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#but i cant even begin to imagine being too poor to afford a book i like or not being able to travel around and see new things
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#i've been so confused and sad lately
#i'm supposed to decide what i want to do with my life this week and the problem is that i already know what i want to do
#but i cant do it. because i need to make money somehow. and universities really dont give a fuck about your hopes and dreams and passions
#i'm really just a kid. i'm just 17 for gods sake
#it makes me angry how i have to go through this bullshit and lay on the kitchen floor and cry my eyes out for hours
#i argue with my parents and myself and it doesn't solve anything
#'dream big' 'you can do anything' shut the fuck up. stop lying to kids
#stop giving them hope dreams passions when you're just gonna crush them as soon as they become young adults
#i'm so full of hate. anger. i wish i wasnt alive i wish i didn't have to go through this. this is the worst time of my life so far
#i know i should pick myself up. i know i need to start recovering from this but i dont feel like i want to
#it already afternoon and i havent eaten anything
#i didn't make my bed. i didn't brush my teeth. i didn't take my ocd meds.
#i didn't talk to my friends and i've just deleted my insta acc so i cant
#i'm scared. i'm so scared of hating what i become. i'm so scared of being stuck with a life i hate just because i made the wrong decision
#part of me wants to believe it wont be the end of my life even if i do make the wrong decision
#part of me knows its bullshit and i'm just foolimg myself because i know i will regret this for the rest of my life
#i hate money. i hate life. i hate that i have to make money to make my way in life
#i dont want a house or a car or fancy things
#but i cant even begin to imagine being too poor to afford a book i like or not being able to travel around and see new things
#like... everything is money. i cant imagine having to stay in the citt i grew up in just because i cant afford to go
#i cant imagine it. it makes me wanna die
#i want to be realistic about this
#but i hate that i have to give up on everything i worked for and hoped for and dreamed of FOR YEARS for realism's sake
#i... really need to clear my mind and stop being so dramatic about this
#i'm scared. i regret staying alive long enough to see this day honestly
#i wish i had died before all of this has ever begun to be part of my concerns
#i wish it wasnt so hard. i wish it wasn't so scary
#i think i need a coffee and my meds
#sorry for the vent
#please dont bother trying to help
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