#and one of my blueprints/fav archetypes for female characters in general

[lucy-ghoul]

Changed my pfp to the lovely Miss Daaé (one of, if not my most beloved gothic heroine 💕) as played by the super talented Amy Manford in the Greek production, since I'm in a Phantom mood these days (I'm even re-reading one of my fav phics and editing my....... *cringes* old Canon Divergent fic that I wrote when I was 19/20 because oh my god, it sure af needed some heavy adjustments brrrrr 🤦🏻🤦🏻)

#like. that fic is SO bad on many levels and my writing improved soooo much over the years it's not even funny #but i'm extremely fond of it since it was my first completed long fic #and i loved writing about erik (poor little meow meow Most Beloved etc. etc.) and his relationship with the main female protagonist #who is... technically not an oc but let's be honest. she's such a small character in canon #that the heavily detailed personality/backstory i gave her makes her almost an oc #and one of my blueprints/fav archetypes for female characters in general #it's not an e/c story (tho i do like e/c and the fic i'm currently rereading is a GREAT eristine au) #but i also tried to make *their* relationship (as told through the abovementioned not quite oc main pov) as nuanced #and tragically fascinating as i think it is in canon 🙏 #most of all it was a challenge. i remember my main goal was to write a relationship between erik and a young woman #with a VERY different personality than christine's. not bcs i dislike c. (quite the opposite as you can see from my pfp!) #but almost as a writing experiment. which most of my works usually end up being btw #so their relationship and eventually romance is some kind of a foil/distorted mirror of canon e/c. there's the (anti)villain/heroine + #older mentor/younger pupil + batb/death&the maiden themes etc. #BUT! the girl has a very different temperament than erik's main object of affection and desire #(wilder; darker; closer to his own actually *and* in itself a foil for christine's softer but not less strong nature) #and it's also true enemies to friends to lovers. and by far the most tragic thing i've ever written #like. i remember crying my heart out while writing erik's death scene... in the same chapter i made him and my girl fuck #and find some kind of romantic blessing after all the shit i put them through. unbelievable skskks #tho mind you it's NOT good. like AT ALL #actually i'm extremely embarrassed about it. how the fuck did i even think this was readable #let alone publishable on a fanfic site? OH MY FUCKING GOD. the shame the cringiness of it all...... #but as i already said i'm still very fond of and nostalgic about it. it's also a very personal work #i was going through some rough time and put a lot of myself my fears and mental struggle in it #yes the projection was... quite obvious in hindsight #still. it's in URGENT need of editing #also @ italian mutuals if you're into phantom please DON'T go seeking and read it. just..... don't 😬😬😬😂😂 #i promise my writing is much better now! not *that* good mind you lol. but at least it's vaguely decent (?) #val speaks #txt