#auuuuugh. im going to bring my lightbox to work i think so that i can go lizard mode earlier in the morning

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opened up to my principal about my seasonal affective disorder during our meeting today and she was very sympathetic and clearly wanted to try and offer advice bc she was like "try to keep busy! i find keeping busy helps me when i'm in a slump!!" like thank you queen you are the best boss i've ever had but i don't have the heart to explain to you that keeping busy is not the solution to my I Want To Kill Myself For All Of Winter disorder

#how to tell your boss that in fact work is part of the reason you feel like a shell of yourself rn. with pictures #i mean like ultimately i'm fine. i've been managing with my SAD for years now this is just a particularly rough go of it #it makes my suicide-themed intrusive thoughts more common which is mostly annoying but IS also exhausting #auuuuugh. im going to bring my lightbox to work i think so that i can go lizard mode earlier in the morning