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hwangskz · 5 years

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winning loss | street racer! changbin

a big fat shoutout to my bby @chanhee-bby for helping me out on choosing a member for this oof,, also no the title isn't related to the story JSHSCSSV

• seoul is a..... pretty wildt city

• and so is ur school .wildt

• and ur house is just?? nowhere to be found??

• like ur house is basically just hidden somewhere in the city, where even the Lord google maps himself can’t find it DJNDJNDJJDJJDDJJ

• “hey y/n is there possibly some kind of construction going on beside ur place?” - one of ur friends, once when they tried to come to ur house

• “no..??? send me a pic of where u r rn on kkt- BRO THAT PLACE IS HALF AN HOUR AWAY FROM MY HOUSE WHAT THE HECK???????”

• “i- I ONLY FOLLOWED THE DIRECTIONS THAT GOOGLE MAPS GAVE ME TO UR PLACE!!!!!!!! THROUGH THE LINK!!!!!!!”

• “oH YEAH??????? AND WHO SENT U THAT LINK?”

• “yOU”

• “..............oh...........”

• yeah the condition IS that bad

• anyways

• this also means that any dangers happening to u is more likely to happen than u urself can imagine

• “yo y/n did u watch the news? apparently that prisoner got away and is probably now hiding in ur area, bcs it is suspected to be the place where he will find his next victim”

• and now that ur walking to ur home with a bunch of ramen noodles and some strawberry milk in that grocery bag, u cant help but feel nervous

• after all there IS A FUCKING CRIMINAL OUT THERE U READERS

• wait

• what's that….. sound?

• u probably would’ve brushed it off if not for the fact that u had ur Precious food in ur hands

• not gonna let that one go, u fucking murderer (◣_◢)

• "um excuse me-"

•"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-"

• "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"

• LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON MS. Y/N AND MR-

• OH IT'S A BOY???????????

• y/n shut up it's not a murderer

• "JESUS CHRIST I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE"

• "ME TOO"

• "U THOUGHT THAT I WILL D I E????"

• "WELL YEAH IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT ANYONE CAN GET MURDERED U DUMBASS LADY"

• "......... right"

• both of u sigh at the fact that the other wasn't a murderer and an actual sane human

• (well.... can't assure u abt the sane part tho..)

• ANYWAYS

• "STOP SCREAMING IN MY EAR BOY"

• "SAYS THE ONE WHO SCREAMED FIRST????? AND IM NOT JUST SOME BOY IM SEO CHANGBIN OK ONE GREAT STREET RACER"

• u eye him from top to bottom ; he has a black leather jacket on (very sleek..hm), with brown boots, and his hair looks all gel-ed, and he owns some ?? bike ??

• cool bike tho (つ▀¯▀)つ

• "obviously, this bike is known for its-"

• "sounds like ur flexing bro"

• "im enlightening u"

• "PFT"

• u snort, followed by him laughing at u as u cough bcs damn u shouldn't have snorted, when after a while, the laughter seems to die down, resulting in silence

• "so, uh....are u going home alone? at this hour?"

• "yeah?"

• "u know there's a criminal on loose right.."

• "yeah"

• changbin sighs and then gets on his bike, followed by him patting the space behind him

• "get on. ill take u home."

• "u don't even know where i live"

• "but u know where u live"

• "...."

• changbin probably senses the tension in u, to which he gives u a smile

• "don't worry, ill drop u a few blocks away, if that makes u feel better"

• so here u are, sitting behind him, hands wrapped around his waist because ur scared u might fall off (but are u even complaining amirite)

• when he drops u off at the signboard, ur still gazing at the trees rhythmic movements to the wind

• "hey? we're here"

• "huh-"

• before u can comprehend, changbin takes u in his arms and keeps u down

• "t-thanks"

• "no problem, uh-"

• u look up too fast

• "y/n! y/n l/n!"

• and he grins

• "that's....a pretty cute name actually... fits for someone as cute as u.."

• u break into a grin too and then point at a building to ur right, not very far away

• "that's my place. feel free to come by whenever u want, yeah?"

• ":D!"

• and u run off into ur place, while changbin stands there, against his bike, thinking about how glad he was that he postponed the race to today

• the next day u were pretty sad :( bcs u rlly thought he'd come by yk? but he didn't the entire day :(

• but no worries anymore!! bcs at night

• THUD!

• "i- WHO'S THERE AT THIS HOU- oh????????? hELLO"

• changbin stood there, another empty milk carton in his hand that he was about throw when he saw u finally opened the window for him

• "h-hi y/n!!!!"

• "???? what r u doing here at this hour????"

• "come down first!!!!! ill tell u everything!!!"

• so u come down and he's just standing there, leaning against his bike as he pretends to look cool for u JSGSSVS

• "what's up?"

• "do u wanna!!! go to the convenience store!! together!! they recently stacked up on ur fav strawberry milk so"

• ":D OMG YES"

• so y'all go to the store to get the strawberry milk bcs strawberry milk? Superior

• "so..why were u throwing empty milk cartons at my window?- i mean,, don't people in movies and stuff throw rocks?"

• "well what if i had thrown one and it broke ur window? that's some stalker-ass shit. i don't do that. plus, it would've caused u some damage probably, physically and/or in terms of money. so why would i?"

• changbin stop being so caring for a second before y/n falls in love with u challenge ಥ_ಥ

• needless to say, this became a routine of the both of u; coming to the convenience store late at night and talking about ur lives

• yall felt so close (and so in love with each other) after every visit

• Insane.

• when one day

• "hey changbin, don't u have that race near my area tomorrow?? ill come around ok!!"

• and changbin almost SPITS out his milk because NO Y/N U CANT

• "why not (◕︵◕)"

• oh no

• not the puppy eye attack y/n pls

• "because-"

• "(◕︵◕) (◕︵◕) (◕︵◕) but changbin (◕︵◕) (◕︵◕) (◕︵◕) i have to support u (◕︵◕) (◕︵◕) (◕︵◕)"

• ".....fine"

• ":D YEEEEEE LET'S GO LOSERS!!!!!!!"

• that night when changbin goes home to his other 8 best friends they Automatically sense Tension wow what a bond

• even minho who usually doesn't give a fuck at all was concerned JDJDJDBD

• "she's coming to the race tomorrow"

• "isn't that a good thing? i mean there'll be the love ur life giving u all that damn support u need" - hyunjin

• "did u have extra dumb bitch juice today or what,,,,,, it's the competition with jihyuk and and the others. the final race."

• "he's right. but do even have a choice anymore" - chan, as he sits down beside changbin and gives him an assuring nod

• fast forward to the race setup already there, with u and changbin (ft. his 8 best friends) standing there at the start line

• "changbin, remember. i'm here for u, okay?"

• "everyone! get ready!"

• u move away, giving him a nod, when the race starts, with changbin starting at a full speed

• u knew he could do it

• for the days u have known him, ur sure he will win

• "and changbin wins!"

• there are loud cheers coming from ur side, while the other is quiet

• HAH LOSERS!!!!! CHANGBIN STAY WINNING

• changbin runs to u and hugs u so tightly

• "congratulations dumb bitch!!!!!"

• "thank u!!!!!!"

• the guy, who ur guessing to be jihyuk, comes around, with his helmet in one hand, and the other reaching out to handshake with changbin

• "well played"

• "you too."

• jihyuk glances at u for a second

• "tell me how it goes, yeah?"

• and then he leaves

• "so....y/n........are u free today...."

• ".............. yeah"

• "!!! to the convenience store we go!!!"

• yall did the same routine again, yk

• getting strawberry milk, talking abt life

• everything felt normal for u

• can't say the same abt changbin tho,,,,,, boy was LOSING HIS MIND HOW WAS HE SUPPOSED TO TELL U ABT HIS FEELS

• "god;;;;;; i should've just lost,,,,,"

• "??? did u say something ??"

• "HUH NO AHAHAAHA NO I DIDN'T?????"

• u didn't think much abt his behavior

• but when u reached home

• as u were abt to open the door to ur place

• "y/n! i- i like u!"

• u pause. all of a sudden????? a confession????

• u turn around to see him fidgeting with his fingers as he looks down

• "i-i'm sorry if this is so sudden..but i wanted to maybe take some time and then confess? but bcs i wanted to prove that i wasn't a coward abt my feelings i made a bet that if i won, i would confess.

• i thought that even if i won, i probably would delay it by taking my sweet time because GOD im a coward. but then u said that u would come and then OBVIOUSLY u had seen me looking like a coward even after i won and obviously my friends saw u too..so they probably would've told u anyways if i hadn't today. so i thought it was time that i stop being a cowa-"

• u cut him off by placing a quick kiss on his lips

• "shut up. u aren't a coward, dumbass. ur really one of the most confident people i've met..and that's a huge thing."

• changbin blushes and looks down, which makes u kiss him again when he looks up

• "i- did u just kiss me aga-"

• "seo changbin, i like u too."

• at first he just stands there, his mouth hung open at ur words, but then picks himself up and smiles before placing his lips on urs

• "perhaps im very glad i postponed the race that day"

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hudsonjoshua-blog1 · 7 years

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One Hell Of A Day

I'd made it so far. So many memories. But there was what I held so near and dear to my heart for years laying in a puddle. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but it was for the best. The United States Army was an adventure. I had good times, like when I was sent to Germany around October fest. Like... Holy Shit. And there were the bad times, like losing my buddies in battle. But that's beside the point. The point is what I learned and how it helped me for the rough times to come. Coming back from my 3rd deployment was the greatest feeling in the world. It was a rough one, but I can't share many details. Higher up may have a tight watch on me. So I'll just jump right in. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the end of the world. I don't know how it started, but these.... Things.... Just came out of nowhere. Canniballistic monsters formed from innocent civilians. No-one had enough time to hypothesize and research how and why this started, but we all have our own theories. To save time, I'll just make my back-story short and sweet. My biological father was a horrible man. An alcoholic and a drug-addict, abusive, an ass, ect. U get the point. I spent the first 10 years of my life (which he was only in the first 6) not understanding why my mom left him. By age 11, I knew. My mom remarried, which there's not much to say about that. By age 13, I was smoking cigarettes and drinking, becoming pretty wild. That carried on throughout high school, and on my 19th birthday, it caught up to me. I was arrested on my birthday for minor in possession of alcohol and a public intoxication. It was at that point that I decided I needed to stop. My brother took me to an army recruiter and boom... Theres my life. I was 3 years 11 months and 4 days into my second enlistment when it all happened. My Sergeant told me about people going crazy and eating one another. All my life I've been obsessed with zombies, but these things are worse. They can think, speak, and really fuck you up. I immediately called McKenzie, my beautiful wife. I'm sorry, but I have to tell you about her. She has the most gorgeous Brown hair and these eyes that can make u feel loved just by looking into them. Her smile shines with confidence and when she smiles at you, you can help but smile back. We have a daughter named Yvette. She was 3 at the time. That little girl is my whole world and I would kill anyone or anything that harmed her or my wife. And they look so much alike, both beautiful and smart. They are my favorite humans. I told McKenzie to stay with her parents until I could get home, which would be another 26 days, and she agreed. I worried sick for those 3 and a half weeks, constantly texting her to make sure she was OK. She said things we're getting pretty bad and it was slowly moving closer to our home town. All airlines we're shutdown due to the shit that was happening, so I drove my ass from Fort Lee, Virginia to Harrison, Arkansas, speeding the entire way. Took 16 hours, but I made it. I remember running through the yard and before I even made it half way, McKenzie had the door swung wide open and met me with a kiss. I missed her so fucking much. I was glad to be home. After lots of preparing, we gathered up out belongings and or daughter and decided to stay with her parents and her grandfather at their family cabin. It was a small cabin. One that was set out in the woods, secluded from the outside world for the most part. We got all settled in, and that's when I told McKenzie something I'll never forget. "I'm not scared, babe. But I have a feeling this is going to get much worse. No matter what, we stick together. " "Josh, I'm not scared either. Because I know I have u and Yvette. And my weapons! " She smiled at me. It restored my faith, and I felt that all would be alright. It was about dinner time, so we headed down stairs and ate a good meal before we headed back up to our room. That night I had a dream that we were back at home watching TV, seeing our favorite show, when there was a knock on the door. Two captains were at my front door and asked to come in. I allowed their entry and offered them a drink. They declined and told me that my best friend was killed in combat. Maika was in an LMTV when they were struck by an IED when they ran over it. "We need you to go back out to the field and take his place, Hudson. You're our best mechanic." "Sir... Is there noone else? I just got home. I don't want to leave my beautiful family." "We are sorry, but we need you, Hudson. It's an order straight from the BC. " I'll just go ahead and throw a fact in here. When you sign your first contract, it's usually 8 years (if you are active) 4 of those being real duty then 4 being reserve obligation where then can call you back to service. So this dream honestly made no sense because I had already filled my 8 years that were required. So in this dream, I left my family behind and went back out to the field. The gun shots made me jump out of my slumber. "Babe. Are u OK? Was it a nightmare? " McKenzie said. I guess I woke her up with my sudden jolt to the upright position. "Yeah. " I said with heavy breathing with a thin coat of sweat formed on my body. "It was just a nightmare. It wasn't real. It... Wasn't.. Real.. " I looked at the clock and read 2:03 AM. I got out of bed and walked slowly down the stairs to get some coffee. I knew I wasnt going back to sleep. McKenzies dad was sitting at the table drinking one himself. "You OK, Darryl? You're up pretty early." I whispered. "Just kinda worried about how we're gonna make it. Food only lasts so long you know. And if everything shuts down, we can't eat. " "How bad do you think this is going to get? " I asked filling myself a mug. "It's hard to say" he replied. "Could get worse, or, if we're lucky, it'll get taken care of real quick. I'm hoping for the best" he said, taking a sip of coffee. We sat and talked for a long time, then decided we better make our wives happy and start breakfast. I'm not a master chef, but I can make some mean pancakes. All from scratch. I guess the smell of my bomb ass pancakes and the bacon Darryl was cooking woke everyone up, because here came McKenzie down the stairs holding Yvette and Kathy was coming down the hall with that usual smile she had on her face. Darryl and Kathy were both nurses, Darryl being an RN nurse with a masters in education and online teaching certification. He taught in the LPN program. Kathy being a wound care nurse. They were both amazing people and didn't judge by appearance. "Good morning, everyone." Kathy said with a smile. McKenzie set Yvette down, and my beautiful daughter ran into my arms where I immediately lifted her above my head and did my daddy laugh. She laughed and laughed. She and I giggled for a few minutes until I smelt something burning. "MY PANCAKES!! " I yelled. I burnt one of them. We all laughed hysterically at it. I decided I had made enough for all of us, so I shut the stove off and took the plate of my masterpieces to the table and set them dead center. "Honey, would u like to say grace? " said Kathy to Darryl. "Sure, sweetheart. Lord, we give u this food in thanks for all that u do for us. Everyday we are blessed by your grace and mercy. We love u, Lord. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen" And so we ate. It was a wonderful breakfast filled with lots of laughs and love. We headed back upstairs afterwards. A few weeks passed, dealing with the same stuff. Smiles, food, the happy stuff, and of course, barely any sleep for me. We heard from friends and family that things were getting much worse at a faster rate. We decided to go scavenging in the town to see what was left, so McKenzie and I left Yvette with Darryl and Kathy. As we walked, we began to laugh and reminisce on old memories and discuss what we would do after this was all over. "I want another baby. A boy!" She said. "Me too, sweetheart. What would we name him?" I asked. "I like the name Steven. After your brother." My brother was my role model growing up. I had always wanted to be like him, following his every footstep. He was a Marine for 4 years and I missed him while he was gone. The military changed him. He became a hard shell that none could break into. U could never read him. He was a wall in which had no cracks. I wanted to be like that. We found a few things, but what surprised is was what we didn't find... People. There was no sign of life. No signs that anyone had been there in the past few months, and that scared me. The air has a horrific stench about it. I have that a storm was being above so I told McKenzie that we better head back. We scavenged for months after that, keeping my daughter taken care of before we took care of ourselves. She was growing so fast! Before I knew it, she was turning 4. Darryl and I made her a tire swing and surprised her with it. I pushed her until she felt like she was on top of the world. We met a few people about 4 months later. They were a couple named Tyler and Mercedes. They had a son who was 5 named Triton. He was a cool little dude. He and Yvette became great friends and loved playing hide and seek. McKenzie and I felt a little bit ballsey one day and decided to go into a large part of town. We headed out at about 11:45 to try and find supplies. As we entered town, I got a strange feeling in my stomach. The town was too quiet. The wind was too soft. It felt eerie, like in the horror movies when the killer is in the background causing dramatic irony. We turned the corner onto Green Street, and that's when I saw it. Hundreds and hundreds, possibly thousands of infected, lurking, sniffing. Now u may be wondering how the fuck I knew that it was the infected. Of u saw these things, u would know too. Trust me. I backed up slowly, motioning McKenzie behind me. "Let's go back. " I said. "Uhhh..... Babe...." I turned around to see a hoarde coming around the corner yelling at us. They were sprinting in our direction. "FUCK! RUN, KENZ!!! " I screamed. We took off, McKenzie following my lead. I took a random right turn down a street named Madrigal Way. They were still right behind us, so I told McKenzie to run faster. We began to sprint harder, until Mckenzie said she had to rest. "We cant rest right now. Come on! " I said. "Josh, I'm completely out of breath" she said between inhalations. "We gotta fucking run, McKenzie! Stop giving up! " She began to cry as I grabbed her arm and pulled her up. The hoardes were getting closer and closer with every moment wasted. We didn't have much of a gain, but it was enough to keep us safe as long as we kept moving. McKenzie and I sprinted for as long as she could before she dropped to her knees once again. We were by the old coffee shop off of west maple. I remembered an alley that was nearby with a fence that separated the two halves of it. I picked her up and threw her on my shoulder, running to the fence. "Climb, Kenz. Hurry!" She made it to the top and hopped over, landing on her feet. "Hurry, babe! They're behind you! " Without looking back, I lobbed over the fence, landing on my side. It stung, but I wasn't hurt. I began to run, when I heard McKenzie scream. I turned and the hoarde busted down the chain link barrier. It fell on her and they began trying to grab and bite her through the metal. I pulled out my .40, blasting faces off. I ran out of rounds in my clip, so I loaded another. Those 30 seconds passed so slow, and when the last one dropped, I ran to my wife. I scooted the fence off of her and saw she was crying, but alive. "Thank God... " "Josh... I'm hurt... " "Wha-" "My arm and leg... " I looked at her limbs to see multiple bites. My eyes widened, and I through her over my shoulder, running north back to the camp. When I got back, I kicked open the door, startling everyone inside enough to where they pulled pistols thinking I was an intruder. "What the fuck, Josh?! What are you-" Tyler yelled before I interrupted him. "Clear a space!! " I yelled. Darryl started to yell and clear shit off the table, allowing me to lay her down. We inspected the wounds as she began violently vomiting everywhere, including on herself. I let go screaming "FUCK! FUCK! WHY DID- SHIT! FUCK! " Seeing my wife like this killed me. I threw a chair across the room, breaking a leg off. Darryl walked over to me crying, and hugged my neck. "She's gonna become one of... Of.. Those things." He said through tears. I looked him in the eyes, knowing what I had to do. He couldn't do it. Neither could Kathy. I walked over to her, and squeezed her hand. She knew what had to be done, because she started crying. "I love you, baby. " she said. "I love u more. Forever and always, babe" She sat up and hugged her parents tightly, not wanting to let go. I helped her change into her favorite clothes and wiped her face. I carried her back down to the dining room, where she began vomiting once again. I wiped her face, cleaned her face and took a good look at her. She looked horrible. I carried her out the back door and laid her against a tree. I started crying and held her tight. I kissed her lips one last time, exchanging our last goodbyes. "Honey, I can't make u do this. Give me the gun." She said through tears. "Wha-What do you mean?" "Give me the fucking gun, Joshua." I handed her my pistol. I began to cry as her trembling hands raised the gun to her head. "I love you, baby" she said. She squeezed the trigger, blowing every memory, every image, everything out. I dropped to my knees, knowing that this was only the beginning. I bent down and grabbed her now limp body. I began sobbing and hugged her, feeling her warmth slowly fade. I'd made it so far. So many memories. But there was what I held so near and dear to my heart for years laying in a puddle. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but it was for the best. We buried her underneath the large oak tree out back. Depression hurts. Some say it's an emotion and you are just down all the time, but for me, it's more. I feel it in my bones. Deep in my joints. It deteriorates me physically, mentally, emotionally, and everything in between. That moment changed me and having to explain to my daughter why mommy isnt coming back is rough. She still doesn't understand. I question myself every day, asking if it was my fault, if I could have changed things. I miss her so much. I need her so much, but all i have are the memories.

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