#bro the pains make my mental state worse!!!! this is a neverending cycle!!!!!! i want to fucking dieeeeeee

[daz4i]

funniest (/s) irony about my pains is that the only painkiller that actually helps (mostly, not entirely) likely also makes them worse in the long run. i just love having a body and being alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i don't know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow ig I'll ask him #since i don't have an actual diagnosis yet idk if it's actually a big no-no like it is for ppl with the disease i MIGHT have #but given my symptoms match up and keep coming back despite me supposedly taking medicine to help #i think it's safe to assume i should at least treat my body as if it has it #(also when i say symptoms i mean more than pains like. i mean actual internal inflammation n shit like that) #god. god I'm so tired. i have to take a painkiller every day bc it's just so unbearable #but ik taking them this often isn't a good idea. and i can't mix them up with others bc like i said it's the only one that helps #I'm so so tired of being in pain. and being scared to do basic things my body needs in order to function bc they make the pain worse #fucking drinking water makes the pains worse sometimes 😭😭😭😭 but it's not like i can avoid that #and every source i read said an unstable mental state makes it worse so that's just great. #bro the pains make my mental state worse!!!! this is a neverending cycle!!!!!! i want to fucking dieeeeeee #vent #medical // #ask to tag