#Don't worry we will meet again

[bioluminescent-obscurity]

homophobia

#guild wars 2 #don't worry homophobia is over we put serentine out of commission #for the next 6 days #then we will do it all again #gw2 #maunder tag #i am posting about guild wars 2 again #<- haven't actually done that a while i hope that was the name of the tag #one day i'll figure out how to consistently proc the infinite serentine threats #i'm getting it maybe 30% of the time #gotta test proximity limits #anyway if you ever meet Man Enjoyer the Romantic in queensdale or a lobby #feel free to say hi

[anaalnathrakhs]

i just can't ever trust my feelings and opinions on anything because i'm always a broken clock and anything i say that ends up being right is completely divorced from the logic that took me there <3

#i wish friendships were like. a once a month type of event yknow #but then i'm not happy at home either lmao there's my parents there #and i don't know maybe i'm just kidding myself. maybe that's all there is. maybe there's no circumstances or anything #maybe the problem is just from within and no environmental change will improve anything #i wish there wasn't a mystery thing wrong with me that makes any kind of social interaction incredibly unenjoyable #i get an insta notif i want to bash my skull in with a brick #it's always like ''heyyyyyyyy do you want to meet in our free time? on our day off? meet meet meet?'' #haha. sorry i thought i maybe could do smth with my free time one day. perhaps. #and it's not like. difficult but fun. it's not easy easy but it's fine. i'm just miserable the entire time except five minutes in the middl #where we take a little breather. and then it goes again. #anyway really fun being friend with mentally ill people. infuriating each other on the daily. #god. my friend said ''i worry abt pushing you too hard whenever i ask to hang out bc you don't say when it's too much'' #bestie i love you you are pushing me too hard with more than one insta discussion a week #but yknow. i can't say that to people. it's just going to be hurtful. #broadcasting my misery #vent

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years #not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion #so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all #but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all. #it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid) #and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable. #but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him #i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted #and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried......... #the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms #i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still #and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :))))) #insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case #i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!) #but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man. #it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/ #why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly??? #while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING??? #if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now #but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃 #shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience #and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over #he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday #and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now. #i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again.. #i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh #(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh) #at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*

[creative-hanyou-girl]

Y'all I so want to participate in InuKag Week but I don't think I even have the energy to pick up a pen let alone draw stuff 😩😭

#i just got back from a week and a half learning how to drive by my brother and let me tell you he took the job VERY SERIOUSLY #which is good but he'd drag me outta bed by 8 or sometimes 6 so we could practice #plus we did a lot of stuff together or had friends of his and family come over to interact with or entertain #I actually had a mothers day drawing I got started on but couldn't finish bc we were so busy. #i still might post it tho so don't worry #and then we drove down to FL where we met up with my mom and aunt and stayed a few days #then we had to rush home because I had work scheduled this weekend #so then we got home and i had barely 45 minutes to get dressed for work & I finished work only for us to go to dinner bc it was my b-day #and then I worked again today and tomorrow will be the first day in forever where I dont need to be anywhere and meet people #oh and I also have summer classes starting on May 30th #I had a lot of fun of course and I enjoy seeing people and like my job but I'm so freaking tired guys and my feet hurt😩 #so of I end up not posting any art for InuKag Week ya'll will at least know I'm not dead #i know I usually only post 1 or 2 drawings for the Week anyway but still #inuyasha #kagome higurashi #inukag #the hanyou and his miko #inukag week #inukag week 2023 #story of my life

[goldentigerfestival]

if there is one thing i will never recover from with crestoria's crossover being gone for good, it's that we'll never ever know the story behind transgressor yuri.

if there are two things i will never recover from with crestoria's crossover being gone for good, it's that leon and aegis' loyal friendship will never ever return.

#GTF Things #Tales of Crestoria #it is rare for leon to be on that kind of respect level with someone let alone risk his own reputation as a traitor to let someone escape #by which i mean in destiny he only ever rly did that for stahn bc stahn was the ONLY person screaming over leon's suffering #and BEGGING him to talk to him and not take on everything alone #so i'd be hard pressed to say he truly made that last second decision for any other reason #other than stahn getting through to him bc if stahn hadn't said anything nobody else was all that worried abt doing so #for him to do that for aegis even in a setting where he wasn't going to be in mortal peril #still risked him becoming a transgressor if anyone had had time to record that #i.e. local dude helps local sinned traitor escape and is by association also a sinner #and that may have affected the ease of his search in restoring stahn to human form #which stahn prob would not have minded but it would still increase the difficulty for leon's search all the same #with yuri forget it im going to be permanently S T R E S S E D that we will never know that story #and i don't think they'd play into the possessed-not-really-yuri thing again after doing it in asteria #and in rays it was only a cameo thing. i fully believe that was actual yuri bc it would fit into his canon-mixed-with-crestoria #so unless the devs for some reason decide to tell us what their plans were for yuri we will never know #and it's been too long now since cresty went down like do i have to write this shit myself #they robbed me of transgressor yuri meeting vicious too woe is me cresty team #im still so desperate for them to turn crestoria back on like pls it's not just my crops anymore it's me too im also dead #i know they won't turn it back on and heck all the data for it is probably long since byebye BUT #even if i enjoy the manga it's not the same without the crossover #i would kill for them to give us that game back it was my fave gacha ever ;; #i say that with the full bias of the fact that i obliterated everything with default leon and completely maxed him in every aspect #but also just the fact that i want cresty's crossover back s o f u c k i n g b a d

[non-un-topo]

Should I see a therapist for my unexplained contempt for my Heterosexual Family Members and their wedding planning and their baby-craziness y/n?

#like at this point i'm really going to hell for my feelings alone dfghjgfds #there's nothing really bad about them!! nothing to really dislike!! i just feel so much annoyance and resentment #something shifted in me in the past year and i fear it's turning me into a sour old bitch. but also....... oh well....? #a therapist would probably propose that i'm secretly jealous or insecure and.... i am definitely not jealous but i miiiight be insecure #about being 25 and not feeling like a woman and going in no direction. not planning to get married or have kids #so what kind of woman am i? also just being forced to engage with the straightest cissest people in my daily life #wears you down. #i have no reason to dread this eventual wedding (partner's brother's wedding). in fact it's going to be fun!! weddings are fun right...? #but lord..... my partner and i basically have to wear different skins around some family members. even though we probably don't have to... #but my real skin -- my real self -- i worry that i'm just a sour bitch. like don't hand me your toddler please. don't talk to me about marri #*marriage. don't push me into the kitchen to do dishes with the other women. #even our queer friends all want to have kids one day. is it just going to be me and my partner babysitting 5 kids? #because again not to sound like a bitch but i am Not Comfortable nor cut out for it. #god i'm nervous about meeting my partner's brother's fiancee's family. holy fuck i'm nervous. #imagining myself telling them that i'm doing my undergrad in gender studies of all things PPPFFFFGHJGFDGJHFG #like this tiny bare-faced girl with a moustache introduces herself at this traditional wedding like 'yeah i'm a disgusting feminist' LOLLLL #one fear.

[discoreptile]

Wee ha

#Arright here I go again I gotta do some of these when I gotta vent #posting this on the 17th of August #So the elestral thing is going alright. My focus has shifted a LOT there but I'm still working with em #But the majority of my work comes from another client now. It's another one of these things that I'd love to make by myself #But someone else is making it and wanting me to do the art and music. It's gonna be huge. What a life it is. Anyway #This gif is from yet another project I started recently. Separate from Smile More HoaM and anything else. I keep fucking doing this #But this one's strange. It reflects my current working skills I've built up all these years. A multimedia experience that has a start n end #featuring all your favourite elphame characters in a new style. I'm enjoying making it but there's one problem #I haven't worked on it in like a month and a half #Work is piling up. Pixel art is something I don't do for myself anymore #It's not even a case of “as soon as I have time to myself my fingers can't move" it's that I just do not have any spare time lmao #I meet Ashley once or twice a week. We still play digimon a lot but we're taking this month off since she's petsitting and can't go out lat #My flatmate has basically taken the summer off work since his job pays well enough for him to do so #so having him around to play games with is nice. Feels awkward taking baths with him in the house tho lmao #He is kind of the only reason I take breaks. I got pikmin 4 and it is incredible. Genuinely might have replaced Digimon World as 1st place #Mum took Andy and I to Netherlands recently. It was incredible. I played in a local digimon tournament and ate shit #Have just been so excited about travelling lately. Ashy taking me to manchester soon and I think we'll go london next spring or sooner #Worried I'm overdoing it with the tags so I'll sign off here. Work is stressing me out but it looks like big things are happening. #OH MY GOD I HAVE STOPPED BLEEDING BTW. Like almost altogether. Haven't in like a month. The trick is in the big box I rest my feet on. #It's too tall. I tried replacing it with a pile of folders half as tall and my bleeding fucking stopped. No crohn's disease or anything. #Just a big stupid fucking box. Anyway see you

[monstermoviedean]

oh my fucking god

#OH MY FUCKING GOD????????? #okay so first off. the data isn't bad your reporting template was bad. #second. you don't get to say how scared you are about fudging data when you are doing that elsewhere. #third. we have not solved any of the reporting problems and you're going to get bad data again and i will have no sympathy. #I literally tried to warn you!!!!! #fourth. read your goddamn email and NOT during meetings. #fifth. having something exist only in your head prevents me from putting it in documents #and i need you to get it out of your head before i can do that and NO i can't do it for you #SIXTH. oh my god. if you could just like fucking DO something on your own you wouldn't have meetings all the time #seventh. my patience tank is so empty and I have my stupid fucking performance review thursday #and it'll probably be fine but that doesn't stop me from freaking the FUCK out about it all week #eighth and finally i'm trying to keep things in perspective but oh my fucking god this is all so aggravating and so preventable #and i KNOW you don't like granular details and you are above all that or whatever but SOMEBODY has to worry about the details and it's me #and it's also the guy at our partner org who is BEGGING for help from you #and making me provide it instead is NOT the way to go

[tardis--dreams]

To summarize today's day in university:

- got diagnosed with social phobia by a class mate (bitch?!)

- heard a Very cool lecture/presentation by a guest lecturer

- our lecturer said she kinda liked our idea for our presentation

- had lunch with friends in the uni canteen which was nice but evoked some existential despair

#about that social phobia thing: first she showed me the term on her phone during a seminar (when she couldn't talk loudly) #asking if i had that to which i said no i do not?! #then after class she again said 'i think you have social phobia. because you don't like talking to people or in class' *nodding knowingly* #to which i again said i did Not have it but ok whatever #because hello?! the only person allowed to say i have social anxiety is Me. fuck you?! #like I DO say i have social anxiety because i do i guess. but a) not talking in class is not an indicator for this #b) i Do talk in class lmao. and I've never actually had any problems around her regarding anxiety #like i have no problem talking to classmates or saying something in the classes we have together so Fuck Off?! #(i mean it is a giant problem sometimes in some contexts but STILL. YOU DON'T GET TO 'DIAGNOSE' ME. #i hereby officially undiagnose myself from that thank you very much) #ANYWAY do you know the feeling of meeting someone you really look up to like maybe an author or a musician or whatever in REAL LIFE #AND YOU GET TO TALK TO THEM? that excitement where you're like 'omg i can't believe that's happening i can't believe you're here in a room #with me TALKING TO ME? and I get to hear about something unpublished you're working on rn?? like exclusive insight into current research??? #that was me today during that presentation by that guest lecturer! I've read most of her articles and at some point idk i guess you find #researchers in your field whose work you just find Very interesting and then when you get to meet them it feels a little unreal #(not to fangirl over a linguist or anything. i rarely do that (don't speak to me about my favorite lecturer who i also totally don't see as #a huge inspiration or anything)) #but yeah also i was so worried about the presentation next week but now our lecturer said she didn't hate the topic I'm more chill about it #AND yeah sorry folks‚ healthcare doesn't exist here :( no i can't help you find a doctor there's no hope just accept it #I LOVE the fact that international students keep bringing up this topic! the sheer despair and Anxiety you get to hear about! fantastic! #like I'm sorry about this obviously but that's just how we live here? What do you MEAN in your country you just can go to a doctor FOR FREE #and they'll help you? what yeah man I'll come to Russia with you! (seriously. this is one of the main things preventing people from staying #here. the absolute Lack of healthcare. people who are like 'yeah i love it here but honestly? I'm too scared something might happen #and then no one will help me.. yep. understandable. i have just accepted that i will die due to this #but if you have the option to go (back) to a country where things are different I'd do that tbh. #(sorry just normal lunch conversation topics we have here #i still feel very nice and fuzzy because i was invited ahahaha (i have a sad life lmao)) #shut up amy #university ramblings

[petrichorvoices]

every so often we get the urge to actually introduce ourselves as individuals on here but then we worry that that's cringe and also there's the Fear Of Being Known. so until we kill the part of us that cringes + learn that it's okay to want and ask for attention, y'all will have to either piece things together from the times we do use our tags or ask us

#like we don't mind people asking. it's nice actually to talk about ourselves. we just feel awkward doing it without prompting #especially if we're already known as a collective. sometimes we worry that if people see us as individuals they'll never again see us as #a collective. and that's been proven false but anxiety is anxiety yaknow #rambling #Cecil's tag #or meet us in a plural Discord ig. we differentiate in those

[thecherrygod]

Okay you know what i am tired of being this anxious over something that first of all may not even happen second it's actually a good situation third would only go the way i feel it could go on my overthinking of the situation

#my posts #man. just. i ruined so much of my life bc of anxiety that now i struggle to regain it #bc i still makes me anxious but it's not bad I just mentally ill #like. the last time i went to a bar with people i know #i spent all the time getting there anxious until i met up with someone and then we entered the bar and i preferred my drink and #i got anxious AGAIN while waiting for it #I'm just glad no one noticed but i had an entire moment of only just getting there and already considering going home #it's RIDICULOUS it makes me mad i don't want to live like this #i always en up worrying of going out and just. panicking. it happened once that once i could get back to the place i was staying the night #i just had breakdown and i spent two hours in the club trying to keep it in I'm always worries of it happening again #and it may at some point! or maybe don't! i can't know! i hate this #i just want to have fun and not work so much i feel like I'll die is it that hard #i mean it happening is not even what makes me anxious it's just the whole deal!!!! #usually off i survive until getting a drink then I'm fine but i need to get to that point but like i swear #last time. on the bar. everything was fine it just happened out of nowhere like we were sitting there #and i had my usual depression thought tm and it was just bad for a while #idk. I'm gonna try to sleep #but like it's not even sure if we'll meet up or not and I'm already anxious over it so i haven't been sleeping well o hate it here

[vamptastic]

there is this one person from hs i stopped hanging out with after they graduated bc being around them actively depleted my HP but i kindof want to reach out to them again just bc they were one of very few trans people i knew in hs and i think they probably are a little less irritating to be around now but idk

#they weren't horrible just kind of vaguely annoying #constantly harped about how empathetic they were and then said needlessly rude shit to me all the time #also the type to think they're like the Most Oppressed Ever and then talk down to me about my own experiences #but also act like we were in some kinda Most Oppressed club together cos all their friends were straight girls #AND also misgender me all the fucking time and make fun of my other friends lmaooo #but all of those are like. minor pet peeves they just build up over time yk #but i do hope they're doing well i was worried abt them cos they didn't have any good plans after hs #but they have a job and go to college and have their own place rn so it looks like they turned out fine #just idk. I don't want to offer to meet up with them and then end up feeling like shit after again #but I'm also judging them on behavior from 3 years ago and was still good friends with them despite all that #i have... a lot of fond memories of them i just also have a million small grievances

[lovvelorrn]

working in creative agencies really is like taking the biggest risk of your life huh.

#oh yeah i just lost my job AGAIN . for the second time this YEAR . and it has nothing to do with ME ! :) #it's always 'we're so sorry we just lost our biggest client we can't keep paying you' and never #'you're so pretty let me pay you a hundred thousand dollars just to see your face' smh #don't worry though this morning i got a super cool meeting with a CUTE creative studio (yeah ... i'm not beating the dumb-bitch alegations) #but they're from my city and seem cool and i like them and it's work !! so crossing fingers for that project to happen

[seven-thewanderer]

Okay so since idk how much of today I'll be able to spend as a "final day before I'm gone for 2 whole months (and then return for just a week & disappear again" imma do some stuff I wanted to do later today

but instead early today

So firsty, since this is a very important part, I love all of you!!! Of course platonically, but I still love you all!! I feel like you guys have been there for me plenty while I was here, and all the friends I made I'm happy to have made them!! Sure, I lost some friends (kinda), and I'm sad about that, but I just hope those friends are having amazing times still!!! But still, to the friends I still have, and also to the followers (since I feel like I don't type it enough but it's still true:), I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!

And then the second thing (which isn't as important but I still wanna list it):

Since I'll be gone, if there's peeps who still wanna see my stuff, but there won't be an update to my blog since I'll be gone, here are some main tags that I use:

Random Post This tag is for when I just say stuff that's random, like this for example. So kinda little rambles from me, but they don't often have art with it

My Art This tag's more main than the Random Post tag (idk why I didn't do this one first), but it has all of my art, even from my first(?) ever post!! Though you could go all the way back, you don't really have to, as it has things like when I drew Sun & Moon as pokemon, my first ever drawings of my Sun & Moon Bug AU (which to me it did not look that good back then), my FNAF(SB) Parts & Service ocs (Known as Pax & Simon) who I never drew again (I will at some point trust me-), some old Sun & Moon designs, and even my old intro!! So it's kinda like a memory lane if you think about it, buuut it's a long lane so you don't have to XD

Random Reblog + Random Art Reblog These are my reblog tags!! One is mainly just for random reblogs, and the other is just for art reblogs, which can include drawings, paintings, music, and I'm pretty sure photography (i don't remember exactly what I reblogged but I'm pretty sure I reblogged photography at least once w/ the random art reblog tag). Again, these would be long scrolls, so you wouldn't have to go through all of em

Important Reblog + Important These tags are for important things, and things that either I find as helpful for others to know, things that I believe are important, things that aren't important but I've listed as important (which I think I've done that at least 3 times and I'm sorry), and things that others say are important so I just list em as important. That last one's the most common. Most of the time I'll tag things with both tags, but sometimes I tag things just with the important tag, and less commonly I'll reblog it with just the important reblog tag.

Now not as main tags:

Tag Game This one i don't know if I tag tag games as that oftenly, so if I do, then this tag'll lead to those I did tag as such.

Asks (+ Ask Game) This is for when I get asks (that's the asks tag), and also for when I see an ask game & hope to get asks for that (both the asks tag & ask game tag). However, I don't always get asks, or at least I don't get them as often as I see/assume others do, but there's 4 invisible ones in my inbox that I'm still sorry about not being able to see... (also I know I can just change what I said, but imma leave the last part & add that I actually have more asks than I thought I did, I just never looked at them all collectively before, so thanks to all of you that sent asks!! <3)

Sun & Moon AUs (+ that one SAMS AU) This tag is mainly for the Sun & Moon related AUs I have (one of which being a Sun and Moon Show AU if I'm not mistaken), but it includes ones like my Bug! AU (which was once just tagged as Bug AU), Slime! AU, Pastry! AU, Celestial Bard! AU, Lost! AU, Witch! AU, Celestial Inn! AU, Toyshop! AU, Celestial Tasks! AU (also called RPG! AU), Fortune Teller! AU, Unisatyr! AU, and specifically for the SAMS AU tag, Different! AU (which we do not talk about Different! AU cus I honestly forgot I even made it until just now XD)

Treats! AU This tag, which sadly didn't get too much stuff made for it, is a tag for a QSMP Au I randomly was doing, where everyone was a form of treat/snack. I wish I got more time on it, but for now there is a little bit of ideas sitting there for it

Clowns This tag should be avoided if you have a fear of clowns, but this is the tag for my clown ocs from a little circus I made up known as Bunzy's circus!! Of course Bunzy's the ring master, but there's more characters (who do not have names yet), who are a Clown Rat, a Clown Dog, a Clown Cat, a Clown Bear (who is a teddy bear), and a Clown Spider

My Ocs This tag is for ocs of mine. There's not really much to it, it's just my ocs.

Sona/Sonas These tags are for my different Sonas, like Seven (the main Sona of this blog), Silly, Tabby (who currently has been listed as dead), Chromey, Swii, Phon, and that Pirahna Plant sona I never got the chance to draw again (they never got a tag specific to them but they're known as Berry). There's technically another Sona, but they never got a tag on this blog, as they're the sona for my side blog, which I'll bring up later

rant this is a tag I prefer to forget, but it is a tag, so I will not ignore it. This is for the chance that I rant about something, which I don't like to rant about stuff that happens for me. So this could be a tag to avoid if yall want (there's only like... 4 posts? But still)

💖/<3 These tags are hard to follow, but these are tags for when I heart something a lot. It's like a show of affection. The <3 tag was more of a backup when I couldn't put the sparkle heart emojis, but now they both coexist. There's mainly more than one, but sometimes there's just 1 (idk how to work this one, so I guess just try & slightly up the amount of hearts to find other tags? idk sorry...)

Extra tags:

I'm not gonna link these ones, but these are tags that I've drawn stuff for, but aren't really special tags of mine, and this includes tags like:

FNAF (Five Night's at Freddy's)

AAF (Andy's Apple Farm)

Fandroid/Fandroid the Musical Robot

QSMP

TWOMP (The World of Mr Plant)

Gen Loss (Generation Loss)

Diep.Io

Rainworld

SAMS (Sun and Moon Show)

Deltarune

Undertale

Roblox T2D/Roblox T2D DCO (Roblox Try to Die/Roblox Try to Die DCO)

Cookie Run

Sussy Schoolgrounds

Pokemon (+ Fakemon)

Now some of these I only did once (TWOMP, Diep.Io, Rainworld, Undertale, Roblox T2D, and Fakemon), but some got at least 2 or more (Fandroid, Deltarune, Pokemon, and Sussy Schoolgrounds got just 2 I think)

But yeah, I think that gets the tags outta the way now

Now as an extra thing to bring up, I do have a side blog, which is specifically for a lil thing I made/am working on...

...and it's about a little furry(?) species I made called Floserds!!

however

Please don't just go & follow the blog because it's my side blog, I mainly just want that blog to be followed if it's because someone's actually interested in that species idea I made.

But as a summary, it's a species of flower (and herb) cows called Floserds (Flos is latin for Flower, if im not mistaken, and the -erds part is just the word herds without the h), and most of the info I've worked on/am working on is on that blog

That blog's also run by my fursona, Chamomile, who is a Floserd!!

But yeah that blog's known as @floserd-theflowercows, and you could technically follow it, but only if you're actually interested in the concept, not just due to association

But yeah I guess this might be it, and if I get the chance to say goodbye before I have to go, then I'll say goodbye, let you guys know that I love you (which I do) (platonically), and then either link back to this post, or just copy + paste the important stuff

But yeah in case this post is really my goodbye (for now), then I love you all, I'll miss you, and I'll (assumably) see you guys again in November!!!!!

💖

#Seven's 5th Vanishing #(yes I've stuck to calling it that btw) #but yeah I'll miss you all!!! #And don't worry I will see you all again!!! #at around #like #the week of Thanksgiving I think? #I'm pretty sure idk XD #But I love you all!! #And until we meet again!!! #💖 #(I'm not gonna pin this #but imma most likely leave it as the most recent pin) #(unless I get the chance to say goodbye right before I go XD)

[littlestpersimmon]

Heya guys. Sorry for posting this for the billionth time. But maybe if you guys would like to give my posts about patreon a boost it would mean the world to me. I know I post this a lot and I don't take any help I receive for granted. I've only been able to make two new drawings since February. Bc every day I have been working almost 9 hours. I'm sick nearly every other week, my lymph nodes are swollen n I've been feeling incredibly depressed. I am from the global south, in the philippines, government help is near nonexistent. I am the sole caretaker of three disabled people. My mom can not do any housework, she is a full time wheelchair user, she needs care 24/7, insulin, adult diapers and kidneys that are under threat of failing if we don't watch her health, my dad has a chronic heart condition and my sister is autistic with a very low frustration threshold. Both my parents are diabetic, and I am the only person in my family who can work. I currently have three jobs, one in publishing, but I have a morality clause which means the publishing house can take back every single penny I make if I or the author fail to meet certain expectations. Anyway.. I have been working nonstop, my scoliosis is untreated and extremely painful, n for the past few four days I have been rationing a single can of spam and a few potatoes. Would mean the world to me if you guys could pick up a print, or subscribe to my patreon, or reblog any of my old art or send me a tip on ko-fi or anywhere else. Sorry and thank you again. I remake these a lot, but I sincerely don't take any of the help I receive for granted. Thank you again.

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[alxclaremont]

hahahahahaha i am so screwed hahahahahahaha

#got an email today to send in our information for the big scholarship i got last year and guess who doesn't meet the GPA requirement!!!!!!!! #i litrally don't know what to do #i literally can't even text my friend who also got the scholarship because her grades and gpa are wonderful and mine are shit and it will #make me feel like the most stupid person in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. i am going to email the lady tomorrow and be like 'hey heres the situation pls tell me if theres anything i can do' #because i was genuinely depending on this scholarship to help me pay rent and stuff but lol #im kinda hoping that they'll take pity on me since i'm retaking the class that i failed that plummeted my gpa and once i transfer the credit #it will boost my gpa and just be like 'yeah no worries we'll send the money once you meet the requirement' #that OR they'll be like 'due to ur special circumstances of being an orphan we are taking pity on you and will work with you' #OR EVEN 'yeah whatever we'll send the money this time but if it happens again you're getting it taken away' #i genuinelly don't know what i'll do if i get it taken away #like yeah i'll have my school paid for but literally only because i took out loans #not to mention that i will have to tell everyone that i lost the scholarship and even if i don't tell them they will find out because they #do a banquet every single year to celebrate new and past recievers and everyone will notice i am not there #and i will be the biggest failure in the entire world who couldn't even meet a very simple fucking gpa requirement!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. forcing myself to not panic and feel despair yet #i am actually going to text one of my other friends who is not involved in this whatsoever and get her advice #its fine it will be fine it will all work out i am not going to lose the scholarship they literally told me even if my mom hadn't died my #senior year that they still would have given me the scholarship it is FINE i will be FINE #lacey talks