#alankaipa anon

[chawarin-panich]

See this is why I first starting talking to you. The insightful, heartfelt way you write about FK.

Would you believe that before I read all your FK fics I've read less than 10 RPF in all my time in fandom? (And not gonna age myself but thats quite the number of years.) Like I will admit if there was ever any couple to get me to consistently read fic about them it would be FK, but I've always been very happy to keep the boundary between CPs and their characters separate. I was always content to watch videos and see pics settled firmly in what they display to the public and nothing else.

And then you came along with your AK fic and I wanted more kind of fics like that from you I had to try reading your FK fics - and of course they were so wonderful I read them all and lost control of life. I'm obsessed. I've written fic! I might write more! I have a FK fic idea I kind of teased to you. I'm probably gonna draw them too! I don't know what has become of me! 🤯

There's less than a week left until moonlight chicken comes out and I'm a bundle of excitement for two characters that if they even show up in the same area at the same time I may vibrate out of existence! It's 100% your fault! Thank you for the insanity and obsession! I mean it truly! Thank you for inspiring me into a frenzy of fandom creation. It's been so long since it's gripped me this hard. And so I'll continue to send you as many asks until you ask me to stop. Because I blame you and that's absolutely a compliment! =D

hahahaha vibrating out of existence if alan and kaipa are in the same scene is SUCH A MOOD. I cant even blame anyone else. I really did wake up one day and was like alan and kaipa should be in love and everything has been madness since.

ahhhh!! anon this ask!!!. I seriously need to print it and put it up on my wall because i don't think ive ever been complimented quite like this. I am honored to be at the center of your brainrot!! I know I infected a few people with the AK brainrot but to think that contributed to your FK brainrot too!!! aahh!!! we are so brainrot compatible 🤧 and I am ready to take full responsibility and keep writing hahaha and like i can tell that you're feeling some genuine joy and excitement over it! this is it!!! this is how fandom is supposed to make you feel. I try very hard to keep my own energy within this wavelength and to think i helped you find this - im on such a high right now lol i seriously was clapping and squealing and outright cheering reading this. you have no idea how happy you made me. i am really shy about promoting my fics and only do it in the most inconsistent way 😅 (you may notice i dont have it linked anywhere on my blog) but this is such a stellar advertisement that well....if anyone else is curious here's my ao3 hah!

#nani answers #nani writes #alankaipa anon #things i like #serotonin boost #nani's writing shenanigans

[chawarin-panich]

First off, glad that one ask wasn't eaten! And aww! You don't need to give me a fic gift (though I won't say no), that's so nice of you! <3 And I'm happy to help with any and all fine ideas around you need them! (Though mainly AK and FK) I like being a sounding board for ideas and if that means the sequel for the OG AK fic comes faster even better! I'm super duper excited to read it! =D And omg 10 wips!? Thats amazing! Im excited for every single one of them!!

I read your BDSM FK fic and it was so yummy! I'm not always the best when it comes with angst but you seem to hit a good balance that's not overbearing. I bet the offgun meddlesome fic would so filled with so much mutual pining and misunderstandings it would be hair pulling ridiculous! So amazing! ;)

Honestly anything you written that I've read is *chef's kiss* so continue to do the great work at your own pace. It will definitely be worth the wait!

anon...there are now 12 wips RIP and one of those is just a brainstorming doc for fk fics i havent started writing aksjdhskjhdj

im going through this phase where i am very motivated to write so i write whatever i want to when I can which isn't the most conducive to finishing so everything is unpublished LOL. The one called AK Drabble is the one for you and it's about Kaipa finding Alan after his confrontation with Jim to call him out on being a classist piece of shit (for his you dumped me for this chicken rice vendor comment) - love is a mirror, a challenge, a chance to get better and so on and so forth god alan and kaipa make me so cheesy.

I hope I can write the offgun meddling fic soon. But actually I've been thinking about...about their romantic beginning asfkjaghj and this idea of like when does you liking someone even begin? When you first realize it or since the first time you remember liking something about them. Isn't every moment a little drop that ultimately makes this boundless cup overflow. The day Khaotung kissed First for the first time as Ayan is as precious as the day when Khaotung saw First for the first time though he doesn't really remember, as the first glass of water that First poured for him, as the first text First had sent him as the second and the third etc. what alan and kaipa just firstkhao makes me so cheesy. They really make me lose my mind, their love transcends the need for definition and that i really believe to be true asdajsfhkdjgh As always many 😍😘 for your praising my fics - I am an abyss of needing attention LOL so I will read these asks/comments when I'm down and I'm so happy you decided to talk to me :D :D

#nani answers #alankaipa anon #nice anons #nani's writing shenanigans

[chawarin-panich]

Sorry, same anon from like your last 4 or 5 asks. You'll let me know if I'm bombarding with too many asks, right? My insomnia decided to take over and so I've lost all self control rn. I do have an ao3 but I haven't posted anything in years. I'm too shy - hence the anon. But you've got blanket permission if you want to do anything with my little ficlet. Thank you for the lovely commentary, I'm glad you enjoyed it! =D

Same anon from before, just saw your other answer or would've put both in one ask. I found a clip of that video with English subs. First basically said that he doesn't wanna spoil us but also said him and khaotung have a lot of scenes together. I hope he wasn't messing with us.

anon im going to *expires* - why does he have a lot of scenes with khaotung what are they doing - if this becomes a buddy comedy where kaipa and alan band together to keep their love interests apart and falls in love in the process i might have to join the em twitter fans in their crusade against alankaipa asdkjshgjghjghfjh [i do need this to exist in fic form though lol]

but imagine - like as characters even without them being FK - Alan's path to healing and being able to trust again and also recognize his role in the way his relationship with Wen fell apart is actually a very strong storyline (and personally i feel its more compelling than JimWen's neglected suburban housewife getting with the poolboy vibe asdfghjhgfds dnt @ me plsss i promise i love EM lololol) Alan falling in love again centered around the themes of healing, redemption and second chances like riiiipppppp. the story then proceeds to just give you another single character who suffers a similar heartbreak but isn't dragged down by a jaded and grueling romantic past. Narratively, Kaipa is positioned almost perfectly to understand Alan but also inject his life with a little hope and maybe even call him out on his bullshit (just as a treat).

Kaipa saying, 'If we keep chasing after the one we love, do you think we'll ever be loved back?' in the same trailer where Wen tells Alan that he doesn't love him anymore like my adhd brain is making so many connections i can't even begin to sort through them.

A character who's vice is holding onto something a bit too tightly juxtaposed with one who's vice is neglecting the things that are important (they're foils your honor). They're at such different stages of their life faced with such different romantic problems but struggle with essentially two sides of the same issue: do i hold on or do i let go? and what role does love play in making that decision? what responsibility do i have to the one that i claim to love? Can two broken people heal each other? The only good answer (according to me) being only if they choose to: Alan and Kaipa can fall into tragedy just as easily as they can into healing and the outcome depends on an intricate balance between fate and choice. FirstKhao might be what brought me to AK but they are not the reason I've stayed with this pair and nurse their happy ending in the core of my heart. Anyway, I would love to help you regain your confidence so you feel comfortable posting on your account again. Like I'm not even joking your take on AK is really fresh and full of that hopefulness that really makes one believe that they'll make it without circumventing the difficult situation they're in. So tell me if there's anything I can do. also please send me asks whenever, you have no idea the favor you have done me (and @mr-iskender lol) in giving me this space to lose my mind over AK - there's only so much that someone outside the fandom can empathize with my constant AK yelling and EM fans terrify me too much for me to just go about posting AK headcanons before MLC has aired.

#alankaipa #firstkhao #nani answers #nani's hot takes #anon you own a piece of my heart

[chawarin-panich]

12?! You're amazing!! I have like maybe 3 ideas for fics in my head and the likelihood of any of them seeing the light of day is soooo slim. You're definitely a writing wizard! But hey! Whatever works for you! Writing is still writing - so just do you and it'll work itself out eventually! =D

I cannot wait that dribble! Kaipa calling on Alan's shit in order to help him grow and heal sounds wonderful! I know your tone will be so good! And who cares about being cheesy? You're having fun, I'm certainly having fun too!

Offgun fic is excellent yes, but that super romantic and pure fic you have ideas about. This I am salivating over! I love cheese, and I love sap. Gimme sugary sweet fic of them any day - it certainly suits them! <3

Well I have many praise where that came from. Though is it really praise when I'm just speaking the truth? 🤔 And I'm I de idea to talk to you too! 💚

just as a disclaimer whenever i talk about my talents or the quality of my writing, if unspecified, i am always comparing myself to...myself lol its the only way to keep sanity with that said i do think its quite amazing too that I have so many stories in the works! in that it has been a while since i lived in stories so thoroughly - at least a decade since i was a teenager when i was desperately processing my life through fic.

i don't know what it is about first and khaotung that has gripped me so tight but they really are my blorbos of all time and i can project absolutely everything onto them. But yeah here's why i think im always so motivated to write about them: 1) Their dynamic: Lots of things to love about this - their history obviously, how both of them have cycled through partners that havent quite stuck, how they lingered in the background of the other's CP. But most off all its that deep, beyond labels love they feel for each other such that the only word that even comes close is soulmate - which is exactly how i feel about @mr-iskender! in first's words: he completes my life! 2) Their base personalities: they're really quirky but like...in this almost neurodivergent way? like why are they always biting each other??? I have love languages that's like cracks fingers on someone's bicep to freak them out lmao idk i feel like i live on the same frequency as they do: anxious mess (first) and anxious mess - quiet edition (khaotung). 3) Their dynamic 2.0 - they are in subtle ways different in each other's presence (safehouse really killed me it really really did) than they are with everyone else which of course can be chalked down to comfort. it feels to me that this comfort stems from a recognition of the self (the projecting is starting) in the other.

As different as their outward personality seems like i find that there are core overlaps in the way they think and approach things. And I love exploring that below surface connection in fics. What's there when everything is stripped away? what remains when you forget that first tends to ramble and khaotung goes entire interviews just quietly (and lovingly) staring at first. How did they get here? How did First manage his people pleasing anxiety around someone like Khaotung who isn't very expressive? How does Khaotung deal with someone who needs so much reassurance when his happy place is being alone in his room with his cat?

they are like the OCs I could have written and their relationship is like a mystery i must solve hah! What was this answer even about? hahaha as always thanks for letting me ramble

#nani answers #nani's writing shenanigans #firstkhao #nice anons #my lovely alankaipa anon

[chawarin-panich]

Its 2am and I may have lost control of my life...

Even though Jim was the man that held his heart it wasn't like Kaipa was blind. Every weekend, like clockwork, the two men would have breakfast across the street from his family's stall. As Kaipa would be setting up shop he got to have glimpses of nice eye candy. Especially the man with glasses. He wondered if they were together, it seemed like it. It was a nice thought that Kaipa hoped could one day have with Jim.

In the months he'd been watching them, Kaipa noticed a shift in them in the last month. There seemed to be a strange tension and the less attractive of the two sometimes wouldn't show up or often left early, leaving the glasses man and his food. It was a little sad to watch. Soon it was just the glasses man, and then as of this past weekend... no one. Kaipa wondered about them briefly but didn't expect an answer.

Kaipa was shocked to receive one. He learned their names were Wen and Alan. How he came to this information was because Wen was cheating on Alan with Jim. Jim! Not only was Kaipa heartbroken, he didn't expect Jim would be that kind of person - a homewrecker. It was a blow to his heart. Even on the peripheral of the drama, Kaipa saw and learned enough to be crushed. He had to give up on his love...

Two weeks after most of the drama settled and Kaipa took time to mend his heart, the young man was in for a surprise when he saw Alan again on a weekend morning. It was almost like old times, but nothing was the same again. Instead of entering the small eatery, Alan hesitated before looking around. Kaipa watched as he approached his family's stall instead.

Apprehension gripped Kaipa as Alan sat down and asked, 'are you open?' Trying to play it cool like he didn't know most of what happened to this man's most recent relationship and hadn't watched this scrawny man try to beat up the much more muscular Jim, Kaipa replied with, 'no but I can open a little early just for you.' Kaipa winked in the hopes he came off cheeky and normal sounding. It's hard to when you share something so intimately in common and only one of you knows.

He seemed to have because all Alan did was laugh. Oh no. His smile not only lit up his entire face but there was enough sunshine from it to power a house. Kaipa barely caught his next words, shaken by how cute and handsome this man was. 'Well if you continue to do that every time you've got yourself a regular.' His heart skipped a beat at the thought of seeing him every week so near.

It was a little scary to realize he was developing a crush on Alan, but Kaipa tried to take it as his heart was healing. He would tell the other how they really know each other, but for now... Kaipa would bask in spending so close to the other man and cooking a meal for Alan. Who knows? Maybe this would be the start of something new, something better.

anon i am *screams* wow this was so beautiful and perfect i decided to stay in bed and read this 5 times instead of going into work (I can WFH dnt worry too much lol) the way you came for mix's whole career "the less attractive one" sdfghjhgfdsdfg and then kaipa doesn't even spare alan he's like this scrawny idiot i love him and he's right! this is such a perfect wonderful set up for a bittersweet fic. like i love that moment of joy between them how they are giving each other something to look forward to the next week. and they make that little connection kaipa with his terrible flirting and alan with his sunshine smile (it certainly powers MY house). its so mlc in its vibes, looking for those small moments that makes this shitty life worth living. But then there's this other layer that you know they'll have to deal with - that kaipa knows him, that kaipa knows wen and what happened between them. And I can imagine how for a person who's probably looking for some distance from that and likely a diminished sense of trust - to find out that kaipa kept these things from him. oh my heart T_T kaipa will help alan open his heart once more T_T and i love that he seems a little more balanced in the official trailer than he did in the pilot - i think he shows enough maturity to be actually able to do this instead of the crying mess clinging to jim for a chance.

#alankaipa #alankaipa fanfic #firstkhao fanfic #moonlight chicken fanfic #nani answers #anon i am screaming crying throwing up #if you start posting on ao3 know that you have at least one fan!!!

[chawarin-panich]

Same anon from before. Sent you a link in another ask for the Alan gifset I mentioned, hope you got it! I'm super excited if they get any screen time together. Not only because there's a chance you'll write more Alan/Kaipa. (I fucking love your first MLC one and would love to read more!)

i didn't get the other ask unfortunately so you were wise to follow up but sometimes even the tumblr ask eating glitch can be a case of divine intervention because i made the mistake of watching the moon represents my heart cover and!! what!! is!!! happening!!!!!! why are they standing next to each other? (seriously why are they even included in the first place?????)

and if that wasn't bad enough they made them give each other gay gazes - do you know that there's a point in their gay gazing where First quirks his eyebrow just so and by god is that the very edge of my sanity!!!!! in the words of @mr-iskender i am being firstkhao baited. do the MLC PR team know that they are spinning the tale of my villain origin story??????? they have gazed at each other??? so obviously they are married???????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!

#alankaipa #nani answers #anon i will write so many stories about them #i will be a madwoman by the time mlc airs

[chawarin-panich]

Back again! Just had another delulu thought. What if the reason the moonlight series - partially moonlight chicken - was delayed cause they realized how popular firstkhao are and added some Alan/Kaipa scenes in? It's clear they're trying to bank on their popularity in PR so why not cater to that?

i am ready to accept my role in this world as the alankaipa conspiracy theories blog. don't worry anon i have spent a great deal of my life spouting this exact thought to @mr-iskender and how they'd be insane to have FK in the same show blessedly without other partners but still not attached together?? what's the point? imagine having them right there and single - freshly so even - and not put them together???? first starts the show with a boyfriend and he's supposed to what??? end it without one???? like even in blacklist wasn't 50% of Joe's screentime just Jimbae trying to seduce him???????

first was ready to take it all off for him so when is it khaotung's turn to shake his ass??? why not in the show where he's already a hot twink with a daddy kink??????? i was, however, humbled by a brightwin shipper who said MLC's FK PR angle is the same stunt that GMM pulled for brightwin during the F4 promotions - so rip i think we cant avoid feeling the sting of a rarepair for a pair that isnt even rare...the lengths i go for my fk delulu lifestyle

#nani answers #alankaipa #joejimbae #firstkhao cinematic romanceverse

[chawarin-panich]

Please write more Alan/Kaipa and FitstKhao! You write them the best imo! Also the blog that made the gifset I was talking about is gunsatthaphan. So if you check their First tag you should be able to find it. It's the first gif of the set! (If you still can't find it I'll figure out how to copy the gif into an ask... I'm sure that's doable?)

jokes on you anon i am the mole person that lives in gunsatthaphan's firstkhao tag and I know what gifset you were talking about and the scene. I stared at it after your ask and then convinced myself that it was indeed kaipa 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 (though that is not khaotung's ass rip my chicken leg son) doreen's mv gifset is making me scream too the way the alankaipa scene was giffed has yeeted my soul outside the mortal realm (that is them looking at each other for real leave me to die on this hill) I was talking about you giving me vid evidence of First saying that they had scenes in mlc together because i haven't seen it lol but also maybe its better this way I only think about them 22 of the 24 hours of my day. The two hours of my dreamless REM cycle is the only precious time i have left to myself.

and also thank you anon 🤧🤧🤧 you're so sweet i love them such an unhealthy amount and im so happy that something good is coming from my insanity 🤧🤧🤧

#nani answers #alankaipa #firstkhao

[chawarin-panich]

Pls pls pls plsss put out a part two of the zeenunew fic let me be yours, i love it so much and ive waited for sooo long TT.TT literally been checking in every week to see if its updated

oh anon you have found out my weak spot - begging on tumblr for updates T___T I feel for you and I loved that verse but part of the reason why i gave up was that the response to it was tepid and I wasn't sure if the fandom was ready for a bdsm relationship. There were a lot of non-bdsm znn kink fics coming out at the same time with themes around atonement/punishment and some comments made me think that people were expecting 'let me be yours' to be about that as well which couldn't be farther from the truth. I guess I couldn't figure out my market! But now that I know you're waiting I'll think on it seriously. When the cutie pie SP comes out I will be even more focused on ZNN so maybe a Christmas release of part 2 (and beyond?) is definitely possible. I don't want to over-promise though because my health is still very precarious AND I am fairly focused on FirstKhao atm. I have around 2-3 FK fics, the second installment of my AlanKaipa fic and a SanRay fic I'm working on. The FK fandom is very small so I feel the need to assuage the worries for any of my FK readers here that I will not be abandoning them hahaha

#nani answers #zeenunew fanfic #firstkhao fanfic