#💼; solemn/gatlin

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We're finding ourselves, and by we I mean mostly Iru, indulging in an old favorite anime. I suppose you could call it a comfort, though the graphic content would make some questions what exactly is comforting about it.

It works for them, and it works for us. They are finding great joy drawing for it and listening to the soundtrack. Whether or not they find someone to re-watch it with, I believe Iru will watch it again either way. They've shown restraint in not doing so, though perhaps that is the creative itch in them that has caused such.

Or perhaps it is the frequent watching of media as of late. We have seen more movies in the past couple of weeks than we usually do in several months.

Ah, well. As long as they are enjoying themself. I will take clean up duty while they sit co-conscious. I cannot promise to ward the intrusive thoughts away, but I can make things easier by taking care of the mundane tasks required before resting.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin #It feels nice to write again.

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We're the Crescendolls Collective

Call us Crescendolls for short if you want to. They/them collectively

(It’s pronounced Crescen like crescent without the t)

System Sideblog (and vent blog but vents and rants are tagged as such)

DNI unless we're mutuals

Don't reblog our original posts please

OSDD-1b traumagenic system

Autistic depression-riddled clowns

Host: Iru/Kiyo (they/them) 🦇

Co-Host: Jeffrey (he/him) 🔪

plus a lot of others. We have a lot of fictives. please be normal about this fact.

Also, the hosts still don’t know everything about the system. We just live and learn. /ref

#♦️; notes #♠️; chatting #♣️; reblogs #♥️; our art #🎞; memories #🦇; iru #🏁; jeffrey #💼; solemn/gatlin #🍎; bradley #🔏; yuri #🥧; chara #📚; chamomile #💻; json #🧢; jared #🪡; morgana #👾; faye #🥀; thyme #🍀; klovre #🗞️; rorschach

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Also um. First time flying alone and I may be pressured into taking an air taxi with 2 layovers. Alone. On my first time.

My dad says it’s nothing to worry about but my mom doesn’t want me to do it. I am conflicted and unsure of what to do. A decision must be made fast though.

Open to advice.

#♦️; notes #🦇; iru #🧢; jared #💼; solemn/gatlin

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For those concerned, Solemn is no longer in non-fronting jail. They’re just under very strong supervision because of the shit rosa keeps pulling in headspace.

Hopefully they learned their lesson this time. They’re still being an annoyance to many in-headspace but it’s not malicious anymore. I hope. /gen

Bradley might be put in timeout though because his thoughts keep seeping to front and nobody wants to hear that shit broadcasted. /neg

#♦️; notes #🦇; iru #Also chara checked in with me last night because i overworked myself a little <3 #Thanks Chara #💼; solemn/gatlin #🍎; bradley #<- talking about them

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As I speak, Bradley and Solemn are stuck in a get-along shirt because two friends suggested it as a joke. Seb gave the okay when they refused and now the two are stuck in it.

Yes, I did get permission to call him Seb. I'm very happy upper management is being a bit more open with me lately.

#♦️; notes #🦇; iru #🍎; bradley #💼; solemn/gatlin #<- talking about them

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It is the small joys, is it not?

#💼; solemn/gatlin #♦️; notes

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I think Solemn’s trying to shield me from the thoughts to some extent, but I didn’t think that was his job to do that.

Then again, I don’t know his role. He used to be a co-host way back, but I don’t think he’s had a concrete role in a while.

#♦️; notes #🦇; iru #💼; solemn/gatlin

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The power of being a danganronpa fictive when the host is a danganronpa fan. It is astounding.

#I am not entirely danganronpa-based now but it is funny the power I hold based on kin memories alone. #The others don't really have those. But I do. #♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin

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Iru and I can take negative situations differently. In some respects, they are better than me for that. I do know they appreciate my being around at times though.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin #I am just rattling on now. I'll leave front so they can sleep. #We arranged for that to happen earlier with Thyme. #Go ahead Bradley

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I quite enjoyed playing Stardew. Also, my appearance innerworld has changed since I last fronted fully. I've grown more casual, though I do consider myself well dressed.

For those who wonder (none), I still have an accent. I still do not know why.

Gatlin feels less like a name I will be using, but I will keep it for now until I make up my mind entirely.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin

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When I draw Korekiyo Shinguji, it ends up a mix of Solemn and how I see the character. That's mainly because for at least 2 years the version of the character I drew was Solemn (because Solemn was constantly co-con/front and I thought it was just me). Now Solemn's separated a little from source, and I try to draw the character as how I see my kin, though I still incorporate a lot of Solemn's traits simply because I did for so long and I cannot separate those traits from how I draw the character at this point.

#🦇; iru #♦️; notes #isn't it cute when your system influences how you perceive a character? It's like when my external friends affect how I see a character <3 #💼; solemn/gatlin #<- talking about him. also he's floating around front I think

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Remembering that one time while watching demon slayer (before Gatlin and Solemn fused) and Gatlin saying he wants a Muzan introject because "we need more powerful people" or something like that. And I responded "NO! We do not need any more villain character introjects!" Keep in mind, Gatlin was still saying weird shit based on Geto in source.

#♦️; notes #🦇; iru #💼; solemn/gatlin #i think it's funny now

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twitter users still don't know how to use the fucking "read more" feature.

Stop putting your incessant periods.

#whoa hey solemn thanks for the big words there. #♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin #🏁; jeffrey

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It is easier to pose as the host on their main than to be myself on there. Besides, most of what I reblog on there is for them to see when they front.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin

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I am quite surprised that Iru does not kin Hajime Hinata, given certain sentiments eye has expressed.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin

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It’s interesting, being a fusion of two fictives. Technically, I am a fictive. In my own mind however, I am more disconnected from those sources than I was before. This distance helps me feel like my own person, separate from expectations set for me by my source, as well as healing from behaviors and traumas from my sources. I have more confidence in myself, I feel more comfortable in my own skin, and I feel less hurt from source events. Yes, they are still part of me, but I feel happier and better mentally and as a person.

#♦️; notes #💼; solemn/gatlin