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randomwriteronline · 1 year

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LU Skull Kid "subtly" trying to tell Sehel that Twilight has the hots for him

@requiemofthespirit

Sehel would have recognized that bone mask anywhere.

"Eu!" he greeted, hand waving out of the water. "Timade, de!"

"Timada, da pa," replied the little wooden thing standing on the platform a short swim from the beach.

"Amu se munu curana pa," the Zora pointed out.

"Curanelu pa, qece se darsalu pa."

"Lu va, lu va. Ioi felohe de."

"Feloha da."

What a weird conversation, Sehel thought: "Mafe beilce ma darse?"

"Ghe."

"Ane beilce du?"

"Ce Link dacensu, se tao pulre de."

His semi-transparent crest shot upwards; he quickly flattened it back down on his head manually, with both hands, while half of his face instantly submerged to hide the burning grey blush spreading and completely overtaking his face.

"Dacensa ce baisuse vafu," Skull Kid added nonchalantly, laying on the floating wood, blissfully unaware of the Zora's embarassment.

"Amu i mozen asvata!" Sehel stopped them with a nervous iteration of his whirlpool-sounding laugh: "I perabaroe du, tvera pulra dacensuma ane baisuma vafu!"

"Perabaroe du pa," they argued back.

"Cochure, de! Lu ane ma, dua- afernua, dua!"

"Amu basuse vafu."

"Ane qece tao tarete de?"

"Ce darsu."

At that, the Zora briefly forgot to breathe.

"Darsu?" he repeated weakly.

Skull Kid nodded: "Darsu."

"... Ane rece darsu?"

"Varenti dosomu."

It wasn't necessarily a lie, because Twilight had indeed murmured Sehel's name once or twice during particularly deep sleep, wriggling as if to hold something tighter and spasming his lips very slightly, and most importantly because as much as he denied it he really did hold a very deep fondness for the young amphibian; but Skull Kid did not know that in the traditional forklore of Terminian Zoras sleeptalking was considered to be the most honest and genuine of expressions, as well as one of the rarest; and that clear messages especially - perfectly comprehensible in comparison to incoherent babbles or confusing riddles - were believed to hold the truest thoughts of a person.

Sehel looked back to shore, where most of the Hylians were minding their business. By fatal accident, Twilight noticed him, and smiled very brightly in his direction.

The Zora waved a little, desperately hoping he was far enough for his burning grey face not to be seen.

"Dacensa ce baselu dafe," Skull Kid commented, still oblivious to the whirlwind of emotions he was unleashing onto the poor scaled boy: "Masifiu du."

"... Pei dacenselu," Sehel wheezed.

Then he submerged into the deepest part of the bay, crest finally springing upwards and face completely grey with blush, and screamed into his hands, kicking at the water like a little girl who just got her prom invitation accepted.

#sehel #skullkid #skull kid #twilight lu #linked universe #tloz #random writing #ft. my own take on terminian language :)#sehel is an original zora character from my italian zelda fic btw. hes one of lulus kids! he got all the weird genes #translations in the next tags btw!#(S) Hello! You're Timid! (SK) I'm not Timid. (S) But I don't know your name.#(SK) You don't know it because I won't tell it to you. (S) I see; I see. If you're happy. (SK) I *am* happy.#(S) Do you have something to tell me? (SK) Yes. (S) And what is that? (SK) That Link thinks you're very pretty.#(SK) I think he wants to kiss you.( S) But wait a moment! There's an abyss between thinking I'm pretty and wanting to kiss me!#(SK) There's no abyss. (S) You're stubborn! Him and me; we're - we're friends! (SK) But he wants to kiss you.#(S) And why are you so sure? (SK) Because he said it. (S) He said it? (SK) He said it. (S) ... And how did he say it? (SK) While sleeping.#(SK) I think you should kiss him. He's soft. (S) ... I'll think about it.

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blingblong55 · 4 months

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Christmas Kids-Simon "Ghost" Riley

Not a request but this idea is inspired by @suimon 's post ---- GN!Reader, platonic!relationship, fluff, comfort?, childhood best friend!Simon, civilian!reader ---- also this specific verse from christmas kids you'll change your name or change your mind / and leave this fucked up place behind / but i'll know, i'll know is SOOOOOOO childhood friends with simon coded. especially when you see him again after years and years thinking he died with his family

A/N: Simon is 35 in this and you're 34...and it might be slightly different from this idea

It's been twelve years since you last saw Simon. Two teens, Manchester and some booze. That is the last thing and place you remember from that night.

You and him met because of your mums, they went to the same schools and so did Simon and you. It was like a movie, two best friends who have known each other since birth. Now all you have of him is a faint memory. He and his family died when you were around 22. It was the news of the city.

"Mum, please tell me this is a lie," you cry and all she does is give you that look. "I'm sorry, love." The tears, the ache in the chest, it's all engraved in you.

A knock on the door at two in the morning.

"Never open the door to strangers," Simon reminds you. "But how will I know it's you?" He chuckles, "I'll use our whistle," he simply says and you nod.

A knock and a whistle at two in the morning. You go pale. No, it can't be, he– he died, he's been dead for so long. Stupid nightmare, get me out of here.

Another whistle, waiting for your response.

You whistle back and get close to the door. You can feel the presence. It's there. He's there. That kid you ran the street with, the guy who took you home after one too many drinks. The stupid jokes and the constant lessons of life. "Simon?"

"Please open, it's cold," his voice hoarse and once that door opens, a flood of memories comes through.

His face is bruised, clothes are torn, blood is on them and the faint smell of his cologne is there. The rain filled the silence of the night. Police cars are in the background and he smiles at you. Once he stepped inside, it was a new man who did it, not your Simon. this man was taller, broader, he had tattoos and well...all that blood and those bags under his eyes.

"You–you were dead, they...they recovered your body and–"

"I faked my death," he was breathless and you guided him to the stool of the kitchen.

When your mum passed away, you were 27, that is when you needed him the most. Who else to give you a shit joke if not him? And now seven years later and here you are, waiting for a shit joke.

"Your dad–"

"I know." he cuts you off. He needs no mention of that man, not ever.

"If you faked your death then, does this mean they are all still alive?"

"No, I couldn't save them," he breaks down, finally.

All this time, he played Ghost. The man, the myth and a persona that everyone saw as a tough and cold man. When he is here, in your presence, he is that 23-year-old who saw his family dead. He is the same man who cried to you. You were home to this soldier, the last home he had. You hug him and in that second, he turns into a child in need of his mummy and need of desperate comfort. For years he has been running away from the past, of that night and you.

To be in the presence of the man he is, that is fear but to be in the home of the one person who knows who he is past the mask, is a nightmare.

"I don't want to!" Simon cried to his father as he got the snake closer to him.

"Dad, stop this isn't right." The same night when he was told to laugh at a woman who had passed out on the floor.

But, you know what they say, Dead will follow, Dead won't leave, Dead won't rise, Dead and Gone all this except Simon Riley, he stays like the ghost he is. Now, he is a man who let all of his terrors catch up to him and as they haunt his head, he clings to you.

In his head, his life flashes. From laughing with Tommy, getting scared by a skull mask, running in the streets with you, leaving Manchester, joining the military, the SAS, getting SA'D, hanging by his rib, crawling from a tomb, having dead friends, having a dead family, Task Force 141 and losing himself to Makarov and now, here he is, crying in a kitchen. If only his father would see him, he'd know his son is nothing but a bastard and a coward.

"Simon?" Your voice breaks his trance and he looks up. "I'm lost, I don't know who I am anymore," he cries and in that instant, you see him. You see his past and the present. A frown forms on your lips, "What did they do to you?" your hands holding his face and all he can do is lean into that touch. "I'm dead, I'm nothing but a senseless killer," was the description he gave himself.

In the world of Simon Joseph Riley, he was nothing but a cold-blooded killer, an apparition of his old self who was only meant to kill.

As the night became morning, he said it all. From when he left to how he found himself at your door. Your heart broke more and more, he was the shell of a man. Nothing but a life of misery left in that stare he gives you. Simon knows he has nothing left for him. You on the other hand are the hidden treasure he left for when needed.

His whole life– well, ever since the death of his family, he's been running away from the shadows and now he's running away from the military. With his captain being called a general killer, his friend Soap dead, and his friend Gaz lost, you are the last thing a man like him has. Tucked in a corner, the faint of the memory, that is what he has.

"Please don't turn me in, they'll hurt me again," he cries. Those tears are not just from his current exhaustion, but from all the years he denied the feeling of regret and sadness. Sure he was forced to go to a therapist but after the first one was killed, who else could he trust?

"I'm scared, I'm so scared," he confesses and for the first time in his life, he does feel fear. He saw the shadow of fear when Soap was nearly caught and possibly killed by Shadow Company but he knows fear when all he has is you and the blood that drips from his wounds. "Simon-"

"I miss them, I miss them all, I missed you and I miss being normal," he cups your face and looks deep into your eyes. "Help me, please...I- I need to find myself again." Suddenly he was back at the park you two grew up in.

"R/N!" His eyes with tears. His father must've scared him again, you thought. "Over here, Simon!" you wave your hand and you see him sigh in relief as he runs to you. His arms wrap around you as he once more confesses how his father hurt him.

"Let's fix you up and maybe we'll head to the park," you suggest and he nods desperately. "Please, yes, let's do that."

Now, three weeks later, you find yourself hiding him from the world. Task Force 141 was deemed as a danger to others.

Simon Joseph "Ghost" Riley, is no longer a danger to himself or others. He stares at the moon as he looks out the window, your cat on his lap, purring because they both found comfort in each other. He knows he lived through it, to get to this moment and he'll do anything to finally call a place home.

A/N: Graceland Too by Phoebe Bridgers also inspired me, you can tell...

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uncloseted · 2 years

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Hey I've been following your blog for awhile and I know we're both in our late 20's. I only unfortunately recently started getting into skincare and actually wearing SPF so my skin has suffered :( Are there any skincare products to fight aging that you swear by? You have such lovely skin. Like..It's perfect. I use Aveeno SPF 30 lotion, vitamin C serum, retinol, and Cetaphil moisturizer at night. What else do you suggest, if anything? Unless you're just blessed.

First of all, thank you, that's so nice! I will say that my skin probably isn't as good as you're imagining, because when you see me I'm almost always in front of a window or a ring light and because I color filter my videos for aesthetic consistency. That said, I am into skincare and I'm totally happy to give some advice.

In general, the first thing I would say is to know your skin type and identify your skin concerns. If your skin is dry (like mine), you'll need different products from someone who's skin is oily. If your skin is sensitive, there will be products that people swear by that won't work for you. If you're looking to prevent wrinkles or treat acne, there are specific ingredients to look for in your skincare products.

Once you know your skin type, you can put together a skincare routine with your particular concerns in mind. Generally, you want a cleanser, moisturizer, and sunscreen to start with. The cleanser and moisturizer you can use in the morning and at night (unless you have dry skin, in which case, only use it at night), and sunscreen just in the morning.

SPF is the most important product for anti-aging, since a lot of visible aging is due to UV damage. Retinoids (retinol, adapalene, tretinoin) are the other ingredient family that have a lot of research backing them as anti-aging products. You have to use them consistently for 3-6 months before you'll see results. If you're going to use retinoids, sunscreen becomes doubly important because they increase your sensitivity to sun. Vitamin C has less evidence to support it as an anti-aging skincare product, but if it works for you, there's no harm in using it.

In terms of specific products, here are some things to look for and products that people typically like. If you love the products you're already using and they work for you, I wouldn't make any changes.

Cleansers:

Basically for cleansers, you're just looking for something that takes off all of the product or buildup on your face, and that doesn't make your skin feel irritated, tight, dry, or ‘squeaky clean'.

Cleansers that people typically like include: CeraVe Hydrating Cleanser, CeraVe Foaming Cleanser, Bioderma Micellar Water, e.l.f Holy hydration! Makeup melting cleansing balm, Simple Micellar Water.

Sunscreens:

Look for a sunscreen that is SPF 30+ for UVB. There are a few different ways of measuring UVA protection, but generally you want something that's labeled PPD 8+ or PA+++, PPD of 8, UVA Seal, or a Boots star rating of at least 3. If you're in the US, products labeled "broad spectrum" provide some UVA protection, but it doesn't tell you how much protection you're getting.

If you're lazy (like me), you can find a sunscreen that's also a moisturizer. Make sure that you put a lot of product on, because if you don't use enough sunscreen, you won't get the benefits.

Sunscreens that people typically like include: Nivea Sun Protect Super Water Gel, Biore UV Aqua Rich Watery Essence, Neutrogena Clear Face Break-Out Free Liquid Lotion Sunscreen, Etude House Sunprise Mild Watery Light, and Eucerin Sun Fluid Sensitive Protect.

Good sunscreens that double as moisturizers include: CeraVe Ultra Light Moisturizer, Cetaphil PRO Oil Absorbing Moisturizer, Olay Total Effects Anti-Aging Moisturizer, Olay Complete Defence Daily UV Moisturising Lotion, and CeraVe Moisturizing Lotion AM.

Moisturizers:

Look for products with occlusives, which seal in water, humectants, which attract water to the skin, and emollients, which smooth rough skin and make it flexible and soft.

Moisturizers people typically like are: Neutrogena Hydro Boost Water Gel, CosRx Advanced Snail 92 All In One Cream, CeraVe Facial Moisturizing Lotion PM, Cetaphil Moisturizing Lotion, Cetaphil Moisturizing Cream, Bioderma Sensibio Light, and the CeraVe Moisturizing Cream.

Retinoids:

Start by using a retinoid 1-2 times a week. You can increase it gradually if your skin tolerates it well, but you don't necessarily need to use it every day. Typically, retinol is a good place to start, since it's gentler than other retinoid options.

Retinols that people typically like include: Superfacialist Anti-Aging Serum (0.01%), Paula’s Choice Resist Intensive Wrinkle Repair Serum (0.1%), Paula’s Choice Resist Skin Smoothing Body Treatment (0.1%), Alpha Skincare Deep Wrinkle Repair (0.15%), SkinPrep 0.5% Retinol (0.5%), The Ordinary 0.2% Retinol, 0.5% Retinol, & 1% Retinol.

Last but not least, here are the products that I use. Like I said before, my skin is dry, and it's prone to redness if I'm not hydrating it frequently enough.

Cleanser: Bioderma Sensibio Micellar Water

Moisturizer: CosRx Advanced Snail 92 All In One Cream

SPF: CeraVe AM Facial Moisturizing Lotion with Sunscreen

I'm planning on switching out my sunscreen to the No Megumi Morning UV Protection Cream, which has higher protection (SPF 50 + / PA ++++). It's supposed to be a 5-in-1 anti-aging cream that replaces toner, serum, cream, hydrating mask, sunscreen and makeup primer, and that has 50 types of moisturizing ingredients for dry skin. I have absolutely no idea if it actually does any of those things, but I've heard great things about it as a product, so I'm excited to try it out.

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hwauas · 3 years

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🕊️: "dangerous drive"

kim hongjoong (김홍중) - 2,166 words.

the past few hours had been more animated than your entire life. and your whole life got impacted for ever.

who could have predicted this? who could have known that being here, at this moment, would change your life?

your arms were tightly holding this man, the one driving the motorcycle at high speed. your hair were flying behind you because of the speed. neither him nor you had time to put a shelter on. you had to go away. for a reason absolutely unknown to you.

the truth is that you were scared of high speeds. not all type of high speeds of course — even though you weren't really comfortable in a train, it was not a problem. no. the problem was car or motorcycle going too fast on roads. this was the real problem. this was what you were scared of. and even though you were holding tightly the man driving the motorcycle, you still were scared.

“shit, they won't leave us alone!”

you heard him screaming in anger as he sped up the pace. you tightened your hold around his waist. you didn't care if you were restraining him to breath. you needed something to hold tightly.

“there's only one way... hold on me tightly dear.~”

you cursed multiple times in your head. your eyes were already closed: you didn't want to see the whole world passing by you at a crazy speed. but you closed them harder. you were even frowning. the only things which were proving the high speed were your hair flying and the growling motor.

the man suddenly turned to leave the highway. he was slaloming between the few cars on the road. still at a high speed. you could have had a panick attack, but something was holding you back.

as if your subconscious wanted you to keep a control on yourself. or maybe... because your body loved the feeling of the adrenaline rushing through your veins? or the feeling of powerlessness you were experiencing?

you felt the motorcycle shaking a little bit more than before. and you could hear an another type of noise coming from the ground, under the wheels. quickly, the speed slowed down. and you eventually managed to open your eyes.

you were in a desolate place. the road was in fact a little path surrounded by trees here and there, and grass. a small hill was hiding you both from the main road. you heard the police cars and the sirens coming closer, and then going further to finally disappear.

this man outwitted them.

you let go of the man, and got off the motorcycle. you pushed your hair back and started to walk around to calm down.

“you're crazy! you're fucking crazy!”

you shout to him. a mix of anger and fear was growing up inside of you.

“i'm happy to meet you too.”

the man said in a sarcastic tone. he even rolled his eyes and looked away.

“what? are you kidding me? you little piece of- calm down, y/n, calm down...”

you tried to count in your head to try and call down. this man was literally playing with your nerves.

“you scared me! you took me and you forced me to sit on your motorcycle! and then, you drove like a crazy to escape the cops! i don't even know why they were following you! i literally faced one of my biggest fear while you were driving! or should i say while you were challenging your motorcycle's motor? and-”

“actually both.”

the man replied with the same sarcastic tone.

but this time, a smirk you didn't like at all was spreading over his lips. you felt like he was testing you and your patience.

“DON'T CUT ME OFF!”

you screamed in anger and came closer to him.

“and now, i'm in the ass end of nowhere because of your stupidity! and the only thing you're telling me is that you're happy to meet me?”

“damn, you're pretty savage.”

he pushed his hair back, and turned over to face you.

“i guess you would have preferred to stay there, where you could have been killed?”

you stayed quiet in front of him and his answer. you couldn't do anything. he was right.

“huh? tell me, i'm listening? or maybe the little savage girl/boy is speechless now? did she/he lose her/his tongue?”

“i'm sorry. i didn't think about that.”

you looked down to your feet, feeling a little bit sorry and awkward.

“good. i prefer that. because i don't really want innocent people to die in the middle of a gunfire.”

he sat again on his motorcycle, ready to ride away from here.

“now come and sit or i leave without you.”

you looked up to him. you were playing with your fingers, trying to control your nervousness.

“about this gunfire... why did it happen? why were you involved in this gunfire?”

“damn, we met each other not even thirty minutes ago. is it usual for you to be this.. intrusive in other's lives?”

he was looking deep into your eyes with a deadly gaze.

“for you information, mister blonde guy. i was in the middle of this gunfire too. even though i didn't choose it. so i have to know something about it!”

you tried to build you more impressive in front of him to try and have informations. but it failed.

“come. and. sit.”

to push you to come, he spinned the handle to speed up. the motor growled.

“come on an y/n. or i leave without you. last warning.”

you sprinted to sit behind him again. you didn't want to take the risk to be here, alone, without him.

“this gunfire... it's because they trapped me. these bastards.”

he waited for you to be a little more comfortable and ready, and then started to drive away.

“who?”

once again, even though he weren't driving that fast, you were holding on him tightly.

“S-SK. the mafia band. i'm sure they warned the cops i'll be here. when i saw them, i escaped. one of S-SK started the gunfire. cops heard it, and of course, they shoot back. happy to know that?”

you were daydreaming, thinking about what he just told you. you have been involved into a mafia thing. and you couldn't think properly.

you always hated this. but in an another hand, even though you've been involved in this, you've been saved by someone linked to mafia things. you were almost rethinking your opinion on this.

“y/n! you don't listen when we're talking to you?”

he even beeped to catch your attention.

“sorry! i was daydreaming.”

“no shit, Sherlock.”

the man drove into the highway again, going back to the city.

“i was asking for you address? to drive you back home?”

you nodded, and gave him your address and some indications about the surroundings to be more precise.

“thank you.. hum..?”

“Hongjoong. you're welcome.”

the ride was quiet. none of you talked. but the atmosphere was less tensed now he was less angry. you were less scared for your life to hold this tightly on him. and even his muscles felt less contracted than they were before.

when you reached the town again, Hongjoong turned and turned again in the streets, until your district. but then, you both heard voices screaming 'they're here!' and deep inside you, you knew they were talking about you.

Hongjoong sped up to try and tricked them. when you both were far enough from them, he quickly stopped the motorcycle and urged you to get off.

“come here!”

he took your hand and ran with you through the dark streets — the street lights were bright enough just to see few meters away, that's all. there was more shadow between each street lamps' light halo than light.

Hongjoong brought you into a dark alley. to be sure you would both fit in the darkness of the alley, and the shadow, he pushed you against a wall, and didn't hesitate to come against you. he was blocking you with his whole body. his arms on each side of your head. and his whole body against yours.

you felt like you were burning inside of you. even though you didn't paid too much intention of his face, you couldn't deny the fact he was charismatic. and he was now against you. was it even real? was it even the truth?

you were looking right in front of you. your eyes were wide open. you noticed his body's proportions. his large shoulders but his marked and thin waist to contrast. his developped chest: his pectorals' lines perfectly visible through his shirt, his collarbones visible through the collar. not to mention his Adam's apple on his throat.

you were in awe. and this moment could have last for hours, you wouldn't have complain. but Hongjoong went away when the footsteps were not hearable anymore.

“they're not here anymore. let's go to your place, quickly.”

he grabbed your wrist and pulled you out of the alley. you barely had time to realise what happenned, and to process where you were now. you've been just too unsettled.

you followed him. you had no other choices anyways since he was still holding your wrist. but why was he still holding your wrist? you had no idea. but you were enjoying the touch. his hold wasn't tight at all, just enough for your wrist to stay in his hand. his warmth was relaxing. and his skin felt soft.

under the armour, there was someone totally different. a tender heart and soul.

once you reached your place, he let go of your wrist, and turned over to face you.

“this is where our paths seperate.”

he put both his hands in his pockets, waiting for you to go back home so he can leave.

“i guess so...”

you looked down to your feet again. you felt nervous. should you ask why he walked you home? what his reaction would be? will it be disappointing for you?

“oh please just tell whatever you want already.”

Hongjoong sighed. he was looking at your petite form in front of him.

“but! i'm nervous! stop!”

“nervous? after you shoot at me? after you called me crazy? after you were about to call me piece of shit? nothing to be nervous of. go ahead.”

“i...”

he was right. after all, it wasn't that horrible. you handled his anger pretty well.

“i wondered why you walked me home? you could have let me come back home alone, and just.. ride your bike again to go wherever you want.”

“hmpf...”

he giggled at your question. it was cute, but you understood he was making fun of you.

“after they saw you? they would have follow you and maybe kill you. i don't wanna be linked to a murder case, if you know what i mean.”

he shrugged and looked away.

“i didn't want anything to happen to you.”

you stayed quiet. you were blushing. first, you were quite sensitive and needed nothing to blush. but with this man, it was worse. anything, absolutely anything, could get you blushing. you were just weak. and it was a fact.

“now go home. and sleep. forget about this.”

Hongjoong mentionned your front door with his chin, and walked away.

without thinking twice, you grabbed his arm. you didn't want him to go away now.

“Hongjoong!”

“hmmm?”

he turned over to look at you. he raised an eyebrow because of the surprise.

“you know the address now... can you.. pick me up.. someday..?”

your face couldn't be more red than now. even a tomato was less red than you. but hopefully, the darkness was hiding your state.

“babygirl/babyboy already like the taste of the danger i see?”

of course he would play with you. it was the perfect opportunity to satisfy his ego.

“shut up and answer.”

you were still looking away. but you were losing hope. didn't he answer because it was a no? and he didn't want to tell you? but you felt like he was the type to say the truth, no matter how hurtful it is. you were just lost and hopeless.

“i'll pick you up tomorrow at night. at 8. be ready. not a single minute more.”

he removed his arm from your hold.

“usually.. i don't like people who shoot at me, call me names, or dare to be, you know... savage. but you. it's different. you're adorable when you're angry.”

he smiled, showing off his perfect teeth.

you were too shy to answer something. and he was already leaving.

you stayed here to look at him until he disappeared in the corner of the street. you entered your own house after, and locked yourself up in it.

resting your back against your door, you sighed with a bright smile. it was a very light sigh. the one you make in happiness.

tomorrow, you'll be seeing Hongjoong. again.

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dojae-huh · 4 years

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Insider @.@ I like that you are not a typical fan account from Twitter, how you are very hmmm... Professional (?) with your observation and see them as simple humans that they are with problems and insecurities, not as knights in shining armor like 95% of fandom. You seem to be stoic but somehow carrying for them (?) Maybe I am wrong, but I get that vibe from you. (1/8)

Also, I don't think that what I'm saying is a spoiler? It's just something that I heard and/or observed by myself. Sometimes something is very obvious for someone who's living in SK for some time and also watch SM carefully. I'm an SM stan since the SuJu debut album before I even went to Korea and I like to observe them and I'm lucky enough that I met some people. About trainees. Yes, SM has a lot of them but it says nothing about quality. (2/8)

What I know it's very easy to get to SM - in most cases if the candidate is pretty and has a nice tone of voice, charisma they say yes. And there is a lot of them, and are like 80% of these 100 trainees about you could read lately. SM has a policy that says that everyone can learn and be professional if they are training hard enough. So even if the candidate can't sing, rap and dance there is always a chance that with the professional help they will be the next star. (3/8)

Rotation is big, and in one month even 20 trainees say goodbye because they can't pass the evaluation which they have once in a week most of the time, and SM welcome the same amount of new people to fill the gap. I don't even call them trainees, I prefer "almost-trainees" for them. For me, trainees are these 20 people who are working with SM for some more time. Like SMRookies. They are the closest to debut, but also the most desperate I think and other companies are using this. (4/8)

Trainee after four of five years of training is exhausted and wants only to finally debut, so when they see that in the nearest future SM won't be creating something new, or that they don't have a guaranteed position in their plans they go somewhere else, somewhere where they can be a face of the new group. When SM creates a group it's something that will be successful in the future - I can't tell about any of their groups that were a flop, even about f(x). (5/8)

They are working for years creating a concept, theme, visual and music side of the group, etc. When they finally debut them (and use their strongest and brightest gems) they are giving them some time for their promotion and rise, before they debut something new. They also at the same time searching for new potential candidates who will be the best for the next concept. (6/8)

SM must finally promote a new girl group (RV debuted six years ago) and we can expect them very soon and I think girls will be worthy of our waiting. But I don't believe in rumors about a completely new boy group. Yes, the company has already a plan for them, concept, but they are now looking for someone who will be fitting. (7/8)

Most of the best male trainees are already in NCT. For something completely new maybe they have a "core" but they must find other members. Also, they will be focusing on a new GB for the next one/two years and next year we can expect a new NCT' unit(s?).(8/8)

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Doyoung earns more than I and can list different professions in his resume without even graduating high school. Adoring his squishy cheeks is beyond my capacity. I’m a pupil of Kim Dongyoung, not a stan of Doyoung, here lays the difference, probably.

I’ve heard that SM trainees make a contract of 2 years with 2/4 year extention. So these contracts are for the core trainees?

All vocal teachers say that anyone can be taught to sing, i.e. take correct notes. For k-pop it’s often enough. As for dancing, a popular Korean choreographer said the same about dancing. I don’t know what is the opinion of dancers in general. K-pop doesn’t require emotional dancing or ability to free-style. Doyoung and Jaehyun just do the moves.

SM recruiters go to singing competitions to hunt down candidates for main vocals (Taeil, Doyoung), so they don’t rely on “anyone can sing” in earnest.

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How come it seems like lm and jds can talk more candidly about their intentions regarding other ships like allurance and even k/l but not sheith? I don't understand why they can clarify things like allurance and how it was there from the beginning or flat out state that they never intended for k/l to be a thing, but when it comes to the topic of shiro and keith they won't just clarify what they did or did not intend/want their relationship to be? I'm confused by it. :(

Ooof this is an excellent question and I suspect a complicated one.

First off, they can be candid about Allurance because 1) it’s a hetero couple (and therefore “acceptable” to executives and conservative parents) and 2) it was strongly implied and built up for almost the entirety of the series before they officially, canonically, became a couple. There’s no ambiguity there. They can be candid about kl because Allurance technically “kills” the ship by virtue of existing, but more importantly kl is the fanship that they have been directly asked about on more than one occasion and probably straight up badgered about it more times than we’re aware of. When your production studio gets blackmailed in the hopes of making k/l canon, that ship is being brought to your attention.

Also, Afterbuzz is run by kl fans who have anti-like tendencies. They angle kl questions in nearly every interview, and I was pretty miffed by the way in this interview they heavily, heavily implied that only Sheith fans hated s8 “because their ship didn’t become canon” and yet in the same breath talked about how Allurance wasn’t good and came out of nowhere (something JDS delightfully shut down). In the live chat for the recent interview, people from all ship alignments kept begging the hosts to ask about why SK’s friendship wasn’t included in the final season. In the saltiest tone you can imagine, one of the more vocal kl hosts decided to answer the question (”they helped each other grow and evolve and since they’ve done that, we don’t need to see their friendship anymore, it got lots of screentime in other seasons”) and never let the showrunners actually speak on it, instead moving swiftly to another topic that aligned more with the hosts’ own interests. It was almost like she was afraid of what the answer would be. Was she afraid they’d say “well actually, on the matter of that, Sheith was our intended endgame” or was she trying to save them from having to talk about something NDAs prevented them from talking about?

So why CAN’T they talk Sheith? I have a few theories. This gets long and a little rambly, so I’ve thrown it under a cut.

1) Don’t ask, don’t tell. Except for post-s7, the showrunners themselves have never been asked about Sheith’s relationship in an interview. I think most Sheiths were afraid of rocking the boat and potentially upending a SK endgame by drawing too much attention to it. We were/are definitely the quieter side of the primary vld ships and honestly most of us were not expecting our ship to be canon.

But vld ships and the ship wars are notorious across geekdom for vitriol and death threats, and the creators didn’t want to add any fodder to either side. In the middle of production it would have benefited no one for the EPs to say, “yeah sheith is meant to be viewed romantically” or “no, we can’t go back and change the story to make that true”. Either one would have resulted in an uptick of harassment from antis towards them, towards other fans. And nevermind the production side where DW/WEP weren’t ready for even a hint of m/m until right before s7 dropped. It was only AFTER they got the greenlight on gay Shiro that showrunners could finally be vague and say “some people will interpret [sk] as brothers, others will say it’s 100% confirmed they’re in a relationship”. Which is, in my opinion, a pretty interesting way to respond to that question. But again, if that interviewer hadn’t been brave enough to ask it, I highly doubt it’s something that the showrunners themselves would have ever brought up.

2) Sheith was actually intended to be romantic, but was blocked. We know now that Adam being greenlit as Shiro’s boyfriend happened right before (like a week or less) before s7 dropped. This was a show that had been in production for almost 4 years by this point, and the showrunners stated they picked Shiro to be their rep early on in the process. When they planted that idea in executive’s heads is anyone’s guess, as is when the proper fight for it began. I suspect their immediate team of directors, writers, and in-house producers were well aware and supportive, but kicking that up the chain was another story. I also have a suspicion that it wasn’t until season 6 was complete that the matter was brought up because greenlighting everything we got in s6 knowing Shiro was gay the whole time puts a lot of eyes on Keith.

And really, it was Keith who was the problem all along.

In every version of Voltron, Keith is the main protagonist. He’s the leader of the team, the primary “image” of Voltron, and thus, certain things about him need to be maintained. I’m not sure if this is sheer coincidence or not, but he is the only person on the team who stayed visually the same to his OG counterpart. All of the other paladins have gone from white dudes (and a white lady) to POC, or have had a genderswap. There is much debate about Keith’s race with people creating their own headcanons but ultimately Keith can pass as white. While the handbook states Lance is Cuban, Hunk is half black-half Samoan, Shiro is Japanese and even Pidge gets “Italian”, Keith is just listed as... human. Which is a surefire way to not upset fans who have HC’d him as POC while also not-NOT saying he’s white. Everybody “wins”.

In addition I’m confident a major stipulation of the OG Voltron owners (the “gatekeepers”, as a few of the VAs and the showrunners themselves have darkly alluded to) was that Keith could not be LGBT. We know now he was meant to end up with Acxa, a fact that was already obvious to many of us from their Weblum meetcute. But that relationship was never scripted.

Setting aside the fact that the OG Voltron owners (WEP) didn’t want Keith to be LGBT, I’m sure executives at Dreamworks would have struggled with the idea as well. Shiro stans can come at me all they like about this but Keith was always meant to be the primary protagonist of the show, of every version of Voltron, and making the main, masculine hero of a well-trodden, oft-rebooted franchise gay/bi would have been an ENORMOUS move for animation. Making him end up with the other main, masculine hero would have honestly broken the internet and the minds of countless conservative executives, and been a major benchmark not just for cartoons, but ALL media. Animation often trails behind TV and movies in terms of social progress because something something “protect the chillllldrennn”. And right now I’m struggling to think of a popular live action TV show, or movie, with an older audience, where the main masculine hero is lgbt, and in a relationship with the other main masculine hero. Feel free to offer me examples in replies but the fact that I’m struggling to think of anything is pretty telling. In short, if this revolutionary move still isn’t happening for the live action 13+ audience, asking for it to happen on a cartoon with a 7-11yo boy demographic is like asking for the moon. Keith couldn’t be gay, because immediately it would have been obvious to anyone that he was already very much in love with the other LGBT character on the show. Hell, it’s already pretty obvious in canon that this is the case, and dodging the question about his sexuality is dodging the confirmation that he’s in love with Shiro.

I’d like to believe that one of the solutions to the Adam Problem that was proposed was that KEITH ends up with Shiro, but they were laughed out of the office. The pair’s incredibly close bond aside, it would have been the absolute easiest fix production-wise. They already have their shared history doing most of the legwork, all that’d have to be changed is:

-adding Shiro to the L/K scene in 8x01, just sitting there as Keith encouraged Lance.-Re-recording a couple of Shiro’s lines in 8x05 to make him seem at least somewhat upset that Keith was kidnapped-Showing Keith and Shiro hanging out in the video episode. You could just use the shot of Keith and Pidge but replace Pidge with Shiro.

And the best part is, you could change just one or two of these and then do the wedding epilogue you always intended (but write something that doesn’t insist Shiro retired) but with Keith instead of Rando. Not to mention, there is a slight, slight possibility there was a S/K scene (or two) cut along the way. I strongly disagree with the theories that have floated around about the “massive edits” done to s8, but I think there could be truth to the idea that a Sheith scene was cut to make room for Crew Member, or an effort made to downplay the Sheith friendship that comes off way more intimate than any interaction Shiro has with [man]. It’s more likely that SK scenes never existed at all in this season as the showrunners had to cave to pressures to “have more action”, had no idea what to do with Shiro besides relegate him to a stiff cardboard general, and perhaps had to follow strict instructions about the kind of friendliness an out & proud gay man could show to the men he’d enjoyed good interactions with before.

All this to say, the Sheith battle is messy. It’s fine for the showrunners to say “getting the greenlight for Shiro was a battle” because it’s a battle they won that makes everyone look pretty good. It makes Dreamworks look like they Learned Something and are going to be more open to LGBT content in future properties. It makes WEP look not-terrible because they can add “allowed a character who wasn’t really an OG Voltron character to be gay” to their list of “generous” things they allowed for this re-envisioning of their property. It’s self-congrats all around.

Blocking Sheith has the opposite effect. It reveals that WEP is homophobic because they could allow Pidge to be a girl and Allura to be black but making the hero a non-straight man? That’s TOO FAR. It reveals that Dreamworks higherups are homophobic because they weren’t ready for two LGBT protagonists, just one plus a background character with 3 lines who is literally never named. No one wins, and to be asked about Shiro and Keith and be honest about it could potentially be the showrunners saying, “god, we wanted to, but we were blocked at every single turn”. And thus DW and WEP are the outed villains of the story.

3) Shiro and Keith were never meant to be read as romantic. The showrunners don’t say anything because there’s simply nothing to say. Sometimes the most incredible ships are happy accidents. Sometimes people genuinely don’t realize what they’re doing. I felt a little disheartened watching the AB interview because the way they talked about wanting to include more [man], or how they “hoped viewers would read between the lines” re:Shiro/Curtains, was so casual and flippant it was like they genuinely thought most people would be fine with Shirando if only there had been more scenes between them, as though completely severing Shiro’s relationship with Keith and instead only showing scenes of Shiro bonding with a new character would come off as a good move rather than a baffling (and somewhat hurtful) one.

I do believe that certain directors were absolutely fans of the pair and angled in what they could. Chris Palmer is behind the famous “shiro loves you baby” art and responsible for the eps that include Shiro’s gay panic, the Sheith hug, “As many times as it takes”, Shiro falling into Keith’s arms, and “We have to stop, Shiro’s out there!!” among others. Steve Ahn was the director behind 2x01, 3x01 with heavily grieving Keith, Blade of Marmora, and the episode where Keith screams Shiro’s name so loud he astral projects and then Shiro holds his hands over the controls. He also got really soft when he talked about the pair in an episode of Form Podcast (before JDS kinda hastily shut him down). And even Eugene Lee, he directed The Black Paladins which is an episode so Sheith I still can’t believe it’s real, and 7x01, the other episode so Sheith I can’t believe it’s real. All three of these guys were the original series directors, which is pretty inchresting.

But that doesn’t mean the showrunners were necessarily onboard. Maybe it was really important to them to show a positive male friendship since that never happens in media, just as they felt having Allura sacrifice herself was a powerful feminist move. However the thing I keep circling back to is JDS’ early interview about The Winter Soldier and how if he ever got the chance to do that, he hoped it would be in the future when things could be more progressive, hinting that he wanted to throw more overt romantic undertones if he himself ever got a fight like that to write or direct. It’s pretty interesting that he wrote the Black Paladins, which mirrors the Stucky fight in Winter Soldier so much that it actually rotoscopes one of Bucky’s moves. I’d also point out that JDS’ favorite characters are Shiro and Keith, and I find it impossible to be a fan of both and not also be a fan of how much they love each other, and how much that love straddles the line between romantic love and friendship.

This got long, but I hope it was helpful. The likely final-ever showrunner interview will be on Let’s Voltron sometime this month, and I do hope that now that the series is over someone is brave enough to ask them, “so... what was going on between Shiro and Keith? In a perfect world, what would have happened there?”. In a way it doesn’t matter though. There is always the risk of them saying “nothing was going on there” and us agonizing over whether that was a lie to protect their careers or bald-faced honesty in the face of an NDA or fucks-given that might have expired with their contracts.

But I think the best we can hope for is the same situation that happened with the Avatar creators and that live action movie: 3 years from now when the NDAs are well and truly expired, JDS & LM may come out and say, “SO, on the matter of Shiro and Keith, it’s time to come clean.”

#sheith #vld meta #voltron #askspifty #it's still wild to me that people say they're brothers #like really i have questions about your siblings if that's the case #Anonymous

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