#but i like to think maybe u werent

[starswallowingsea]

Every time I think about how the Colleen Hoover fangirlies get mad when people even suggest that they should try and diversify their portfolios I get really, really sad. Like I don't think you have to read classics or anything and be an elite snob but if you limit yourself to just Colleen Hoover and maybe Sarah J Maas and a few other popular booktok authors, you're missing out on so so much. Even if you just want to find good new releases, keeping up with the book of the month club will give you plenty of options (even if you can't subscribe to them and have to get them from the library). Diversify your portfolio. Read older mass market paperback romances or literally anything else.

#shay speaks #anti colleen hoover #anti coho #do i put this in the coho tags too............ #do i want more drama from that anon who clearly doesnt have any reading comprehension #anyway for any of u coho stannies stalking the anti coho tags. #i'm not saying this to be elitist #literally one of my favorite books from last year is a mass market paperback romance novel from 2008 #the classics are like any other genre of books. you'll love some and hate others #and maybe actually try reading pride and prejudice without swapping out the names for your blorbos #and sitting with the themes of it. maybe you wont like it! maybe you will! only way to find out is to actually read it #even reading books you end up not liking can help you figure out your taste better #and you can think about what works for you and what doesnt from them #but please branch out. #anyway i'm done. i'm having another moment i just feel really bad for people who never bother to try things that #werent released in the last 5 years. go find some stuff on thrift books for cheap #probably my favorite way to find books

[tomboyyyaoi]

i cant describe it but people just putting meryl and milly in the background of vashwood instead of just putting them front and centre in their own piece genuinely feels like im being cucked like why did u even bother

like damn maybe id like the ship more if people didnt just go "theyr so cute and soft and married aahhh so so gentle and femme and girly theyr so cyute" then the only time they draw them is like. idfk them walking in on vash and wolfwood fucking eachothers brains out like god. all talk.

#i think its the only reason i dont like the pairing like. i like them theyr cute but. idk for me theyr not romantic #and its like. really annoying when people just say they ship them but its just lip service bc they rlly wanna pretend they care #but the truth is is that ive seen maybe 3 people put milly/meryl front and centre in their own dedicated art #and it was good #ppl just dont know what to do w them #not that i do either but hey at least i dont claim to ship them #listen im not tryin 2 dictate or anything #but fr it annoys me sm when people pretend to ship them to either go 'see? i do care about women!!! (lie)' or to get them 'out of the way' #DONT SAY U SHIP THEM IF U DONTTTT FUCK STOP PRETENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #id rather u just leave them out of it like genuinely its such an insult to their characters like god #even nightow doesnt shove them to the back this much and they werent present for like 30 chapters at one point #BECAUSE HE KNEW IT WOULD BE MORE IMPACTFUL TO BRING THEM BACK IN SOME BIG REVEAL AND GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO DO #bc he respected his characters enough to not have them just bumble about in the background doing fuckall while he figured them out #so they were temporarily removed from the plot and them coming back and being Ready 2 Fucken Go was powerful it was so cool #please just respect these girls ffs stop having them be the Background Cardboard Cutout Dykes #so so so so so so annoying 2 me as a meryl and milly lover #rbs off i dont wanna start discourse #also ive talked abt this before

[kraviolis]

i can tell when the author of a fanfic im reading had a peaceful childhood

#krav talks #not to pull the 'i have actual ptsd from a traumatic childhood' card but im gonna be real #i dont think some of y'all understand exactly what hunter's childhood was like #belos also most likely was not the verbally abusive type of parent. he was physically and emotionally abusive FOR SURE. ABSOLUTELY #but theres no shot he'd just yell at hunter. he doesn't get angry like that #case in point: What Happened To Caleb #hunter isnt gonna start crying from someone yelling at him out of anger. he'll get triggered MAYBE #hunter gets fighty if he gets triggered by ANY older authority figure. kikimora and lilith werent exactly kind to him either #the only way hunter cries is when his friends are around bcus he feels so safe with them #you know who would cry over being yelled at like that??? amity. #sure later in her life she probably got into screaming matches with odalia #but if u think even she wouldnt burst into tears if she got yelled at by any older female authority figure in her life #then u r wrong. sorry #hunter was not allowed to be vulnerable. it was too dangerous to be. he also had NO ONE while under belos's thumb. #amity had her siblings. they probably gave her safe spaces to cry it out after getting verbally abused by their mom #if lilith lost her patience and raised her voice at amity (not in a mean way bcus lilith would literally Never but no one is perfect) #amity would start crying for sure. and then lilith would feel like the worst person in the world. scum of the earth. #and god forbid hunter sees this exchange. he'd rip lilith a new one even if she'd already apologized #he wouldnt stop chewing her out for even daring to speak to The Amity Blight so disrespectfully unless amity physically pulled him away. #and then he'd threaten lilith and flash step amity away and immediately call luz #now if a MAN tried to yell at amity she would be three seconds away from throwing hands #but she wouldnt even need to worry about getting her hands dirty bcus hunter would already be shoving the man to the fucking ground #and threatening to end his entire life if he even stepped foot into hunter's field of view ever again #this is why its hard for me to imagine hunter living with darius post-belos... darius wasnt kind to him at first either. #and i think hunter living with someone who had actually had a role in his traumatic childhood would make him. regress #he'd fall back into old behaviors without even noticing. im not entirely sure darius would notice either #i love darius and i love darius & hunters bond so much #but it makes so much more sense and would be so much better for hunter to live with the nocedas for a while #not permanently. camila did great with paying for 6 kids under her roof but she was one emergency away from financial devastation #and i dont think hunter would want to live in the human realm permanently either

[hiddenbeks]

carth watching in increasing despair as this random soldier he escaped the endar spire with and who agreed to keeping a "low profile" makes an enemy of tarisian nobility and the local crime lord, loses all their credits in pazaak games, enters a dueling ring with the excuse of regaining the credits but really just wants to blow off some steam, goes to a sith party with the excuse of searching for leads on bastila's whereabouts but really just wants to see how fun the sith are to party with,

#the 'prodigal knight' and 'dreaded sith lord' is also the wildest party-goer in the galaxy babyyyy #the sith are not fun to party with btw. cant hold their liquor and the music choices are mid #this is what ultimately sets liah on the light side path (not really but thats what she tells everyone. half-jokingly.) #also i havent actually lost any credits in pazaak yet. i beat that one guy in the cantina who claims to be the best player around. ha #but like Canonically liah is so bad at pazaak. or maybe its just bad luck. either way she keeps losing but cant stop playing #she simply cannot say no to a challenge. be it card games or duels. i love her #ch: liah #el plays kotor #im having a blast w this game but i cant stop thinking abt what it could be if it werent so old n limited by the technology of its time #the quests could have more layers n paths n outcomes...... #like what if the sith party was bigger what if you could get absolutely shitfaced n fail to find anything that could help in ur search. lol #instead of just. u walk in to apartment. u briefly talk to guy who invited u. screen fades to black. #everyone except for u is passed out on the floor bc they had too much to drink. u didnt even get a chance to drink. #quest proceeds. loot sith armor for disguise and be on ur merry way. no partying for u. #sigh. kotor remake....... you remain in my dreams........ #also disclaimer theres nothing wrong with a game being more linear!!! #not every game has to have the complexities n permutations of modern rpgs!!! sometimes simplicity is better!!! #but im just saying. it would be fun and its fun to think about. #also btw some of the dialogue in this game sounds like its written by a child. its a bit painful at times. but anyway

[tacodemuerte]

some ppl wanan see jack get punished too LIKE GIRL HE IS SUSPENDED MFIOSMFIOSHFS HE IS PUNISHED!! it's just an unfortunate outcome from a very funny situaTION FMISOFMSH

i feel like phil might come back tho I KNOW ITS DELUSHE but like what if he was reall yreallllllyyyy sorrY...

#i also feel like if maybe things werent leaked so bad that maybe that wouldbnt b the case but idk #its silly to put all the blame on jack tho liike im sorry but i thought we all knew phillip was a little hot head #i think he rules but when u but heads with so many ppl like that shit like this is bound to happeN #i feel like jack kinda has that short fuse too which MAKES ME GULP CAUSE GIRL.. U BETTER WATCH IT TOO #also the elite showing up at the end of collission........SNNOOOREEEE LIEK GO AWAY MASIOHSFS #i dont even hate THE ELITE i just hate those GOT DAMN TWINS OR BROTHERS WAHTER

[de-adend-archived]

de-adend -> de-adend-archived o7 so long!

#text #not art #dont worry abt me posting this in the early ams im studying for an exam this month and its ruined my sleep schedule okay aNYWAYS #tilts head side to side #did you know i made this side blog back in 2018 and it only has 123 posts #i mean my tablet got busted like at some point that year and i borrowed my friend's which was a whole adjustment period #but in 2019 i really hit a stride when i watched the hzbn pilot and very much enjoyed drawing fanart and ocs for it #and like yeah they werent very cleaned up and defo counted more as sketches but that year i did save like 240 as postable pngs #2020 was around 300 a brief lull in 2021 at like 100 #2022 was about 300 and 2023 was around 200 #i was mullin over these numbers for a bit a while ago when i did that whole new yearly contemplation of 'i wanna draw and post more!' #when like. ive posted about 10% of my art thruout the years [me!!! when i love validation more than god!!!] #and it got me thinking #blinks looks around i mean ill probably still like #post on my other blog bc art is my flesh blood and bones i cant escape it #just you kno maybe not like in the same mindset i unknowingly cultivated within myself here specifically #can u believe it wasnt any aiscare that did it!!! never let a machine take a humans job of feeling bad abt themselves this is home grown

[sipsteainanxiety]

ok but imagine telling bkg he's ugly to his face LMFAOOOO

#how can a man be so pretty yet so uglee at the same time #we love him for it tho #if u dont love him at his [insert ugly bkg face here] then u dont deserve him at his [insert pretty bkg face here] #u think he'd be offended? #maybe #'hah??' his upper lip curled over his teeth 'the fuck did u just say t'me??' #or would he just not give a fuck LMFAOO #why would he care abt what some extra thinks #hes here to be a hero not a damn model! #BUT WHAT IF U WERENT JUST SOME EXTRA #i think u'd break his silly little heart if he was crushing on u and u jokingly told him he was ugly LMAO #go to sleep shay it's late o'clock #also no one asked but my socio exam was fine #ive been awake for like #17.5 hrs tho #zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz #hate how my prof tested us on the 50 page readings he gave us but whatev it was okay #i hadnt written an in person exam essay in so LONG it was weird #we were in a big lecture hall too everyone was crammed right next to each other #college weird

[lokh]

i willingly went to a bible study in uni cos i thought it would be interesting and they might actually get into analysing stuff. they did not

#they were doing like.... my high school level religion class analysis #i dont remember anything anymore but theyd try to lead me on to something and id be like Oh like this? #and theyd be surprised like wow yea. idr if i stated im not christian so maybe they were just trying to convert me #mildly disappointed. maybe they actually got into stuff in the study proper but it was very much #just extended homily you know. i did not escape mass just to experience it in the form of bible study #you know what i mean???? they werent actually trying to like. Study it they were just kinda. #pointing things out and saying thats proof that jesus wants u to etc etc #i was like does anyone here actually ask questions. apparently not #maybe thats just what bible study actually is and i just misunderstood it 😔 #i think my experience with the evangelical union on campus got my hopes up LMAO #told them i was buddhist back then and it was fun to talk about stuff they werent trying to convert me lmao #i remember they brought up the concept of dukkha and were like isnt that depressing tho #i didnt know how to be like girl im depressed lmao this is just an accurate description #i dont remember if i brought it up then but like cmon. like the concept of sin is any better

[hellhoundlair]

watched bloodlines then immediately watched family remains afterwards i feel like sams characterisation was absolute whiplash between those two eps

#of you have like an entire two seasons worth of episodes to explain why hes different and to give context on it. but MAN. idk #maybe if i actually rewatched season 4 again id be like okay yeah this makes sense but sam was kinda. not cruel. but. idk #sam was empathetic to the vamps in bloodlust and it makes u go oh man theyre on the way to like viewing monsters as human! #and then in family remains sam calls a girl whos an innocent victim of her circumstance - literally just a human “barely human” #because. what. she was weird. bc shes a product of incest. idk. so weird. #also i think that was my first time watching family remains i mustve accidentally skipped it when i was first watching it lol #they killed two humans in that episode btw. thats crazy to me. they werent even super bad guys they were just raised in a basement

[bodylanda]

Day 239 of thinking abt the king orange vs tdl short. It rlly is cute that it probably just arose from yellow and green just sitting on the couch going “okay but they can MAKE anything” and then arguing abt it forever

#text #i also like to think tsc had to make them those figurines #and they werent pleased abt it in the slightest #BUT ANYTHING FOR U BLORBIES #i feel like this says smthn abt green but yellow being the last to witness everyone dying……. maybe influential

[anotherpapercut]

the other day I was complaining about someone calling themselves emo when they don't listen to emo music and I called it "stolen valor" and my friend was like I think there's something wrong with you

#not just gonna stand idly by while mfs claim the term emo. u werent in the trenches with us bitch!!!!!!!!!!! #this person literally has told me they dont even like music #sure u have green hair BUT DO U KNOW WHO RITES OF SPRING ARE I DIDNT THINK SO #why dont you (me) go listen to understanding in a car crash and maybe you'll calm down

[transgaysex]

wtf. born this way by lady gaga came out 12 years ago and this is the first time i actually read the lyrics and i feel SO silly but i teared up

#wind howls #though in a way its also like. fair. i didnt speak english 12 years ago #ive been in a weird emotional area lately so ive been really emotional ? and needing to cry but unable to #so the little tears actually like. feel a bit like relief. #i think ive also been suffocating. i want to live so proudly. i want to be flamboyant. i want to make people turn their heads. #but i think most of all i just wish to be myself. i wish my parents would call me my name. i wish i werent afraid 2 use it in front of them #i have to change it legally within these next 3 years at any rate because i want my chosen name on my diploma but like. #its a mix of all that. ive been fearful lately for reasons that are both justified and not. maybe theres some loneliness sprinkled in too #but ive been calling a lot with the homies lately. its been doing me really good. #anyway lady gaga i love u. i was so right to call you my favourite artist when i was 9. youre still up there queen i love u

[orcelito]

It does feel really nice to go into my kitchen and see it not entirely filled with grime...

Like I still have more to do. But it feels so open. Is this what it's like to have a functional apartment?

#speculation nation #i also realized i will need to move the curtain. to shower. #like uh. i washed the curtain from work. and its hanging on my shower curtain to not wrinkle #ONE of us is gonna have 2 change 😤 #also. i am tipsier than i thought. #age old sitting is fine then u get up and ur like Whoa #yes ive had.. 3 shots. the first was nothing. 2nd was eh. had to do the third. for liquid motivation. #yes hello new followers hope u werent expecting anyone cool or put together haha #unfortunately this is rather typical behavior for me. #WELL at least this time ive got. a cleaner apartment. #better than the entire past month. i have belonged... to the void... #alcohol ment/ #yeaaa yea yea #i was thinking kf bringing this strawberry shit home from work that i like to use for mixers #with like peach vodka and lemonade. peach vodka is my favorite #but i decided against it bc tonights a shots night rather than casual drinking #instead i had this. rose strawberry vodka. it's fine. rose strawberry is a very Me kinda flavor #both being favorites of mine. i dont like it in drinks as much as the peach vodka tho #im running low on peach so im saving it for when i wanna have nice enjoyable drinks. with my strawberry shit. #anyways. the rose strawberry shit is. 30%. while the peach is 35%. maybe thats why it didnt hit as hard #regardless. i need to take a shower. while properly tipsy lmaooo #i'll be fine. i can still type fine. see? i got enough coordination to not break my neck. #🕺🎉🎊

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

ppl complaining about juri being insanley op are soooo funny bitch play a guy who goes up and across

#or like. chun li or guile or anyone but your lame ass shoto #shes honestly kind of mid like as long as you just light punish her super telegraphed strings whats shes gonna do grab u #like just dont get stupid and play lame as fuck and shes not even that much of a menace #unless ur like playing ryu or zangief or something uhhhh good luck bro #i would say at a high level maybe its different but we all saw how the juri players that werent nephew dropped like flies in top 8 at ceo #idk what the fuck idom was thinking with that juri pick thats still one of the most baffling decisions ive ever seen #it was like a jdcr getting talked into playing heihachi by the crowd level throw except he was playing a character ppl were booing

[mejomonster]

i have, somehow, finally returned to writing the Original the blank files story that spawned the absolute plethora of other stories. and i 

i realize it is absolutely critical this story takes place in the 2000s

#rant #tbf #i mean. its meant to be set around 2012 and just prior and just after anyway #but i realize the HIGH SCHOOL portions are SO colored by the 2000s experience #theres just. a specific brand of WTF homophobia even from other baby gays who knew no better from that era #i remember being called homophobic shit BY the other gay kids because once we were exes #theyd pretend to be straight and make fun of me for liking pussy like OK well u wanted me to touch urs so maybe #ur joke about me eating tacos and being a carpet muncher freak is a little hypocritical no? #but like. that was ABOUND #and even if u Were somehow straight or exclusively dealing with straight ppl #they would do these 'gay marriages' of 2 straight girls acting married cause theyre Great Friends JUST so they could then insult #any girls who ACTUALLY liked girls #and guys? oh man poor guys. gay and all variants of gay were used Intensively to bully #i think the only guy friend i had who handled it alright was my also bi friend. who was class clown and a full bitch and he could insult #everyone back while also Towering over everyone so like. aside from thinking it was bizzare gay was an insult #they couldnt hurt him much #but yeah like me and him were the only people vaguely aware we were bi bitches in high school. (because everyone was biphobic and said #we werent real -.- ) #it was ah. a way different high school experience #like. im really not kidding u could be a lesbian butch dating only other lesbian butches #and the second u would break up ur dyke ex would call YOU a filthy dyke carpet munching freak and spread rumors about u #despite ALL of yall looking like the obvious gay people here. it was certainly some Bullshit #(also its probably a miracle i didnt date many boys because im SO fucking queer and so fucking masculine i think id have short circuited #and lost my shit if a person called me anything like queen GOD YUCK) #also being trans in retrospect. explains so much of my teen years #lol one of my BIGGEST teen crushes was also nonbinary in retrospect. we Knew somehow before we Knew. #probs why we clicked. we both didnt act like the goddamn percieved gender ppl treated us as