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[memovia]

"i've never been wanted. not really. not by anyone." [Yingyue @ Muyang HUUUUU]

ANGST. | accepting!

✦。— To be wanted and to want. It was something of an idea that had grown foreign to someone like him. The warm, prickly feeling of desire, fleeting like the dew that set upon leaves when the moon was up and disappeared along with the presence of the sun. The distant remembrance of such emotions only seemed like a dream to him now.

The reality of it all, was that Muyang had lost such a concept in his heart. Slowly, he had stopped wanting to be wanted. Even he did not want himself. Something was gone within him and he only had himself to blame, but it was not something he would regret. In this world, the strong devour the weak and he was weak, therefore he changed.

Yet, for Yingyue... he wanted a fate that was different for her. After all, Muyang's life was merely another example of what not to become. What was desire when one did not desire oneself? The most important thing here was to love and accept yourself.

Hah. How hypocritical of him.

❝ Then you should start with you. You are the most important to yourself...Yingyue. ❞

His tone was oddly comforting and her name was uttered with an unfamiliar familiarity. To find himself wanting something for someone else was what the old him was capable of. The more time Muyang spent with her, he found himself reverting― back to when he was filled with so much hope and kindness.

❝ And if you cannot afford to, then I w― ❞

He halted with his words instantly.

...Then he would what? He would help her? He would want to be with her? He would want her?

No, he was undeserving of this closeness that he sought for. In fact, he did not even have the right to give her any advice. A gloved hand came up to cover his mouth, red eyes shifted their gaze to somewhere else.

Silence befell him after.

And if I were to want, then what would become of you and I? I am afraid to think about it. I am a body born out of failures, I do not want to fail you too. @everlastiingiimmortals.

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