#I've always been drawn to flaky people

[akchually]

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#so there's this girl #and there's this conversation I had where I told Prettyboy about a coworker whose version of polyamory is #'she says she needs me back in Washington but I don't have a job there. I keep telling her to get another boyfriend while I'm out of town #just make sure he's not around when I visit so I don't have to fight anybody' #That tickled me. And the conversation ended with me getting like a third of a hall pass. I gotta call if anything happens. #Call so Prettyboy feels like he's part of my romantic life even when the romance isn't him #Which is the opposite track of the one I was giggling about okay yeah #But like my best friend here is. Super pretty. Ridiculously pretty. #And kind and works hard and takes care of the people she loves. She's always finding ways to help me. #And she's vegan and loves my cooking and that's my love language okay #I wanna make sure she eats I wanna see what happens if she's given full reigns on dominance I want I yearn #And we talk for hours about nothing but it's been weeks since I've been like one third available and I dunno how to tell her #Or if I should or if I'd be just another person in her life who wants her for what she can do for them #I think my intentions are good but it's lonely. The long distance and the seasonal work and the isolated town up in the mountains. #And maybe I just want to be held. #I know she's grey ace and a lot of the romantic relationships she's had in the past were very manipulative and not what she really wanted #Maybe that's what's pulling me in so hard like am I just insecure and want to prove myself yet again #I've always been drawn to flaky people #I wanna be the one person they show up for #This is the thing that I actually need to process in therapy and can't just lsd the anxiety away #Though that worked for most things #Take hallucinagens. Once. #I'm such a hugger but only worked up the courage to hug her a few days ago. #We've been talking (lowercase t) for months. #And I know she has her own long distance unicorn relationship back in Kentucky. I'm hoping the subject will just surface again. #And then I can say hey #I think you're really pretty

[hosts-of-valyria]

Love doesn't ask why

Rhaenys Nymeros Martell and Jon Stark: "You're a Stark by Lyanna, a DNA. You are not a bastard. You are Jon Stark or Jon Stark-Targaryen as you like. Nobody has the right to call you a bastard", he kissed her, "Jon Stark."

"Thank god that the Iron Throne is gone and that the kingdoms are independent, thank god Rhaegar burned the Iron Throne", said Jon.

"You're just shit sometimes, a bitch and scary Rhaenys. You're a real shitty little bitch sometimes. You and Daenerys are just total shit sometimes. Actually we wanted to end incest, Arianne fell in love with Robb and we both have feelings for each other. Fortunately, Daenerys doesn't want anything to do with incest. Fortunately, Aegon doesn't want anything to do with incest. House Stark, Martell and Targaryen should be burned down. Ideally, all houses in Westeros should be burned down. Burn House Stark down and I wouldn't care. I don't want to live north of the wall for the rest of my life, this world is so big and has so much to offer."

Elia looked up, "you have to put up with that from Jon, Rhaenys. You didn't make Jon your brother when you were older. I would have freaked out if you were intimate when you were kids. Lyanna would have freaked out if the two of you had been intimate when you were younger. You show affection and great love for one another, that's ok. You are really scary sometimes. There is no reason to hate Rhaegar, Lyanna or me, we can remain unmarried. You two can stay unmarried. Nobody here has stolen anything from anyone, like names, titles or claims."

Rhaenys nodded, "I also don't know who thinks something is stolen here, I'm a Martell and Targaryen like Aegon and Jon is a Stark and Targaryen. Never, I would never make Robb a king consort, before I would resign as queen. There will never be political marriages again, fuck the realm, when the undead are defeated Jon and I can move to Norvos and have a quiet life if he wants, he doesn't want to live north of the wall for the rest of his life. I don't have to be a queen, Arianne has proven herself to be the best queen in the north. Aegon calls himself Targaryen now, Sansa is now a Targaryen, I call myself Martell and Jon calls himself Stark. Where is the problem, right there is no problem. I would never hate Jon, hate is aversion; and I would never dislike Jon! Jon is not just a hero, he unites people of different languages ​​and skin colors, nations, races, through empathy. Nobody here needs an Iron Throne to show something regal, Sansa and Arianne are wise queens. This Iron Throne definitely had to go, Rhaegar did everything right. Aegon and Robb are good kings but there is more. I don't hate anyone, I love Jon more than my own life and we support Arianne, Robb, Aegon and Sansa in everything. My goodness it's just sex at first. Ok, incest is always wrong, but then Robert Baratheon is liable to prosecution as soon as he threatens us with death. I feel threatened by him every time he calls me, Aegon or Jon dragonspawn and screams that he wants to kill us. Even Myrcella feels threatened by Robert because he calls her a lion cunt. Jon told me that he sees Sansa as a sister and not me, and I also see Robb as my brother, I didn't make Jon my brother either. Aegon, Robb and Jon are brothers. Arya makes me, Sansa, Jon and Aegon siblings. Myrcella is like a sister to me.

This world must finally understand that there are no bastards. Jon is no damn bastard. What nonsense is it that Jon is supposed to be a bastard? I was also north of the wall and saw the undead. No, I will not accept that he swears an ugly oath to hunt wildlings, he already gets honor from others. Lock Mance Rayder away and it's good. The wildlings can stay in the north until the undead are defeated, as long as they don't loot. I also know where my duty is, I'm already tired from all the work and fighting, Jon is tired, he needs a break. We have children together and I won't let anyone claim that love is death of duty, certainly not. Others can move north of the wall to attack the undead, we are all Westerosi. No, Jon will take care of his weapons again in the near future, we won't be moving north of the wall any time soon. He's fed up with knowing that Robert Baratheon wants his death, Aegon's death, and my death, and now Sansa's death because he calls her a bitch. I also lost like Jon north of the wall against the undead, why should I command armies, others can too. The kingdoms can mobilize over 100,000 soldiers, but the emphasis is on together. We are on vacation with Lyarra and Visenya in the south."

Jon smiled and kissed her, "thank you Rhaenys", Rhaella, Aerys, Robb, Catelyn, Arianne, Rhaegar, Aegon, Sansa, Elia and Lyanna smiled, "so beautiful. Yes, we will take in the Wildlings in the north and Westeros will welcome them and Mance Rayder will be locked away. Take a vacation to Sunspear and get in the sun, you two. We will attack the undead soon. Tywin is also there. Cersei also wants to fight."

Rhaenys smiled, "Jon and I show affection and love and that has to be enough. Robb makes too many, massive mistakes. I just hate the Baratheons and Lannisters who think they have to start usurpations even though the Iron Throne is gone and independence prevails. It has to be over, I don't need to be a queen when Robb pulls himself together in the north, Arianne keeps saving his ass because he has to learn politics. Jon is a Stark and Targaryen, I'm a Martell and Targaryen, Aegon is a Martell and Targaryen, that's the way it is. Jon can call himself Stark on his own. Jon come to me if you want to cry, that's ok, men can cry. Ok honey here we have the truth. Listen carefully, you are no power to me, you know that too. I would never have a toxic relationship like Cersei does with Jaime, you know that very well, Jon. Someone should dare to say you don't know anything, my boyfriend knows a lot. Cathelyn, Myrcella, Sansa, Aegon, Robb and Arianne said several times that they like it when the two of us are together. Even if you had sex with Sansa, it would be incest, Jon. What should I do if you see me as a woman and not as your sister. You're already handsome Jon. I had your sweat and blood on my hands when we were little, you sat by my bed and we weren't intimate. You comforted me when I cried. You make Sansa your sister and not me, I'm always there for you, Jon. I was always there for you, what did I do wrong? You will always have my heart no matter where you are. It doesn't matter if you make me your sister or Sansa, she is a good queen by Aegon's side and Arianne is a good queen by Robb's side. Jon, like you, Arianne, Lyanna, Elia, Myrcella and Aegon, I'm scared of Robert. Jon, I've never been possessive of you or Aegon. You have never been possessive of me but the two of us have always had the closest bond because I can see how much you suffer. You have always been a good man, it's not difficult for me to fall in love with you either. You always played with Balerion. Myrcella or Arianne didn't want you, Jon, you have to understand that, they want you as their best friend, you're a cousin for Arianne too and she would never fuck you. Myrcella was more drawn to Trystane than to you, and she worships you as the best and strongest man in Westeros, you and Myrcella built the alliance and not me although Trystane is one of my cousins. Myrcella loves to travel with you to the wall or to the north. We are all not blind, you are damn good looking but they didn't want you.

Love doesn't ask why, it just has to be strong and the two of us have always spent most of our time together. You know what Aegon looked like, he had severe acne, and Sansa still liked him. If Sansa was a little bird, Aegon was a little worm. Arianne wasn't attractive when she was younger, and Robb saw that too. And Robb wasn't as handsome a few years ago as he is now. Your relationships didn't work, and mine didn't work either. Aegon's relationships didn't work out, he and Sansa weren't promised each other, they studied politics and the Game of Thrones together in Sunspear, like at school, Jon. Sansa was attacked by snakes in the desert. Sansa's relationship with Quentyn didn't work out.

The three of us weren't as attractive a few years ago as we are now. If we're going to be honest, you've always been the most handsome of the three of us. You have always been the sportiest and strongest of the three of us. I had extremely flaky hair as you know Jon."

Jon nodded. "Yes, I'm afraid of Robert. Yes, I know how Aegon looked a few years ago with severe acne."

Rhaenys groaned.

"Ok the truth hurts. Yeah you're right. I might be a manipulative, power hungry bitch sometimes, but I would never be your enemy, let alone hate you. You know that I don't hate our father, on the contrary, I love him, he is the best father, you know that too. Why should Aegon, you or I hate Rhaegar, there is no reason, Jon. If you want to be a monster hunter then others should know that too and see why you are fighting, they will cheer you Jon. But we won't make you a man of the Night's Watch. You already have love, friendships, affections, honors, what more do you want? You can train men and women yourself to hunt the undead.

Peace? Unfortunately, we won't be able to get there anytime soon. Yes the kingdoms are independent but there is still fighting going on, there are still wars between vassals and big houses.

The vassals of House Baratheon are in open rebellion against Robert, they call him evil, Brienne's father rebels against Robert. The hill tribes in the Mountains of the Vale rebel against House Arryn. The Boltons rebel against House Stark. Tywin plans to attack Highgarden. Tywin has no chance at Highgarden, Margaery is pregnant by Quentyn, the Dornish army and the Tyrells will push the Lannisters away. Balon Greyjoy calls Robert warmonger and usurper.

Our safest spots right now are Riverrun, Sunspear, Winterfell and King's Landing Jon.

Power must grow before wars and fighting on a broad front stop. Yes, fights are already coming to a standstill, but it will take some time until it stops completely. Nobody ever knew peace; the great houses of Westeros have already fought each other before Aegon the Conquer. The Iron Throne is gone but there are still fights because it was like this before Aegon in Westeros. Alliances are still needed to stop bloodshed.

I'm not a heartless bitch I am not evil, mean or vicious but we have to do something with your life, you have to want something, you have to want something more than defeating the Night King or you will always suffer, Jon, you are in your early twenties and you have your life ahead of you. Jon it doesn't matter if you make me your sister or girlfriend or if you make Sansa a sister or girlfriend, you always have my heart Jon. You suffer Jon. Aegon sees that, Robb sees that, Arianne sees that, Sansa sees that, I see that, never fight for others Jon, never. Incest is always wrong but if you perceive me as your partner that's fine. You're already handsome, that's the way it is. It's not difficult for me to fall in love with you either. You've always been a good man, you know things, we can build on that, Jon. But then we just can't get married, with incest we both have to show affection for each other. You also have Sansa's heart, she may learn slowly but she learns, she is not a little bird, she is a good queen, Sansa is always there for you too. Arianne is a good queen in the north. Arianne is always there for you. When you make me your girlfriend that's fine. I am always with you, no matter where you are, I am always in your heart, you are always in my heart. Yes, we all don't want you to swear this oath on the Night's Watch because this oath is ugly like the pitch black night. Jon, you'd die because of that oath, don't swear an oath that's ugly. There's enough to do in Westeros before we all attack the Night King together. The wall is also known in Dorne. When you swear an oath on the Night's Watch or move north of the wall now, you will die Jon. You already unite people, we can make so much more of your abilities. You could be the greatest man ever, you could be the best of all, you know things but what you know is not enough. And when you make me your girlfriend now I'll get you to the point that you know enough, that's my job now to get you there."

"Love doesn't ask why, it speaks from the heart and never explains. Don't you know, that love doesn't think twice? It can come all at once or whisper from a distance. Don't ask me if this feeling's right or wrong. It doesn't have to make much sense.

It just has to be this strong, because when you're in my arms I understand we don't try to have a voice. When our hearts make the choices there's no plan, it's in our hands. Jon is no power to me. He will always have my heart and I have his", thought Rhaenys

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