#Im actually screaming so much rn

[deimosatellite]

devils by dostoevsky is actually the toxic yaoi of all time

#/LH BUT ALSO IM RIGHT HELPPP #im like 50 pages from the end rn and im SCREAMING #THE LENGTHS.PETRUSHA WENT . TO MAKE SURE NIKOLAI COULD NEVER LEAVE HIM #AND AFHTKDNC THE FUCK9NG #Hcbfn. hdnfckndbfkf. HDMNCNCKDNNFK!! #devils dostoevsky #demons dostoevsky #dostoevsky #the possessed #is there actually any explanation for petrushas entire plan being hinged on his worshipping nikolai #other then just purely being absolutely madly in love with him #HES LITERALLY SO TOXIC BUT LIKE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH LMAOOO #pyotr stepanovich verkhovensky #nikolai vsevolodovich stavrogin

[frostios]

(guy whos been drawing all day) man i wanna draw....

#chitter chatter #i still dont know what this crazed art energy is that i have rn #and im sooo scared of the eventual burnout #but rn im lovin just drawing little guys soooo much #its literally been nonstop lately im so serious when i tell you i drew like 15ish things over the weekend. like HUHH #15 is lowballing it completely actually.....good lird #anyways. i have like 5 ideas for matildas bday today but wont be able to start drawing them until 5pm 😭 screams and cries

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired #like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability #and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors #i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working #isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol #if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you #need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid #im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher #to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll #go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms #AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis #theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were #comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run #and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make #a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!! #im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need #to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh #yapping #vent

[synthshenanigans]

How dare he release a banger cover of one of my favorite songs ever at 4am where I cant yell, I hate him so much why

#im laughing so insanely rn i love this so much #i am actually losing my mind but like in the best way possible #also he's speaking/singing Japanese again & bros still p good it since haiku #don't have an official translation & im gettin it from discord but its a more worded version of “hurt people. hurt people” basically #i don't wanna fully state it cos i do not know the language & someone who's smarter than me can do that #but still cool to know #anyways I'm exploding now goodbye #hey hey did i ever mention i love saxophones #cos guess what i love saxophones #these songs are gonna have a LOTTA saxophone in it #also the screaming tho?????? fuckin losing my mind rn dude #my Spotify will never recover from this #chonny jash #moss post

[averlym]

HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical

:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf

have a doodle of the saints :3

#this is kinda because on someone's insta i saw one of the saints doing a peace sign dksajh have smth silly #adamandi #ask me stuff??? #realising i have to put my tags at the beginning before rambles or tumblr won't catch it #i am into adamandi. now. this is terrible timing because exam season but hMM the academic grindset really resonates now huh #the moment i caught myself in the ao3 tag i was like ''oh.'' #i have so many thoughts. so many many thoughts. im so insane about this musical actually. also the fandom so far seems so nice #also yeah! the number of people who know about it is quite small huh.. it makes me kinda feel like im infiltrating the group... ? #late to the party as ever. but it's. so so good. such a musical ever the brainrot is real #also the way the creators themselves are active on tumblr :OO rly cool. ngl the tags they left under my posts had me #giggling screaming kicking my feet etcetera... and bc apparently i thrive off positive reinforcement that sparked the whole cut fruit art.. #i am itching to know about the track thing with portia. also portrix real the lesbians keep winning!! also also i may have spent half a day #internet stalking ><. secret pinterest boards where :O #anyway thank you for the ask anon idk how to answer concisely but yes. adamandi. oh my god. #miscellany: can we appreciate ambrose's high notes.. also i was on wiki reading about ''apollonian vs dionysian'' it's insane #on yet another note. im entering my lin era rn i think. what a time. where can i run so true + vincent's surname my beloved. forest imagery #side note? tiny little detail i'd love to do smth about in the future: in word to the wise there's smth about “appraising your rings” and i #the one who pulls the strings beatrix mentions “bought my classmates rings” like. kjdfhsgjkhd???? thinks. #.. but new fav musical unlocked is all #between this and watt i am maybe into my murder musical era. confession that i don't do horror much because i have an overactive imaginatio #but like those two hit the spot. and i think organic imagery.. blood visuals.. is very cool// and the moment you start looking at literal #life and death situations then the dramaticness especially comes in and that's fun!! // also i read smth today about tragedy making you #appreciate irl stuff more. like ''wow thats messed up im sure glad that isnt me i love life''. and lowkey?? yeah

[kuragesoda]

how i look listening to the block party with a million fucking thoughts going through my brain at a hundred km per second but also not having the brain power to fully articulate everything all at once

#I AM GOING INSANE . I AM DERANGED #ive only listened to a few so far BUT I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO HAVE A STROKE LISTENING TO JYUSHI AND RAMUSABU (/pos) #AND HONOBONO !!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK #i have SO much to say but FUCK dude im so sleepy rn and im busy w events later GRAAAAH #will pass out for now adios . will probably scream abt this more in the reblogs once i actually sleep and finish w my business #hypmic #random rambling :'>>

[seiwas]

ANON THIS IS A REAL TIME REACTION TO UR MESSAGE BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE U WROTE ME AN ESSAY OF WHO U SHIP ME WITH PLEASE IM LITERALLY CRYING

#HELP #YOU EVEN ADDED MUSIC. AND AESTHETICS. #ANON WHAT DID I DO #TO DESERBE YOU #im actuallY SCREAMING RN #snifflING CRYING #let me GET TO IT #i talked so much again

[thefourchimes]

went to youtube and searched for ronance content without warning and now its making me want to rewatch st for ronance

what if yes

#these girls are going to be the death of me istg #i blame liv and finn for my predicament rn /lh #i love them so much #gonna scream actually #this might help me out with ronancetober tbf #alrighty #i need to rewatch the “so does that make us friends? as in officially?” scene and the robin kneeling for nancy scene anyway for a thing #im in deep oh god help me #[hysterical laughter] #ronance #nancy wheeler #robin buckley

[nandermoenthusiast]

oh my god i got so emotional SHUT UUUUUP

#911 #911verse #evan buckley #so this is what crying about a character is actually like #like i do be crying at times dont get me wrong #but i just love buck so much. i kept stopping the episode and going. omg omg omg #omg its happening. omg idk if i can actually watch this. omg its happening !!!!!!!!!!! #jesus christ JESUS CHRIST #like i know we throw the word around a lot but this is MY SON #and everything that happened in the episode. it was like it was happening to me #i felt actual physical damage and actual butterflies as the kiss moment approached #like theY DID THAT #THEY MADE MY BI SON CANONICALLY BI #idk to have this shift in a characters perception this late in a procedural….. 911 you gods #i really hope they can somehow make more seasons cause they would deserve ti #it. and like. this doesn’t have to be the end of buddie?? #they could get them together at any time bc buck realizing hes into men is a lot other worm can than buck realizing hes in love with #his best friend. i just dont know how they would do it with eddie bc they would have to pull a lot of focus over there too with a big #chance of feeling repetitive with their narratives #maybe they just show them together after a timejump and say they worked some stuff out idk lmao #ANYWAY I AM STILL CRYING BECAUSE BUCK MY SON IS A CANONICAL BISEXUAL JEALOUS DISASTER JUST LIKE HIS MAMA ❤️ #THIS IS WHAT REPRESENTATION IS ACTUALLY ALL ABOUT (and i mean his horrifying handling of the feelings of being left out of course lmao) #THE LOOK EDDIE SHOT HIM TOO #i am too frazzled rn i just need to scream i think #hi. im sorry this is me coming out of the 911 closet now that wwdits is on hiatus #evan buckley!!!!! #SON OF MY SONS #LIGHT OF MY LIFE #APPLE OF MY EYE

[llumimoon]

my sister, who hero reminds me of, took me out for driving lessons and noticed i was shakinf a little and in like a teasinf but concerned voice she was like u r ok ??? ur hyperventilating baby. and i wanted to weep bc i got smacked with a feeling of love

#cal rambles #she doesnt say baby often its not like a Thing she says like how some ppl call everyone darling or sweetheart #she said baby specifically calling ME baby bc jm the youngest #and im weeping hi sorry the reason why Hero and Normal's relationship is so so important to me #is bc it reminds me of my sister and my siblings okay OUGFG CRIES SCREAMS #they r so special to me specifically actually #especially bc. that sister was the one who got me to listen to dndads in the first olace #sorry im all emotional rn its late 😭 and jm a bit of a wreck #i love her so much. its been complicated before but i love her #i want that for them i want hero and normal to be happy i want them to eventually reach a point #where hero can teach normal how to drive where they can rob at eachother but also rely on each other #i want it for them so bad i know it can happen #anyways jm gonna lie down and weep until i stop getting emo over these teo

[belladonnaprice]

.

#livetweeting bridgerton s3 #appalling #the worst person you know just made a good point #goal to you miss cowper 😬 #😢 mama featherington is being hella cruel rn #oh look #🙃 its the advice that always makes me want to weep and scream from the agony and futility #oh yeah no #im /never/ going to be able to watch this season again #hittin a little too close to home thanks #😳😳😳 #well thats ballsy AF #ah #and he just had his /oh/ moment #dream sequence? dream sequence yeah #oop but not pens #awwwwe besties make up? 🥹 #awwww their wicked ™️ moment #'i hope youre happy. now that youre choosing this. i rrally hope you get and dont live to regret it. i hope youre happy in the end' #polin is so goddamn awkward i hate it 😭 #awwwwwww cmon #how we gonna let debbling down #he may be a vegetarian but hes still a decent chap #i hope the show doesnt break his heart too much 😅 #😭😭😭😭😭 not the slo mo close up of her with her fingers in her mouth 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #awwww no 😅😂😭😅 is cressida actually growing as a person and will get her hea with debling? #the speaking look between eloise and pen 😂 #*dying whale noises* not pen back at her awkward turtle routine bc shes anxious 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #its taken me so long to get this far in just the first half of the season 😭😭😭😭😭 bc secondhand embarrassment #oh i like her. whos blondie? (and also bens face. poor boy cant win for losing 😂)

[dandyshucks]

literally spends all day thinking about him and somehow still ends up sighing wistfully at the end of the day and thinking to myself "i want to think about him more...."

#i need to be put down like a sick dog fhdjdkl the yearning is getting out of hand #not that yearning is cringe but just its TOO MUCH FOR MEEEE I CAN'T DEAL W THIS #i think i might be getting into hyperfixa- okay wait as i type that out... glances at sketchbook. yeah im just now realizing that somehow? #''hyperfixation territory'' is what i was going to say. screaming rn DHDJSKL cannot believe i didnt put two and two together #yall ever uhhhhh hyperfixate on ur fictional spouse? i need to go for a walk or smth omfg #like it feels like when i get into a new media interest and just. cannot think abt Anything else for a few months #I haven't actually had a hyperfixation in so long... forgot what it felt like omg this is hell fhfjdksl #i would like one ticket to Normalcy PLEASE. get me OUTTA HERE ‼️‼️ #dandy.cmd

[skenpiel]

i've been occasionally seeing you post about pokemon and i'm Curious,,,,,,,,,,,, what starter did you pick? and what's your team like!!!!

I PICKED CYNDAQUIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my team changes a lot cause 1. i get bothered if All my pokemon (including the ones in my pc) arent the same level and 2. theyre all underleveled as FUCK. but mainly i keep a farfetched and poliwhirl as my tm/hm slaves and then i just kinda, pick whoever else is in need of exp. currently its just my misdreavus and then some low level gastly and paras i caught cause they know hypnosis and stun spore and i am getting SICK and TIREDDDD of hunting for raikou -_-

#I LOVEOPKEMON I CANT BELIEVE IT TOOK ME TWO TRIES TO FALL FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!! #even though im bad at it. so what im having fun -_- #i love cyndaquil btw hes a quilava now and his name is echidna ^__^ #they all have silly stupid names btw so i cant say them without being embarrassed. lol #anyways HI TORI I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!! lets talk about pokemon more when ive gotten a little bit further cuz im trying to. exp grind for th #pokemon league rn -_-; #idk how im gonna make it. my highest level pokemon is entei and ho-oh at 45 #and ho-oh is 45 when you CATCH it....... all my other guys are like below 35 Sweats #ITS GONNA TAKE SO LONGGGGGGG but i want raikou i want raikou NOW #its an ugly as fuck puppy doggy tiger thing. why is it so UGLY!!!!! #note its actually not that bad its just Erm im kinda pissed at not being able to catch it #i used my masterball for entei...... getting ho-oh was pretty easy cause i could just reset when i ran out of ultra balls #but. i cant fucking DO that with raikou cause the motherfucker RUNS AWAY #'legendary dogs' more like legendary PAINS IN MY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! screams and breaks stuff #HEHEHEEE i love u tori so much TELL ME ABT UR TEAM TOO BTW!!!!!!!!! #i forgot which one it is ur playing Um sorry !!!!

[jesse-cosay]

I just realized I'm gonna have to start posting art here again. Devastating.

#insta DOESNT allow you to opt out #neither does twitter and also i have always hated twitter #and noe tik tok is gonna be gone #tumblr doesnt even allow for the format i LIKE TO DRAW IN #LIKE IT DOES BUT EVERYONE HERE HATES THAT #my creative outlets are being shot in a back alley rn #was the ai frenzy mot enough #im abt to be so sad abt this man... #all my tt mutuals were so sweet and kind i love them im gonna MISS THEM #I wonder if ill never see Spud or Raine again 😭😭 #like i was so comfy posting all my shitty lazy doodles and everyone was just happy to have that #and here i frel like i need to finish stuff and yeah yeah its all abt enjoying your work but also it feels Bad when soemthing gets 20 notes #versus the amount of shares/comments i get on tt #like ppl actually TALK to me there #this is just me screaming into the void abt it bc obviously the ban will be us losing SO much more privacy than that #I might not even have Here anymore and i just dunno what id do with that 😭

[tittysuckersworld]

THE PEOPLES LIKE MINE ARTTTTT AAAAAAA

#i legit screamed a lil #which is bad cause really gotta sleep #but golly golly golly #wish i could just make a buncha fanarts rn #have at least 3 really good fics/poem thingies asked and have permission to make art for #so gonna do that hopefully soon #i just need to get school work done then work on the other stuffs yes #golly geebers glob heckers am so happy constantly now what #the beuty of humanity and connection never ceases to amaze me #asked in la class for a discussion if peopkes would give the housing to people with alergies or guide dogs and insted of choosing a side #they asked questions and proposed actually really really good ideas for how to find a semi sutible middle ground #and like so many really good artists and writers and just amazing people so much more all of sudden im getting to talk to a lil #and the mutuals/artists ive loved for a wile have been getting even better at arts and im wufbsudbsh #gosh i need to find the person again cause remember they felt down about their art but its just so so stunninggggg #like is so amazing i love art i love others creations i love how can just see so much positivity in world #being a sap but i dont care people can be so good!! people want to be good!!!!!! even if horid things are happening and some people are ick #the majority will try to be good in own ways and thats smth #thats all can hope for #i may just only be looking for positives but heck it im a lil positive thinker now abd the world has such beuty in small and big thingies

[garlique]

no one knows how much i want a goddamn cig

#but i cant talk about it !! i must be quiet!! #rly i want a disposable vape in the flavor of orbit sweet mint gum and i want to hit it for hours and hours and hours #screaming crying throwing up its been over 2 months and i still WANTTTTTTTT #but like scream ethan is only two weeks in and im so scared that if i actually let him know how it's still affecting me #that he'll go oh god and give up again and then we'll have to break up #because i really just feel like we have to be on the same page about it yknow?? #like we can either both smoke or both not smoke but i felt like i was fucking DYING the two months he was on cigs and i was quitted #idc if we smoke but we cant straddle that divide again i will kill him #and as much as i want a cig or a vape rn i know that overall im WAY happier being a nonsmoker #like my little autistic rat brain is still getting used to being off it but it really just shows me #HOW much of my life was structured around nicotine #and i know that by the time its been a year of no cigs it'll feel like a horrid memory but my god this process sucks ARSE #but again i cant talk about it so i just live lmao