#and the worst part is… if a miracle occurred. if he suddenly changed overnight and became loving and supportive and caring

[cas-lost-grace]

This one is super cute, maybe sam asks Dean and Cas to babysit while him and his wife go out for a few hours? “I’m sorry that I got way too into playing house and accidentally kissed you passionately”

This took ages and I´m so so so sorry! I loved the prompt though so here´s the best I could come up with

"If something happens, anything, just call, Eileen and I can be back in two hours if we drive fast."

Dean rolls his eyes. "No way I’m ruining your vacation. You didn’t have any alone time with your wife ever since Mary was born."

Sam opens his mouth to protest, but Castiel cuts him off. "We call if it’s serious, but I doubt such a situation that would need your return will occur."

Dean grins and places a hand on Cas’ shoulder, the toddler in Cas’ arms look at him and reaches her tiny hands towards Dean’s face "Da!"

"Right, we can handle it, Sam. Your baby girl is in the best hands. Right, ladybug?" he leans down and lets Mary touch his stubbled cheeks. He makes a silly face and she laughs.

"See? She’s gonna be alright. Trust us. Cas is a paramedic and I’m a teacher, who would make better babysitters?"

Sam raises an eyebrow. "You teach high school, Dean."

"That’s just a detail. Come on, Sam, you should go, your wife is waiting for you," Dean says opening the door, "go and make her happy, if she’s able to walk when you return, you’re doing it wrong," he adds and pushes his brother out.

"Dean!" Sam cries out scandalized. "Stop talking like that or I change my mind about leaving my daughter with you."

Cas huffs out a laugh and takes a step closer to Sam. "Say bye to daddy," he hands the child to Sam who hugs her tightly.

She coos and presses her tiny face against Sam’s neck.

"Be a good girl and take care of uncle Dean and uncle Cas, we couldn’t leave them alone, that’s why you have to stay," he stage- whispers.

Dean snorts. "Okay, gimme the baby and go."

Sam peppers Mary’s face with kisses making her chuckle, then reluctantly hands her to Dean.

"Okay, bye. I’ll call you when we arrive."

"Bye!" Dean slams the door shut in Sam’s face.

"Oh god, I thought he’d never leave," Dean sighs.

"It’s understandable that he’s nervous. It’s their first time leaving her overnight."

"Yeah, I get it, I get it. I wouldn’t want to leave this little princess either. So, what now? A little snack and then a walk in the park?"

"Sounds great to me, what do you think, ma’am?"

"Ga!" she shouts.

"I’d say it was a yes," Cas smiles at Dean.

"Definitely a yes."

 Of course, Dean notices the looks. You don’t see two guys with a stroller in a park that often. To his relief most of the strangers that notice them give them a smile. It still makes something uncomfortable stir in Dean’s chest. He looks down at his niece crawling on all fours towards Cas who’s encouraging her. His gummy smile is brighter than the sun and he looks so natural playing with the baby. It’s so easy to imagine this is real, that they are real parents spending a sunny day with their baby in a park.

Dean shakes his head and focuses on the bag hanging from the handlebars of the stroller and starts to rummage through its contents. They’re not parents, they’re not even partners. Castiel is just his roommate and best friend and that’s not gonna change no matter the amount of daydreaming Dean does.

He finally finds the toy he’s been looking for and returns to Cas and Mary. Castiel is lying on his back on a blanket, making airplane sounds with Mary in his outstretched arms above his head.

Laughing, Dean lies down next to him, their shoulders brushing and sending sparks through his body. He ignores them and takes the giggling toddler from Cas. He puts her to his face and blows raspberries on her belly, making her squeal.

When he looks at Cas he notices that he’s holding a phone aimed at him.

"No way!" he cries out and places Mary between him and Cas.

"Don’t hide behind the baby!" Cas scolds him through laughter.

"Stop taking pictures of me!"

"I’m recording."

"Castiel Novak, you are the worst! Mary, revenge me!" he puts her on Cas’ stomach.

"Bite him! Bite him, like this," he leans down and bites lightly into Cas’ biceps which makes the man bark out a laugh and swat at Dean.

"Don’t teach her that!"

"Why? I’m her uncle, I need to teach her how to be badass! Come on, Mary, bite!" This time he demonstrates it on her, closing his lips harmlessly around her tiny shoulder. She snorts and actually takes Cas’ shirt into her teeth.

Dean fist bumps the air. "Yes! It works! That’s my girl!" Dean pets Mary’s blond hair and grabs the phone Cas dropped.

"Auch!" Cas cries out. "She bit my nipple!"

Dean collapses in a heap, choking on his laughter while Cas slaps his back.

"You, asshole, it hurts!"

Dean laughs so hard his eyes water. He pretends there isn’t a part of his mind thinking about biting Castiel’s nipples.

 "Did you ever think about it?" Cas asks. Mary is asleep in her stroller and they’re eating burgers on a bench.

"About what?" Dean asks around a mouthful.

"About having kids."

Taken aback, Dean looks at Castiel, but he’s watching the people passing by.

"I can’t even find a partner, Cas, I doubt I’d handle a family." He uses the gender-neutral word on purpose. They never talked about Dean’s orientation explicitly, but Cas has probably noticed he hangs out with guys sometimes.

"I think you would. With the right person," Cas says thoughtfully.

"Then they should hurry and show up, I’m getting old."

Cas huffs and shakes his head like he always does when Dean says something dumb.

"What about you?" Dean asks and feels his chest constrict.

Cas sighs. "Ever since I realized I was gay I thought it was no option for me."

"That might have been true twenty years ago, but not now."

Cas shrugs and turns to Dean with a smile. "Then there’s still the problem of finding the right partner."

"Yeah," Dean returns the smile and they just look at each other for a moment. It’s suddenly hard to breathe.

 "Water?" Cas suggest and hands Dean a bottle. Dean puts it to the baby’s lips, but she turns away, crying.

"She just won’t stop crying," Dean says desperately, dandling her in his arms.

"What about a pacifier?"

"She spits it out," Dean shakes his head. "Shit, Cas, something must be wrong. We fed her, changed her diaper, we did everything."

"Just keep calm, Dean, there’s no need to-" he trails off when he presses a palm against the girl’s forehead.

"What?"

"She’s burning," Cas says, trying to keep his voice calm but failing.

"What?" Dean presses his lips to her cheek and feels the unnatural hotness of Mary’s skin. "Shit, shit. Do we have medicine for it?"

"Yes, it must be somewhere in there," Cas answers walking to the bags of Mary’s stuff Sam has left there.

 "How is she?" The concern makes Cas look older than he is.

"She stopped crying. I put her in the cradle."

"She’ll probably fall asleep after the medicine."

"I hope so," Dean sighs.

Castiel steps closer and squeezes his shoulder. "She’s gonna be alright."

Dean nods. "I know. I just hate it has to happen when we’re babysitting."

"Right, it was too easy up until now," Cas gives him a small smile, "maybe we needed a challenge."

Dean huffs out a laugh. "You’re incredible, Cas."

Dean’s starting to lose it. It’s been hours and the temperature still isn’t falling even after the meds and the label says they shouldn’t give her more for another two hours.

Merry is still crying her lungs out and she looks exhausted by it but won’t fall asleep. The sight of her red cheeks, clammy face and teary eyes makes Dean’s heart break. His arms are getting sore from holding her but if he lies her down she’s crying harder.

Dean turns when he hears Castiel’s footsteps. His hands are full with some meds.

"Gabriel said to give her these two in turns."

"Gabriel?"

"My friend, the pediatrician. I told you I was going to call him."

"Yeah, right," Dean shakes his head, "sorry, I’m a bit out of it."

"He said we don’t need to go to the hospital," Cas says preparing the medicine for Mary.

Dean lets out a relieved sigh. "Good, I hope he’s right."

"Should we call Sam and Eileen?" Cas asks after he pushes the spoon into Mary’s mouth, then praises her for being a good girl.

"If we do, they hop into the car and drive right back and their night is ruined. If Gabriel says it’s not serious, I’d keep it our little secret, right, babe?" he kisses Mary’s cheek.

"Alright," Cas nods and reaches his arms for Mary. "Pass her over and take some rest. You look horrible."

Dean lets him take the child and watches for a moment as Cas tries to placate her.

"Thank you," he says. Castiel looks at him. "I’m really grateful for you being here with me, especially because you don’t have to, you’re not even family."

He realizes he said something wrong when Castiel’s eyes harden and he looks away, his jaws clenched.

"No, wait, that’s not what I meant, Cas!" He has to grab Cas’ shoulder to make him turn. Cas looks positively furious, but Dean refuses to get intimidated by it.

"Of course we think of you as a family. Sam and Eileen and me, I’m sure even Mary. What I meant is that you don’t have to spend your night with me taking care of a sick child."

Castiel’s eyes drop to Mary’s face, but they’ve softened. "I want to."

Dean leans closer. "Thank you," he whispers and ruffles Cas’ hair eliciting a short laugh.

Cas pushes him away with one hand. "Go take a shower, you smell like a diaper."

"Shut up!" Dean laughs on his way to the bathroom.

 Dean’s heart skips a beat when he comes out of the shower and can’t find them. For a moment he thinks Mary got worse and Cas took her to the hospital. Fortunately, before he freaks out he searches the house. He finds them in Cas’ room and his heart stops for the second time.

Cas is sitting in his bed, his eyes closed and breathing slow, the baby is resting on his chest, snoozing. It’s like a miracle and it makes Dean feel all warm inside.

He knows he should leave them alone, but it’s too tempting. With his heart beating too hard in his chest he walks to the bed, careful not to make a sound. He just wants to take a better look at his two angels, maybe steal a little kiss on the cheek.

Castiel’s blue eyes open, almost giving Dean a heart attack.

"Hey," Dean whispers.

"Hello," Cas answers smiling as he looks at the baby sleeping on his chest. "It worked, " he whispers."

"Yeah, it did," Dean returns his smile and sits down. Cas moves a little so Dean can recline against the headboard next to him.

When he makes himself comfortable, he brushes his fingers gently over Mary’s face. It already feels a bit cooler but it might be just a wishful thinking.

He can feel the warmth of Castiel’s body and smell his body wash as they’re pressed close together. He looks into his face taking in his blue eyes, pink lips and mused hair and feels his self-control slipping away.

"Seems like we are a great duo, at least when it comes to babysitting."

"Yeah, we are," Cas’ smile brightens and Dean loses it. He leans in and presses his lips against Castiel’s.

Cas lets out a surprised breath and opens his mouth. Dean takes the opportunity to slip his tongue in and before he can realize what the hell he’s doing he’s kissing him deeply, hands buried in his wild hair.

Mary makes a small sound startling them apart. The mortification hits Dean immediately.

"I-ugh-sorry," he’s up and out of the room before Cas has a chance to say anything.

He runs cowardly into his room where he collapses on the bed, face in his palms. He’s such an idiot, ruining everything.

 When he gathers the courage to leave his room, he finds Mary sleeping in her cradle in the living room and Cas’ door shut.

They get through the night and in the morning Mary seems alright, laughing and getting her breakfast all over the kitchen like usual. Dean avoids looking Cas in the face, but otherwise everything is fine.

"So did, you have a good time?" Castiel asks Eileen when they come to pick up their daughter.

"The best," she answers with a grin. Sam, checking Mary for injuries, turns beet red.

"Was there any trouble?" she asks and takes her baby from her husband’s arms giving them both a kiss.

"Nothing we couldn’t handle," Cas answers.

They get a lunch together, talking about the day in the park and about the hotel Sam and Eileen were staying at.

The moment Sam and his family leave, the apartment fills with heavy silence.

"I’m going to do some lesson planning," Dean mutters and heads towards his room. Cas stops him with a hand on his shoulder.

"I want to talk."

Dean’s heart drops.

He takes a deep breath before he faces Castiel.

"Look, Cas, I’m sorry. What I’ve done last night... I got carried away playing house with you. I’m sorry. I guess I just liked the idea too much."

"What idea?" Cas asks, squinting.

"Of a family of my own. Having a baby and a partner." He feels himself blushing and it’s too hard to look Cas in the eyes.

"Partner or me?"

"What?"

"Don’t play dumb, Dean. I know you understand what I’m asking! I want to know if you just like the idea of having a partner or the idea of me as your partner. I always thought you weren’t interested in me like that, especially after I figured out you were into guys. But at the same time, I’m having a hard time believing you’d kiss just anyone only because of some illusion of a happy home so right now I’m really confused and-"

Dean kisses him. It’s as easy as the last night. He just takes a step forward, grabs Cas’ face in his hands and presses their lips together. If he knew it was so easy to kiss your best friend, he’d do it much sooner. Just like last night, Cas freezes for a second but then leans into the kiss and reciprocates eagerly.

When Dean pulls away, Cas grabs the front of his shirt.

"Don’t you dare to chicken out of this again," he growls.

Dean huffs out a laugh and leans his forehead against Cas’. "I don’t think I can pretend anymore," he breathes out and closes his eyes realizing that he’s shaking a little. "Cas, I’m very much interested in you."

There’s a silence that spreads into what feels like eons. Dean opens his eyes, heart beating frantically with fear of being rejected.

Relief rushes over him as he sees Cas’ mischievous smile.

"Are you saying you’d have my babies?"

Dean bursts out laughing. "Yeah, Cas, I’d have your babies."

This time it’s Cas who initiates the kiss.

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