#anyway yeah we haven’t even met or FaceTimed or anything DHSKDHD

[trulymadlysydney]

Also update because I haven’t told you guys about my life in a minute dhsjd I’ve been talking to a guy from hinge for a few weeks and uhhhh on the topic of Saturn return it’s made me realize a whole lot about myself because I was deadass ALL in for this guy and then I had one(1) dream about my horrible ex and woke up and realized oh shit this guy kind of resembles him and oh shit I am terrified of intimacy and vulnerability and clearly there’s something wrong with me if I can’t imagine ever having sex with this guy and I have so many things I need to work through so! Considering making this the year I finally go to ✨therapy✨ because I’ve realized I have a Fearful Avoidant attachment style and all I want to do is run away and ghost him but I’m too far in now so! Yeehaw! That’s what you missed on Glee!!!

#to be clear I realize there’s nothing wrong with me I just am 💜💜scarred💜💜 #also the guy is a Libra so that’s been a challenge in and of itself #love a Libra but we’re both just kinda 🧍🏻‍♀️ #the only time he’s ever actually asked me to hang out was one night when he was drunk #it was like 1030pm and he was like I’m drunk you wanna come over and have wine #I said absolutely not 💜💜💜 #like that sounds like a recipe for the exact thing that made me so anxious around dating! that sounds like my worst nightmare beloved!!!!! #anyway yeah we haven’t even met or FaceTimed or anything DHSKDHD