#....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[noona96n]

hiii <33 could you maybe tag your hannibal rbs 👉👈? Just with #hannibal would be enough

i have a lot of stuff queued up untagged, including hannibal, so, uh, that...

honestly, i'll just be honest and tell u outright that it's better for u to unfollow me if ure triggered by/don't like Hannibal's content (i assume u are, if not then apologies!) as u can see from my blog, i barely tag anything, so i can't promise i will tag Hannibal stuff... i dont tag anything partly bcs im lazy and use the fast queue option, partly bcs i literally forget about the tags unless i wanna rant, and partly bcs this is my dumpster fire blog (affectionate), ya know? and i just wanna come on here and mindlessly scroll and reblog stuff without much effort 😅

i apologize for triggering/bring bad memory into ur dash 🙏

also, to other, pls pls pls feel free to unfollow and/or block me if i put triggering/unpleasant contents onto ur dashboard bcs of my untagged hot garbage of a blog... ur online experience is urs to curate so pls keep safe and sane!

also also, this is absolutely bonkers btw, i still can't believe i have followers asfghjkldi my blog is an absolute shithole where i just dump stuff i like in and just... do whatever the heck i want lol im so sorry