#I USED TO HAVE CRISES OVER SYMPATHIZING WITH AND ENJOYING VARIOUS HORRIBLE FICTIONAL WOMEN TAKE IT FROM SOMEONE WHO KNOWS DIRECTLY!!!!!!!

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Again, always very confusing to me when people suffering from The Obsessive Compulsives are Antis™, like these people will not protect you. They believe thought crimes are real. They inherently hate you and WILL throw you to the wolves if they ever come to know about anything related to your intrusive thoughts or the """""weird""""" things they ask you to do in therapy to manage/cope with them.

#you know how in erp a big part of it is writing down/thinking about the actual worst case scenario? you know the scenario that #often leads to people being harmed in a permanent way? you know creating a fictional scenario where bad things happen to good #people and you are the cause of them? THE VERY KIND OF FICTION THESE PEOPLE ARE AGAINST EXISTING IN ANY FORM BECAUSE IT #'NORMALIZES' WHATEVER TF THEY'RE ON A CRUSADE ABOUT ON ANY GIVEN DAY #THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS. THIS WAY OF THINKING IS /ACTIVELY ANTITHETICAL/ TO RECOVERY FROM THIS DISORDER #this is related to the 'does anyone else get Themes™ about writing' question I posed a while back and some of these people.......... #if you knew the specifics of what I was writing about you would COMMIT ARSON #IT'S NOT REAL! NONE OF THIS IS REAL!! YOU ARE ONLY GOING TO MAKE IT WORSE FOR YOURSELF BY MORALIZING FICTION IN THIS WAY #I USED TO HAVE CRISES OVER SYMPATHIZING WITH AND ENJOYING VARIOUS HORRIBLE FICTIONAL WOMEN TAKE IT FROM SOMEONE WHO KNOWS DIRECTLY!!!!!!! #and ngl a lot of these arguments about why xyz is Irredeemable™ sound a LOT like my disorder. #(especially in the way they try to like...twist things into fitting into a definition of [insert type of problematic dynamic here] a la #'character raising their voice at someone one time during a high-stakes situation is abuse' or 'people who were friends as children #are Related Actually') #like. you get why. you get why this VERY disorder would think in similar ways to that right. because it tries to convince you that #everything you do is violating various human rights correct? you get why this would be unhelpful right? #IF YOU SOUND LIKE MY FUCKING DISORDER!!! YOU ARE WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!! #In the Vents #okay I'm done. this just. It BUGS me.