#The life I lead is Not dark academia core I can only assume I hit some insecurity nerves and move on

[whalesfall]

thinking Weirdly about that time an ex friend was telling me about how she shittalked me with one of HER ex friends about how I was pretentious and how like, deeply alien to me that was. like I refuse to talk down to people (or try very hard not to) and I have difficulty Distilling shit into shorter sentences because I hate reducing ideas or not being totally clear, which isn’t for everyone but. pretentious?

#and then she said that their friendship had fallen apart and this was probably the moment I should’ve RECANTED my 15th second chance #but the pretentious accusation is so funny. no idea why I’m thinking about it right now but it’s so funny #like I’m sorry I guess. I don’t talk to people like they’re stupid. #will do that next time boss 🫡 #I don’t know… being pretentious is so ew. I then sat and listened to two hours of ‘what I would do if I met the queen of england’ like what #what was I doing!!! this was embarrassing for us both. #I hate the ‘I AM pretentious’ culture though so it was really bothersome at the time #The life I lead is Not dark academia core I can only assume I hit some insecurity nerves and move on #now I have zero patience for cloying attempts at praise in the form of ‘are you sure I’m smart enough to talk to you 🥺’ so #maybe this was weird for everyone involved. #I am surrounded by some really smart people and I’m only grateful for it! #sometimes the conversation isn’t for me or it’s above my understanding but it’s still fine? #🍂.txt