#being unemployed sucks so bad

[halogalopaghost]

#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀 #how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia? #and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet). #I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!! #I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

[mildmayfoxe]

sometimes i wonder how on earth people with full time jobs also do things like go to the gym and cook real food every day when i basically come home from work and collapse motionless until bedtime and then i remember that a lot of the kind of people that im thinking of work office jobs where they get to sit down all day while i'm standing and lifting and carrying and walking 4 miles at work while also dealing with chronic pain from a decade+ of being in the service industry

#on the other hand how do construction workers and package delivery people do it #it's so exhausting. it sucks to live this way but how else am i supposed to do it. #I MISS BEING UNEMPLOYED! I WANT TO GO BACK! my bad ankle got so much better when i didn't have to stand on it all the time :( #chatpost

[trainingdummyrabbit]

heavily considering picking up journaling........

#piktalk #mildly intense personalposting again give me a moment. apawlogies. tagwall. #my memorys always been pretty shot but the past week or two have been Pretty Intense im ngl #like not just th normal Forgetting thing but now theres also uh. #The Backseaters. theoretically. on th list of people i trust to tell me information 'i' am lowest on the list. #so you can see where the issue lies with The Backseaters. (refuses to believe my own senses on account of being 'me') #its just a rly big tangle of mess that keeps me from doing much of anything and it Sucks. i just need t wait for th lines t cross or whatev #but also ive been switching genres (for lack of a better term) multiple times daily and a lil intensely #so i am Highly Discombobulated at all times. #im keeping a brave enough face about it; which is a good and bad thing; but its about all i can do to weather it let alone Make Progress. #which is not great; considering the whole 'expected to be a person' and 'unemployed' thing. not a great development. #umm. anyway. hanging in there; or whatever. sure dont know what to do abt this though. #god forbid i tell either the two (2) 'trusted people' i know irl they could barely handle the executive dysfunction talk. (they didnt.) #girl if u knew th level of mental bullshittery i was on 24/7 youd explode. or something. anyway. ✌

[spacestorms]

i Am happy i got the job, it's a good thing, it's definitely better than cashiering and we need the money. i was excited about it earlier! but now I just kind of hate the idea of it. i don't want to work full time. It's going to suck so bad. not even sure how my body will handle it now that my joints are deteriorating and in pain all the time. and the pay isn't good enough of course. I should be making 1000 dollars an hour

#being unemployed for so long did suck because ive been so isolated but i dont want my life to be filled with just work either #aaaaahhhh #its fine #maybe it wont be so bad. <- lying to emself #ok but. it WILL be better than my last job. i wont be working in a warehouse surrounded by Literal moldy books and #forced to scan at the speed of light or risk getting fired #so thats an upside #🌧

[carryonmylovelies]

omg hey hotties 😭😭 im back !

#sooooooooooooo anyways not me dropping off the face of the earth for like the entire summer vwkqmqjdhsowjwjwjenkwhwk #just had to die for a little bit u know....disappear into the abyss and all that #pls look away from all the shit im abt to throw into these tags 😁 unless u want 2 read my cringe oversharing essay for the day 👍 #my summer was so silly 😍 ummmmm lets see i lost my fulltime job at the daycare bc the owner very rightfully decided to retire and close #so i was unemployed for the whole summer except for my occasional side jobs and also had to move bc of family shit #so im living w my grandma for the time being and its utterly amazing tbh my grandma and i have a really strong bond and relationship #and i really love getting to come home and see her every day. i decorated her house for halloween a week ago 🎃🎃🎃 #and she couldnt stop talking abt how nice everything looked and how glad she was to have me there and i just abt broke down 😭😭😭 #i did a complete fucking 180 jobwise im actually training to be a certified fire alarm inspector now LMFAO #i really really like it so far and have like a million stories already abt all the shit ive done/seen so far #im the only girl looking son of a bitch thats working and training in the field out of my entire region of the company so 🤪 #literally shoved my dykey nb ass in there and now im fucking it up with the boys heyoooooo #ummm me and one of my best friends started dating bc of a miscommunication (BC OFC WE DID I KNOW I KNOW ITS SO MF GAY) #and our 4 mo anniversary will be on halloween which i think is the swaggiest fag shit in the whole WORLLLDDDDDDDD 😫🎃🖤🧡 #my very beloved pet rabbit of over 8 years died quite unexpectedly in august and i was. doing pretty bad for awhile which sucked so so hard #he had multiple health issues and was over 10 yrs old so its hard to say what exactly happened. my gf and gma both pulled me thru that shit #and my besties gave me so much support and love idek what i would have done w/o them. i miss my baby so bad. #ive also had some health issues which sucks absolute BALLS #and recently figured out that the migraine/anti depressant meds ive been on for the last THREE MF YEARS have been fucking up my body lmao #but on the flipside going back 2 the positives i got to have some really incredible experiences/interactions in the past few months #and those were really huge in helping me get my shit together again #i got to take my girlboygirlfriend on little daytrips throughout the summer. i got a second tat🕷🕸❣️ (which my gf designed 😫) #i met girl queen pussy slay miss felicia day AND met the sexiest creature alive harvey guillen and he told me he liked my hair #which im still super duper normal over i can assure u 😁👍 definitely didnt alter my brain chemistry or anything #i saw gods greatest and most valuable gift to this planet on monday (mcr concert) #and had my entire mind body heart and soul so thouroughly fucked up that im still peeing my goddamn pants over it #and of course now its october :) my rotting flesh and sickened brain knows peace once more #bouta go eat up some drawtober posts right the fuck now so prepare yourselves 👁👁 also gonna be making a post on the coc blog soon as well #its already that time of year again mwhahahahahahahahahaha #so yeah 😋 my summer was goofy and silly as hell. i hope u all have been doing okay and im so happy 2 be back pls hmu if u wanna chat !!!

[maliciousalice]

How tf is it June??

#feeling pretty guilty about being still unemployed but the creative industry model kind of sucks #oh well done a lot of indulgent drawings so it hasnt been all bad

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

Teacher: If you don't get anything in to your boss on time, guess what? You'll be fired!

Me: Crazy. Guess who's staying unemployed for the rest of her adulthood?

#sam's talky talks #Haha. I hate it here #Actually. Recently I've been thinking about adulthood as well. But more of just...am I gonna be stable enough– #–to provide for myself? What if my job is shitty? What if I stayed unemployed for the rest of my life? #What the fuck am I going to do? #I mean. Shit. That's scary. And I'm so bad at communicating with people because I get anxious and shy #I suck at getting shit done so throw some job opportunities out the window. I'm so bad at writing stories I can't cut it as a writer #I...my mom was right. I'm never going to succeed in life. I'm just too busy stuck in my little world #I'll never be able to help anyone. I'll never be the amazing daughter she always wanted. I'm gonna be like those 30 years olds– #–who still live in their mother's basements haha... #I bet by that time I'm 20 my mom is gonna be sick of me. She'll probably want to throw me out by then because I'm such a disappointment #It's always what I've been anyways ya know? #Shit. I'm probably never going to finish high school. Never go to college. I can see myself being a drop out more than anything #Disappointing huh? It's all I've known. I'm surprised my parents haven't caught that yet #My dad and step-mom have so much hope and expectations for me I can't breathe #<- I mean. They don't want me to be an A+ student. But they really seem to want me to do amazing #You know. My dad jokes about how I should be getting A's. That B's and C's aren't good enough. And that kinda hurts #That hurts a lot. Because I've never been a good student. Just average #I'm venting and rambling in tags. Haha #Ignore me please. This is nonsensical that this point

[squid--inc]

......

#why do i have to be so noise sensitive why do i have to be so noise sensitive why do i have to be so noise sensitive why do i have to be so #see‚ heres the thing‚ i get why someone‚ on the weekend would like to stay up until 3 in the morning for a variety of reasons #and i see why they'd do so with friends or just by themselves laughing and being loud #the problem is‚ them laughing loudly and doing dumbshit past 10 makes my ability to sleep much harder‚ and my desire to peel my skin off- #much harder to ignore. frankly‚ i do think if you live in an apartment‚ and you're not friends with your neigbours‚ you should consider- #being quieter past a certain point. you don't know if they fucking work on thw weekend‚ a problem I've had previously; or if they're a- #mentally ill little freak with sensitive hearing‚ a problem i have constantly. #i just want everything to stop constantly and everything sucks‚ and everytime i tries to complain with someone socially‚ not - #looking to actually do something about it because i know that's pointless‚ they go 'oh‚ just ignore it.' or 'don't be a party pooper' #but‚ like‚ it's a real problem #like it's less of a problem currently‚ because I'm unemployed‚ and therefore don't have to worry about sleep too much‚ but still #my brain gets the bad itch and bad things happen when that happens

[weird-ass-queer]

unemployment is the single worst thing about being an adult, it sucks so bad even my bad vacuum feels bad about it

#i fucking hate it so much #i hate being unemployed #unemployedlife #this sucks so bad #my vacuum feels bad about it #nothing going on

[megumishotgf]

more jjk + mha fic recs !! ˖ ࣪࿐ྂ

in my unemployed era so i have hours to scroll on this damn app... here are more fics that i loved!! featuring: megumi, satoru, nanami, toji, yuuji, yuuta, katsuki, izuku, shouto (whew there's a lot of them today. your girl has been READING) credits to all these talented writers!! pls check them out!! masterlist more fic recs pt. i pt. iii

: ̗̀➛ megumi fushiguro x reader

you and gumi bond over books (he reads a book you're interested in just so you have someone to discuss it with. bawling)

multiple-part enemies to lovers smau!! (this is SO FUNNY. i cried from laughter more than once)

more enemies to lovers (lengthier fic, so so good + smutty)

you give megumi valentines day chocolates (so so cute he just loves u so much)

secret relationship trope + poor yuuji walks in on you making out (poor baby is traumatised)

more secret relationship + getting caught (i love this one so much)

your silly tired bf just wants kisses

it's late, you're wandering in your ducky slippers and see megumi patching himself up

megumi falls in love with milf! reader (omfg... i love this sm. i've never considered being a cougar until now)

friends to lovers with megumi (high school a.u + gumi buys reader sanrio)

thinking about megumi's hands (i js know they are pretty. thinking of all the unspeakable things they can do)

comforting insecure megumi (my poor baby. a lil angst but dw there's a happy ending)

: ̗̀➛ kento nanami x reader

kento comes home early (so cute and precious. im crying i need him to be real so bad)

he gets hurt bad and you can't stop crying (angsty but also fluffy don't worry this doesn't end like shibuya)

: ̗̀➛ toji fushiguro x reader

riding toji until he whimpers omfg (he gets embarrassed and teaches you a lesson ahhh)

your fiancee toji finally gets freed from prison (they finally freed my man anyway you suck him off while he drives omfg)

sex as payback for your noisy ass neighbours (im losing it)

really cute dating headcanons

more on toji being a simp for you (HES SOOO)

: ̗̀➛ satoru gojo x reader

"my girl is mad at me i hope i die" that's it

y/n + satoru being stupidly in love (now this one has a kick to it.i'm crying)

satoru is obsessed with you but you're oblivious (pining satoru)

boyfriend texts w/ satoru

fucking satoru in the prison realm (AHHHH)

satoru begs to fuck you at some high profile event (u js look so cunty in that outfit and it drives him crazy)

car sex with satoru AHHH

satoru lets u try on his blindfold (hes such so :( so so adorable)

you get hurt and satoru is worried (wow this is so well written. happy ending + gojo centric)

: ̗̀➛ yuuji itadori x reader

fucking ur friend yuuji in a club bathroom (this is so so good)

"if we had a baby would it be mine or sukuna's" (this is hilarious)

yuuji comforts his gf who's not his 'usual type' (its me im the short gf with a big chest) (i’ve been coming back to reread this daily)

: ̗̀➛ yuuta okkotsu x reader

blowing ur big dick bf yuuta (canon)

really really romantic sex w/ yuuta (straight up making love)

: ̗̀➛ katsuki bakugo x reader

domestic headcanons (i love them and i love him. help)

more cute relationship headcanons

katsuki is obsessed with gossiping and eavesdropping when you and your friends spill the tea (this is so funny i love it sm)

dragging katsuki to the club bathroom because u love him (this is so wholesome im crying)

kiri notices how whipped katsuki is for you

guard dog katsuki is jealous

: ̗̀➛ izuku midoriya x reader

mating press with izuku (this actually drives me crazy. written so well and in character)

izuku is just so fucking precious (i can't take it anymore)

: ̗̀➛ shouto todoroki x reader

shouto gets halved by a quirk but not like gojo, there's js two of him (there is one obvious thing to do now)

dr. todoroki promises to breed you properly (i'm convulsing)

you're insecure after giving birth and shouto comforts you (with loving words and his dick)

resolving an argument w/ ur bf shouto (so cute!!)

eating u out in the kitchen (omfg)

there is an overwhelming amount of smut i'm sorry this is kind of embarrassing i'm just super horny lmao

#mha x reader #jjk x reader #katsuki bakugo x reader #shoto todoroki x reader #megumi fushiguro x reader #satoru gojo x reader #yuuji itadori x reader #yuuta okkotsu x reader #izuku midoriya x reader #toji fushiguro x reader #kento nanami x reader

[silvershiningtarot]

PAC18+ Who Is Your FS? ❤️‍🔥🔥💎

💋take a moment to breathe 🧘‍♀️ Before I start this reading, I would just like to take a moment and say that I’m really going through it financially being unemployed and shit, I would love some bookings for readings even tips anyway that you can help I’ll truly appreciate guys thanks. Center yourself and choose through the photos. Choose the pile that pulls you in the most!

👉🏾9 Of Swords, Page Of Pentacles, and King Of Cups.

Pile 1: It seems that Your FS negatively self-talk themselves. I won't say that they don't have any confidence but they just need to pushher on themselves. It seems that your FS doesn't have good friends around them. They got bad negative people surrounding them that just wanna tear your FS down. I can feel them wanting to cry but they can’t. So they cry in silence. They have the 9 Of Swords Rx. I’m sorry to them. Now they are curious and adventurous. I think that your FS can be a Sagittarius or a Pisces. Either way, they love to travel. But people stump on their hearts and they will still forgive these friends. I can see them trying to balance their emotions. But few of your future Spouses are well-balanced with their emotions. A few of you. But some of you, your FS are having nightmares. They just wanna wake up from these bad nightmares. I'm not surprised that they are drinking. Probably partying too hard. They are manifesting new opportunities in their life and wants a new beginning. Ahhh!! I'm gagging yes. The Sun card. Wow, they are moving forward. They are slowly moving. Either way, I'm guessing that they are a Capricorn ♑ Moon or Sun. Probably because they are workaholics and they drown themselves in their work. Like that shit sucks. I'm sorry. See! VAMPIRE! Like OMG! I wanna cry for them. They are getting drained. I can hear them say “Nowhere I can't escape.” I feel so bad for them. I can see them go through a dark place. So they talk bad about themselves saying “They ain't shit”. That shit is fucking wack. I don't want to say this but whenever your FS is in a dark place these vampires come in and take advantage of them. They are wounded. They are such caregivers. They don't like to disappoint anyone. No one they'll sacrifice their own life if they have to. Make sure that their Friends are good. That's sad because they don't check up on themself. They are an extrovert. Yes! Their personality is out of this world, you probably never thought they can do those adventurous things. They would always keep surprising you. Ahh, what did I say? Achievers wow. They are workaholics. They will get the work done on that day. It seems that your FS is aggressive and dominant too. I think that when they are confident, Their Friends be scared 😱 of them. Don't know what to say to them. Even when they are mad, your FS gives people the cold shoulder and yes they can be childish and petty. But they don't like to get mad 😡. That shit cuts them to the cord. Your FS had once loved someone before but they had hurt them. Yes, they are a bit of a control freak. They like things a center way. They are romantic as well. They would draw you a bubble bath or they like to draw themselves a bubble bath. Light up some sexy candles 🕯️ and just relax. Ahh! Your FS is your star family 👪 you both come from the stars. You guys are spiritually connected. This FS is an old man not like Grandpa but older than you. Wow, again False Disguise. Again these fucking pretenders! See they are walking on eggshells with them. These friends don't want your FS to see them as fake ass friends but they are fake. They lied to them, steal from them, and gossip about them. It's like they drained their energy. Fucking asshole friends. Your FS has karmic debts with their friends and business partners is what I feel. They got a lot of karma with these partners. See! I was right. Co-workers, business partners, friendships, and lovers your FS got karma with these people. These lovers, business partners, and friends are wearing false disguises. They are very passionate lovers. I don't think they are Italian but they fuck like one. They are always horny. Always. The second they see you dirty thoughts run through their minds. I was right. Karmic Friends they got a big lesson with these friends. I was right, Drug Abuse! Geez probably popping pills or again they are partying hard. They love to take things slow. When you guys are together. It's a very slow pace with them. Very slow.

🔅7 Of Wands, Queen Of Pentacles, 4 Of Wands, and Judgement.

Pile 2: I can see that your FS is spiritually grounded or at least trying to be. I see that they are such nurtures, they like to comfort you. They like to be relaxed. So they'll keep you safe and secure. Wow, I think that they think about marriage or have a whole different perspective on marriage. In my opinion, Everything you do they wanna celebrate they love to be happy. Even for their enemies, they would be. They don't have enemies but they do have some bad people around them. I don't know if they know that they do. I can see that they do meditate a lot. I can see that when you both meditate you guys connected. Let me explain that. You guys visit each other while meditating. Ahh! What I say they are well-balanced or at least trying to be. I can see them manifesting you. I can see that they trying to avoid bad energy 🔋. I don't know if people using them. Yes! This FS is waking up. So again I believe that some people are waking on eggshells with them. This is a little tiny bit similar to pile 1. Wow, they probably are an Air sign. Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius. OR They have these placements in their chart. You knew them before in a past life and you guys have past life karma. I can see that. Lilith this makes me feel that they are probably a Lilith-dominant. They are sexy and they are not afraid to show off their beauty. Some of your FS is a pretty man. Or they got a body of a God. Very built they are. Works out a lot. I was right! People are walking on eggshells with them too. Their Friends are intimated by them. So they are aggressive and dominant. They don't play any games. They will confront issues if they see the issue is getting out of hand they will confront it. They are a bit of a control freak, I also sense a Taurus vibe from them. This FS is older than you. If I had to guess probably like 5-8 or 10 years old then you. They are dealing with a lot of false twin flames 🔥. Pretending that they are their twin flames but they are not. See they are draining their energy. Maybe some of you are probably not experienced. Some of you are virgins or not but you are going to lose your virginity to your husband. They are freaks in the sheets like they have sex outdoors. Probably lose your virginity outside. It won't be in the morning but at night I believe. They do have a romantic soulmate but in my opinion, you are their romantic soulmate, and vice versa. I think that your husband went through a lot of difficult situations in their life. Probably had a bad addiction or still going through an addiction. They don't feel like a man. I don't know what happened in their past. I will not dig into it but they probably suffer from depression. They emotionally eat. They are heavily passionate. They are heavily attracted. They would want that eternal love ❤️ but they have plenty of soul contracts with these false ass twin flames and other soulmates including you. For some of you, they probably are a big-bone husband. But they are good-looking no matter what size they are. Didn't I say that they are spiritually connected? Higher self. They are practicing self-control. Accepting the truth of what it is. They want a deeply happily ever after marriage. I believe exactly they want that. Solving issues, I think that they are making amends with these old friends and family too. They probably get cyberbullied by the media. Because of their platform, I believe that they get tease not in a good way. Maybe because of the way they look. Some of them might be too feminine or masculine or skinny or too big. People in the media are rude. I don't think your husband pays them no mind.

👏🏽3 of Wands, 2 Of Swords, King Of Pentacles, and 7 Of Pentacles

Pile 3: I can see that your FS got a lot of money. I think that they can be indecisive. Sometimes for them, I believe that they like routes to keep them grounded. I can see that they are slowly growing their abundance back up. They lose focus quickly so they stick to a routine to keep them focused. I don't blame them. It's hard for me to keep myself grounded as well. Yes, they have money. See they are older than you. But not far old I don't feel it for this one. With the 3 Of Wands, I can see them waiting for their creation to flourish. They are always planning something amazing and they wanna share. Look at that! 9 Of cups, I can see them waiting for their creation to burst out. They are so excited to make it known to the world. But they are being patient about it. They are manifesting. Death card makes me feel that they are rebirth themselves. The Sun ☀️ card I can see that they are so positive and they have their arms open wide. I sense that they are strong believers. Page of Pentacles I can see that they are adventurous and curious too. They are making plans for their new reality. Wow, they are a hot nerd and also good-looking. They got hot bodies👏🏾. Awe Cancer ♋ Maybe they are a Cancer Sun, Moon, or a Rising. Awww such a sweetheart. Yes, they are highly intuitive. I can see that they are visionary they can tell something will happen. This shadow Queen is very draining to them. She is dark! I can see that this lady or whoever she is. She is toxic to them and I can see she wants your FS and wants to drain them. Once they have you, they will cling to you instantly. High Roller! They are drop-dead GORGEOUS!!. Geez!! They are an Aries Sun, Moon, or Rising. For some of you, your FS can be an Aries and for a few of you, your FS can be a Cancer. Erotic, they are highly sexual. They are horny. I can see that they wanna be your Daddy. Lol 😆. Didn't I say that they would wanna be married? Their whole perspective changed about marriage. I can see people might be scared of them. Walking on eggshells it seems like all the piles of people are walking on eggshells doesn't mean that they ain't doing any sneak shit behind their backs. They made some mistakes and they are trying to make up for it. If some of you haven't gone to prom they'll make a prom for you or vice versa. They probably haven't gone to their prom. Ahh! Right now they are a fuckboy. They are a player. They are very charming and good-looking. I told you that They have a new perspective on things. Changing their mindset, seeing things as they are. Taking a huge step back and looking at things with clear eyes. They are healing their inner child. Watching movies, probably Disney movies, and doing childhood activities. They've isolated themselves from people. They don't like people who are not honest about their words. They go through depression 😭. Once they fall they fall hard. With all the false promises people lied to them or they are the unreliable ones. I believe that when they are depressed they neglect their wounds. They don't like to face their truth😒. It's hard for them to admit the truth. They would love to make their own family. They would want everything on their own. Their kids, their own friends, and their own businesses. They just want everything of their own. Nothing else. They wanna raise their kids how they want to. I believe that they are probably a rebel. They are a homebody. They love being at home. I told you that your FS is older than you.

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[storiesbyjes2g]

3.117 The other shoe

We started the night at a bar in a fancy rooftop hotel in San Myshuno. Sophia and I didn't bother dressing up because our only goal was to meet the man that had my sister all googly-eyed, and that didn't involve nice clothes. Jace Laurent was his name. He was from Tartosa and frequented the bar where we had the party. His fancy job title didn't fool me once he explained the role. He said he was a nano-simfluencer for a company called Trend Team. Apparently, he was heavily into fashion and was seeking the attention of brands on social media so he could score an endorsement deal. Basically, he was unemployed. True, I was technically unemployed too, but at least I left home and come back with money like normal working sims.

But after a while, I had to admit he wasn't as much of a schmuck as I thought he'd be. He was definitely weird, but seemed like he'd be kinda fun to hang out with once we got to know each other better.

"Would you stop grilling him??" Alessia shouted.

"I'm not grilling! I'm just trying to get to know him. Isn't that what you want?"

"Yeah, but stop with the 20 Questions!"

"How else am I supposed to get to know him, Less??"

Like, seriously! What was up with her? First she yelled at Sophia on Winterfest for trying to stay in the conversation and get to know her, and now this? I hoped ol' dude was up to handle her moods because if I couldn't win with her, no one could.

"Don't mind her," Jace said. "She's just a little pregnant."

"I'm sorry...WHAT?!"

His proud, smug face melted into discomfort and mortification.

"Oh no...she didn't tell you."

"We're in love, Luca," Alessia shouted. "I asked him to move in."

So many questions buzzed around my brain like a swarm of bees, but the frustration flowing through my veins was stronger than the urge to get answers. I was so done with this seemingly endless stream of accidental pregnancies around me! The mere thought of another person turning up pregnant ignited a fiery anger within me so intense I could almost taste it. Okay…I wouldn't actually resort to violence, but the urge to lash out, to release my pent-up frustration, was as real as all these unborn babies in my life.

"We have to go," I said, getting up from the table.

Alessia yelled after us, questioning our abrupt departure, but I didn't care. My only goal was to seek shelter in the safety of my home because the fortress I built around my emotions had finally been breached. Falling apart was imminent now. As soon as I crossed the threshold, the pressure that had been building up all week erupted from my mouth as I hollered. I never felt so out of control before. I paced, tugged on my hair, and screamed some more. Sophia stood off to the side for a moment, watching, allowing me to get it out, but then she marched up to me and embraced me tightly as if she were trying to squeeze hope back into me. We collapsed onto the couch and cried together. I probably should have waited to tell her about my hospital visit, but how much more could it hurt? We were already at the bottom.

"Sophia," I said through my tears, "I gotta tell you something."

She sat up to hear my story and wiped my face.

"I went to the doctor. That's where I was earlier... I have low fertility too. I'm so sorry!"

To my surprise, she didn't sink deeper into despair, like I thought she would. She held my hand and showed me the most incredible display of bravery I had ever seen.

"Awwwww, Luca! Are you okay? This isn't your fault. It's no one's fault. It just...is."

I knew she was right, but life really sucked at the moment, and I didn't know how to withstand against all those blows anymore. I thought I was strong enough, but now my wife had to hold me up.

"It's just not fair," I yelled. "Alessia, Yasmine...and even Dub! None of them were trying to get pregnant! Why won't it happen for us? I feel like we're being punished for something, but I don't know what it is! I just want to start a family with you. What's so bad about that?? I've done everything to stay positive and hopeful, but I can't do it anymore! I can't do it, Sophia!"

She wiped my tears and tried to soothe me, telling me it was going to be okay, just like I did for her at the beginning of all this.

"Hey...listen...we can't give up yet, babe. We've got one more trick up our sleeve! How about tomorrow I do the IVF? Forget those treatments!"

"Are you sure? That's surgery."

"It's outpatient. This is my last chance to carry my own child. I have to take it."

"Okay. But only if you want to. I'm fine with adoption if you change your mind, but...I really hope it works."

"Me too."

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[lunar-years]

Apologies for coming back on here to bitch some more (lol) but the problem with fans of a Certain Ship on Twitter is that for people who ostensibly love Ted soooo much they uhh? Seem to really really really hate Ted? Apple posted a dumb tweet about how Ted would have off today on both the US and British calendars and now cult of fans of said Certain Ship won’t stop tweeting at them about how Ted is jobless and unemployed and a loser who has every day off because he “quit”/“gave up” on Richmond and moved back to Kansas to be with his son. And I guess it’s supposed to be like another funny joke about how the finale was Oh So Bad but do they realize at a certain point it very much stops being that and instead seems like they just all literally loathe the character who is supposedly their fav?

I can understand disliking the finale/that Ted left/that their ship wasn’t endgame, and criticizing all or some of that in a legitimate, thoughtful way. But they take everything in such bad faith it’s ridiculous! Why is the assumption that Ted would be indefinitely jobless in Kansas?! The man just nearly led a formerly middle of the pack football team to the top of the premier league, and before that he led a college football team to the championship game? He looks very qualified as a coach (at least on paper lol) and I…do not think it would be that hard for him to return to college coaching or find another similar job in Kansas once the U.S. football season started up again? But instead the ongoing assumption from HIS OWN FANS is immediately and permanently that he’s 1) miserable and hates his life 2) a quitter who flat out abandoned Richmond (??) and 3) going to forever remain unemployed and therefore be a jobless miserable loser ?????????

Like??? At least when I complain about how Keeley’s s3 storyline sucked I don’t frame it like I hate her. Why are you making even enjoying your favorite characters into something miserable? How is this at all fun for you? Aren’t you tired?

#i just. do they not realize how fucking annoying it is every time they spam any post Apple makes about Ted lasso #with their dumb nonsensical comments #I try to be nice to segments of the fandom I disagree with but mannn they test my fucking patience lol #okay rant over #fandom critical #ted lasso

[ivan-defonz]

How to take care of a pathetic person.

Ivan Orlav enjoys going on dates, meeting different people and have fun playing with them, to them, he's a charismatic and considerate person, yet the moment he's bored of them, he ruins them, mentally that is.

By turning them into dependent pets- letting them use his money, move into his house, taking care of them, telling them to quit their jobs...-, he create people that forget how to take care of themselves, making them confused and lost when he toss them away while he takes all their money and kick them out of his house.

That's why when he met you, he was delighted. You were a pathetic unemployed loser who could not take care of themselves because you were spoiled rotten by your parents who refused to let you even clean your room. Because of that, you're trying to become independent from them, you tried to get a job or two, learning how to cook and take care of yourself even when you suck at it.

Though you're already ruined by your parents, you're also trying to fix yourself, become a useful member in society and that's what makes you a perfect target in his eyes. He wanted to see you fail, turning completely dependent on him instead and then throw you away when you completely lose your ability to even eat by yourself.

And it worked, you moved in shortly after two months of dating and become his pretty little dolly that stay at home and do whatever you like, be it pursuing your hobbies or just chilling on the couch while the TV is on. Ivan takes care of everything else: cooking, cleaning, making money,...

Everything was going so smoothly yet when it was time to break up with you, he couldn't bring himself to do that.

It was his first time being repulsed by the idea of breaking up with someone, it made him upset just thinking about it and it confused him so much. He couldn't explain this weird feeling and it angered him.

He stormed to his bed, where you were laying, and tried telling you that he was done with you yet the moment his voice raised he couldn't bring himself to say such thing, not when you look so scared of him leaving you.

Not when he had fallen for you.

He didn't know when or why he messed up so bad. Maybe it's the way you cling to him whenever you both go outside since you can barely talk to people, or the way you ask for help whenever you can't do a trivial task with that guilty look on your face. Either way, he was hooked.

To the point he turned into someone else. Ivan wasn't the type to become obsessive with someone, people obsessed over him not the other way around yet when it comes to you, he can't help but make an exception. You're on his mind 24/7, living rent free inside his head being an awkward dork while making terrible jokes as he works.

He needs you now, every time he wakes up, every time he comes back, every time he breathes, you need to be there. Ivan will turn mad if you're not next to him, holding his hand or touching him in a way. The man dreaded going to work or just going away from you in general, he wanted to be there, to take care of you all the time. It's the only reason why he's living right now, to serve and take care of you.

He's a different man now and it's all because of you, yet, he doesn't seem to hate it. He loves you after all.

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[xerotiny99]

HOLY CURSE ♰ PROLOGUE

P R O L O G U E

December 31st, 2018, Saturday 22:45

               "Mr. Haruki is hiring again." Wooyoung spells out, reading the sheet of paper stuck on the window glass of the store. "Such a dickhead."

San catches up on the mutter his friend breathed out, eyeing him with suspicion. "You sure respect your elders, Woo. Cool down, he’s just an old man. Though, I might agree, he has some loose screws."

"Loose screws?" Wooyoung repeats, rolling his eyes. He hops off the elevated edge decorated around the store; with a bottle of soju in his hand. "That man is a fucking perv, I tell ya."

A scoff resounds, making him snap to his side to its direction. "Oh please, everyone knows it."

"Whose side are you on?" Wooyoung looks down at his girlfriend perched on the elevated edge, biting on her fingernail.

"Babe, yours." She emphasises, "everyone knows he hires young university girls and makes them work the night shift. I dunno if that's pervert enough or not."

"Touché." Wooyoung smiles, facing San who only rolled his eyes in response.

"The pay isn't bad at all." San turns his attention to you, standing near the same pamphlet that Wooyoung read. "25000 won per hour."

"Dae—" San muses, stepping behind his you and wrapping his arms around your waist. Arrested in the back hug, San places a soft kiss on the nape of your neck before continuing, "you can't be considering taking on the job."

"And why not?" you proceed to embrace San's hold on your waist. "I could be earning enough for daily needs."

"Yeah, Deiji should totally try out for the job." Wooyoung mocks, "if she wants to get killed or something."

You look at him, sitting next to his girlfriend with his arm around her shoulder. His other hand held on to the bottle of soju — it was half empty by now — while he rested his head on Mistki's shoulder. The night dawns over the four of you, loitering the vacant parking lot of a local convenience store. A bright red light on the door reads 'open', albeit the store being left deserted. The store had always been empty at night, which gave your group more freedom to live on however as you liked. You had purchased a few things — San got his favourite brand of smoke, Wooyoung contemplated enough and got himself a bottle of soju, Mitski settled herself with a packet of chips and you fixed yourself with a candy bar.

Moon shines on the window's glass to reflect its sheer light in your eyes. You hum in satisfaction, leaning into your boyfriend's touch. Your glinted eyes return to the flyer. You stay caught up in his arms, relishing his warmth on your skin.

"Come on," you murmur, disentangling yourself from San and settling down next to Wooyoung. "It can't be worse than being unemployed."

"It can be." Mitski adds, "if you only want to cure your unemployment phase, get a job as a sales rep; your degree can easily hand you one."

"Can't get my ego to serve snooty ass bitches." You mumble, "besides, it's easier to get this job than be a suck up and work at brand stores."

"Deiji has made her mind I think?" Wooyoung instigates, turning his head to look at you, "don't say I didn't warn you."

San murmurs a soft chuckle, coming around to sit next to you. He wraps his arm around your waist and forces you to rest your head on his shoulder. "I'm there to protect you, there there." He pats your head.

"Awww, so cute." Mitski feigns her awe, and rips open a packet of chips, the one she so happens to have bought from the store a few hours before.

The sound of her chewing on the chips reverberates around the dense atmosphere. San fixes himself a cigarette and puffs out a mist of grey. You gander at the contrast of the smoke and the dark sky, suddenly finding yourself dumbfounded to the confines of night. Wooyoung gulps down the alcohol, unlikely to be affected by the bitter taste running down his throat. There's a whiling moment between the four of you carrying on with your own thoughts. No one intervenes, particularly when you all were trying to cope in your own ways. San occasionally offers you his lit blunt, and Wooyoung munches on Mitski's chips.

You blow out a smoke, handing the cigarette back to San. "Guys, what do you think his deal is?"

Wooyoung turns to you, "what do you mean?"

"Mr. Haruki." San mentions, rolling his eyes. "I think he's mourning his wife's death."

"For ten years?" Mitski questions, "it's something more...personal, I believe."

"Deiji must know." Wooyoung sparks up, placing his hand on your shoulder. "Didn't your old friend work here before? Um, what was her name, oh right, Keiko."

"You're right." San adds, "wasn't she here for the night shift as well?"

"Well guys, she did work here but," you answer, "I haven't heard from her in forever."

"A little birdie told me she left the town..." Mitski trails, crumpling the empty packet of chips in her hand. "About time I leave too."

No one let her statement go unnoticed. However, you didn't decide to react on it. You all had plans to leave the cursed town and settle elsewhere; all four had a rough draft in your blueprints, you were all going to rent an apartment in the neighbouring city and lead a perfect life. Maybe.

"Although Keiko never talked about her work." You whine, "I'm saying you guys keep overthinking about him. He's not that bad."

"Mr. Haruki smells like bad news from a distance." San puts out his cigarette on the pavement in front of him. "If you dare, then go ahead. Get yourself an interview." He pecks your cheek. "But if he does something to you, I'm breaking his bones."

"Nothing will happen to me." You place a soft kiss on San's lips. "I promise."

Silence looms over all of you, again. Mitski finds herself being uncomfortable under the influence of their sudden tranquility. You and San are busy talking within yourselves, while Wooyoung chimes in from time to time, making you all groan and laugh. Mitski felt left out in her own mind — even if her boyfriend loved eating her ear off — she always felt like an outcast. Although, that wasn't the end of it; Mitski was crippling under someone's heavy gaze lingering on them. She's always had a sense, a sense pertaining to — what we refer to as — the sixth sense. She elbows Wooyoung in his ribs, drawing out a murmured moan from him.

"Do you feel like someone's watching us?"

"What..." Wooyoung trails, looking at his girlfriend.

"I can't shake it off," Mitski begins, looking around the vacant parking lot. "The penetrating eyes of a shadow..."

You lean over to meet eyes with Mitski, she was clearly panicking from the sudden outburst taking over her. "Suki, relax. There's no one here."

San adds to that, "hey, we can fight well, you know."

Wooyoung jokes, "definitely." He hops off on his feet and squares up, screaming, "who are you, huh. Fucking coward. Come fight me."

San let's out a hearty laugh, shaking his head. But you are focused on Mitski, who is so unamused and confused. You slide yourself on the crib, colliding with Mitski. Wrapping an arm around her shoulder, you pulls her close and start rubbing along her side.

"Calm down." You promise, "we're okay. We're fine. Keep it cool."

San and Wooyoung joked around, Mitski gave into your comfort.

But little did you know someone really had their eyes on you.

NEXT CHAPTER | MASTERLIST

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[springtrappd]

the fnaf movie cast & crew on matthew lillard's performance:

OFFICIAL CHARACTER DESCRIPTION FOR STEVE RAGLAN:

A smug career counselor charged with helping Mike find a job, Steve Raglan has zero sympathy for the burdens of the unemployed. Played by horror legend Matthew Lillard, star of the original Scream, Steve seems to take a perverse pleasure in forcing a desperate person, like Mike, into a situation that’s less than ideal. It’s Steve who suggests the night guard job at Freddy’s to Mike, and who then bides his time, like a spider, until Mike reluctantly agrees to take it.

TAMMI & SCOTT IN ‘UNIVERSAL PICTURES PUBLICITY: FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY’S PRODUCTION INFORMATION APPROVED’:

“Matthew Lillard was terrific,” game creator and film producer Scott Cawthon says. “There was a long list of people we were looking at for this role. I was leaning toward Lillard early-on because I had great memories of seeing Scream in the theaters like twenty times with my roommates in college, but when a close friend of mine told me what a great guy he was in real life and how he took such good care of his fans at conventions, I knew he was the right person for the job. I told Matthew on the phone during our very first conversation that after the movie comes out, no one will even be able to imagine anyone else for the role, and I stand by that.” Landing the actor was a coup, says director Emma Tammi. “Getting Matthew on board was just incredible,” Tammi says. “He brought so much zaniness and electricity into the mix, and he had such attention to what Five Nights fans would want to see.”

'MATTHEW LILLARD ON "HUMBLING AND EXCITING" FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S' SUCCESS AND CREATING AUTHENTIC EXPERIENCES FOR FANS' (in The Hollywood Reporter):

CULLINS: For people who are not familiar with the game, how would you describe your character? LILLARD: I play a character that is living in plain sight in the world, and he is a horrible monster. Toward the end of the film, when my daughter can’t handle a situation, I have to step in and take over. I do not accomplish that goal and end up meeting my demise. It’s the first step in a journey that has this rich canon that spans multiple video games. I play a monster who, at the end of the day, gets his comeuppance and is thrown into this horror realm that he created. The hard part about playing this part is the pressure I put on myself to honor the fans, to deliver a great performance in an iconic role. There are millions of kids worldwide, and people that started playing as kids and are now adults, that have an expectation that this film will deliver on a really great level. So, being this iconic bad guy, the amount of pressure I put on myself to not suck is pretty extraordinary. That’s the hardest part.

TAMMI IN 'FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S FILMMAKER EMMA TAMMI TALKS THE "LOOSE ENDS" TO TACKLE IN A SEQUEL' (for The Hollywood Reporter):

DAVIDS: Before and after the reveal, I did catch some Stu Macher/Scream vibes from Matthew. I recognized that familiar live wire that he plays so well. Did you encourage that? Or did he just know instinctively that this guy warranted a bit of the same crazed energy that Stu had? TAMMI: Gosh, it feels like catching lightning in a bottle with Matthew because he just brings so much to the set and in the moment. And on that day in particular, we were just trying a bunch of different things for a bunch of different takes, and he was really coming alive in that [Yellow Rabbit] suit for the first time. Of course, we’d done some rehearsals with that suit, but it was a whole other deal once the camera was actually rolling in the properly lit pizzeria. So he was just going for it on every take and doing something different and really exploring in the moment. We just needed to make sure that we were there to capture it all. So, yes, there was definitely a back and forth between the two of us in terms of trying different things and really maximizing his menacing movement in that suit. But at the end of the day, he was just bringing all of his brilliance and improvisation to the table, and we were so lucky to be rolling on it.

LILLARD IN 'FNAF: FROM GAME TO BIG SCREEN' (DVD Bonus Content, via YouTube):

I've been really jonesing, like really coveting an opportunity to get a chance to get back into the horror genre. Getting a chance to work with Emma has been lovely. I literally, when I'm in that costume I'm blind, and so I rely on her like very few performances I've ever had in my life, to help me... sorta craft this character on the fly, physically in how we're telling the story and where we're at in the lore, and how that applies to-- y'know, all of the information that's out there and available, it all comes through her [Emma Tammi] and she fills us with what we need.

BONUS: the official guidelines for Raglan's facial hair, courtesy of Makeup Department Head Ashley Levy (via Instagram); "Also included: proof we take our facial hair design *very* seriously around here."

#speaking! #movieverse #long post #theoryposting #fnaf #YES HE WAS BLIND. #WHILE NONE OF THE SUIT PERFORMERS COULD SEE WELL #HIS WAS THE ONLY PART #WHO HAD TO ACTUALLY /WALK/ #& RUN & INTERACT W/ OBJECTS #INSANELY IMPRESSIVE PERFORMANCE ALREADY #BUT MIND-BOGGLING W/ THAT INFO.