#and i know im lifting and gaining back muscle that i aptly lost over the last 2 years

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#tw weight #tw body image #im gonna cry pretty soon #ive gained 20lbs and my clothes just dont fit like before #my fave work pants are pinching me and i can only comfortably button them when im standing #so now im sitting at my desk with the button off and zipper down with my sweater covering it up #and i just feel so gross and flabby and i hate hate hate how my body looks rn #and im trying really hard to remind myself how grateful i am to have a body thats healthy and functioning #and i know im lifting and gaining back muscle that i aptly lost over the last 2 years #but its also unhealthy fat and i will kms if i need fo buy new clothes like literally would rather starve at this moment in time #its not even that bad im just literally neurotic and obsessive 🫠 #cant even look in my refelction rn like i pretend i do not see #and i love exercise so i know i can get down to a healthier weight #but im telling u i have never in my life weighed this much or looked this FAT #im thru #catch me at the gym 6 days a week 🤦🏼‍♀️