#and fuck i didn't know if i'd be alive this semester w how bad things were in April

[forestofsprites]

oh we are in full sobbing range folks. we are floods of tears not getting words out

#i can't begin to explain how much this means and changes things for me #everything the past 3 years #and i've beat myself up so hard for not doing this as an honours bc i had to be online bc y'know dying in bed #and now #not only have i got the smartest people i know telling me that i'm so capable they want me there and i can skip to a masters #but just that i can #y'know my health is so shit and it's so variable and i don't know how long this treatment plan will run for #before it fails #and #now i get to try #to do this #and fuck i didn't know if i'd be alive this semester w how bad things were in April #and this just doesn't even feel real #i'm happy to just to be alive #and all this on top is just #insanity #i just cant emphasize enough i thought id be dead #and im #ive veen so happy just to be here #just to be loving and living #and now this? this accolade? it doesnt feel real #its so much more than i could ever have hoped for myself