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#bc saying 'i hate myself' is a surefire way to get me put in therapy and i CAN'T DO IT
introvert-celeste
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5 years
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#me
#vent
#it's a good thing I'm squeamish and don't deal well with pain
#bc I'd be self harming right now
#considered choking myself a little but I couldn't do it
#i don't know what I want
#i don't know what to do
#i don't really want to do anything but doing nothing hurts
#and I don't want to be left alone with my thoughts
#but I don't think I can ask my brother to do something with me without bursting into tears
#he's been waiting to watch last night's episodes of infinity train with me and my mood has just gotten worse
#i don't even wanna leave my room bc I've been crying and I don't want my family to ask what's wrong
#only for me to reply with 'i don't know' again
#bc saying 'i hate myself' is a surefire way to get me put in therapy and i CAN'T DO IT
#they would become just another person I have to perform for
#and every time they react in a way I perceive as negative I'll feel like I failed and it'll just get worse
#i know if this keeps getting worse I'll have to see a specialist and get a proper diagnosis and medication
#but I just can't do it now
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