#and that is not to say thay i promote harming yourself or anything its just that its very ostrichized and i dont. understand why

[phantommarigold]

me when I want to say something and type out a whole long thing and then decide actually I'm not good enough to talk about this or no they don't want to hear it and ah but what if I'm wrong of course I'm talking from a place of privilege and ignorance and my worldviews are too black and white and

#is thia what anxiety is i honestly dont know Lmao #but i have a crippling crippling fear of being wrong because my brain tells me that if im wrong everyone will abandon me because in this da #y and age you cant have bad takes!!! and i can't even rationalise with myself because i dont actually know if that's the case! #theres such a fucking priority on not being wrong about ANYTHING and its just overwhelming ynnow like i barely can barely survive school #how am i supposed to be never wrong!!! #and theres also such opposing ideas about some things like we say if it doesn't hurt other people its okay #but like extreme example so #tw self harm #we say self harm is bad? how so. if youre bruising yourself youre not harming anyone that isnt you #and that is not to say thay i promote harming yourself or anything its just that its very ostrichized and i dont. understand why #its hard to explain things like this i dont self harm dont know anyone who admits to it if they do but whats the logical explanation behind #self harming is bad besides saying because it's just bad #you dont bat an eye when someone picks at their lip untill it bleeds and isnt that a form of self harm? #i don't really know where i was going im just tired of how complicated everything is haha

[variforme]

What's k/rp? ive never heard of it before.

i’ll start by saying i’m not korean myself, i’m chinese, so i can’t speak from a korean person’s perspective, but i’ll direct you to a number of posts regarding the matter of k/rp on blogs run by koreans who have spoken up against it : here , here and here . 

but essentially, it’s a sub-genre of rp that basically treats korean people, specifically k/pop idols as their own specific “trope” ( in the same way you might have detective / crime rp, horror rp, etc. ) ; the vast majority of people who partake in the normalising of k/rp are those who tend to be ko/reaboos ( think wee/aboo but with korean culture instead of japanese culture ) and will generally have their own view of the culture often being shaped solely by what they might see in korean dramas and variety shows, a handful of interviews with their fav k/pop idol, etc ( which, as any kind of media tends to be, is often ridden with inaccurate representation ).

some do it for the sake of writing real k/pop idols / celebrities as themselves ( which is creepy in itself to claim that you know another person, who you don’t know personally, so well that you can write them as you would a fictional character ) or an “au version” of them, a real living person ( same as the former, but just placing them in a different setting ; i commonly see harmful stereotyping of asian gangs with “gang / mafia aus” going hand in hand with this ). some write it to ship two real living people, in the same essence as someone might write a fanfic. 

this isn’t to say that if you’re an oc using a k/pop idol or celebrity fc ( and therefore pull the “but i’m not k/rp myself !!!!” card ) and may or may not continue to write with k/rp writers, you’re exempt from being k/rp, as the other issues like stereotyping and fetishisation are often still prominent. it’s easy enough to tack on a claim that you aren’t this or that, but being passive / continuing to support or condone the issue is just as bad.

but even with that aside, it promotes the idea that koreans ( and other asians who are in k/pop groups, such as chinese, thai, taiwanese, japanese people ) are nothing more than their own isolated genre of media, rather than being actual people, and dehumanising them. there’s a ridiculous amount of culture erasing ( such as slapping on hangul / hanzi / kanji, etc for aesthetic, ignoring rocky political histories between asian countries ), having such a lack of research that you’d just mash a bunch of relatively “asian sounding” syllables together to name your asian muse, thinking asian ethnicities are interchangeable ( a la “its ok if i use this korean k/pop idol as an fc for my chinese muse theyre both asian and look similar !!!” racism ), blind stereotyping, infantalisation and fetishisation/objectification of east asians, especially females ( yeah i’m talking abt ppl n their blatant yellow fever fantasies and connotations of “uwu sweet docile petite east asians”, something which myself, and many other east asians, are subjected to constantly ; it makes me uncomfortable as fuck ).

it’s fine to write an east asian muse if you’re not east asian yourself, but for the love of god don’t let your portrayal be shaped by stereotyping, fetishisation and non-researched views of east asian poc and cultures specific to their respective ethnicities. be respectful and considerate when writing an ethnicity that differs to your own. i could go on, but i think this is already enough to go by. if any koreans or other east asians wish to correct me on anything i’ve said, or add any words of their own, feel free to do so !

#Anonymous #long post / #i aint tagging this as drama bc Actual Issues arent just ''''''Drama'''''' lmao dont reduce it down to such #anyway im Tired sdfgsd #im sorry i tried to keep this succinct but once u get me started i cant shut up sdfgsdf #also ignore the slashes in words i just added them in to avoid popping up in a bunch of searches