#anything anywhere within the realm of it professionally. but i dont wanna let go of making them in my life

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the desire to quit comics and give up on creating art forever before i've even started my career vs the travis moore answer to my ask in his inbox when he still had a tumblr when i was in high school telling me it was both the most difficult and fulfilling work he ever took on and i should pursue it if i want to and the guy who bought the first ever mini comic i sold this year at my first ever con i tabled asking me to sign it. sniffle sob

#art school really does put you through the wringer man. it really does. i have never felt worse about what i make or struggled to make work #so much in the entire time i've ever had art as a hobby or in class form. this has been the worst year yet. but i still cant let it go #i still at the end of the day want my life to be involved in comics in some way. i've accepted i dont know if i'll make it even close to #anything anywhere within the realm of it professionally. but i dont wanna let go of making them in my life #i still wanna try. i wanna quit and give up so fucking bad every other day. but i still fantasize about being published and having my work #out there for others to see. so i cant let it go no matter how bad i wanna. because i know i'll come back to it #so i just have to keep going. so i can retain them in my life forever. because i love comics. i love making them. #as much as i hate it and it makes me wanna scream and cry and how nothing has ever made me feel worse about myself and what i make. #making comics is everything to me. it is my life and it is my joy when i can remember there is some worth in what i make. #static.soundz