#OH MY GOD THE UNFUNNY VIDEO WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOOOOO

[elytrafemme]

okay i will actually stop the public breakdown sort of now because it's kind of embarrassing but i do need to point out that my girlfriend sent me a video which i do not find funny and like i'm already splitting right now and i really do not need this energy in my life where are the funny men like what are we doing here

#public meltdowns are good to use in reserves bc people really care initially but after a while it's like #yeah okay here's mare again not handling her emotions which w/e that's my whole fucking thing but like #it is no longer fun so use it well when you have it that's just my advice #anyway. oh i forgot what i was going to say oh fucking whatever #now i'm just cold why is my room fucking freezing this time of year. i'm so fucked in college like actually #i'm genuinely going to snap in half in college it's going to be such a thing . i'm going to actually throw up i think #post canceled i got sad about going to college fucking sue me. okay? i'm going to go fucking crazy #do you know what it's like to watch yourself go crazy do you know what it's like to always be the crazy one #because i'm ALWAYS the crazy one like for years that's why i keep breaking down publicly #cause like everyone knows i'm THAT one you know. #and no i cannot talk about this one on one individually who the fuck do you think i am! who am i putting this on! #my friends are all like you should tell me your emotions No actually bc here's the thing #if people do not want to see me vent here they block tags and they unfollow and they block me #and like it's over. who cares. we're done bitches #but in text like there's no escape honey there is nothing #so like. even if i want that i don't do that i don't fuck with that. what am i even talking about #OH MY GOD THE UNFUNNY VIDEO WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOOOOO #i'm going to listen to the recs alek just sent me because alek is the best. you all follow him right #i'll just leave her on read who fucking cares #she's not gonna notice