#but i learnt that modern day protestants didn’t deserve my grudge for that

[railmebarrow]

now i'm thinking about the barrow family attending mass in a priest hole for some reason (also i've never wanted to be religious but I still to this day hold a grudge about the multiple times someone has mentioned catholicism and the protestants in the room r like "catholics aren't christians" IMMEDIATELY and with SUCH UNEARNED CONFIDENCE. anyway they could stand to be taken down a peg lol)

i’m from a catholic family and as far as i know priest holes weren’t used in the 1890s (sadly for us writers) but it definitely wouldn’t be something you would openly declare. i can see Mr Barrow Senior lecturing the children on who they are allowed to talk to their faith about.

i think some of that will have stuck with thomas. when people slander his faith (without knowing he’s catholic) he just stands there and takes it. he’s careful about who knows and when everyone find out (about 15 years after he’s employed at the abbey) its a massive shock.

growing up catholic and going to catholic schools i often heard the “so and so aren’t real christian’s” but the other way around. it took me so long (until i was 17) to unlearn what i had been taught about protestants. it’s so weird how indoctrination can change the way u think about perfectly reasonable people.

#i think i still harbour a little bit of a grudge but that’s just bcos i am so sad about the dissolution #i used to visit so many monasteries as a child and just be heartbroken at the state they were in #but i learnt that modern day protestants didn’t deserve my grudge for that #fuck you henry the eight fucking bastard #downton abbey #thomas barrow #catholic #stream of consciousness