#I have to be better bc student loan repayment begins in 3 months and I need to be on top of my finances

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#I have tried and I will not risk this seeing the bright side of the blog #to the shadow realm it goes #but I am being so good not buying stupid things SO good #and I am being SO tempted #but I imagine the shame of you all finding out what I bought and how much I spent #and it stays my hand #I have to be better bc student loan repayment begins in 3 months and I need to be on top of my finances #me @ god if you could just gift me like $50k rn I would be so grateful #actually scratch that if I could get $500 I would be grateful #stop the credit card payments and I could thrive and survive #current mood: thinking far too hard about being worth more dead than alive #I’m deep enough in the tags that no one’s probably reading anymore #but I almost typed the ‘okay guys I’m killing myself’ post like 3 times today #bc I’m tired! #im looking for the small joys but they can only bouy so much when everything else is just exhausting! #this is not a cry for help I am not here to beg I seek no absolution from tumblr #this is no one’s problem but my own and none of you can carry it or myself #but goddamn is this weight exhausting #yknow one day I may look back at this and laugh #things could be worse! I have a roof and hot water and air conditioning #I have a job! granted it’s the cause of 90% of my freak outs today but I have money coming in! #I just have to be better #that’s all