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Up the down way

So I once wanted to write a FFIV AU, with a very different universe and an OC Callian Jackson. here was my attempt at note taking.

Callian is here in the story as Kain and Rosa's best friend. Kain and Rosa are dating, and with Callian here, there is a different dynamic to their friendship, as Kain has two girls teaming on him to do things, and is probably not left alone to brood as often as he would like, among other things. Callian is mostly here, because Cecil was being raised elsewhere, and Callian is a girl who lost both her parents in the war, and chose to take up the way of the dark knight, and passed it, becoming good enough to be a Captain of the red wings. She is not a cannon clone of Cecil or Kain, though she may take some elements of the roles, she is ultimately her own weirdo in the story. I do not intend her to be an expy, and hopefully she does not come off as a Sue either. Cecil is still in this story, just obviously not here in Baron. He'll probably show up briefly soon. The characters will not be as you remember, because the blue planet they grew up in is not the one we are used to, and there are some odd consequences to that. The social chemistry of the world is different, and so are they.

Is a bit of a parody and an AU Alice in Wonderland style, in that the characters can be downright odd.

Plot: When Callian Jackson's invasion of Mysidia goes wrong, she is sent to be a delivery person as atonement. Callians invasion likely went wrong because of a stray berserk spell, and her soldier's went nuts on the people. Never less, a good commander should rise above that, and accomplish the mission, keep the men's respect. Kain, wondering what Rosa was talking about, Comes into the room to ask, and ends up getting sent alongside Callian to Mist. ---

The scene starts with Callin quietly but furiously questioning her men, and her men too ashamed to say anything to her, beyond monster warnings. She begins, quietly, and intensely angry, getting details about the mission , until a monster attack distracts her, much to their relief. To the king, she is quietly upset, trying to hold her temper. Kain wanders into the room, and gets sent along. She does let it out when Rosa comes to her room, as Rosa often serves as an outlet.

Differences from IV: Kain is dating Rosa, and is not nearly as broody or secretive in part to having two woman who would pester him if he was off. Rosa is a lot more outspoken, and has Scrying abilities, as well as being Paranoid of Troians. Callian had a crush on Kain, but when Rosa asked him out, they talked about it, and Calians happy for them. I think in the original, Cecil was a peacemaker who asked Rosa to leave Kain alone,even when he deserved a chewing out.

Day two: They leave the castle with a feeling of Destiny in their hearts. At Baron, Calian goes and finds stuff with "treasure hunter senses", and Kain goes to buy supplies, (bartering , an act learned from Rosa). While Kain contemplates sporks, he runs into fan-girls and an eager dancer, and helps Calian take a tent from a river when he jumps. Once out of Town, the two decide to train like mad, then ride the Chocobos to the mountain , so they go south. They earn goblin and cocatrice. Meanwhile, at the castle, a Scrying Rosa sees them going the wrong direction, and decides to catch up with them using many Hermes sandals, and remembering why using too many items outside of battle is bad (made her more susceptible to the illness later). Meanwhile, Callian and Kain reach the grove after fighting enough battles with goblins to win the summon , and grab Chocobos. When Rosa arrives after, she sees a black Chocobo and uses it, much to the pale haired man's upset utterances. -(Yes that is Cecil, Lol)-She flys over the mountain and lands , deciding to rest in the grasslands. Meanwhile Callain and Kain arrive at the mountains, and take a rest instead of going in and facing zombies. (Rosa tells many horror stories) They get through the cave fine, and decide to rest in the tent before entering Mist.

Day two, part two: Well rested, our hero's enter the cave and run into porcupines and the dragon of Mist. Kain is not fond of attacking Dragons, so they try to run, only to have to kill it anyways. Entering the village, bombs attack from the Carnelian Signet .Rather than Come to the logical conclusion, Callain concludes its a test and she is meant to be foiling a ninja plot , and begins shouting orders and getting people to safety "taking command" of a chaotic situation.She decides to evacuate. Following orders, Kain goes to help a little girl, who- furious her village is being invaded- summons Titan, separating Kain from Callian. Meanwhile Rosa, believing they would be taken to Kaipo until they were transferred to Fabul and shipped to Troia, wanders around outside of Kaipo, trying to find the blasted place In the desert. She runs into Tellha, who informs her she is not the Mage he's looking for.

Day three: Kain wakes up, and decides to find a place for the little girl he accidentally orphaned to sleep, and perhaps be adopted. So he goes to Kaipo, a neutral city, and more importantly, close. In the middle of the night, three Guards come for Kain and Rydia. Kain sends them away stating Calian asked him to watch this kid. The Captain then asks if Rosa was here, since she has been missing and that their purpose here was a search party. Kain offers to take over the desert search party, much to their relief, and they go. Kain is glad that encounter could be solved by negotiating, as that was one of Callins competent Captains. Meanwhile Rosa collapses at Kaipos gates.

The next day, Rydia wakes up and can't remember the attack, or what she's doing here, and asks where her mother is. Kain informs her that her mother is dead. She is quiet after that. They hear some rumors about a girl with desert fever, and some more about the prophetic chick Anna who everyone had talked about the other day when they were looking for an inn. They find Rosa and discover she was the one with desert Fever. Kain goes off to find a sand pearl, and Rydia comes with him. In fact she refuses to leave him, very assertively. Kain gets Rydia some weapons. Rydia proves competent at Healing, and distracting monsters with weak attacks for Kain to counter. They use this strategy since Kain can't jump and leave her. Beyond battle, Rydia is quiet and unobservant in terrain. Kain has to hold her hand to prevent her wandering off.

Randomly added note.(Edges difference in attitude comes from a more comprehensive training due to an attack on the palace he almost died at. He is quieter and more ninja like.)

R.A.N2(Edward is determined to get the prophet who tried to save him back! He is more determined than sad.)

R.A.N3( Palom is already a sage, spellwise. He had to learn some cure magic until someone gave Porem a cure staff. The problem with the twins is that they are five year old prodigies, who are probably pushed because of paranoia over Baron. They have some issues. Palom has high standards, is hypercritical of himself, and uses lots of false bravado. He needs the rest of the world to believe he's awesome. Porem has a terrible bedside manor, and anger management issues, so carries a cure staff, so when she hits people, it heals them. They are quite nervous about teaching her hammer style fighting, even if she might be good at it, because no cure hammer has been invented. )

RAN 3.5: (Kain has to protect them on his way up the mountains. That means covering and countering the attacks directed towards them in battle, taking breaks for them, and giving them piggybacks. He also gives Rydia piggybacks. The trip up the mountain is a long and grueling journey. PS: Write a story about Cecil and the twins climbing the mountain, frame as elders revenge)

Finally Kain and Rydia arrive at the cage and meet Tellaha.

Rn4( Tellaha can see the future. Or at least possible outcomes of the future. Kain being here, makes him realize something is different, but he can't quite remember what. He has trouble differentiating between what is a possibility and what is real, leading him to sway between right for the wrong reasons, and completely off base. He seems to believe in the original timeline at the moment, and may leave on a quest for Cecil. Tellah is also amnesic, and can not remember past Anna's eleventh birthday)

Rn4.5 (This world's Anna is kind of Joan of Arc, and Callian’s main opponent, and they will clash more throughout the fic. Callin kind of sees her as worthy adversary, and keeps her alive, but gives her to Kain so she doesnt have to explain it.)

Tellaha informs them they are late, much to their confusion, and they enter the cave. Throughout the cave, they find several potions, and pieces of dark knight armour and a sword . Kain notes he does not have to worry about getting Callin a birthday present now. Tellaha focuses on teaching Rydia thunder and ice spell words, as fire will not be very useful in an water cave. Rydia tells them the smell of smoke terrifies her.

Kain and Tellaha reconsider their plans to have goblin for dinner, in favour of smoked goblin. Then again, fire keeps away Zombies. Kain and Tellaha debate the merits of fire as they continue through the cave.

(RN5: Rosa has a crazily complex family tree that includes, but is not limited too, Tellaha &Anna, Palom&Porem& Sheila[ Yangs wife]. It debatably includes Rydia. Maybe. Callian of course has no idea of this when she sits down and tries to relate to Rosa just how odd this is.)

(RN6: Rosa hates Troians. Troia, in this universe, are the Amazonian-esque city. They are fierce magical archers who steal or entice men into their castle, in an attempt to sire strong warriors. As a magical archer (white) Rosa is often accused of being one, and has grown a tad resentful. It doesn't help that Rosas family is from Mysidia, Barons former close ally [before the attack], who is traditionally rivals with Troia. Kain has huge respect for ninjas, like Callain has for monks )

After a brief rest, Tellah attacks Kain, asking where they are, who they are, and what happened to his daughter. Kain reminds them of the current quest, and Tellah asks where Cecil is. Kain asks who Cecil is, and they continue on through the monster packed cave, to face the Octomamoth. Kain has to keep to the strategy of defending Tellaha and Rydia, and countering the monsters attacks, while Tellaha and Rydia put their lightning based attacks to good use. It's a fairly long and painful battle, but they emerge victorious. Upon exiting the cave, they see an attack on Damcyan in the distance. They go to investigate.

Upon entering Damcyan, they meet Calian at the entrance, with Anna unconscious. Tellaha is out of it. Calian asks if they have seen Rosa, as she has gone missing. Kain affirms they have, and that she has desert fever, and they need a Damcyan person to get a sand pearl. Callian tells him, that although she still feels disturbed with Baron actions of late, she's happy to report, there were fewer casualties, her men were controlled in temperament, and once the tactician was knocked out, resistance fell apart. She believes Anna may be a genius tactician, and brilliant leader.

Upon seeing the tactician Anna, Tellaha attacks Callian, accusing her of being a spooney bard who ran off with his daughter, married her without permission , and got her killed.

Callin tells Kain to keep his companions under control, and get their stories straight. She also insists to Kain she is not a lesbian, and that she better leave if he wants help from the Damcyains. Before going, she tells him she found this among Mist, and gives Kain the bomb item hoping it will be useful to him.

Kain tells Tellaha he was attacking the wrong person, and they should go inside. They see people bringing a either pot downstairs to the wounded, and begin healing them. Rydia and Tellah spend time helping with magic, and Kain uses first aid, and helps with moving people downstairs. Eventually he comes across Edward mourning his mother and father. Kain, having some tact, leaves him alone for now. Once the cleanup is done, they begin moving the bodies Kain comes up, to talk with Edward. (Rosa has had him come on talks to patients families and he and Callian have also done so to their soldiers families). Kain is still quite blunt, but has learned some thing about talking to grieving people. Sorta.

They have a talk, and he manages to convince Edward to both help them get the sand pearl, and warn Faboul, once his kingdom is better. Rosa being a healer is mentioned. Rydia has no outburst. Once a second for Edward is appointed, they go to move out. Tellah yells at Edward asking what he was doing with his eleven year old daughter, and is asked what he is talking about by Edward. The only Anna he met was the glorious savior of Damcyan.

Tellah gets mad and runs off, much to Kain and Rydias discomfort. Finally they set off for the anitolin den. Much to Kains annoyance, he is still the group shield. The Antoilon is not a difficult foe, and after many battles they earn not only the sand pearl, but the elusive rainbow jelly for Edward, who is not going to give this one to Callain.

(RN7 Callain is crazy prepared in some ways. She insists on fighting many monsters with Kain outside of town, to stock up on items & Gil harvester as an ability. She and Cid had airships capable of invading the moon, that were destroyed by the red wings, because they left them with the RW in preparation to invade the moon. She also has oddly convenient timing, and a love of training people, with a dream to fill the bestiary. She buys every weapon, shield, ect. It's why Kain had Goblin on him. )

They then battle their way out of the cave, and take the hover across the shoals. They fight a few battles and get cockatrice summon.

Rydia is pleased. Rosa is revived.

The story goes on, but I haven't moved far past that point.

So some explanations and headcanons to make sense of this verse

Baron is at war with Ebalan. The crystals being stolen and the army, and Callian’s explanation of “foiling a ninja plot” are tied to this. The war started over a catastrophic failure in marriage negotiations.

Rosa is the current heir of Baron. She is tied to the lineage of the throne through her grandmother, a princess who married a mysidian mage, who had her mother, who married a dragoon in Barron. It was a scandalous story back in the day, although it is kept on the down low now that the king has fathered no children, and they are at war. Kain is looked at as the future ruler, because of this. Politics will play a part, particularly during the Fabul castle invasion. Also Rosa needs to be depicted with more muscle please, she wields a bow for crying out loud. She should be soo buff.

There are rumors that Calian is the heir. Callian plays along with this to protect her friend.

Calian is loyal to her friends, but she is also loyal to her country and the people she leads. She is not leaving on Kain’s quest because she intends to take care of the people back home. I wanted to contrast the personal reasons of Kain being an antagonist from cannon, and avert brainwashing. She’s not as blind as she pretends to be, and comes up with some very bizarre explanations to others in the intention to subvert the malice in her orders. She won't be able to look away forever, but in the meantime she can use “alternative explanations” to do things like prevent Mist from being a genocide, or win Damcyan with less casualties ( Anna of Arc was a pretty big factor in this too). The surviving summoners will play a part later.

Who cast the Berserk spell is a small ongoing mystery. (The brainwashing is not contained to Baron)

At this point in the story, Rydia is amnesic, and I tried to include some realistic symptoms of that. She is also under the impression that Kain is her previously unmet Dad, who came for her after her mom died, and does not remember the invasion, probably the trauma from it. The “Kain is secretly my dad” is not revealed until after the Faymarch, because it had no reason to come up, and it's pretty hard to dissuade her of it after she has lived with it for years.

Oh, heres some older notes

-“Honesty, my first attempt went from crack to serious, to crack. Like at the beginning, I decided there's no way the mages should be that easy to defeat, so I decided that a berserk spell had been cast on half of both armies. Of course, it's a pretty chaotic battle between being turned into frogs or pigs , and the fire spells, the mages berserking and everything. So, Calian decides, let's complete the objective, get in, get the crystal, get out.

So once she recalls her troops, she is on the airship, and trying to figure out WTF happened. Of course back home!e, she is responsible, and the king is questioning her competence there. He sends her on a milk run to deliver this ring to some nowhere village in the mountains.

Like in canon, Kain comes along.

Rosa talks to her to try to cheer her up that night.

The next day they go to town. Kain goes shopping, and Callian goes Item hunting. When Kain runs into a crazy dancer fangirl, he jumps off a bridge and finds Calian contemplating a tent in the water.

They decide it would be better to catch a Chocobo. Of course they run into so many goblins there they find a goblin summon. (Ffiv has a ridiculously low drop rate) . Then they set up a tent outside the cave.

The next day, they face the dragon, accidentally kill the summoner. Then they find out the purpose of the ring was to summon bombs on the village. Callin interprets it weirdly...

"It is an Ebalanese ninja plot. I must do what I failed last time and take control of the situation. Command it. Kain, help me evacuate."

So, more villagers survive, but Rydia still summons Titan

The nation of Barron is being taken over by Golbez, who is also possessed. He had the king brainwashed, then disposed of and replaced, and Barron is now making war for crystals of other nations, and bombing the village of summoners, and in cannon Cecil and Kain agreed this is not the king we want to work for. Then they are separated by a magic earthquake, and end up on opposite sides of the mountain. Cecil is left caring for the child whose mother he inadvertently killed, and Kain is presumably taken back to Barron and brainwashed.

In this one , Kain will be with the kid, and Calian will be back in Barron not brainwashed, (yet,) but loyal and willing for the time. She's a capable captain, and as long as she is loyal to home, well someone needs to lead the army.

Like Cecil, she's friends with Kain and Rosa. Unlike Cecil, Kains group dynamic is changed, because I sort of get the feeling that Cecil let Kain brood too much. Like Kain and Cecil were said to be BFF\Rivals, but the game didn't really show it much. There was a love diagram with Kain crushing on Rosa, who was dating Cecil, so I get the feeling that tension was never properly talked out in Cannon, because Kain kind of behaves like a creep towards her when brainwashed, and then apparently stays on a mountain for 30 years post game. Some shit needs to be said here.

So yah, different dynamic here

So Cailan takes Cecil's role at first, being captain of the red wings, Kains Rival, and generally regarded as essential for being a knight. She worked hard to get there, and is pretty competitive. Cecil is still around, and will show up later, as a different person with different teachings.

She is loyal to her home country and her troops, and that will get her into trouble and scapegoat in the long run.”

So Cecil. Here Cecil is still a dark knight, who grew up the apprentice of the wandering dark knight whose armor we find around the game, and is mentioned in Fabul. As an apprentice to someone who the dark knight class is a family style, he has a lot more battle techniques and equipment then in game. He is investigating why there are increasingly frequent monster attacks, and trying to find out why the world is out of balance.

Edward sincerely admires Anna.

Anna and her father have hereditary clairvoyance. It takes a toll on them as they age.

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irleebird · 7 years

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33 Reasons Why I love Oscar Octavio Silva: A reason for each day since we've started officially dating on September 3rd, 2017. 💜

1. You give the most amazing hugs. They always make me feel loved and safe.

2. The adoring look you give me when I'm next to you, whether I'm sitting in the passenger seat of your car, lying by your side in bed, or just standing next to you wherever we happen to be—my heart always flutters and skips a beat.

3. You have such a warm and caring heart. I could tell from day one that when you like someone, you do/give whatever you can to make them happy. That’s a rare quality to have because humans tend to be selfish creatures, but you do so much for people without ever asking for anything in return. That’s such a beautiful trait to possess.

4. You're the most considerate individual I know. You always make sure that what you're doing is in the best interests of your loved ones.

5. You’re an incredibly thoughtful person. From remembering what my Wing Stop order is, to my favorite candy/ice cream— you never cease to amaze me by remembering the most minute details about me. Thank you for always taking the time to remember the little things about me.

6. Your willingness to try. Ever since we started talking until now, I can always feel the love/effort you've put in building our relationship. Thank you for keeping the quirky traditions we have alive, like telling me the reasons why you love me each night, always calling me whenever you have free time, and making sure I'm the last voice you hear before you go to bed. Thank you for continually making sure that things between us aren't just phases. You make keeping the love alive seem so effortless.

7. Your sense of style. I've actually noticed this about you since the first day I met you, but you have a very unique sense of style. I love the way you dress. It's minimalistic, yet edgy and unique in its own way. You know how to pair things together in a way that stands out, but is mutedly simple all at the same time.

8. Your hair. You have the softest hair that I love to play with. Not to mention your hair color is sooooooooooo freaking beautiful. It's like an ashy, soft, chestnut brown. I hope our kids are blessed with those genes from you.

9. Your eyes. That Sunday we went out on our 2nd official date, I got to steal better glances of your eyes. They're such a beautiful shade of hazel. I didn't tell you this, but when you were staring at me as we were in your Jeep, the sunlight’s rays would beam against your face, and they made your eyes sparkle and gleam the most beautiful shade of green that I've ever seen. I was silently swooning hard, thinking to myself, and wondering how did I ever get to lucky to stumble upon since an amazing, beautiful human being whom I love both inside and out.

10. Your touch. Whether I'm held by you, pressed against you, or just beside you... I feel this infinite connection when our bodies are near each other. Your touch gives me instantaneous goosebumps, that make me want to unfold and peel every layer of myself for you. I can infinitely be lost in a universe of just us two whenever I'm around you.

11. You're my Rave Bae. Honestly after locking eyes with you during Flume when Say It dropped, there was a split second when I asked myself, "Did I really meet ravebae?" To answer that question now presently: YES. You're the ravebae I've been searching for all this time. Honestly I didn't even realize that until the last day of the Forest, when I began recapping highlights of the weekend. Every good memory that I remembered/recalled somehow included you. That's when I knew... you were the Rave Bae I’ve been searching for all this time that I never in my wildest dreams, imagined existing.

12. I LOVE cuddling with you. Ever since that first night we cuddled at the Forest in Rosa and Maritsa’s tent until now— being in your arms just feels right. It was like our bodies were made and molded to fit one another. I sleep a lot better when I’m sleeping with you. Truthfully, cuddles with you are the best cuddles I’ve ever had.

13. The way you pull me in closer to you when we sleep next to each other. This reason is an extension of the last reason, but I feel like it’s noteworthy in its own right. I used to always see this action in the scenes of movies, but have never personally experienced it until I started sleeping next to you. It’s such a safe and loving feeling knowing that your body is next to mine, no matter how many times I turn and toss throughout the night. Whether I’m half asleep, or waking up in the middle of the night to turn to the other side, I love that you always shift and make sure your arms are still caressed around me.

14. Whenever we’re together, whether we’re doing something completely normal like going to the grocery store, scanning the aisles for things that we need, or next to each other, with our shoulders brushed up against one another at a festival— I feel like I can conquer the world with you. I’ve never felt so at ease and at peace with anyone else in my 24 years of life.

15. You always know the right things to do/say to make me happy, or cheer me up.

16. You truly understand the depths of my soul— the darkest realms of my mind, and the things that make me who I am, both good and bad. I’ve never had anyone analyze me so well, nor have I ever had anyone tell me that being an over-thinker was a good thing until you did. Thank you for recognizing and appreciating that quality about me. You make me feel like my anxiety isn’t an issue, but an asset.

17. You’re a good listener. I feel comfortable telling you anything and everything. I’ve never had that with anyone before. I know that I can confide in you with whatever thoughts are on my mind with no judgement whatsoever. I’ve never been so open to someone in such a short period of time. Honestly, even calling you for the first time after the Forest, and confiding in you was a huge step that I’ve never taken with anyone else before.

18. How we naturally gravitate towards each other without even trying. I noticed that after reflecting on Electric Forest. Whether we were walking from one stage to the next, or enjoying a set somehow, we managed to end up next to each other. It’s like our bodies subconsciously were telling us before we even realized that we liked each other. Body language is definitely a thing with you. I’ll always gravitate to be aligned in your orbit, babe.

19. We have the same sense of humor. When you brought up Dillon Francis’s SnapChat the first night we met, I remember thinking to myself how uncanny it was that we had so much in common. Especially during his set, when we started cracking jokes about how we were only there for Gerald, and when we started talking about Forrest Gump randomly. You secretly earned 1,000 brownie/cool points from me that night. Even now, we continually laugh at the same jokes, and honestly I think that’s been one of the best parts of our relationship.

20. WE HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON THAT IT’S KIND OF CREEPY. I thought that day when we blurted out the same thing after seeing that Finding Nemo totem in the Forest was strange, but then you completely blew my mind when we found out our parents had failed meat market businesses a couple of weeks later when we were on the phone. Like seriously, WHAT ARE THE ODDS?! I like knowing that though because it makes me realize that even though we grew up in completely different states, we somehow lived/experienced the same childhood, and come from the same socioeconomic background. We understand what the American Dream is, experienced the same hardships in life, and truly know importance of successes and failures.

21. We like the same music. Our shared taste for EDM music, a sense of inclusiveness, and love for festivals and raving, allowed for our paths to cross fatefully. We feel the same way about country music, LOL. We like the same genres and sub-genres in EDM— from Riddim, Future Bass, Trance, Dubstep, Straight Bass, Melodic, House, Deep House, Tropical House, etc. The list could go on and on, but honestly that’s pretty rare for two people to really share that much in common with each other when it comes to music. Everyone’s taste is usually very singular, but for some reason ours are so linear. Which brings me back to the previous reason, LOL we have so much in common that it’s kind of creepy. But I also love that about us.

22. You have the cutest laugh. I swear by it.

23. Your voice. Weirdly enough, the first night we met... when I started talking to you during A-trak, I noticed how warm and comforting your voice was. It made talking to you very easy. I love your voice, Senpai.

24. You’re so handsome, but you don’t even know it. Like I’ve said before, you’re the first and only person that I’ve dated, and mega-swooned over. Joseph from ARMNHMR has nothing on you. I’d pick you over him ANY DAY.

25. You truly are my Senpai. You know why. ;)

26. Your humility. I love that you’re such a humble person. You acknowledge and know what qualities you can bring to the table, but you don’t brag. I really admire that about you.

27. You’re really smart and grounded. I’ve never been able to hold such deep, intellectual conversations with anyone on the level that we have had before. We can talk about virtually anything, and you can keep up with any of the topics. I really like that. I learn new things from you as well. I feel like each day with you is one in which we’d never stop growing, and experiencing new things— I love that.

28. You use correct punctuation whenever we text/message each other. That might seem like a weird reason to someone else, but for a nerdy “Grammar Nazi” like myself, that’s a quality that I really appreciate. It shows that you not only take the time and effort to really think about what you’re saying, but there’s nothing hotter than someone who knows how to use an Oxford comma. Hehe.

29. You always make time to talk to me. I’ve never had someone do that for me before. You always call when you say that you’re going to. I really appreciate that you make the time and effort to call me, even when it’s just a brief five minute conversation while you’re on a lunch break, walking to your next class, or whenever you have a moment of free time. I really appreciate that you’re always thinking of me.

30. You make me feel secure. After my past relationships, I knew that a sense of security was one of the things I would not settle for under any circumstances. I know that I can trust you 110%, thank you for always reminding me of this when I need it... and especially in times when I don’t even ask for it. You have no idea how much weight that carries with me. It means the world, babe.

31. I can see myself marrying you, and us building a future together. I’ve never been able to picture that with anyone else before with no hesitation. But with you, it’s easy. I know that I want to build a future with you.

32. You always smell good. It makes me want to hug you all day, everyday. But I’d hug you even if you were smelly, but that’s practically impossible for you.

33. You make it so easy to love you. It’s all these reasons, and so much more that I love you. Honestly, I could keep going. If there’s one thing I’ve learned after all my trials and tribulations in life— it’s that love is, and should be, easy. Because when you know, you just know. You’d do anything and everything to fight for that person, and vice versa. You never waver. You don’t hesitate. You follow your heart blindly. Things might not be peachy all the time, but loving this person becomes even easier as the days pass because there’s always something new to learn/love them even more for. That’s how I feel about you. Honestly, I’ve been wanting to express all the reasons why I love you for so long, but whenever I’m next to you... I’m so overwhelmed with emotions that I forget what I want to say. So I’m glad that I could express it to you this time in the best way I know how— by writing. Not even all these words and sentences could capture the love that I feel for you, but it’s the closest tangible representation of such. You’re the first person that I’ve ever been able to write so freely and easily about. Thank you for being so amazingly you. I will always love you for everything that you are, everything that you’re not, and everything that you could be. Happy one month anniversary, babe. I love you, and I will forever love you infinitely, eminently, and endlessly, Oscar Octavio Silva.

With love,

Your girlfriend, Irlee Uyen Nguyen

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