#And then oops haha adhd make me NOT feel rewarded for ANYTHING and it's ALL MISERY

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i hgoupe I'm The roller guy to yall

#I'm srs I need recognition for things I like #I NEED TO BE Known That I like This thing #Not famous but #I'M!! THE ENJOYUER... #I can get like that with clash around friends in general but I keep it lows #But in Tghe fandom. I'm srs I may avoid ppl if I'm like #Man pplproly see them as the Roller guy hahaha they're popular and draw Tghe guy a lot and nobody likes me and #Help me #It's so dark here #What mental illness is causing this #ITS SO COLD.... #WHERE AM I... IM SHOEING NEGATIVE MENTAL ILLNESS.... #I will go crazy reaches to get recognized for a Thing usually by Overworking On Fanart #But also I'm just a perfectionist also so that doesn't help either #And then oops haha adhd make me NOT feel rewarded for ANYTHING and it's ALL MISERY #At least friends are nice and love me and I feel great Showing Stuff and Them Telling me stuff #But I generally feel disliked by people #I may just be over thinking but I can't shake off the feeling that people murmur about me negatively. Oh it's the annoying lame guy bitch #I think people also don't like me because I talk too much I get personal in art posts and I talk a lot #People tend to ignore that #And idk #I have friends who love me and I love them and that means more than anyrhing #But seeing anyone get recognized for Liking Thing makes me #Seriously want to do physical harm to myself sometimes and that's not a joke #I suffer Self Bite when Stressed. I don't know how to Regulate Sometimes. #Why do you think I block so many ppl and whine abt it #I get jealous upset at nothing feeling threatened. sometimes yea ppl post genuinely triggering stuff but half the time I'm just like #HIISS. HISSSS #HiiIIISSS #I need to have my brain cleaned and changed for a better one this isn't kt