office?” Shrimp like the two in her tank, deliriously happy and spoiled and free of predators, are rare in size and colour, and yet… there they are. Then there’s the allegorical evidence of his severe and frothing dislike of mass consumption marketing, the complete commercialisation of every secular and religious holiday, the pastiche of feelings tacked on almost like an afterthought.

💓: who initiates most physical contact?

Beth hesitates. That’s slightly more personal than the other questions so far and truth be told she’s a little ashamed of having to answer without specific parameters. But it is a question, and she did agree to answer them with the same honesty as she offers Hal in all their other work and conversations. “I’ve always done well wi’ sensory input dat was based in kine oddah dan auditory. Smell, taste, seeing… but of alla dem, touch has always been important to me. Textures, near imperceptible data processed t’rough skin. An’ I guess dat I use dat wi’ him. Way to express ideas or sensations dat might not come across ordinarily. Enthusiasm, excitement, humour, rage, disappointment. I wan him to feel an’ understand when I don’ have da words in me, or know how to express. A lot of da time, it’s accidental or at least….subconscious.” A beat goes by. “I don’t believe he really cares much for it.”

💌: who is more likely to send cutesy texts to the other?

This one is hard for her to answer because they aren’t really cutesy text people. Most of their days are too filled with very real world drama, service to the greater good, the understanding and conservation of the most vulnerable environments and animals within. There’s weather, there’s reports, there’s an entire litany of experiences that don’t leave much time to play around until well after hours when they can finally seek well deserved liberty. However, Billy does sometimes send her pictures of the seals doing very cute seal things, or Annie shepherding him and his charges with the boss-vibes of the Queen Mother. In the end she only offers her mentor a smile and a shrug.

💟: who spends time reading their zodiac compatibilities?

“Oh absolutely I do. Find da whole pseudo-science of it fascinatin’, especially when da stars are not in da same position as dey were when it was invented an’ da psychological impact it has on our species is jus’ totally wild, you know?”

Beth knows that she’s the textbook definition of a Cancerian woman, and Billy does a good job providing a counter-argument on being a Libra. Further there’s a bit of an annoyance factor; he thinks junk science ‘belongs in the bottom of the bin with the rest of the rubbish.’ And he has a point, to some extent, even if she doesn’t agree with him. Not everything can be cold facts and numbers. Sometimes a little playfulness was in order and he absolutely needed to be reminded of that.

Hal laughs and shakes his head. “You’re going to do my chart then, aren’t you?” “Wit’out a doubt, Doctah Gates.” She wiggles her brows.

💙: who is more protective?

“I think objectively, I am. You know William’s troubles, and I have to keep them all in mind dough it’s not like he can forget dem, right? Some of his facts aren’t… I’ve consulted with some medical doctors and if we are careful, dere’s a lot he can experience dat he sees out of reach but I don’ like bringing dem up because I don’ want to agitate him. Only can lead t’ problems.” She does wish though that he’d trust her a little more, that he’d let go of some of his well deserved fears. That he’d let himself out of his shell and accept that even with limitations he can do many of the same things as the rest of the group does. But he seems content enough to hang back, ever the observer. And she doesn’t know if it’s her place to try to drag him into things though she might be better at it than anyone else. Miranda has told her as much.

💚: who tends to get sick more often? who is better at taking care of the other?

Hal’s question is really a continuation of the previous one and once again she has to call Billy out on it. Because she’s never really been sick a day in her life, not since early childhood and the culmination of that was the test bite that nearly lost her the leg she keeps tucked away, hidden out of sight whenever possible. “Dat seems a small kine ingenious, he no can help his seizure disorder. An’ I feel like he really ought to have a good psychologist. I t’ink some t’erapy would do him good. Spends too much time in his own head an’ mebbe not enough taking charge of his life. I know he can be afraid of lots of t’ings but it nevah really *has* to be dat way. But I also don’ wanna push him, for same-same reasons I mention before. You can lead a shark to chum but no can make him frenzy, know what I mean?” The analogy is silly. Billy wants so much more than what he feels he has. And a darker current in the back of her mind wonders if they would still be the same if he felt he could reasonably have them. That feels so selfish and toxic and she really has no place casting judgement on him when maybe she’s no better off than he is, only expressing it differently.

💜: who said "i love you" first? or, if neither has said it yet, who is more likely to say it first?

It’s strange how perceptive he is and goes in for the killing bite. The honest truth is that neither one has said it. And neither one likely will. Billy has layers of guilt and trauma, has beliefs that she cannot get a single foothold to try and tear apart. He doesn’t feel deserving of such a finer emotion. And Beth? She has her own reasons. She doesn’t even know if love is a thing that exists or if it’s some fairy-tale people tell themselves to make it easier to get by. She believes in affection, and she believes that people bond the same way packs and pods and herds do. But she feels the concept of love is poisonous. Ruinous in the way it can destroy someone from the inside out. And how any time she’s ever thought she’d felt it, it was ripped out from her grasp. She won’t say it. She won’t hear it.

She doesn’t answer him immediately, but instead gets up and paces away, appearing as though she’s checking on some of the cameras situated around the bay. The wall that she’d left down for Hal goes back up, slamming into place.

“Research from both psychology and neurology fields have found that there are twelve different areas of the brain that light up and work together when two people are attracted to one another, releasing chemicals like dopamine, adrenaline, oxytocin and vasopression. All the symptoms people experience are simply animal-instincts provided to guarantee that we as a species survive by either wanting to mate, or flee.”

💛: who believes in soulmates?

And Gates understands he’s made an error in judgement, though he’d only been trying to be helpful in a meddling kind of way. Anyone at the facility could see that Billy and Beth were two sides of a very quirky but ultimately needed coin. That they’d both changed each other in the two years she’d been a research fellow, and how they’d both blossomed for it. Well, anyone but the two of them. And this had seemed like such a good idea at first, tied into shark mating habits which he’d hoped she’d take better than she is.

Her answers have thus far matched up quite nicely with the boy’s.

Sadly, especially this one. She doesn’t turn to look at him. “There are no such things, Doctor Gates. And even if there were, statistically it would be almost impossible to meet a soul mate. Within the same general age group there are about a half a billion potential companions all over the world. One would have to travel the entirety of the world, every remote pocket of the planet. Secondly, there’s no scientific proof that souls even exist, and enough studies across various disciplines to prove that they don’t. Believing in such nonsense only makes a person unhappy. And all that aside, most mammals are not biologically programmed for monogamy and I doubt human beings are either.” Because if they were, why would anyone leave someone they claimed to love?

#Mahalo!Crow <3333 #A Star to Sail Her By|Doctor William Manderly #No Man's Land|Billy and Beth #Urca Aquarium and Research Facility #Aloha'aina|Hawai'i

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psychicadviceus · 7 years

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Astrology for Taurus Children

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Astrology for Taurus Children

The solar graph for Taurus kids is valuable for parents. They could observe the energies which the child is drawn to based on the joys of this Astrological Matrix from the skies. They could then assist plan their life in accordance with their strengths and assist them with their flaws.

A solar graph is a wheel graph the same as a natal chart just the 12 homes are split evenly across the wheel.

Moving round the wheel CCW from left to right we’ve got the very first home on the left hand horizon along with most of the others follow in exactly the exact same sequence.

A Taurus Astrological Solar Chart includes Taurus from the first home.

This Taurus Astrological Solar Chart is a celestial pattern that resides in the Quantum Ocean (Mind of God) and also its energy structure will be the energy architecture for many dwelling Taurus kids.

If you like a parent listen to those energy constructions compared to your little one needs to have a reasonably eloquent life and meet their destiny (why they had been born to you personally and exactly what they came to perform).

Should you dismiss these energy routines and attempt to care for your child like an Aquarius or a Leo, they then may meet with problems rather than meet their destinies.

Their home of Character. This provides them the power for bringing riches, relaxing and aesthetically pleasing environment. Help them to dress and look the part.

This provides them the ability of a fine brain and talking ability. They will most readily earn their money by using their thoughts, writing and talking. Assist them ancient.

The home Communications. Ruled from the MOON. Their address and speak is going to have an emotional taste like a poet or even a Mystic. Educate them poetry early.

The home of the House. Ruled by Sunlight. This provides them the energy present of amazing imagination and the capacity to have fun and enjoy during their lifetime. Make their room glowing The Sun will always glow.

House of the Creativity. This provides them the joys of an extremely great creative thoughts. Start them reading and writing premature.

This provides them very elegant energies. See their nervous system. Harmony in any way times. They’ll understand how to use colour, scents, flowers, etc to cure. Beauty is important to their wellbeing.

The provides them the ability of knowing the transformational purpose of relationships. They’ll understand how to attract all connections to a higher spiritual level. Be frank together.

House of Death, Sex and Other Peoples Money. Ruled by JUPITER. This provides them the ability to get a broad comprehension of Death, Sex and Cash. Don’t fill their minds with dogma. Let them soar.

NINTH HOUSE CAPRICORN. House of Spiritual Growth. Ruled by SATURN. This gives them the ability to construct a strong comprehension of religious matters. Current them with a potpourri of religious subjects and allow them to select.

TENTH HOUSE FRIENDSHIPS. House of Career. Ruled by AQUARIUS. This provides them the energies for bringing friends from all walks of life. They can build a nice career in the Aquarian Age businesses, Internet, Quantum Physics, Astrology. Working together with buddies will be significant. Do not look askance at the many kinds of friends they could bring.

ELEVENTH HOUSE PISCES. House of Friendships. This gives them the ability to draw in elderly people, poets, mystics and musicians to telephone friends. Assist them within this region.

TWELFTH HOUSE ARIES. The House of Inspiration. Ruled by MARS. They’ll be a fantastic aid in inspiring those around them They’ll get inspiration by studying and meeting those that are heroines and heroes. Bring them to them.

TAURUS CHARACTERISTICS

Taurus is an earth sign.

Taurus is the Indication of the Bull.

Friday (Freya’s day) is the lucky day of this week.

Earth tones, orange, green, crimson are their colours.

GEMS; Coral, emerald.

METAL: Copper

SCENTS: Bitter almond, rose vanilla, violet

The should prevent rigid ism, stubbornness, trend of being possessive and materialistic.

Their compatible signs are Virgo and Capricorn.

Incompatible signals are Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius.

They want comfort, material simplicity, wealth.

The quality they want most for equilibrium is flexibility.

Their strongest concessions are endurance, endurance, patience, and stability, a harmonious mood.

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lostedges · 4 years

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To begin with I think about what aspects of painting are unique to painting. Painting today is situated within a framework of ‘Art’ that in some respects looks at painting askance. If I’m not to work with an anachronistic safety-net, I must consider what painting is. The

possibilities available to the would-be painter today, are as open as perhaps they have ever been. Barry Schwabsky (2002), in his preface to ‘Vitamin P’, a survey of contemporary painting, puts it this way

“Today an introduction to contemporary painting no longer forms a chapter in the chronicle of successive movements any more than it charts a geography of adjacent schools. Positions are now multiple, simultaneous and decentred” p.09

In a critical environment where there are no grand narratives, no requirement to hold a firm location within practice, I am obliged to seek my own exigencies within painting. How do I navigate? What interests me in painting?

I am interested in painting as a physical practice. The making of a single, unique object. A thing that contains within its boundaries the traces of its making. Amongst the many ways that painting has developed in the twentieth and twenty-first Centuries, it has shifted in relation to perhaps three influences. Firstly, throughout this period, representation has become ubiquitous, through television, through photography. The development of painting has been influenced by its relation to lens-based imaging. With the proliferation of lens-image, painters have sought to establish territory for painting, that is either more distinctively paint-like, unlike photography, or that converses with the conventions and potential contained within the photographic image. This has led to the amplification within painting of particular aspects of painting – of colour, of surface, of the materiality of paint, separated from representation of figures or physical space. It has also led to photorealism, with paint mimicking or seeking to intensify the representational, and inherent conceptual properties, of the photograph.

Painting has also developed in relation to two other cultural forces which could be considered to be interlinked – the foregrounding in Art of the ‘concept’ over an artist’s traditional relationships with the aesthetics of making, and the elevation of the critic and dealer, when establishing terms of consensus under which ‘Art’ is made. Between wrestling with the photograph and the concept in Postmodernism, for many artists, even painters, the last sixty years of Art have been the history of not-painting.

I want to paint earnestly and sincerely, from inside the suit of armour, rather than from a detached position. I am interested in physical painting, which separates painting from the mechanised smoothness of photographic emulsion, or the screen of the smartphone. Painting

that is a physical encounter, not immediately mediated by reproduction. I am interested in painting as a vessel for containing a sense of time. I am interested in painting as a process of self-enlightenment, rather than as a commercial pursuit, or quest for celebrity. These elements provide structure for the discussion ahead, but to talk about painting is to talk between these forms. Painting remains an holistic practice, reconciling the mind and the body, the intellect and sense: observation of the perceived world, with interiority of dream and imagination. It is perhaps uniquely situated as a human activity, bringing together the vision of the eyes and interior vision. As a living continuum of practice, painting continues to test boundaries, offering aesthetic counterpoint and intellectual challenge to Art in the larger sense, if sometimes from the periphery. I look to work along this edge, this wasteland at the outstretched arm of ‘Art’.