#I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im

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My heads a little odd it's like it was filled w water and it had a marble or something and everything I disturbe the water with sound or movement the marble thing goes crazy

#im thinking of a word but can't remember it lol #might have to skip sleep so i can shower before everybody wakes up and ask to be taken #somewhere? #like a clinic or anywhere for a checkup? #like i dont wanna go to er they're gonna make me wait hours bc im breathing and not bleeding lol #but maybe a simi clinic #disoriented is the word #i feel like an astronaut it's funny when not alarming it's like #when im very motion sick without the nausea? im just glad im not nauseous lol my stomachs been so nice the last week or so #we're all sick tho im thinking of asking if i could get a covid or influenza test done bc we're /all/ sick my dad almost kicked it last #weekend and my mom's taking a day off for the first time like ever #I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im #physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol #but i got a /normal/ fever twice or thrice in a week and it scared me so bad lmao they usually make me feel like #i was throw into a furnace but i felt the bone deep cold n all that relatively normal shit but it felt so foreign i was scared #naproxen and a 13h nap (lol) took care of it yesterday tho #im v scared of antibiotical restriction or whatever it's called I'm not very bilingual rn #so i never take them without them being prescribed by someone reputable lol #but I've been feeling like I've got a mild ear infection for what seems like forever which im aware can be super dangerous #but i was too focused on getting them to take me to the dentist first that I wasn't even thinking about that #(and they were going to! but then my dad got his phone stolen and he needs it for his job lol) #anyways my mom said that im either juuust entering a fever or coming out of it or whatevers the right term #which is why im so chatty rn lol my mom says i talk even thru my elbows (thanks gboard for the translation) but she #can tell when i have a fever bc i get squirmy bc of the heat + super chatty it's so funny #hopefully it all goes well and the simi doctor magically puts me a step closer to finding out what's Wrong™ w me #(magically a.k.a. medicine) #ive also wanted to talk w a doctor about how many antibiotics i was given as a kid without the #stomach pro something thing. for like thr flora so it doesn't die w the illness #and how it could be v closely tied to my chronic stomach issues (even tho i was like born w them but like it could have made that worse) #personal