#being so skinny and perfect he doesn’t even think ab his barbie ex

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also i found out that rly thin anas will specifically hang out w bigger ppl and feed them and encourage them to be fat just to feel better ab themselves and i rly feel like thats been done to me so many times. im just surrounded by meanspo LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

#like holy fuck #idk if it’s bc i went from having BED to heavily restricting like dis but i would just absolutely never catch myself treating someone like #that #idc how bad this gets #i rly don’t want being disordered to take over my kindness it’s so integral to who i am #what’s crazy is i’m super attracted to fat people actually they’re so soft and warm and lovely to snuggle up with #thats literally my type #i just hate how it looks on me and ik i could be like. absolutely ridiculously hot if i lost all the weight bc my face rly is so pretty #i want the power that comes w being skinny i wanna be chased and adored and pined after and treated like the delicate little thing that #i am deep down inside #and i want revenge too against everyone who made me miserable in school #and i want my ex back LMAO #ik that’ll be the way to do it too bc he’ll get all concerned and shit #ideal situation he can play savior for me and i can be skinny and hot and everything will work out #being so skinny and perfect he doesn’t even think ab his barbie ex