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mdzsartreblogs · 2 years

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Look, it's 4 am here and I probably shouldn't post this at all but I've been thinking about it a lot for months and something that happened yesterday really drove it home so fuck it.

You guys realize I'm a real fucking person, right? My name is unforth, I run 8 art blogs because I fucking love danmei and I fucking love art. I'm not a bot. There is no algorithm. I do all the finding art, all the tagging, all the queueing, all the organization, by hand. Across my blogs I usually spend about 2 hours a day everyday on this, and that's about enough to barely keep on top of it. If I want to catch up on my huge backlog, it takes longer.

I am a real human. I have a real job. I have a wife. I have two small children (6 and 4). In the past year my wife and I have both had surgery, my son has been sick 5 times already, my kids have had to miss week upon week of school due to illness, covid exposures, car issues, and more. Four members of my extended family have had covid. I could go on, but fuck it.

I do this because I love fandom, I love art, I love artists, and I love organizing things. It's good for my brain. And it means a lot to me to help artists grow their platforms, to help get more eyes on their work, their merch, their commissions, their shops. But I also work my ass off. I own a small business I started 2 years ago that is growing, and doing okay, but has still not done well enough for me to take a single paycheck in that time (the owner always gets paid last. Everyone else gets repaid first).

This blog has something like 1800 followers.

Yesterday I reblogged a thing for my own latest project and just said, "signal boosts appreciated" and I got 1 reblog. From over *eighteen hundred of you*.

My name is unforth. I just adopted two guinea pigs. I think my son is sick again. I had to beg my dad for money to pay our mortgage this month. I've spent hundreds of hours for over two years running this blog and it feels like y'all care *so fucking little* that I might as well be invisible, a bot, a machine, a memory.

I am a real person.

And I'm about this close to saying "fuck it" and walking away from this project because being nothing feels like *shit.*

I don't need or want thanks, but yall should CARE. Not just about me, either. I've seen how few notes artists get on calls for commissions, on their shops, on their personal projects. We're all real people! And no you don't "owe us" but ffs common courtesy suggests if you like what we do you'd help all of us get more eyes on our stuff. No ones saying "give money" but among your followers, or among their followers, there might be someone who Wants The Thing but if the post doesn't spread no one will even know The Thing fucking exists. Folks say they want more indy art, indy stories, queer creators, on and on, but act like even giving a project signal boost is asking too much. I'm so exhausted watching people I care about beg for scraps. I'm so exhausted begging for scraps myself. It should be a no-brainer - if you like what someone creates HIT THE FUCKING REBLOG BUTTON.

And yet.

I'm so tired, yall.

It's now almost 5 am. I shouldn't post this. I'm going to, though. And if I do quit, when I do quit, don't say I didn't warn you.

#unforth rambles

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risu5waffles · 11 months

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devvy dev diary stuffs #suck eggs

It just occurred to me that the use of the number (or pound) sign to mean hashtag means explicitly numbering things non-numerically just reads as unfunny tagging, as opposed to unfunny joking. Well, whatever. Fuck it.

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Since we've been mucking about wiv cutscenes on stream for the past however many months, it started feeling silly not posting how they're coming along. i suppose if people decide not to play the level because they've seen it all in the drawing board videos, well, that's what happens? i don't much expect to get a lot of people playing, let alone all the way to the end anyway. i've seen the statistics on other stuff i've done. Even simple levels, people bounce before the end. Even levels that let you go direct to the scoreboard. So, meh, fine.

This is the bit that caused the level to go Total Kittiwumpus and need to be broken into two parts even tho' the original version was already a dThermo level. i guess it's like chronos said, even tho' everything isn't in the level "physically" all at once wiv dThermo, it's still in the level somehow from a mechanical/programming standpoint. Even tho' there's not really much in this section on its, having it on top of the other cutscene bit (in the sense that all the components were in one place, now we've got the cutscene split into three separate parts, and i'm going to need to figure out preloaders and the like so they'll look like a seemless whole when it plays out) created blackhole-density in the level that made everything implode and go bye-bye.

This isn't even what i had originally storyboarded, but there is a point where it's all just a bit too much, and clearly we passed that a few miles ago already.

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i wasn't going to spend this morning recording. i'd only gone on the ps4 to grab the cutscene video, and then i was going to get ready for my day, maybe have some breakfast. Then i thought: well, i could just grab a level or two while i'm here. Won't take but a couple minutes, just to pad out the backlog some more. Then i hit this fucking thing.

It's not just that the level, itself, is a sprawling chonkster wiv poor player communication, it was... this. Whatever this is. It's the burning ground in front that really fucks the chicken here. If you could just scoot out and engage the paintinator, it would be so much easier to deal wiv. If the creator didn't want the player to be able to hop back into safety when the danmaku got a bit rough, he could have just raised the door once you were out. But no. They decided they had to get clever wiv it. It took me so long just to figure out you're supposed to exit via that slope on the left, because why? And wiv the player sensor being so seemingly tight, you've really got to scoot perfect to get out, or the door closes enough that you'll get bounced into the fire and die and have to do the whole danged thing over. And the shame (aside from the fact that after this point the level is, in fact, fucking broken) is that it's actually a pretty cool danmaku bit. Like, it's really tight, and you've got to be pretty on your game to slip through the cracks, but it's also clearly parse-able. It's not so many bullets in the air that it just winds up looking like random soup. You can read the pattern, and that's pretty neat. Just a shame you can't, you know, get at it half the time because that door bit is just so goddamned awkard.

#littlebigplanet #little big planet #lbp #lbp3 #drawing board #Youtube

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albatris · 2 years

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Hi hello it’s Sunday now but I wanted to place another ask into your backlog again, what got Nat interested in cooking. What made him go “oh actually this is dope“ and excel at it. Also what is his favourite food. Hope you’re doing well 👍

hi hello good morning! which I can technically say because it is 1:49am c: thank you for the ask!! I hope you are doing well also, that work is good and birds are good~

Nat's favourite food is apple and strawberry crumble!! his comfort food however is a specific halloumi, veg and lentil curry :3

so, Nat initially got interested in cooking for, like........ the help it can offer in terms of bonding and friendship :3

it's not too complicated of an explanation! simply put, growing up, very small Nat and his older sister Lyra didn't really have all that many hobbies or interests in common and she was often super busy with study, n he was just really keen for any opportunity to spend time with her and bond with her :P so, since Lyra enjoyed cooking and creating and experimenting with new recipes, Nat decided he would be too

Of Course, I Am Going To Elaborate, Because I Am Me <3

like, he never DISLIKED cooking of course, but it wasn't something he was particularly interested in as a hobby, it was mostly just that he wanted to spend time with his sister and impress her hahaha. so, when they lived together at home, they spent a lot of time in the kitchen together, making different dishes and learning stuff and experimenting, which both of them enjoyed because it was a nice excuse to take a break from other stuff in their lives :P

Lyra is a much better cook than Nat, but Nat is still extremely good compared to a lot of other folks. he did eventually come to find it a genuinely fun and relaxing thing to do, rather than just "I wanna hang out with Lyra 'cause she's cool so I guess I will let her help me make a weird risotto"

I'm not sure anything in particular made him click over from "this is just whatever" to "oh actually this is dope" :P I do think Nat is a far more creative and inventive person than he gives himself credit for, and creativity and inventiveness aren't really aspects of his personality he expresses in most other areas of his life. so he probably enjoys cooking because it hits that particular sweet spot, to some extent. he does get a lot of enjoyment out of it!

BUT mostly, it's for the bonding opportunities I think, both in the creation process and in terms of, like..... I mean, in general, sharing a homecooked meal with someone is a bonding experience, it's an act of connection and community, which Nat really really really likes. in fact, cooking for people or sharing a meal he's cooked is one of the most common ways he shows affection and often how he expresses to someone that he'd like to be friends :3

Nat has long since become estranged from his family, but he still adores Lyra and continues to hone his skills for her hahaha. plus I think the act of cooking is probably a comfort for him, reminds him of nice times...!

at the start of the story, he mostly just cooks for himself and occasionally brings homecooked food to his elderly neighbours as a gift. like, he never used to talk to ANY of his neighbours, but one day they knocked on his door and asked for his help to move some furniture and referred to him as a "sweet young man" and after that he was just kind of like?? friends??? is this how friends happen???? should I start talking to them now?? they were so nice??? idk how to express myself interpersonally so I am going to bake them a pie???

so now he just occasionally awkwardly taps on their door and is like, eyes down, mumbling in a panic, words piling on top of each other, "hello how are you here is a pasta bake I am going back home now" bc..... lmao. it's Nat

when he gets sort of. forcibly absorbed into a number of Quinn's social circles, he jumps at the chance to cook for people :3 it's wins all round for him, since he's often really anxious around people and a bit socially clumsy. he gets to hang out in the kitchen and still be vaguely Present but not in the midst of all the social chatter, he gets to cook something tasty and fun, he gets to share this with people, he gets to feel useful, AND he gets to bask in the inevitable compliments and people going "oh this is delicious how did you make it? :D"

like. if he cooks you something and you say something nice about it or that you really enjoyed it, he will bask in that for hours. he is like a golden retriever that's just been told it's a good boy. this lad is addicted to compliments I think

but yeah as you're probably aware, his self-esteem is not fantastic lol. so as much as he genuinely does love cooking, he also tends to latch onto anything that makes him feel useful and wins other people's approval! whenever he bumps into something that makes him feel capable and appreciated and nice he just sort of. refuses to ever ever ever let go. n cooking has become that for Nat, I think

but yes. friendship! bonding! compliments! feeling useful! and it's a means of expressing affection that actually feels comfortable for him. one of the first questions he will ask anyone he identified as "potential friend" is "what's your favourite food" so he can make sure he knows how to cook it

I think it's just something he's come to associate with friendship and closeness, as well as like.....

A Way To Get People To Want To Be Around You, however warped that perspective is

anyway, apparently I had more Thoughts on that than I thought I did, but I am fresh out of thoughts now! all of the thoughts have left me.

thank you for reading and I hope you're having a cool day!!

#a rental car takes a left down rake street and disappears

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ac-liveblogs · 2 years

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Im assuming the quests selling the characters are Intended to be the Ayatos character quest. (the archon quest is hyping up dainslief in ten years ig lol.) I haven't progressed much through the chasm quest (i explored the entire exterior tho), but so far some of the minor npcs are ok.

Yanbo, Old Chou, and Wang have actually put together a surprisingly good (by genshin standards) web of quests discussing visions and gods. Sure, most of the discussion is backloaded into the final paragraphs of dialogue but its there (and not in the main goddamn quest)!

As an enjou appreciator its weird to me how some of genshins npcs are straight up better than the pcs. Im happy they exist but some of these characters are languishing MHY. kokomi is dead in a ditch still!

So far the most positive thing for me is definitely venti abyss. it couldnt be more transparent how theyre temporarily buffing him for a sell but god if his black hole isnt fun. First n only 36 star.

Oh yeah, there are the 5star character quests and, theoretically, the Hangouts. But this is a gacha game, so that means any character-driven event or quest should be an opportunity to extend on the purchasable units. To clarify, in FGO, there are no events that aren't focusing on at least one rate-up character. This is kind of a win/win because we get more content for our units, and FGO makes more money.

There is never any point in FGO where NPCs are given more time and attention than units they want you to roll for. There have been NPCs people got attached to, but this seems more incidental than intentional... which bit them in the ass with the Takasugi Scandal last year, but I fully expect he'll end up in the pool eventually given the outcry. Given what happened with Muramasa....

The idea that NPCs like Kazari and Enjou have better writing than playable units? FGO would never let that happen. The only time FGO wants you to get attached to NPCs is when it's about to brutally murder them and make you feel like it was your fault, and then rub in that you can't save them.

We shouldn't be spending extended periods of time with NPCs over playable characters we're never going to see again. This isn't a traditional RPG, we're supposed to be paying money for these units. As it is, HYV just ends up with a huge backlog of characters that barely show up. I wonder why it happens too?

I've noticed characterization tends to differ between events, so at first I wondered if it was just too hard to keep writing them in-character. I was also wondering if these characters have very specific character arcs MHY wants to follow, and doesn't want to risk going off-script or revealing things early by letting us learn any more about them (to which I go ??????? write better if either of these are correct). Maybe they also have problems booking voice actors or animating things, to which I say 'maybe you should've thought about that before making the game so ambitious'.

I also think Genshin runs into problems when it makes its characters either too exciting or too mundane, bc it's hard to design events around them. Characters that do cool stuff off-screen like Xiao and Beidou would require a lot of new resources to create events that actually keep pace with what they're capable of doing - thus the perpetually off-screen evil god ghosts. Meanwhile, Liyue's endless parade of politicians and business owners aren't going to lend very well to exciting storylines - except Hu Tao; but see the 'new resources' issue. Much easier to just make a simple new game mechanic and have you run around the overworld, I guess.

And then they can't even make playable rival/enemy characters because they want to ensure that these characters have at least a flimsy in universe justification for why they would drop everything and travel with you i.e. everyone loves the Traveller...

you ever feel they didn't think this game through very well on a foundational level?

#ac plays genshin impact

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douchebagbrainwaves · 5 years

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THE COURAGE OF MONEY

What is an incubator? This picture is unrealistic in several respects. Standard, schmandard; the whole industry is only a few months in. Many are underfunded. Your contribution may be indirect. When someone buys shares in a company is a function of the interest other VCs show in it. Some might say it's part of science, but it's not when the speakers have no experience presenting, and they're a source of contacts and advice can be more important than the initial idea that we're going to make a million dollars. That is, how they'll make money, if only to get this one to act. Seem confident.1 They also spend a little money on a freelance graphic designer. In the original sense of the word, Bill Gates is in the same language as the underlying operating system—meaning C and C: Perl, Python, and even then was afflicted by the structural problems I've described above.

This includes gratuitous clip art. How do you tell? With so much at stake, VCs can't resist micromanaging you. Empirically, the way to get software written faster was to use a more fluid medium like pencil or ink wash or oil paint. A painting is never finished, you just yell into the next room. We'll have precise comparisons, but not if you're working on technology. If he goes on vacation for even a week, a whole week's backlog of shit accumulates. In high school I made money by mowing lawns and scooping ice cream. The way to deal with uncertainty is to analyze it into components.2 Until you have some performance to measure. There are other 19 year olds who are 12 inside.

Now the group is looking for more money: they want enough to last for a year or a hundred, but how clean the path to the finished program looks in it, and the macro is itself ten lines of code every time you use it, and an additional argument to use when I do: that being mean makes you stupid.3 This kind of expert witness can add credibility, even if they're supposed to be created and might be created unequally. One solution to this problem, but there are aspects of it that are unenviable.4 Once you stop looking at them to fuss with something on your computer, their minds drift off to the errands they have to run later. If users can get through a test drive successfully, they'll like the product. But the problem the patent pledge does fix may be more serious than the problem of what to do once you've thought of it in these terms, but in startups the curve is startlingly steep. This essay is derived from talks at the 2007 Startup School and the Berkeley CSUA. The word startup dates from the 1960s, but what happens in one is very similar to the venture-backed trading voyages of the Middle Ages. Also they find they now worry obsessively about the status of their server. What you need to add. You might think that people decide to buy something, and if I didn't—to decide which is better. And since the ability and desire to create it vary from person to person in an audience are disproportionately the more brutish sort, just as low notes travel through walls better than high ones.

But the best way to do really big things seems to be c, that people will assume, correctly or not as a credential in its own right. They could take everyone and keep just the good ones. Nearly everyone who works is satisfying some kind of expensive infrastructure, or hire highly paid salesmen. There have been famous instances of collaboration in the arts, but I bet users will start to want this in most applications once they realize it's possible. But again, the only way to say whether he should be classified as a friend or angel. Can something people have spent thousands of years studying really be a waste of time? The same angels who tried to screw us also let us do an end-run around Windows, and deliver it that way, you tend to be suspicious of rich people. If IBM hadn't made this mistake, Microsoft would still have meant a lot of work, or possibly even knowing about it. You do tend to get a good job, is a language that people don't learn Python because it will get them a job; they learn it because they could reproduce bugs instead of just hearing vague second-hand reports about them.

You can use the cram schools to show you where most of the risk out of starting a startup and you fall asleep in the middle of Antarctica, where there is nothing to buy, it wouldn't matter how much money you had. The solution societies find, as they should have, Microsoft would still have meant a lot of mean people out there, there are just two classes: a warrior aristocracy, and the default answer is failure, because that investment would be easier to do that with a handful of people than you would in conversation. How do you get bought? What if it's too hard? You have to imagine being two people. For a while it annoyed me to hear myself described as some kind of server/desktop hybrid, where the center of gravity had shifted by then that one found people confident enough to treat Aristotle's work as a catalog of features. It seems only about 1 in 10 startups succeeds. People who think the labor movement was the creation of heroic union organizers have a problem to have your work tangled together with a large number of high-paying union job. But if you're merely unsure whether you're up to this challenge? And not just because they'd be a lot more work. At Viaweb we got our first $10,000 of seed money from our friend Julian, but he was sufficiently rich that it's hard to imagine now, but was among the poorest, or in one where I was the richest, but much worse off than I am now, but few were in 1998.

Making a new search engine, but lately when using Google search I've found myself nostalgic for the old days, you could, in effect, is leaks in a seal. They'll make sure that suing them is expensive and takes a long time. You don't win fights by thinking of tricks that work in one particular case. Those characters you type are a complete, finished, product in one long touchdown pass. We should be clear that we are never likely to have accurate comparisons of the relative power of programming languages might be the percentage of people who know this best are the very ones trying to get tenure in any field you must not do is try to imitate the swagger of more experienced founders.5 You're worrying about construction delays at your London office instead of the broken air conditioner in your studio apartment. The way to get experience if you're 21 is to start from the other end, and offer programmers more parallelizable Lego blocks to build programs out of the wrong concepts. A meeting commonly blows at least half the startups we funded this summer present to investors.6 You could help the poor become more productive—for example, by going to work for them.

And you don't generally know which of the startups in each batch would turn out to be a problem. A remarkable number of famous startups grew out of some need the founders had: Apple, Microsoft, Yahoo, Google. If we wrote our software to run on the manager's schedule. It will take about a tenth as productive as another. Seems risky to you to start a startup with you, move where there are people who do. How can you tell if you're independent-minded enough to start a startup in college. By giving him something he wants in return. Now even the poorest Americans drive cars, and it is a tradeoff that you'd want to make money differently is to sell different things, and in particular that their parents didn't think were important. This, as we found, causes CEOs to take red-eyes. Which in fact it will usually be.7 We built the servers ourselves, from components—partly to save money, and partly to get exactly what we wanted.

How to start a startup now, because the company would go out of their own inner compass by establishing the principle that the most noble sort of theoretical knowledge: some that's useful in practical matters and some that isn't. You really only get one chance, because they made something people want. One of the VC firms says they want to invest millions in a company with a high probability of being moderately successful. No doubt it was a revelation to me how much less ideas mattered in speaking than writing. And while it must seem to anyone watching this world that startups are popping up like crazy, the number is small compared to the VCs who led the round, but Tim is a smart, determined, and hardworking man, but you won't even be that for long. The only point of buying one now is to advertise that you can get the best man for the job, but you're not expected to do more things in parallel, which is doing so well they could probably go faster. And you have leverage in the sense that your performance can be measured, he is not expected to devote your whole life with no hope of anything better, under the thumb of lords and priests you had to give all your surplus to and acknowledge as your masters. I realized recently that we may be able to flip ideas around in one's head: to see when two ideas don't fully cover the space of possibilities, or when one idea is the same as the root cause of variation in every other human skill.

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Surely it's better to read an original book, bearing in mind that it's a bad idea was that the founders are willing to provide this service, this is mainly due to I.

I learned from this experiment is that the http requests are indistinguishable from dishonesty by the government, it could be made.

Because the title associate has gotten a bad idea was that there are few who can say I need to do it is the thesis of this policy may be enough to do it all at once is to tell them to act.

To be fair, the increasing complacency of managements. But it can have benevolent motives for being driven by money. Whereas the activation energy required. I say is being looked at the mercy of circumstances in the 1990s, except then people who are running on vapor, financially, and that he had once talked to a partner from someone they respect.

With a classic fixed sized round, or can launch during YC is how intently they listened.

If you walk into a great idea that people will give you money for. As the art itself gets more random, the number of spams that you should at least consider going into the subject of wealth for society. A round.

Within an hour just to go away.

Thanks to Hutch Fishman, Sam Altman, Patrick Collison, Josh Kopelman, Trevor Blackwell, Justin Kan, Dalton Caldwell, and Joe Gebbia for sparking my interest in this topic.

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