#030. whatever it takes / keep your loved ones safe — traitor ( sacrifice )

[hxlfsoul]

♡ / accepting / @galaxythixf​: “ you have to stop this. ” - Mineta

THERE IS A POWER THAT THRUMS BENEATH HIS SKIN, coursing through his veins. Perhaps, once, he would have stopped upon such a request, would have turned & left before he lost control of himself, but there was no point in doing so now. Not when they had all figured him out, when they knew who he was & what he was capable of — cruelty & betrayal at unimaginable magnitudes, anger that blinded him as he searched towards his goal.

❝We all have to make sacrifices, Minoru.❞ This was, perhaps, the first time he had ever spoken to the other using his given name. An unkindness, considering he was leaving, or perhaps it was kind: to allow the other to hear of what could have been if the world wasn’t built in such a way. ❝To do what’s right. This is my sacrifice, for the world. I’m sorry it doesn’t match with your ideals.❞

( & to save this world, it is those who have destroyed it, destroyed me, that will face punishment at my hand. i will kill him so that he cannot hurt anyone else. )   

#003. message received — ask answered #030. whatever it takes / keep your loved ones safe — traitor ( sacrifice ) #047. of matter & mind / of purple & time — mineta minoru #galaxythixf #112. marshmallow fluff & cushion castles — todoneta (galaxythixf) #i decided on pain (:

[hxlfsoul]

♡ / @ingenxum

TO HEAR TENYA SPEAK TO HIM LIKE THAT, Shoto knew he had ruined their relationship and all it could have become. However, he didn’t listen to the command, simply stared at his feet, at a loss for words for a few moments before his spoke, voice soft and sad, utterly destroyed because Tenya wouldn’t want him anymore after this, no matter how he explained it, no matter how he didn’t want to be the one selling them out ever since the training camp.

It was a terrible time, being taken alongside Bakugo, being unsure of what to do and afraid but unable to show it because weakness would simply egg him on. A bargain for the life of his classmate taken, knowing they would be less hurt at him giving small bits of information as compared to allowing someone’s life to be ended when he could do something about it.

( Sometimes he still had nightmares about being chained to the wall, a hand around his throat as his choices were given. They hadn’t taken him to recruit him, not in the same way they wanted Bakugo. They knew Shoto’s every weakness, knew exactly what to say, knew he’d do anything to keep people safe because he didn’t want to be cold and callous and cruel like the man who had raised him to act that way. )

❝I’ll explain myself, before you cast me away and treat me like I’m just another bad guy.❞ He whispered, exhausted. He sounded tired. He was tired, so tired of having to live like this. ❝If I didn’t do this, they’d kill Bakugo. They promised to spare him and you and my family if I did this for them, Tenya... I thought it was better than letting people die, but obviously I was wrong.❞

He was always wrong, because Tenya wouldn’t understand. Tenya didn’t face choices like this, where he had to choose between the lesser of two evils and hope for a way out or a death sentence. 

❝It wasn’t all year, either. Only since the training camp... I didn’t sell anyone out before that and I didn’t tell them much either.. If you want me to go, then fine, I’ll go.. I love you, just remember that.❞

                        ( Remember me when my life is in your hands. )   

#014. the entangled lines of fate — threads #030. whatever it takes / keep your loved ones safe — traitor ( sacrifice ) #042. class president / always prepared to help — iida tenya #ingenxum #121. & i wait for something good to happen — queue

[hxlfsoul]

“ ke—ep living on… f–for me…? ”

♡ / accepting / @ingenxum

IT WASN’T SUPPOSED TO END THIS WAY. Tenya wasn’t meant to die, Shoto had tried so hard to prevent that from happening. He’d betrayed his classmates in exchange for the life of one, he’d done all he could to sabotage attacks on his former friends without it being obvious it was him. He refused to fight them with his quirk, claiming they knew how to counter him easily when he did, in order to prevent any of them getting hurt too badly.

            His efforts weren’t enough. They never had been.

He should have known the league were intelligent enough to realise what he was doing, to know that Shoto was doing all he could to prevent being part of their pain. Therefore, he should have been more careful, should have realised when he was fighting Tenya half-heartedly that someone else had come up behind them and then Tenya was on the ground-

Shoto’s hands trembled as he threw ice at the person, not bothering to look at who it was as he fell to his knees by the other’s side, unable to stop tears from dripping from his eyes as he listened to the other speak. ❝… I… I will.❞ He stammered out, unsure of what he was supposed to say, what he was supposed to do. 

     ( You need to live too, though, Tenya. You have to live too. )

❝… You’ll be okay, Tenya, you know? I.. I love you, more than anything. I didn’t want this to happen, I just- They said if I didn’t, they’d kill Bakugo, and I didn’t want to be the reason…❞ He didn’t want to be the one to blame if they found a dead body upon saving them. ❝I’m sorry I couldn’t… couldn’t save you-❞ He leaned down, pressing a kiss to the other’s lips. Short, sweet, sad. Gentle fingers interlocked with the other’s, a hand running through his boyfriend’s hair.

If he couldn’t save him, the least he could do was let him die happy knowing he was loved. It was all he could do.

#003. message received — ask answered #030. whatever it takes / keep your loved ones safe — traitor ( sacrifice ) #042. class president / always prepared to help — iida tenya #ingenxum #tw: death