#but at the same time. since when have I cared about that?

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I don't know how to write this without it being horribly obvious who I'm writing about

#but at the same time. since when have I cared about that? #I wrote an entire poem about another writer and then flashbanged you all with a song. idk. I want to post this and talk about it #I like what I've written #but it IS very directly and not even vaguely about another person and I don't have any right to say any of these things #I've never had the right to miss anyone. I always love too hard. far more than is reciprocated at least #everyone means the world to me but everyone has someone who means far more to them than I ever will #I'm not anyone's most important person. or even AN important person. but everyone is so so important to me #idk a song came on my playlist while I was reading and now I feel really upset about something stupid #like. a friendship lost that wasn't even that close. I don't think this person cared anywhere near as much as me. and I didn't #care as much as I should've/could've either. so. it's complicated #Lu rambles #sometimes I think I could write poetry