#am I that old like?? goddamn lmfao

[loptrcoptr]

Your “my god how out of touch am I” moment of the day is: I keep getting comments on this fic I’m writing that are like “worth waiting for the update”, “this was worth the wait” and I’m so confused because I have been posting chapters… every ten days at most? what wait, that’s a fast schedule, I thought! And the chapters are between 5k and 7k words each! Each! The fifth chapter is currently sitting pretty at 10 fucking k so I’ll probably have to split it in half…

But I’m dying over this I think it is wild lol. Do people not remember what it was like to have fics that updated every six months, if that, for nearly a decade? Is this something no one else remembers? Have we gotten so into instant gratification culture that waiting a week for 5 thousand words of fanfic is a long time?

This is all so wild to me so I guess I’ll go write another 5k about it lmfao

#am I that old like?? goddamn lmfao #meanwhile Ellis #I did this to myself obv the first chapter is 7k. I should have split it up because now I have locked myself into longer formats for each #chalter which means I am busting my balls writing everyday which is w I l d this was NOT on my 2024 bingo card at all #oh well I’m just along for the ride at this point and I refuse to slow my roll #this fic will top 35k by chapter 6 and it looks like my estimated 14 chapters is gonna end up being closer #to 17 - 20 if I’m gauging my outline correctly #who am I you guys what is happening this fucking cartoon has straight up bodied me #me: I never complete nanowrimo writing 30k in a month is hard #also me: I will write nearly 40k in fanfic in a month though out of nowhere for no reason

[julesnichols]

The irony is not lost on me that while my RSD is still Very Much A Thing, it's something I'm slowly but surely struggling learning to push past and learning to walk away from a situation when it's getting to be too much and accepting it's a me problem but that also rejection is a part of life and I can't just shut down and reject other people and things before they reject me etc etc

That the Thing tm I'm having an anxiety attack over the possibility of being rejected here involves somebody who was like a mentor and who knew me at My Worst and Most Cringe (14-18, undiagnosed bipolar disorder, even worse RSD and misunderstanding of boundaries and had yet to learn coping techniques for any of that), and who still was in my life for a While after the fact before we both got busy, so presumably they'll want to help, and if they can't it won't be because they secretly hate me

AND YET

Here I am, having anxiety

#about me #dunno what this is lmao #but i just needed to yell #i am proud of myself for getting this far in like a decadeish #bc had this been back when i was 17 i could never have had the courage to do the thing scared and ask #but good god all my old unhealthy coping mechanisms are screaming at me to just Not Do This #and that what i want is Not Worth the possibility of being rejected #that is the devil talking. btw. if you even care #bc when you really really wanna do a thing and care a lot about it #but need to ask for help to get what you want #and have learned that caring a lot about something will only lead to it being taken from you #the absolute bravest thing you can do is to do it anyways and know that it will be worth it either way #bc not asking is always gonna be a rejection #and asking yeah they could say no. or be mean. but at least you've taken a chance to get what you want #and that is the hardest goddamn thing to learn #but i am learning it #in fits and starts #and it isn't easy and it mostly just fucking sucks tbh!! #but i am proud of myself for making it this far lmfao and knowing that like #even if i get a no yes it will hurt and upset me and i may spiral a little #but i will recognize that that is a ME problem #and act accordingly #to cope with it without letting my RSD hurt somebody

[piplupod]

disgruntled bc I can't tell if I'm getting sick or if I'm just worn out (sleep deprived) and have a weird sore throat/bad chest combo because of the pill that seemingly burned my throat this morning

#not like a heat burn but like... the coating sloughed off it immediately and then it started dissolving and got stuck as i was swallowing it #and it didn't actually Burn anything probably but it hurt for a good three hours afterwards #and still feels weird #feels like when u get any sort of mild chemical burn idk #anyways fuck them pills fjldl all tablets should have a coating that doesnt just melt away Immediately what the fuck man #it should last at LEAST thirty seconds after coming into contact w moisture goddamn #honestly I'd even take 10 seconds #but NOPE. u get approximately 2 seconds before its all gone. FUCKED UP IMHO !!! #anyways im going to go lie down and hope its just the med mishap and the lack of sleep #I SLEPT WELL LAST NIGHT THOUGH THANK GOD. I'M JUST EXHAUSTED STILL BC ITS BEEN LIKE 2 WEEKS OF BAD SLEEP #i will ... possibly skip tomorrows old lady group bc i dont want to get anyone sick if i am secretly sick #esp since one of the ladies there is actively getting chemo treatment lmfao i would like her to be okay #disappointing to miss it though esp since nobody showed up at the hospital group today ;-; no socializing for me this week maybe... #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[tariah23]

Jjk spoilers

#bro….. #and I haven’t been keeping up with the manga and all until just now since I was letting chapters pile up but apparently when these leaked #well when the raws leaked fans were going crazy about their being possible incest but i literally just read the chapter and it looked like #Sukuna just wanted to fight one of his old enemies and vice versa like I’m lost 🧍🏾‍♀️ #that’s that immature shipping brainrot mush ruining y’all’s abilities to take in context and read a damn few pages of development #weird #and #y’all are stupid #but also #goddamn… noo….. I don’t want this 🚶🏾‍♀️……. megumi…….. I am happy to see sukuna again but whenever his ass shows up the worst happens lmfao #the last time that he showed up was at the very end of shibuya I think… lord #rambling

[orcelito]

OK tales of arise spoilers ahead if anyone cares about it

I'm up on Lenegis now and I am having the TIME of my life with how relevant Dohalim is to all this. Like EVERYONE recognizes him. I'm realizing I have fallen for one of the best characters to fall for. I am Feasting.

#speculation nation #uhmmm i can make a spoiler tag. if people care about that. #toarise spoilers/ #Sure we can go with that. idk if anyone cares but i feel bad talking blatant spoilers about things lol #other than p5 that is. if ur following me & expect no p5 spoilers well I am very sorry lmfao that ship has long sailed #but yea we already met someone from his past. who called him 'Do' 😭 #references made to Old Hurts... #and everyone and their goddamn mother recognized him on sight. i love it very much #he really was such an amazing ally to gain. he's so high regarded. #we wouldve never gotten this far without him. not without a fight. #and he flew a SPACE SHIP. hfkshfkhs him being like 'well im just supervising the autopilot' UR STILL FLYING A SPACE SHIP #im thinking about actually trying to play him in fights. ive stayed playing alphen bc im boring like that lol #but like. i could see him more. he's already a permanent member of my fighting team. hmmmm #loving how lenegis has strings bgm. it really brings to mind Dohalim's backstory. which i rly hope was intentional bc Ow #hfkshfkd so excited to see where things go from here

[zerogutzz]

yeah im going all in

Bunch of insane lore rambles under the cut LMFAO

During the GOLB invasion, the veil between worlds became it's THINNEST. The world Max came from already had dimensional rift problems, it's the very things she was set out to study along with whatever happened to come out of them.

As we all know, Sadness attracts Madness, never did Max think that a rift would pull her in. A good 12-15 years is where she ended up getting spat back out after GOLB fused with Betty and fucked off.

She was lost for 3 months. Zero human contact. Only dangers and monsters and the occasional talking animal to point her to the human city.

She DOES eventually end up making it, stumbling on to the small ferry and falling flat in to the city. These citizens were humans, yes, but Golb knows that these aren't the same humans she's used to. They're all strange, wear strange clothes, and say strange phrases she only barely understands. You can imagine the wave of astonishment and relief she felt coming up on a giant sign that read "20TH CENTURY MAN IN HIS NATURAL HABITAT"

She's from the 22nd century, but goddamn if it wasn't close enough.

Following the curious crowd, an older gentleman stood in a dollhouse-like enclosure that mimicked that of an old fashioned home, decorated in familiar items and décor. The future-humans took their turns asking very.. Dumb. Questions. Most of the time repeating the same one in different ways. For some reason they're very focused on the different lamps. It was increasingly obvious that the gentleman acting as the 20th century man was just about ready to lose it if another comment was made about how light 'bulbs' are supposed to be pronounced light 'balls.'

"Excuse me." Max spoke up over the crowd. Simon glanced over at her from between his pinched nose bridge, pausing. It looked almost as if his shoulders relaxed. The way Max presented herself was something he hasn't seen in a very, very, very long time. Familiar clothes, cadence, and energy. "Could I talk to you, um, whenever you're done touring your.. Museum." Max asked. She was trying her very best not to make it sound urgent, despite the desperation she felt in her chest. "Oh, no, yes of course." Simon stumbled over his answer, nodding quickly. "We could talk now, if you'd like. It wouldn't hurt to close early."

The other people in group either huffed, rolled their eyes, or wandered off at the suggestion. Simon rubbed at the back of his neck, motioning Max to come inside. "Walls down." There was brief confusion, but it subsided as soon as the walls to the enclosure closed down like garage doors. Simon sighed heavily, turning to the new face in town with a tired smile. "What was it that you wanted to talk about, miss..?"

"Maxine Stronghold." Habit took over, flashing her detective badge and pocketing it in a single motion. That put the man on edge, his smile faltering. "Ah, you're not in trouble. That.. Sorry. Old habit. I was actually just here to ask if you actually were from the 20th century?" He perked back up. "Wha, why, yes. Are you not familiar with- Oh, my goodness I never actually introduced myself." Max's thick brow quirked up at him, his hand extending to her form. "Simon Petrikov. I, ah, used to be the Ice King. Difficult to imagine, I know, but rest assured-"

The increasingly confused look on the woman's face brought him to a stop. "... Sorry, did I say something wrong?"

"No." She answered slowly. "I just .. Um. I don't know where I am. Or how I got here. Or how there are wizards and talking food. I haven't had any genuine human contact in months. I was kind of hoping you'd be able to help me."

A moment of silence befell the two of them. A growing realization creeped on to Simon's face, putting his hand over his mouth and mumbling, "Oh my God." before putting a hand on her shoulder to have her sit down.

"Tell me everything."

#yeah okay so bacsically #so #arhe #aheruehha #simon petrikov #max #adventure time #fionna and cake #zerogutzz art

[dumplingsjinson]

Let me just uh, set some hard fucking boundaries with some of you people in regards to MY relationship.

Do not keep questioning my choices on MY relationship.

First of all, you're not in this relationship. Let me mess up and find out, if worse comes to worst. Let me fuck around and find out. I'm not going to blame you for not warning me, don't worry. Seriously. So stop questioning me.

Don't keep asking me, "Why don't you label things with him? I think it's bullshit that there are no labels. What's the POINT of this relationship if you're not labelled as such and such? You're just wasting your time. Stop that. It's weird. This doesn't seem right to me. Why call it exclusive if there's no labels?"

Let me fucking date how I want, damn. Let me be in a goddamn relationship how I want, without me needing to explain myself to you. You, who I don't even know. You, who's not even a mere acquaintance of mine. Even my friends aren't questioning me, so who are YOU to question me when you know virtually NOTHING about our relationship?

Why are YOU, as someone who doesn't know the full fucking picture, trying to enforce your rigid little rules onto ME? If you like labels and only commit strictly with someone once those labels are established, good for you! Do you!

But don't go on the internet, read the stuff someone shares (which doesn't paint the whole picture, mind you, because I'm not sharing my whole goddamn life biography on here) and then go running into their inbox and yell at them for their choices, or because their choices differs from yours. Don't do that because you don't KNOW them. Don't act like you know everything from the small details you've read. Yes, I share things on here, but only things I'm comfortable sharing. Surface level shit, basically.

What you think is normal isn't always someone else's normal. Please remember that.

The way some of you act in my inbox... It's embarrassing at best and disgustingly rude and kind of intrusive and also insulting at worst. And because you've got the anon feature on, you think you can just say anything. (That's a whole other rant I've been wanting to get off my chest. I've got a few drafts I've never posted that are from months ago lmfao).

Now, to tone down the aggressiveness for a fraction of as second, I get you care about me and it's probably coming from a good place, but I am TWENTY. THREE.

Let me remind you.

TWENTY THREE.

Not three.

Not thirteen.

TWENTY. FUCKING. THREE.

I can make my own decisions. I am a legal adult, probably moreso than some of you out here coming into my inbox and full on trying to start an interrogation with me like I did something wrong for wanting to do things MY way for MY relationship.

And SLIGHTING me for my choices is where I'm setting the hard boundary at.

DO NOT, and I repeat:

DO NOT...

...under any circumstances, come into my inbox and act like I'm a dumb fucking bitch. (I am a dumb fucking bitch, but I'm also a self aware dumb fucking bitch. There's a difference.)

I know what I'm doing, I know the consequences, I know what I'm in for. I'm not fucking stupid and naive. I'm not a 13 year old about to start her first relationship with her high school crush.

So stop treating me like a donkey, and stop questioning my choices. Remember, as harsh as this sounds, some of you need to hear this and REALISE this: You've got no place in my life to do that. Absolutely fucking none.

Learn to read the room and learn that there are lines that shouldn't be crossed.

OH, I need to add this here. Before some of you come into my inbox and ask me WHY I'm sharing shit if I'm not open to opinions on my choices... There's a difference between opinions and civil discussions, and crossing someone's boundaries and questioning their choices because you think YOUR way of doing things is the right way to do things.

Just because I share some stuff on here doesn't mean that warrants you an automatic pass to shit on my choices. Fuck that bullshit, because that's just shitty behaviour and you need to look inwards and realise you're doing a lot more harm than good by being a piece of shit to someone you essentially do not know.

Remember, if you won't say this shit to someone in real life while looking them in the eyes, then don't fucking say it on anon in some stranger's inbox. That's a dick move, and you're a prick if you do that. Fix yourself, for the sake of humanity.

That is all.

#long post #i've had had it up to here with some of you ngl #boundaries need to be set #long rant about some people in my inbox #rant #vent #i'm not adding a read more because i need some of you guys to read this whole thing #esp those anons sliding into my inbox and bitching about #don't go into my inbox and dress yourself up as anonymous so you can shit on my choices #i fucking hate that and i can tell you right off the bat if you do that #i do not want to be associated with the likes of you #i'm about to shame anyone who comes into my inbox after this and acts like assholes lmao #idc bc you deserve it if you read this and still continue to bitch about

[jodjuya]

I'm officially a hater. Every Halo game since the very first one is full of bullshit.

My many problems with Halo 4, as I experience them:

FOUR VIDEO GAMES IN A SERIES! FOUR DIFFERENT CONTROLLER MAPPINGS!!! MICROSOFT WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???

What is the compass needle even pointing to on 117's assault rifle? we're adrift in open space...

WHY ARE THERE MOTHERFUCKING QUICK TIME EVENTS IN THIS GAME? FUCK YOU!

"these Covenant seem more fanatical than the ones we've fought before" - how the fuck can you tell??

Why did they give Cortana baby-face and big tits?? Pick a direction, Microsoft!! She can be prepubescent or postpubescent but not both of them simultaneously!

Why am I supposed to feel any sort of emotional attachment to Cortana anyway? She's just a Microsoft Clippy with blue boobs stuck on 🙄

"I'm the only AI generated from a clone" I'm vibrating with rage at how goddamn stupid that is.

I THINK YOU LITERALLY HAVE MORE PRESSING PROBLEMS THAN RETURNING TO HALSEY TO FACTORY-RESET YOUR AI WAIFU, MASTER CHIEF! YOU ARE EVADING HOSTILE ALIEN FORCES ON A RANDOM PLANET GOD KNOWS WHERE! JUST GET A NEW AI WAIFU WHEN YOU GET HOME! FUCK

"[Unknown alien transmission]'s behaviour is odd!" - how the fuck do you know that Cortana??? This is your first time encountering this transmission, how do you know it's not supposed to be like that?

Maybe the reason all these aliens are so hostile to you, Master Chief, is because the very first guy you saw you punched in the jaw and threw down an elevator shaft! Would it kill you to just try saying "hello" first?

Lmfao @ Cortana calling out the Chief for the exact same thing literally seconds later

"Requiem! At least we know where we are now!" - my guy you have no fucking idea where you are

WHY THE FUCK DOES HALO HAVE CINEMATIC 3RD-PERSON MELEE ATTACKS NOW?! JUST CLOBBER THE FUCKING GUY AND MOVE ON!

This is something I really disliked in Halo 3 too, but those invisible barriers that hard block you from taking vehicles indoors, even if you do manage to scrape them past the non-invisible barriers. Let me drive a Ghost indoors!

Why can't they maintain my weapon loadout on either side of a cutscene? Halo 3 handled this really well.

But here in Halo 4 I take my lovely SAW and my lovely Fuel-Rod Cannon into a cutscene and come back out of it with an assault rifle and pistol. 😒😒😒

• Seriously, why does Cortana have the face of a nine year old child and the body of a twenty-nine year old woman?! Am I taking fucking crazy pills here??

I can forgive video game developers being horny, but not when it's this gratuitously bullshit

(and the voice of a 59 year old woman, going by the game's opening cutscene of Dr Eugenics' interrogation lmao)

The new forerunner enemies are cool enough, but it really feels like they copied Borderlands' homework with their design.

Why is Cortana so blithely confident with all her info-dumping about these random alien creatures she's never seen before in her damn life? And why is master chief taking anything she says seriously when he knows she's going through AI-Alzheimer's???

The Didact is bullshit. Who the fuck is this guy? why does he call himself a "Forerunner" when that's 'our' word for them? and how does he indentify us as "human"? Also why's he so mad at us for freeing him? This is all so very stupid.

Wow. ANOTHER escape sequence involving driving fast through some exploding superstructure? Come on, Microsoft, it's all very well and good to rest on your laurels but this is just masturbating with them... I swear to you on my mother's life that having an original idea isn't nearly as painful as you seem to think it might be...

Even more being stripped of my good weapons and reset back to basic bitch assault rifle + handgun

"the greatest enemy ever faced by the forerunners: you" - bitch you've been extinct for like 100,000 years what the fuck are you even talking about???

"the Prometheans, they're human" what the fuck are you even talking about?? Who the fuck are the Prometheans??

Genesong, evolutionary acceleration, thousands of lifetimes' worth of planning? What in the flying fuck is all this nonsense? When and why did Halo become "What If Star Trek Was About Using The Power Of Friendship To Kill God"?!

Look, Microsoft, this shit isn't fucking rocket science. I shouldn't have to take an undergraduate degree in Halology to understand the fucking story of a video game. I shouldn't have to go read god knows how fucking many spin-off novels there are just to know basic facts about your game like who in the flying fuck are all these goddamn Elder God alien species you're name-dropping. I should just play the game and have knowledge of the game from playing the fucking game. Jesus fucking christ pull your head out of your arse and stop jerking yourself off and start making some goddamn sense!!

Why can this Space Orc Big Bad use The Force like Darth Vader anyhow??

Why is defeating Space Orc Big Bad a fucking quicktime event???

Lol get vaporised, idiot

Why was nuking his spaceship another quicktime event? Just make the whole thing a cutscene, christ 🙄

Master Chief finally makes it to The Waifu Dimension (via nuclear bomb?????) and his first thought is "how do I escape from here?" instead of "oh cool I can finally kiss my holographic waifu"

And now he's just, like, chilling out in orbit around earth, perfectly fine and unharmed?? after setting off a nuclear bomb in his lap with his own two hands?????

Hey, so why was I fighting digi-struct robots for the entire back-half of this game anyway? Isn't Halo supposed to be about fighting The Covenant and The Flood?? 😒

Also, didn't the Covenant have an internal schism/civil war last game?? Like, that was the whole plot of the whole game. Why are the Elites back in the Covenant again; are we just not going to bother with explaining that?

Holy fuck I hate this fucking game. Really glad I only paid seven bucks for it.

Things I liked about Halo 4:

It looks pretty

No more dual-wielding. Fun concept, sure, but it made the games' control scheme fucked to shit. Really felt like Bungie made all of the enemies into utterly gratuitous damage-sponges to compensate for MC's higher DPS too, and that sucked.

The weapon rebalancing, in general. The new Needler kicks ass.

No more dragging around a giant posse of allies with me everywhere. I feel like that was another big contributor to the enemies needing to be so heavily-buffed with sponginess.

Really glad the Brutes aren't in this game. Those guys were the fucking worst.

The items from Halo 3 were mostly useless and just served to clutter up the game. Forgot they were there most of the time, and kept activating them by accident when trying to reload. Glad to see they've been fucked off/heavily retooled. The new active-camo gadget is useful and fun without being overpowered; I really like how well they've balanced it. All of the other gadgets are fairly middling though.

The new machine gun is great! (SURE WOULD BE NICE IF I WAS ABLE TO KEEP IT FOR MORE THAN HALF OF ONE LEVEL THOUGH)

I laughed when I saw a grunt sprinting at my Ghost with a lit grenade in each hand. Some real Serious-Sam-type nonsense right there 😂

Stomping around in the Mantis mech was extremely fun

The sticky-bomb handgun was pretty fun.

Final verdict: Microwaved Slop.

I'll eat it if I'm hungry enough, but I won't enjoy it.

#Halo 4 #jodjuyas video game reviews

[thegreymoon]

I am really not the target demographic for Red, White and Royal Blue and honestly, the entire premise sounds dumb af from where I'm sitting, but all the gifs that crossed my dash looked hilarious and that main actor is beyond gorgeous, so I am going to give it a shot tonight. My expectations are so low, that unless this movie gets a shovel and starts digging, there is no chance it cannot exceed them. I am so ready to eat my words, just give me some pretty people, mindless fluff and basic comedy and I will be happy, I swear!

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TWO FUCKING HOURS?

You guys, I'm going to be honest here, I don't think I have it in me to sit through this 😭😭

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LOL, only a younger brother 🤣🤣 They did not have the guts to go all in and make him the heir to the throne.

Also, lol @ "Prince of England's hearts" but even more so at "whom all the world adores" 🤣🤣 I cannot. I am absolutely not the target demographic for this and I don't think I have it in me to just go along with this, fictional British royal family or not. Who speaks like this? Who even believes it?

Anyway. Abolish the monarchy, Guillotine them all. Long live the glorious revolution!

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LMFAO 🤣🤣

Well, at least he looks equally disgusted.

If we can't off the royal family, how about we just off this news announcer? Because I am getting so much second-hand embarrassment.

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LMAO, OK, he gets ONE point 🤣🤣

OK, fine, two points, because he is stupid beautiful and the reason I sat down to watch this in the first place 😤

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Yassss, girlfriend has great taste!

I'm two minutes in and so far, she's my favourite. I would totally watch a two-hour movie of her touring London and giving commentary on the yumminess of various guys she encounters.

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LMAO, is he going to get hammered and smash the obscene 75-thousand-pound cake? 🤣🤣

Because why else would they mention that price point and also show the cake in all its humongous 8-tier glory 🤣🤣

Here for the diplomatic incident, ngl, I would totally read the shit out of that in the tabloids the next day 🤣🤣

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NOOOOO, THE CAKE IS RIGHT BEHIND THEM!

THEY WILL TOTALLY TOPPLE THAT CAKE!

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Okay, I am laughing 🤣🤣

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SCREAMING 🤣🤣

I saw it coming from a mile away, but goddamn, it DELIVERED! 🤣🤣

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I can't stop laughing 🤣🤣

Watching this was such a good decision 🤣🤣

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LOL, if this was a real-life event, I would spend a week gleefully reblogging it on Tumblr, no lie 🤣🤣

Also, it is a 9-TIER CAKE, not 8 🤣🤣 The more, the messier!

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LMFAO 🤣🤣

Also, OMG! Uma Thurman! 😍 It's been a hundred years since I watched her in anything!

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"Sunshine of my heart" 🤣🤣

This movie is hilarious 🤣🤣

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Wait, Sarah Shahi??

I loved her in Life! I also watched Fairly Legal for her and thought she was stunning in The L Word! I'm forever bitter we never got to see that Nancy Drew adaptation with her in the main role 😕

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The thing that is the most difficult for me to suspend my disbelief for is the idea that these two overly privileged young men involved in their countries' respective politics are actually nice people.

I keep chanting to myself, "You are not here for realism! You are not here for realism! YOU ARE NOT HERE FOR REALISM!"

To varying levels of success 😕

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Romantic comedies are so not my genre. And I am so not here for ex-boyfriends or whatever this guy is.

I need Alex and Henry to get back together ASAP and start smashing cakes again because I'm starting to get bored.

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These are gutter-level jokes.

Seriously, they couldn't get more creative?

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They have the most basic taste in literature ever. It doesn't even feel authentic, more like what a nineteen-year-old girl thinks good taste in literature should look like.

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I feel like I am extremely uncharitable towards this movie (the cake thing was funny tho) but it is very hard to take their bland flirting, pedestrian romance and pathetic humour seriously when you're coming into this from 2ha 😕 The standards that have been set are on another planet compared to what we are being given here.

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Please 😭

And smash another cake, otherwise I don't know how I'm going to make it through another hour-and-a-half of this 😭😭

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The things I will watch for pretty people 😭

He truly is stupid beautiful and makes this thing infinitely more watchable every time he's on screen.

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I'm with Henry on this one, this party is like something straight out of my worst nightmares and crushing on the tall, hot guy seems like the only tolerable thing in this whole hellscape.

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Aww, baby, he is not having a good time.

He wants to kiss him for New Year's too!

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LOL.

Well. That escalated 🤣🤣

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NOOOOO, WHAT ARE YOU DOING JUST STARING AFTER HIM?

RUN AFTER HIM AND TELL HIM IT'S OK AND THAT YOU SHOULD CONTINUE SOMEWHERE BEHIND CLOSED DOORS!!

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And some women! 👀

She's my favourite character in this thing, lol, followed closely by Sarah Shahi and Uma Thurman. And then Prince Henry 😅

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This guy stands no chance to the level that it's embarrassing he still keeps trying.

I almost feel sorry for him, but I kinda have the feeling that he's going to be the one to out Alex and Henry, so my sympathy is very shallow. Just know when you've lost, my man, and MOVE ON.

#red white and royal blue

[mirror-to-the-past]

So, I stopped liveblogging after a bit, because I just got absolutely lost in the EVERYTHING that was the OMORI Concert, but holy SHIT. What did everyone think of it? Any favorite pieces???

As I previously mentioned, "Trouble NEVER/ALWAYS" leading into "You Were Wrong. Go Back." was NUTS. The way that the orchestra made it so hype, you'd really think it was the introduction of an evil galactic overlord, rather than some guy throwing a tantrum after his girlfriend broke up with him, haha!

I can not emphasize enough how their rendition of "Trees..." tremendously altered my perception of the song. I liked it a lot before, really, but it wasn't particularly moving to me- just peaceful. This version of the song was so. wow. I struggle to find words for it. Same with "Sugar Star Planetarium" right afterwards. Fucking. Gorgeous.

Also putting "Just Leave Me Alone" and the rest of which I shall now call the Hooligans Suite, as they meshed it together in such an epic and cohesive way, after "Where We Used to Play" was just diabolical. I FELL OUT OF MY SEAT I WAS SO SURPRISED BY THE LOUDNESS, LOL. Speaking of the "Hooligans Suite" the guitarists just. URGH I LOVE THEM. This concert was way more metal than I expected, and I LOVED IT. The entire "Just Leave Me Alone"-"Cram It Wad"-"It Means Everything" was insanely epic, I felt like my heart stopped. Just like Space Boyfriend's theme, using the other Hooligans pieces as buildup to the main boss theme was so, so good. Did Aubrey and her gang such justice, like. I just felt so happy for my girl.

And then they put "Home for Flowers (Empty)" right afterwards, lol. If anyone's curious about how I looked after that sudden mood shift:

I'm now thoroughly on board of loving World's End Valentine now, because the instrumentation hurts my head less now, with this version, haha.

I am ADMITTEDLY a bit bummed that they didn't perform "Poems in the Fog" and "Forest Frenzy," as I can visualize Music Engine's style for those pieces so well, and I know it would be soooo beautifulll... but oh well...

I'm plesantly surprised that "Swirly 1000x" made the cut!! Very underrated piece, only used for one fight but godDAMN does it hit hard. The guitar 🎸🎸oncccee agaiiin. Crazy.

Also I knowwww it's not the most amazing piece in the world, but the jazz section of The Last Resort could have opened so cool with "Hanging With the Boys" right before that, but it's alright, I'm not gonna lose sleep over it.

The way I laughed when they jumpscared us with the organ for the first time because GoldenVengence was important enough as to demand the need for such a stately instrument, lol!

Can we talk about the clarinet in "Underwater Highway" because oooooghhh bleeeeh dead upon impact. It was so wonderful.... I love that piece already, but they made the descending notes so magical, and tranisitioned into "Squall" so beautifully.

You know what I AM gonna lose sleep over? THEY DIDN'T INCLUDE "H20:HCL" in the underwater section!! That piece is so beautiful... 😭😭

I think I blacked out and entered a trance-like state with everything from "See You Tomorrow" to "Truth." Somewhere within that period, wine and a tissue box appeared magically at my side, lmfao. Small comment in the midst of everything else that was That Section of the concert, but I'm so glad they kept "Gone," because that piece is so necessary for me, within that whole climactic sequence. It just oozes catharsis, it HAS to be included, no matter what.

But yeah anyway, "See You Tomorrow" and "Crossroads" just emanates the warmth of evening in summer. Those songs are laced with something magical, because I can see the orange of sunset so palpably in my mind's eye whenever I hear those pieces. Sweat on my skin, old t-shirts with fruit juice stains on them, other kids shrieking in the streets, being afraid of my neighbor's loud dog, getting pricked by thorns after walking into the forest- that's what those songs sound like to me. I don't get too nostalgic for the past much, but those songs make me feel like I'm a kid again. This rendition captured them perfectly.

Also wow, Basil, I see you and "A Home for Flowers (Daisy)" in the orchestral version, sounding like you jumped directly out of a Ghibli movie. I see you. T_T

Ha-ha-ha when the lights dimmed during "You Must Carry On" I didn't start freaking out at all..ha-ha-ha. What? I would never break out into goosepimples and jitters. Ha-ha-ha. Full body shakes who? I don't know her.

When "OMORI" started playing, a few others in the house who had never played the game and knew little to nothing about it stopped talking amongst themselves and came to watch the TV. It's THAT POIGNANT. I'll be honest, I love love love "DUET" as much as the next OMORI fan, but the song that makes me cry upon hearing it every time was never DUET, it was this one. DUET is a warm resurgance and appreciation for the things left behind, with a slight twinge of regret. "OMORI" is just pure, raw pain. And the string section didn't let me forget ittt hahahaha.

Tears were shed, people (me) were shaking, etc. etc. THANK YOU KAWAI KOTA for your amazing work in acting as Sunny's role amonst the violinists and concertmaster, your solo violin work and passion fully recaptured my feeling of playing the game for the first time, biting my nails with anticipation and heartache at whatever was happening next. Same goes to Kawamura Noriko for her work on piano, just... aaaaaaa!

Also bo en jumpscare!!! I love and respect that one individual in the audience who yelled "hands...!" during "My Time." It's honestly cruel for live orchestra to have the rule of "be silent during the performance!" because I would've had a vein popping if I was there from wanting to sing along so bad. I MEAN. IT'S *THE* SONG. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SING ALONG TO IT. Lucky for me, I was at home, and got to tipsily sing along to the lyrics from muscle memory, lmao.

I was expecting the choir that I saw filing into view to be for "My Time" that ended up playing later anyway- "Tee-hee Time" was a welcome surprise and amazingly epic!

Anyway that's about it from the top of mt head at the moment!! Please yell at me about what you thought of the concert- I stayed up late, went to sleep, got up again, and am still vibrating about it, lol! This has been the best part of my year so far- no joke.

ALSO WOOO OMORI MANGA. Can't wait for ENG translations- if this adaptation gives Sunny more explicit character voice, I'm not going to shut up about it ever. I won't shut up about it anyway, but I'll be not-shut-upping about it even more.

#omori #omori concert #omori manga

[coexistentialism]

re: DID asks-- 1- what's something you've learned recently (about DID in general, or about your own experience) that has been interesting and that you've been thinking about? 2- any favorite stories (books/movies/etc) that have characters you relate to in a DID/system-ish way, even if they're not canonically "supposed to be" rep?

1- LMAO this question ended up being extremely ironic because I literally was like fuck I don't know, I don't remember, so I went back to look back at old messages and my journal entries and I realized "OH, I wonder if part of the reason my amnesia has been so hidden is because I didn't think I had any memory issues because it's easy to just look back at old messages and journals to try and jog my memory. Which doesn't actually mean I don't have memory problems, I think that was just some kinda coping mechanism to hide those memory problems" lmfao.

Looking back at my recent journal entries, I am reminded that I made the realization that I think I remember my brother making fun of me for having different names on, like, my game save files or something (I particularly feel like I can remember him saying the name Raya in a mocking tone, to make fun of me, which was a name I used in my Pokemon Black 2/White 2 save file as a kid, which I'm now pretty sure was an alter) and it made me realize "oh, well that probably explains at least part of why I have such a difficult time with allowing myself to use different names"

I also wrote down "I wonder if. It’s not so much that I don’t know my alters so much as we are unaware of each other? Like I think we’re just so dissociated from each other and can’t communicate and can’t really share memories that it Feels like and Seems like I don’t know my alters, but I wonder if it’s really just a case of our dissociative barriers being so Goddamn high. I dunno."

2- Frankie Stein from G3 Monster High! I love them so much. They are so systemcore. Their whole thing is being made up of several different, what they call, "brain bits", and there's a whole episode dedicated to Frankie's identity issues because they struggle to be One - they struggle to stick to One outfit or identifying themself in One singular way - and at the end of the episode, them and their friends learn to accept that they are many different Things and that's okay. That episode was so important to me honestly. I have a Frankie Stein alter FNJDASFDS They're so important to me. The struggle to identifying themself in one singular way is something I so deeply have struggled with my whole life and seeing an episode, a character, who struggles so deeply with that, where the resolution is that they ARE several different things, made from several different "brain bits", and that's okay, and it's Awesome actually, did so much for my acceptance of myself.

#inbox #my posts

[sobeksewerrat]

Aro/Ace Character Headcannons ig

-> Realized I hc a lot of chrs as being on the aro/acespec so decided to compile them into a list. Might update later if I find my older post or remember some more [Featuring some last name hcs marked in blue for some TMF chrs lol]

Lia Hartwell(TMF): Gray AroAce

Jake Sterling (TMF): Asexual

Sean Everett (TMF): AroAce

Millicent Brooks (TMF): Asexual

Zoey Vineyard (TMF): AroAce

Drew (TMF): Demirose (just a fancy word for demi aroace)

Liam (TMF): Aceflux

Stacy (TMF): Aroflux

Stacy's Mom (TMF): Aromantic

Phoenix Wright (AA): Gray AroAce (look, it's in the name)

Miles Edgeworth (AA): AroAce

Franziska von Karma (AA): Demirose

Maya Fey (AA): AroAce

Dick Gumshoe (AA): Asexual

Ema Skye (AA): AroAce (but she doesn't realize it. Like at all)

Athena Cykes (AA): AroAce (she's literally rhe flag colours. Haven't even finished the AJ trilogy but the vibes are just-)

Ramona Flower (SP): AroAce. I am willing to fight people over this.

Wallace Wells(SP):somewhere on the Arospec, but he simply does not care enough

Mobile(SP): Cupioaro

Saiki Kusuo (TDLOSK): AroAce (self explanatory)

Teruhashi Kokomi (TDLOSK): CupioAroAce (also willing to fight over this)

Hairo [I FORGOT HIS LAST NAME HELP-] (TDLOSK): AroAce

Giulia Marcovaldo (Luca 2021): AroAce

Isabella Madrigal (Encanto): Aromantic

Sonic The Fucking Hedgehog from Sonic The Hedgehog: AROACE. I AM GONNA DIE ON THIS HILL.

SAME FOR SHADOW THE GODDAMN HEDGEHOG AND TAILS TOO

Heiji Hattori (DCMK): AroAce but he's clueless

Kudo Shinichi (DCMK): bro is a Sherlock Holmes kinnie of course he's AroAce /hj

Uhhhh who else I forgor

Jjdjdjdjfjgjg

OH YEAH

Alastor (Hazbin Hotel): AroAce. It's canon, ik, but still adding him

Angel Dust (Hazbin Hotel): Cupio AroAce, ty @roryheart for enlightening me

Charlie Morningstar (Hazbin Hotel): Cupio AroAce

Adam (Hazbin Hotel): Asexual- WAIT NO NO NO DONT GO JUST LISTEN TO ME-

Asmodeus (Helluva Boss): Cupio Ace. LISTEN, IT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY

The King of Lust himself being Asexual. JUST IMAGINE!!

maybe grayace would make more sense but shusshhhh

Striker (Helluva Boss): AroAce

Octavia (Helluva Boss): AroAce (too many plain old aroaces on this list lmfao)

The entire TSP cast is somewhere on the aro/ace spec no I won't take criticism, especially not from Narrator simps/lh

Uhhhhhhhhhhh

TBA

#sewer dump #aroace headcanons

[criminal-sen]

And one of the million billion reasons I like Mayuri is cuz, while we don't know his exact age, he's by rote a bit older than what I like to call the 'young generation' aka renji, rukia, uhhh izuru akon byakuya jfc you get what I mean. I like that he was an adult in turn back the pendulum whereas a lot of these other guys were kids. Even though everyone is like. At least a century old? I don't really find myself identifying with the 'younger' crowd, I think cuz they are supposed to mirror teenagers in a lot kf respects and be a comparison for ichigo n Co. They are still figuring shit out! We literally see them mature over the course of the manga! And I love them all to bits but goddamn I am almost 40.. gimme a guy who's irritable and cranky and overworked and probably tells kids to get off his lawn (and also. probably murders them lmfao)

#mayuri kurotsuchi #another downside of havjng a ff thats been in the works for so long #is i now want him to be a bit older than when j started writing it:/ #but 250 yrs old (my hc age for him) is such a batshit fictional age that i least have some wiggle room lol

[afaramir]

6, 13 and 22 for the ask game?

hi friend!!! thank u for sending these<3 i was gonna ask you if you wanted to send different questions bc there’s a couple repeats from the last ask but then i came up with new answers. if you still wanna send diff ones though i will answer them as well

6. which ship fans are the most annoying

ACTUALLY LMFAO I LIED IN THE LAST ONE. i think (hope?) you’ll find this one funny lol well the 0.5 people in the denethorongil ao3 tag who are just there for crack. girl the psychic situationship. that is so fucking interesting. this is like the reverse answer. which ship NON fans are the most annoying. Anyway. i think it just pisses me off whenever a dynamic that could be so thematically (and dramatically) intriguing gets dismissed or made into a joke bc like. come on is that the best we can do? perhaps i just frequently lack a sense of humour about this kind of thing. or maybe people mostly are not funny…who can say.

13. worst blorbofication…TWO!

now is my time to SHINE baby….little pathetic baby faramir is SUCH a textbook fucking case of blorbofication. that shit is ridiculous. yeah the idea of a punching bag dad to take shit out on and/or guy bending over backwards just for his dad's approval appeals to you. unrelatedly how is your relationship with your dad. but i swear to god i KNOW that there are other characters out there that fit this archetype better. there are PLENTY of sad little people pleasers out there. dont take one of the greatest bitchest craziest men in the whole wide green world and make him your little crybaby. if you read the denethor faramir relationship as abusive you gotta also understand that he is right there punching back at it all. goddamn. he had gone on the orders of the lord of the city indeed. peter jackson im gonna fucking get you. this is a guy that first blamed his brothers death on their father and THEN promptly forced said father to order him to his probable death for the sake of his own moral code he has never once laid down and taken it in his LIFE. he’s been arguing back since he was like seven years old or something. in MANY THINGS he displeased his father! he is not a doormat he is a motherfucking doorstop and he WILL make it your problem! also i don’t have anywhere else to put this opinion so it’s gonna go here. it hit me sometime yesterday that the desperate-to-please faramir narrative almost works better with canon denethor. i mean film faramir is a totally different guy so like im not even sure if he would have the same history with his father but like just bear with me here. if he knows that his father trusts him as a commander and yet cannot (seem to express, although failing to express for long enough is basically equivalent) love him as a son…that he has memories of… actually just kidding this doesn’t fucking work at all. because the POINT of it all is that denethor and faramir are the same until they’re not. sly and tactical and cunning and so so so numenorean that elros tar-minyatur would WEEP. while i think film faramir and book denethor are - if not diametric opposites, at least not. so similar. i mean peter jackson literally blorbified him himself. here is my new guy with maybe one of his key traits preserved. man when i reblog a film faramir gif im just imagining book faramir’s personality. i hope you all understand this. i just. i DO love david wenham’s faramir face. he put so so so much 100% home grown bitch energy into the capturing frodo and sam scene faramir and i am simply imagining him translating all that onto "on one occasion at least your counsel has prevailed, not long ago. it was the lord of the city that gave the errand to him." now THAT…oh captain my captain. do you get it

22. your favourite part of canon that everyone else ignores

on one occasion at least your counsel has prevailed not long ago/stir not the bitterness in the cup i poured for myself. people LOOOVE you wish now that our places had been exchanged but read two more lines girlypop IT GETS BETTER. i mean people smarter than me have figured it out already but "restraint"…the idea of faramir having been holding this back for a long time. perhaps even since he first realized boromir was dead and thinking oh. oh, father sent him, or agreed to let him go, or however it went down, and now he is dead and it is father's fault. jesus christ that makes me crazy. and denethor basically saying what else do you think i have been thinking about for weeks. do you dare to think this is new news to me im not the heartless bitch you think i am. of course i blame myself. ARE YOU KIDDING? this is like the entire dynamic contained in two lines of dialogue. i had a runner-up answer but im too sleepy to write it all out but ill tell you what it is and its how WEIRD denethor and faramir are. theyre so weird you guys. i am psychic and prophetic and i WILL make it your problem.

#from the inbox #bretwalda-lamnguin #LOL thank you again i hope these were entertaining. i could tell they were kind of selected carefully #i wrote all this on my commute home like five hours ago. weaponizing me being hungry and annoyed at my train being delayed #long post #i wont actually put it under a cut bc i dont wanna. but at least i'll tag it lol

[rhapsodyinprogress]

Goddamn, I only started looking at BG3 posts for the pretty art and headcanons, I was unprepared for the number of people a) completely unable to respect the boundaries of the voice actors - like, please don't trauma dump on them or tell them about your sex fantasies, the actors are real people and that's gross, c'mon b) completely unable to understand that, in a choice-based video game, your choices matter, and so treating the characters like shit will get you treated like shit? Like???? Every bg3 character has the capacity to be a great person or a terrible person based on your choices? Because it's fun to see what happens? Because it's a fucking game?!? It's not that deep? And c) holy shit if you don't like a particular character and someone is posting about why they DO you can just SCROLL PAST?!?. Just keep going, find the posts that speak you you and ignore the ones that don't, my God I am too old for this shit, lmfao.

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #every time I think I want to participate in fandom I remember why I don't #(except the West Wing fandom you all are cool) #like I just wanted the pretty artwork #and to share my love of the broken and beautiful companions #is that so much to ask?!

[mahoushoujotechsupport]

time for ep 5!

i definitely never paused before to look and see what it says when they show the witchboards lol so interesting to see this is written in latin 

and next shot is lukic’s book which is in english lol

my little excitable dumbass

are we ever gonna find out how conz got away with this at all before croix got to the school? like how did modding her broom not get the green team outright disqualified in the relay race lol

lmao

luna nova’s hot pot restaurant

i cannot emphasize how much i love the word vulgar. like growing up it just made me think of my parents but like a month ago i was talking to my friends about a very predominant personality type in my city and and there was just no better word to describe it than VULGAR and i felt like such an Old™️ but it was so perfect and like yea i feel you diana

lukic channeling ova diana

really i love this

lol she really said you guys are going to time out and then called them idiots

i love how ruthless this is made to feel but its like not at all really. i mean cmon, akko and amanda were being annoying and diana’s just here to do her work. no i am definitely not relating this to my time at the office dealing with stupid coworkers

hm... ok atsuko.

here’s a little treat for yall amandakko shippers

these two just fell from the sky once the sorcerer’s stone was too far away and are just perfectly fine. witches be sturdy

i know holbrooke’s a bit of an exception but man it really is amazing how akko just doesnt give up on luna nova ever. sure she came in guns blazing thinking she as a teenage girl could come help with something she had no knowledge of but like goddamn most, if not all, of the professors are so unnecessarily mean to her. 

yea sure she’s a troublemaker but moreso than the other students making fun of her, the most daunting thing really is how she gets treated by the people that are supposed to be helping her grow as both a person and a witch. like that’s your freaking job. i know there’s fics that try to humanize finnelan but nah she’s a bitch

like this is cruel lol all she did was come to do the right thing and tell the adults what happened and offer her help

bike au bike au bike au

we all shouldve picked up on sucy’s vore tendencies early on

kimochi warui

look at her hair,,,

she is literally just looking out for akko’s dumb ass here, but you know that one question that’s on psychometric assessments for ASD that goes something along the lines of “other people often tell me that what i said was impolite, even though i think it was polite” lmfao yeah

🔥 🚒 🧯

i love her so much

this scene but bike au challenge against louis

you guys will just have to deal with the random diana screenshots

you’d think with the cavendish family being such a big deal, the luna nova professors would at least know diana knows dragonese? like ok sure i get that they never even bothered thinking of getting the damn dragon loan promissory note translated but like lol

dragon text screenie

bless you conz

oh shit did not at all remember that amanda canonically calls jasminka “jasna”

akko face

really one of the best instances of “had us in the first half”

the lwa world is so amazing and ridiculous. like yea yea fafnir is a stock trading loan shark but also the idea of a dragon having this insane smart home security system set up is just lmao

☭ ☭ ☭ ☭ ☭ ☭

twitter communists calling out jeff bezos’ reptilian ass

sasuga... but really they’re so obsessed with her, how did no one know this? ya she’s following her dream and all but lmao diana’s gotta be sorely disappointed when she starts luna nova and finds out her teachers all share a brain cell

also love akko being genuinely impressed with diana’s language skills here lol

she smile

imagine how many times she just gives akko that look in the hallways later on and like the first time someone sees it happening theyre just so confused

lol everyone’s faces

diana cavendish has revoked your gay card

look at her smile again

also the little thing on holbrooke’s robes looks like a weed leaf missing the rest of its leaves in this shot

calm down you gays

ok thats a wrap on ep 5… will probably watch a couple more eps today since i don’t really have much to do

#gayanimeweed lwa re-watch party #ep 5