#I like cheese on some things okay!!!

[icewindandboringhorror]

I can't do much productively during the heat wave/health issue flare up/etc. like work on my games or anything where I have to sit at the computer/type for long periods of time, BUT.. I did passively sculpt a few tiny foods lol. I wanted to do one of my bigger usual sculptures, but those take so much more time and concentration, I thought something small just to keep my hands busy would be better.. close up photos look kind of weird and blurry from my camera settings or something, but overall they came out okay, especially in person.. Nearly the only reason I ever wanted to buy dolls as a kid was to get my hands on the miniature foods and plates and stuff that came with them, I've always just been obsessed with small versions of things like that, so.. why not make some! lol

#sculpture #ooops.. i could have posted this on the art blog but I forgor and do not feel like reuploading everything #into a new drafted post on a whole other blog.. not in this heat.. i have no patience lol #items are: tomato. asparagus. a four leaf clover (not food lol). some sort of folded bun or dumpling with meat inside (not based on #anything specific. I just wanted to fold a flat sheet of clay into a shape). pomegranate. cheese wheel. lemon slice. some sort of mushroom. #fish (not a real one. just made up. if it looks like any specific fish that'd be interesting). and fig. #I haven't been able to get many avocaodo pits to carve again. so sculpting. then is good for a tiny craft #WISH I COULD DO COSTUMES OR SOMETHING.. i have some pikced out. bundles of clothes laying on the floor of the closet #but GODS even before the heat wave it's just been so warm.. I know.. it's the summer. of course it's warm #but WHYYYyy............. what if it just snowed all year around and was awesome and beautiful and i was so cold and could wear 25 blankets #at all times.. what about THAT hmm?? .. the ideal.. #anyway.. my favorite is the pomegranate and the mushroom maybe #The fig is hard because in the pictures of figs I googled a lot of them have that sort of white powdery type of thing on the outside #that grapes and plums and stuff have sometimes and it's hard to convey that weird like.. sheen.. plus the purple with almost powdery blue #and little lighter specks plus streaks of light green and a little orangey on some of them. #It's okay in person I think but this doesnt show up as much in pictures. The cheese also looks betterin person than images. you can't tell #the slight shine in the pictures lol. but the pomegranates look cool and also photograph decent.. hmm #I should have made toast with an egg on it or something. that would be a nice addition #OH ALSO ASPARAGUS MY BELOVED.. though they look a little wonky. the cuticle pusher tool that I sculpt with in leiu of any actual sculpting #tools has a kind of triangle edge that was suite for the little leaf details of the asparagus so that was cool. its like..ALMOST right lol

[origamiyoda]

that freak put him in stasis for 20 years . what the fuck

#I’m gonna throw up. Leave her aloooneeee #< i didnt mean to use she her for Gordon but like whatever . #this kind of thing makes me so fucked up for some reason . #I’m gonna die . I’m gonna die irl. Dr freeemaaaaaaannnnnnnn aauuuuugghhhhhghhhh #Okay imagine if you were a guy and you were unwillingly the cause and hero of the same incident . and then some jackass decided #That you were just th guy he needed for his like . greater plan. and he PUT YOU IN FUCKINNN. LIMBO?!! FOR 20 WHOLE YEARS !!!! #And then you woke up and you were confused and scared and lost and then YOUR BUDDY WAS RHERE !!!!!! AND HE SAVED YOU !!! #AND THEN !!!! YOURE THROWN BACK INTO IT !!!!!!!> #Th canon Gordon didn’t even get to go to Chucky cheese. I think she should get to go to Chucky cheese. #OHHH my god. what if you were chosen for a greater plan against your will like this fuckinf sucks. I love you Gordon Freeman #I’m also so . intrigued about hl2vrai now that I actually know how hl2 kinda goes

[kakusu-shipping]

Pre-relationship 4-6 for the Mario Bros.! (Or your favorite of those questions if you only want one haha)

Yes!!! More Mario Bros ramble!!! Blessed!! Thankyou!!

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

Hard to say, sense they've always been like this. There's not a specific moment either of them could go back to and say when they fell in love, they've always loved eachother, you know?

Though Luigi was the first to recognize these feelings as romantic, and different than how he loved, say, their mom and dad, and that that was something important. Mario didn't think it mattered what kind of love they had, their mama had taught them Love is Love, so what does it matter, right?

This happened when they were like 7.

5. Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Maybe not quiet resist, but Mario did consider it for a while.

Around middle school-ish age, 12 or 13, their mom sat the brothers down to explain the difference between Familial and Romantic love, and why that difference was important, kind of assuming they didn't really know the difference in their emotions yet.

The whole thing made Mario feel awful. He'd made his mother worry, his father angry, and worst of all he, the older brother, put Luigi on the line for his own selfish reasoning.

The only reason he didn't fully withdrawal from Luigi and stew in an early sea of self deprecation was Luigi rubbing it in Mario's face that he was right, that the love he has for Mario and the love he has for the rest of their family is different. He did an "I Told You So" dance and everything. He was right and Mario was wrong ha ha ha ha ha!

So yeah. Mario considered resisting his feelings for all of about 20 minutes before Luigi snapped him out of it, and reminded him why that would simply never work. Not for them.

6. If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

Mario doesn't believe in soulmates, he's a simple guy and not all that romantic in the grand scheme sense. Luigi on the other hand is all about Cosmic Connection and the "Over and Over again, life after life, I will find you, and I fall in love with you again and again" kind of cheesy nonsense. He'd be over the moon about it.

#Thankyou for asking #Mariocest #I'm so BLESSED already!!!!!! GOD!!! #Look man I LOVE THEM I love them I love them I love them #1 2 3 and 7 would be hard to answer with the bros huh fkgjfdkjgkdf #I considered 7 because of the Yoshi Island backstory but eeeeh #That's a concept for another day #OKAY HANG ON #I did it again I made Mario sound Emotionally Distant that's not. That's not what I mean #Mario IS a Romantic a Big Time Romantic just not in the Cosmic sense like Luigi #Luigi had a weeb phase so of course he's feral about Soulmate AUs #Mario's a Classic Romantic he likes a candle lit Italian dinner and a Bouquet of Roses and Slow Dances that sweep you of your feet #He loves the smooze the Cheese the romantic music and the nice suit #He'd probably really like Hallmark movies unironically #Luigi's not much for a big show or big acts he likes to do the small things #Rub Mario's shoulders when he looks tired and make him a cup of coffee in the morning and hold his hand when they're walking side by side #You get me? #Mario likes to DO big actions he loves to be the Guy with the Rose and he'd love to some day be the one on his knees with the ring #Am I making sense? Hopefully #They are in love your honor they always have been and they always will be #Shipcest

[prettypangolins]

What really sucks about gluten free stuff (apart from it never being as good as the original) is that it's often lumped in with dairy free/vegan and I'm just sitting here like whyyyyy where am I supposed to get protein from huh?? And my calcium for my thrice-at-risk-of-osteoporosis bones??? And have you ever tried vegan stuff/food made with dairy alternatives that aren't pure rice or coconut milk? They're gross! Macaroni cheese, but you're not allowed the fuckin cheese on top of not being able to have real pasta???? Hell. Nightmare. Gimme my DAIRY! I bet anyone with a dairy allergy isn't having fun with the gluten free side either. Yuck. And while I'm on a Rant, why the FUCK are you putting fuckin apple in the gluten free version of JAFFA CAKES?????? Just... why why why are they trying to cater to all these things at once. Terrible. The only overlap I'm thankful for is the nut free thing, bc if you're ever in a cafe or wherever their gluten free cake is 95% likely to contain nuts bc apparently anyone wanting gluten free is also a fuckin vegan and capable of eating nuts?? Bleh. Even the shit in shops is more often gluten & dairy free/vegan than it is gluten free & nut free. I'm dying here. I'm starving. I'm withering away and I'm full of spite and rage at the predatory pricing and the extorionate shit I have to face any time I want to eat food.

#signed: a disabled person who can't cook but would like to be able to eat #and also doesn't have that much money to afford the extortionate but severely shitty food on offer #i have SO MANY ALLERGIES and taking away the one joy (dairy) is evil evil evil #just gimme it okie #yes it makes my tummy hurt but cheese is my ambrosia and lactase tablets are a gift from the gods #i'm desperately trying to get the calories and nutrients i need but fucking hell #it's so extremely hard that i actually don't have the energy for this shit #vegans are obviously a lucrative market but i wish they'd fuck the hell off away from free from food #because some people actually need that and for us it's not a trendy thing to do #(btw going gluten free if you're not a coeliac or gluten intollerant apparently isn't good for you) #i utterly detest having to eat it's such a horrible experience bc i can't even find meals that are safe #the things i find are like 'kirsty's kitchen mac & cheese' containing neither mac nor cheese #and also barely containing 'food' only 40% of the container is used and said food is a gross grey-green colour #and they added a smoky flavour so the thing tasted like a fuckin mushroom dish #who the FUCK wants smoky macaroni cheese? never ever ever heard of that as an option before #and i twas so bad i threw a stupidly expensive meal away #it was THAT BAD #yeah okay i just wnat to give up and die now bc this is so upsetting and just ugh i wan FOOD OKAY???? #i'm so hungry #I'M SO FUCKIN HUNGRY

[ettadunham]

forgot to update my age, whoops, anyway, i am now what we call a christ age 🥉🥉✌

#my birthday was like 2 days ago so no need to message me or anything #i p much escaped to ther side of the continent to celebrate in peace with some mustard cheese #and then i went on a train trip because that's my idea of a good time #ill be back in amsterdam though tomorrow until the end of the week #if you see me at any point during this do the polite thing and nod towards me before minding your own business 😽 #except if you have my hat i actually liked that hat i'd like it back if that's okay

[distantsonata]

cats will fucking eat anything and you cannot convince me otherwise

#things i have seen cats eat #watermelon #cornflake #an entire slice of cheese #mayonaise #frogs #broccoli with ranch on it #they are fucking FIENDS #and don't think my cats don't get fed #...they're fucking fat #they eat cheese what do you expect #OKAY I don't like feed my cats cheese #ONE of my cats #likes cheese #and I give her some sometimes lol #she did eat an entire slice though once when I dropped it #I was like #fair game bro fair game

[orcelito]

Maybe I accidentally opened the wrong car door in the parking lot today. And maybe I made omega grilled cheese sandwiches. But I finally got the Celica ring back in fire emblem echoes so who's REALLY winning today

#speculation nation #hfksbfksbcmsbxmsbxmsbxmshkfhsjxbs #ok car door thing is legit. the car looked the same and idfk man smth lapsed in my brain #so i opened the door & the guy inside was like 'Wrong Car!!!' and i was just like 'IM SO SORRY 😱' and then ran to the right one hfkshxjd #the. grilled cheese sandwiches is a joke. #the cheese is rly runny so it was Seeping out. almost like. an omega's... i shan't say... #lmfaoooooo and yea i played some more fire emblem. finally making some plot progress after a while #the thing earlier went fine. i was a Little cornered animal at a few points but i think i did alright #played some air hockey and DARTS. im rly bad at darts guys. i still won but it was dumb luck lmfao #so... for days to have today. it really wasnt too bad. #still miss my family & im looking forward to seeing them again. Life Events Considered. but im doing okay #gonna need to go to bed soon bc im gonna go see one of my BEST FRIENDS TOMORROW !!! jack ❤❤❤ #sometimes ur best friends with someone since 2016 and u have never met in person #WE WILL CHANGE THAT. TOMORROW!!!!! #yes.

[youaremysunshine-court]

A guy will be like 'I'm going to take a 2 hour long train ride so I can come see you" and ill still be wondering if I somehow forced him into it over text and if he really wants to see me

EDIT: AS I WAS WRITING THIS HE ASKED IF I NEED SOMEWHERE TO STAY AND OFFERED HIS HOUSE WHAT THE FUCK

#like if i did that it would be normal i do that for everyone #but when he does it im like oh no did i force it on him #post edit tags #so maybe he does want to see me #then again our whole friend group is like this #if i showed up in tajikistan tomorrow i know id be given a bed and some goat cheese #oh wow #people like me #people want to meet me #what the fuck #might be the strangest thing about my life right now lol #okay so my doubts were literally extinguished as i posted this i need to show sad jay this later #for rainy days

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Gonna bake bread and THEN make mac n cheese. Might go crazy and do some laundry. Will definitely go crazy and do some dishes. Fuck yeah.

#i have a friend. and i love this friend. and this friend lives homemade bread #i was talking to them once and they said (in general) 'if you bake me bread ill love you forever' #and im pretty sure this friend's love language is gifts BECAUSE #the only times theyve said i love you to me are when ive given them thigs #that sounds bad. but like. i say i love you like its my last day on earth. ill say it to cashiers. baristas. strangers on the street. idc #theyre more reserved with their declarations of love. the two times theyve said it to me are: #i brought them a heater when they were cold #i gave them earrings shaped like butterflies (they love butterflies) #so you see why i assume their love language may be gifts #im hoping to gain another i love you (and just to make them happy) by baking them some brioche (their fav bread) #idk ive been meaning to learn to bake bread and i love sharing the things that i make so it makes sense. and im making myself a loaf too #you see i show love by giving gifts too #im also going to make mac n cheese with a recipe my mom gave me #and i have to do doshes because im a disaster that only washes dishes when im completely out #i dont have a doshwasher so its difficult! i must be the dishwasher! #so. gonna bake bread. gonna make mac n cheese. gonna do dishes. gonna try to do laundry #okay wish me luck. i already bought the ingredients i just gotta dive right in #its so fucking hot why am i baking shit in this weather... #whatever

[laomelettedufromage]

Not to be a huge herp nerd but in Lbfad, they’ll occasionally have a frog chorus going in the night time nature scenes and they could very well be using East Asian frog calls (I know almost nothing about the herpetofauna of east Asia, let alone their frog calls) but it sounds like Pseudacris crucifer and Pseudacris maculata and so each time I’m like 👁👄👁 show me them

#it’s distracting #i get why birders get pretentious about bird calls in movies #unfortunately I only know the calls of midwestern US frog species #this spring I’ll hopefully be familiarized with some southeastern species that I haven’t seen a lot of yet #crucifer and maculata gave us some trouble this summer tho let me tell ya #it would always be dry and we’d be on a public road surrounded by private property #with maculata juusssttttt calling in the distance #plus I’m great at spotting frogs when they’re on land even if they’re very very tiny #but the second they’re in the water it’s like game over for me #and we encountered maculata in the water so often #they’re itty little guys #i would know it would be right in front of my face but I still couldn’t see the damn thing #okay I’m done flexing my frog muscles #love between fairy and devil #by yours truly the omelette of cheese

[ripley-ryan]

i’ve been keeping kosher since i was like ten but one thing i do really miss and i don’t think i’ll ever get over is that like dried little shredded pork bits??

this stuff. as a kid sometimes id either hang out with my friend at her grandmas or hang out at her home and her grandma would be there and whenever someone made rice this would be there and it was so good. literally going kosher this was the hardest thing to give up

#personal #no my dad didn’t really raise me or my siblings kosher #my dad was fairly lax about pork for two reasons #one. he really fucking liked pepperoni pizza and just assumed it was made with beef well into his 30s #he ended up developing a ‘pizza exception’ where he would allow himself to eat pepperoni and/or sausage on pizza with cheese #two. he believed that agricultural practices had improved over the last few thousand years and that the pork ban had been created mostly #because back then it was more unsafe to eat them as they tended to be unclean as it was to eat other livestock #that’s also why i was still raised jewish despite being patrilineal (aside from the obvious bit where we aren’t orthodox) #because his reasoning was that back in the day you didn’t really know for sure who the baby’s father was so because you had no idea if the #father was a jew or not then you just wouldn’t count that and would only go through the mother who you can literally confirm the baby is #related to #and for me well. we only knew for sure i was blood related to my father #i know there’s the whole thing about how women are automatically more connected to gd and that’s why judaism passes through them #but all traditions are rooted in some degree of logic #anyways #so i wasn’t actually entirely raised kosher because my dad approached kashrut laws from a logic perspective #which id argue is inherently more jewish than just blindly following those rules but i digress #anyways so when i went kosher it was like okay cool and everyone was cool with it #my dad doesn’t eat bacon or pork the majority of the time he only eats it for his ‘pizza exception’ so the house was mostly kosher anyways #because really who was making a pizza at home. so that was all fine #but i still really fucking miss that pork stuff with my rice

[xviruserrorx]

I don't understand why people get frustrated at things they knew were gonna happen because someone else is chronically I'll and it's happened multiple times before so it's not like it's new, like oh yeah sorry for existing like this

#family wanted me to go to this restaurant and to try their shakes and they've talked about it multiple times about going #and they kept mentioning it and just yeah so the said 'were going' and i just shrugged and said okay #we've been to restaurants times before and it goes the same every time with me getting fries or some type of potato or salad #because their safe foods and indont want to be sick and most of the time i cant eat almost all the menu so this isn't new #but they want to eat before we get these shakes (the shakes that are going to inevitably make me very sick) so we order food #surprise enough i order cheese fries that say they just have cheese on them on the menu but of course they lied as always #so the fries have bacon and chives and olives and a bunch of stuff and the cheese isnt even a cheese sauce #but cheese from the store thats been melted in a microwave on the fries and is very very oily and y'know great these are gonna make me sick #i force down the food as fast as i can and act like its fine but of course family gets mad that im doing this #they then ask after me trying to force down this food what flavor of shake i want and im probably gonna end up throwing #up half of the food i just ate and so i say no to the shake which is a gurantee of me being up all night throwing up #they get frustrated because 'we came here for the shakes' and i dont even know im so tired like #i font know what people want me to do i cant exist the way they want me to and eat the food and interact with the world how they want me to #like how do they want me to do thing? i wish people would tell me how they wanted me to do things and then i could do it #and i really can i can play pretend i do it sooo well i can eat the food you want me to and do what you want me to #but we literyjoked how i couldn't eat barely anything on the menu and we still got in the car and left and like #family is a bust my friends are too busy living and being with their other friends who arent sick so thats always hood to think about #literally got told to my face that she made a new friend (which is always good) but that this new friends reminded her exactly of me #and that they talks to them every single day and they've gone to movies and this and that and... i texted her multiple times #and she hasnt texted me back in months... infont think that lerson reminds me of who i AM i think they remind her of who i WAS #when i was sick very sick but still more abled and able to just exist #but yeah so im gonna write some fanfic - im gonna mod for something - then mod for another thing with really sweet mods in it #i wanted to rewatch a spn episode with the angels in it so ill do that and maybe work on a bracelet #and yeah... and then ill do it all over again and eat my safe foods and do the things that make me comfortable because fuck them #virus rambling

[keeps-ache]

hmmm. the vibes. they are strange

#just me hi #hhhggghhhh #so many things don't make sense.. ouh.... #//i gotta make food in a minute. the choice is between beans and corn ! #beans could be nice.. corn is great but i don't know if i want to go through the whole buttering and salting.. butter is not my favorite lo #most milk things aren't ! cheese is on some thin ice i'm telling you hhfsh #//also i've been having these typos where it's like a verbal mistake #like you might say 'graph' instead of 'grab' #that keeps happening!! i think it's cuz everything is stored as sounds and i'm not paying a lot of attention while i'm typing lol #//speaking of sounds i was talking with flame about telepaths and i think it'd be a lot more interesting if they were less soul-readers and #more electric-pulse readers that can translate them like a language. i think it'd be neat :> #like they could read a telegram before it got somewhere yknow? #/not that telegrams are used anymore. but i think that's a real shame! sure we have texting and stuff but telegrams were so cool !! #i also think we should bring back the pony express. it would be fun lol :3 #//i still have to make food.. wah.... #guess i'll go do that then #refried beans + a couple tablespoons of water + generous amount of cumin + a puff of garlic and it's really nice :D #cuuuuuuuuuuuminnnnnn my belooooooooveeeeed ♩ #//OH i think i'm gonna try using bl3nder again too !! #cuz i want to learn how to animate with it so !! :33 #apollo said he'd teach me so i guess i'll be attempting that later if i can remember #RIP my computer though she's not gonna like what happens next hghbsfhvh #//okay now i'm goooinggg i'm gonna makes Beans #toodles. ciao. adios. bye :3

[dmumt]

HOT BITCHES BLOWING UP MY PHONE!!!!1!!!!1!! (gp just texted me to ask if i'm still having shitting problems)

#he said im reviewing your letters from the hospital please do make an appointment if you are still having issues with your bowels.... #girl when do i not have issues ... i actually dont remember the last time i was able to digest stuff normally #tbh my ibs gave me some respite last week like things were okay nothing noteworthy happened. now im back on my bullshit quite literally #it's most definitely the colossal amount of cheese i have consumed over the past few weeks but we shall see we shall see 🤔 #.txt

[theyreallgaylol]

The minute I learn how to draw human anatomy it's over for me.

#im a lil okay at like bodies just cuz ive studied them a lil bit to draw anthropomorphic furries y'know? #but for some reason i cant gwt human faces/heads IN MY BRAIN and finding my own style for them is also soo hard and just ugh #drawing is hard and learninf to draw new things is harder 😭 #one day 🥺 #cheese thoughts

[exopelagic]

okay I got some thoughts just putting these here

#I am feeling. untethered. #it’s bc I didnt get out of bed until 2pm today and the sun is currently setting #I was awake from like 10-11 and the curtains were open I just didn’t get up :/ #and I only really just had lunch and I wanted to go to the library to work on my essay but there’s not much point now #bc I’m on a pretty strict time limit today #I’m meeting friends at 9 and I gotta cook + eat + wash up which takes like. 2 hours minimum. + calling home #probably abt 3 of the 5 hours I have left and going to the library cuts out 40 minutes of just travelling time and probably more like 50-60 #for getting ready to/actually leaving. + I’ll want some time at the end of the day before I leave to centre myself before I go out again #so I might as well stay in and work until I need to cook at like. 5? if I want to do everything in time? #which is fine but damn the 4pm sunsets get me. #anyway that’s fine I’ll feel better once I’ve done some work and cooked I think #lunch did not help. I know I’m probably lactose intolerant and yet I’ve started eating cheese again. I had a lot of cheese. #anyway it’s a little annoying bc yesterday was such a good day #I finally figured out my skates and I could SKATE again properly #and I’m not quite where I was in terms of control bc the new skates feel different but I could move without hurting #and that does make such a big difference. okay I was hurting a little but I’m closer than before and I think it’s abt breaking them in now #idk. The Wanting is shifting recently. both in the emotional and rational sides #I’m getting a much better idea of what I can actually do and feeling more okay within that #but the things I want are also shifting in response to that and some are pushing against it while others take a backseat #I think I just need time and to be in a less stressful + unstable position for a while but that. will only come with time #it’ll be better in may. that’s all I got rn and genuinely what I’m holding onto which is more than a little annoying but #I think I’m also feeling a little stupid bc of this New Guy I was talking to yesterday #I talked to him like two weeks ago and he was a little annoying but kinda endearing. soft eyes #and then again last night and we were just talking normally and he seemed kinda cool #but then I find his instagram this morning and it’s just. so many red flags. it’s all red flags. and I saw some of them the first time #there’s also. Big Luke™ bc we look the same but he’s like 6’?? maybe shorter? and I’m 5’6 #and like we’re just white guys with long curlyish brown hair but #idk he’s almost definitely straight and it’s entirely wishful thinking but here we are. it’s absolutely nothing #I’m just trying to get to know the guy bc he might be taking over my role next year and he’s fun to talk to #luke.txt