#anyway yeah he cute. though cuter now tbh. might be the belly. idk. this is very confusing and unusual for me

[running-in-the-dark]

hm. am I downloading Night Court right now? possibly.

#don't know if I care yet #tbh I have never seen John Larroquette in anything ever (and it will take me a while until I can spell his name without checking 3 times) #before the librarians #so. I don't know. if it's a character specific thing. or if I just think he's cute. or if I think he's cute now but not when he was younger #but I will find out #because honestly it's possible that it's 90% his voice. very good voice. best voice. love it. #hmmm okay no I've just watched a clip on YouTube and he really is just very cute. damn. #annnd. oh noo. I have to check something #oh crap Brent spiner was born in 1949. that means this is. if my brain decides that this is gonna be something. the first time it's someone #older than my dad :') don't like that #but! my dad's dead! so who gives a fuck! #I'm fine. :) #(also damn I'm lucky my dad was so very very old. otherwise that would have happened much sooner) #(guess I'm joking about that now! interesting development) #anyway yeah he cute. though cuter now tbh. might be the belly. idk. this is very confusing and unusual for me #especially. since. the other crush. is not even close to being over. that's not something that happens. and it's already very bad rn. soo. #that should be interesting. maybe I should just forget all about it and not look at him again when I'm done with the show in a few hours #that'd be best I think (doesn't mean I'll listen to my own advice. he is a man and he is cute so. I've already lost) #it's just. I see Jenkins and it's like. JENKINS!! 😍😍😍😍 I'm very weak #and he's so funny 😔 #sigh. #just be normal 🤦🤦🤦 #i don't know if it makes it better or worse that I'm fully aware that this is most likely happening because I'm in the middle of some sort #of crisis right now and that's how I've always coped but. eh it is what it is #trying to be nicer to this stupid brain and all that #let it have fun looking at an old man it's fine