#and i'm not really a fan of how thy say they prefer the girl w her hair down and no glasses when yk. that's not really who she is

[astrxealis]

vcing w my friends rn but i kinda just muted and stopped watching and talking now bcs. :”)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #cw vvent #tw vent #i think there are just some differences that i. i really don't like? #dbgshbghddbhjg in the way that idk man but we're watching cloudy with a chance of meatballs (rewatching!) #and i'm not really a fan of how thy say they prefer the girl w her hair down and no glasses when yk. that's not really who she is #and how they're like . when she looked at the exit for a sec. they went 'yeah lol i wouldn't want to hang out w a lunatic too' #and ig it kinda sucks bcs i see the main guy as on the spectrum ?? aspie maybe ??? and ofc i'm still wondering if i am in fact #on the spectrum as well but at the very least i know how it feels like to be a weirdo and thank god i wasn't bullied or anything #but i can understand and somewhat empathize/sympathize on how it would feel and. i think my friends are just joking around #but i don't really like it but i'm scared to tell them that so i just kinda went away. this usually happens w vcs w them tbh #and ik it's my bday tmrw and they're doing this for me and lune and i kinda made it obvious idk what to do #and yeah i'm kinda fine w whatever but i think it's mostly that. there are things i actually want to do but. idk #i'm not used to opening up or asking things from others or being truthful with my real feelings deep down bcs i bottle it up sm #even if it's not obvious ;; so yeah. don't want the evening b4 my bday to be bad bcs plans already got cancelled #and idm tbh but it's still. saddening yk. so. yeah. i'll just chill or something! #it'll be my birthday but it feels like friends taking advantage of the fact it's a celebration of sorts to do what they want ig #even if i know that's not what they want to do or mean to do it comes off that way to me? #so uh. idk man. whatever i guess ^^; #have a feeling this'll be my worst bday so far tbh ... i'm trying to not be negative bcs even so #i think even if bad things happen the day doesn't have to be a bad one! #but. wbahjg. i don't want to say yeha. but i think. yeah.