#but sometimes emotions rule so much more of our minds than we'd like it to

[hunxi-guilai]

hi hunxi! there's a thought that keeps bugging me. During the battle at nightless city we can see that wwx doesn't kill yl and jc is clearly there and sees it as well. It may have been all the loss he went through & all the suffering he had to face, but why would he refuse to accept that and blame wwx anyways? Is it because in his mind that would hurt less?(i can't see how that would hurt him less tho) i admit i don't like jc much but i dont get why would he treat wwx so badly when he returns

hi anon! So I think it’s a little more complicated than simply “blaming Wei Wuxian for Jiang Yanli’s death,” because it’s the slow accumulation of a multitude of smaller events that have snowballed into the respective terrible mental states that both Wei Wuxian and Jiang Cheng are in by the second siege of Nightless City

Jiang Cheng’s eternal frustration with Wei Wuxian emerges from the same question, every time -- why can’t you stop. It’s fun and cutesy during Cloud Recesses summer school, when Jiang Cheng is just constantly rolling his eyes at Wei Wuxian’s oblivious crush on Lan Wangji and being like dude, why can’t you stop riling up the Lans you’re making Yunmeng Jiang look bad but it’s all small-scale stuff, nothing that can’t be smoothed over with a brotherly arm over the shoulder and some mutual teasing

This comes back in an uglier light when we get to the evil counterpart of Cloud Recesses summer school, i.e. Wen indoctrination and the Xuanwu Cave Arc. Here, we see the same issue crop up when Wei Wuxian goes to help a visibly limping Lan Wangji. Jiang Cheng, ever defensive, ever conservative, begs Wei Wuxian to stop sticking his neck out to help other people. They’re not even sure they can protect themselves, because the Wens are making more and more outrageous demands by the second, so Jiang Cheng grabs Wei Wuxian by the elbow in a sunlit clearing, trying to hold him back, and thinks why can’t you stop, don’t you understand that things are different now, don’t you understand that now, your disobedience has real, dangerous consequences that will be visited on both of our heads.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: when it comes to speed, no one can match Wei Wuxian for how swiftly he’ll light himself on fire to save someone else. It’s why we call him a hero; it’s also why his life (the first one, at least) is a tragedy.

And to be someone who loves him -- Jiang Cheng, Jiang Yanli, Lan Wangji -- and have to watch him as he strikes that match to the kindling of his life again and again and again -- it’s terrifying. It’s devastating. It’s incredibly frustrating, because sometimes you just want to grab him by the shoulders and yell at him until he realizes that he’s loved, he’s valued, that he’s worth more to the world sunlit and laughing and alive than he is tragic and doomed and sacrificed.

Right after the fall of Lotus Pier in episode 16, Jiang Cheng screams at Wei Wuxian, wraps his hands around his throat, knocks them both over in an unnamed meadow during the darkest night of their lives (so far. yikes). Tell me why! Jiang Cheng yells at Wei Wuxian, slamming him to the ground. Why did you save them? Are you happy? How many times did I tell you not to play the hero? You should have just let Lan Wangji and Jin Zixuan die! What would their deaths have to do with us? You could have just let them die! Why did you stick your neck out for them?

凭什么！Why! Jiang Cheng screams -- the same words he’ll cry and scream and rage at Wei Wuxian with in a haunted temple, almost two decades later.

Why can’t you stop? Jiang Cheng asks, time and time again -- why can’t Wei Wuxian stop antagonizing Lan Wangji, why can’t Wei Wuxian stop sticking his neck out for other people, why can’t Wei Wuxian just keep his head down and stay safe, why does he have to keep doing things that make the people who love him so, so afraid for him as well?

Why can’t Wei Wuxian put down that goddamned flute and pick up Suibian again? Why must Wei Wuxian insist on being so special, so different? Why must Wei Wuxian stick his neck out again, after the war no less, for a bunch of people they don’t even know well? Why can’t Wei Wuxian stop? Why can’t Wei Wuxian just stay safe?

Jiang Cheng tries, tries to get Wei Wuxian to come back to him, to come back with him, so he can finally protect this foolish brave ridiculous wonderful infuriating generous brother who he loves ferociously. He visits Wei Wuxian in the Burial Mounds; he brings Jiang Yanli to him before her wedding. Jiang Cheng does everything short of telling Wei Wuxian that he needs him, which also means that Wei Wuxian -- filled and overfilled with his own self-perceived guilt for the disasters visited on the Jiang Sect -- doesn’t understand that Jiang Cheng wants Wei Wuxian to come back, burden or no. Wei Wuxian thinks he’s doing Jiang Cheng a favor; Jiang Cheng thinks that Wei Wuxian is rejecting him. Jiang Cheng can’t understand why Wei Wuxian won’t listen to reason for his own good, Wei Wuxian doesn’t consider his own good to be that all that important.

so when it comes to the actual worst night of their lives in Nightless City, when both of them are equally powerless in protecting Jiang Yanli from the sword to her back, the sword to her heart, it’s painfully easy for me to see why Jiang Cheng fucking snaps and shoves Wei Wuxian away. How many times did he tell Wei Wuxian to stop being the hero, to stop standing up for other people, to stop sticking his neck out for others when Wei Wuxian can’t even protect himself or the ones he loves? How many times did he beg Wei Wuxian to do less, to pick fewer battles, to narrow the focus of his vast reservoirs of empathy down to the people closest to him, the people who needed him most? How many times did Wei Wuxian refuse to listen, did Wei Wuxian insist that he had it all under control?

Why is it that Jiang Cheng has to pay for Wei Wuxian’s noble sacrifices?

(because every time, Jiang Cheng feels like he does -- he’s the one who’s always there to 收尸 pick up after Wei Wuxian, the one who has to smooth things over with the other sect leaders, the one who has to go on alone. Jiang Cheng keeps being left behind by those he loves and he’s so fucking sick of it)

all of which is a very long, roundabout way of saying: Jiang Cheng knows that Wei Wuxian was not the person who plunged the sword into Jiang Yanli’s heart. But all the factors that led to this convergence of events -- the whole confrontation at Nightless City, the fact that Wei Wuxian just killed the brother of the man who stabbed Jiang Yanli, the fact that Jiang Yanli died because she was protecting Wei Wuxian -- everything about the situation around them revolves unerringly around the gravity point of Wei Wuxian.

It’s not Wei Wuxian’s fault that the sects have selected him as scapegoat, as sacrificial lamb, on this night of all nights. It’s not Wei Wuxian’s fault that Jiang Yanli ran into the middle of a melee to look for him. It’s not Wei Wuxian’s fault that a sword found its way to Jiang Yanli’s heart.

But if Wei Wuxian hadn’t tried to protect the Wen refugees; if Wei Wuxian had just behaved like a normal cultivator instead of riling up the other sects with his uncanny new cultivation techniques; if Wei Wuxian could have just kept his mouth shut for once; if Wei Wuxian hadn’t stuck his neck out for Lan Wangji all those years ago...

It’s years of frustration finally breaking the dam for Jiang Cheng, because he told him, he told Wei Wuxian so many times, and now look what’s happened

They’ve both lost the best person in their lives, and everything around them screams Wei Wuxian’s name.

#listen... it's... frustrating #it's not great #it's not logical #but sometimes emotions rule so much more of our minds than we'd like it to #sometimes the reality of your emotions will bend the reality of truth and knowledge #and it's difficult to extricate them from each other #am I frustrated with Jiang Cheng? yes #am I also frustrated with Wei Wuxian? holy shit yes #it's more than a rock and a hard place for the two of them #it's a goddamned booby trapped labyrinth #and every single wall is closing in on this moment #anyway #ask and ye shall receive #Jiang Cheng #Wei Wuxian #ep 32 #ep 16

[rubyleo-vibes]

✨💕Cavill and his unnecessary, irresistible sexy chunky thighs 💕✨

Ladies! Every time I see a photo of Henry is sitting i just can’t help myself but admire that sexy chunky thighs and just letting my mind lost going through the sweetest  to the dirtiest dream.

I Just want to sit on his lap facing him, staring at each other saying nothing but the deepest conversation with our eyes, suddenly the way he'd change how’s looking at me trying to get inside of my subconscious looking for something that he only know’s what it is, while i'd just began slightly getting shy and before he says something about the heat of my cheeks and ears, i’d buried my face onto the crock of his neck, hugging the big bear so tight, feeling the protection heat of his entire body against mine.

This man is so damn adorable but so cheeky at the same time, he loves every reaction from his beautiful gem. His big hands resting in my lap receive the comando from the boss, cause let me tell you ladies i have this feeling about him giving different stric instructions to each part of his body, like if they were on a mission, each one with different task but same goal.  Both hands taking me by my waist lifting me up slightly but in the right sec putting me back down but this time my legs to each side on one of his legs. One hand stayed in my waist, his grip getting tight, fingers rubbing everything around them without getting apart from his defense position while his arm creates a  protection around me. The thought in my head of the strength in his bicep and tricep making him look even bigger, his veiny arm looking possessive  but so protective, it gives me this kind of chills the ones you feel how they're running through the entire body, visiting places that i would like to keep more control but those part run they own rules, i kinda love but hate at the same time, cause that feeling won't leave easily.

The hand with the command to stay still in his place and being able to feel one single part and nothing he complain about staying there with one the hardest and important task, gets jealous of the twin that has the fun task, his free arm the one in charge to guide the hand with double responsibility and the mission of exploring all the big bear's favorite places from my body. Loving and greedy strokes, trying to make the greatest performance of his life, sneaking through to the edge of the fabric of my dress, the one Henry love's how i look on it, a loose dress but not too much that sometimes hugs the curve of my waist, with the perfect  length, driving him crazy every time i wear it.

This cheeky bastard having fun making the job of both, while the other holding tighter every time i react to the exploring job the other one is doing. Staying in one place all the time because Henry’s gorgeousest treasure is right there looking so perfect sitting in his leg, is the only reason why every inch of his body has  to the easiest to the hardest task to making me feel safe and good.  Even he craves to enjoyed the lucky  one, he knows if he going fun too and leve the position, with all the movement all over the place the arm might lose a bit of the grip and the last one leaving the heat my body is that hand, and we don’t want this bear getting disappoint and upset by himself in loosing the pace his been creating. 

His hard chest feeling so heavy from all the messages that my chest sends with all the information that my heartbeat reports from every move, emotion, and feeling that i have, while two little pearls greet gladly to Henry’s heated chest with the same information that he sends to mine, his neck getting punished by plump lips and my tooth, begging me to stay in there even his perfect lips claims mine, not giving another choice than get close to my ear and saying nothings sweets and naughties words, leaving the message in there while my brain sends every word to my hips moving hard every time that i put them beside the feeling his protective touch, greedy strokes, and fas beat of his heart, feeling so overwhelmed, following the pace my man wants to. 

Henry commands his body to get focused in the gorgeous lady well known as his girl, feeling a wet patch of his favorite fruit juice right in the place he earlier placed me. He knows how much i love his thighs as he loves to watch me enjoyed him in too, Both arms hugging me even tighter with the aftershocks that my body rewards us with the perfect team job we made. 

But that was one thigh, both of us lost in pleasure we couldn’t wait any longer so we'd move to the other one and give the proper attention. This time, Henry takes me by my chin and softly lift my face to one more time looking his pleading cobalt eyes turning dark, leaving a steamy neck that now he feels empty by the request of his eyes asking now to this time admiring how a beautiful stone shines in the other chunky sexy thigh. 

Yes ladies and there's much more i never lied when i said i let my mind get lost with this and maybe not only with that kind of photos.

-Ruby

#henry cavill #henry cavill smut #leovibes #henry cavill x reader

[hanniejji]

rules: ship yourself with your favorite character and give headcanons on how your relationship would go

→ tagged by: @bnha-homeroom

→ tagging: @wesparklebitch @bakutae @cellotonin @bnhcs @jojosmilktea

look it's asking for only one character. and it's not specifically asking for a bnha character. you can't expect me to choose one and not feel bad because the others deserve love too gjsbf so i chose two i wanted to do all of them but that's too greedy of me tksbd im sorry :'<

warnings: this will be long. that's it.

TODOROKI SHOUTO

quiet duo™

it I met someone like shouto I wouldn't even like him at all

but there comes my considerate and civil treatment to all even with my resting bitch face

i watch everyone from the back so id notice if this man is having a hard time with socializing

me too boi we can be both antisocial

but tbh it'd be a quiet relationship with an occasional me screaming from emotions because that's how I am

we're both going to be uncomfortable with pda at first because tbh i only do that when I'm sleepy but it's ok we gotta take baby steps sometimes

but that doesn't mean I won't mother him and we all know this baby is touch starved so yes im going to give u all of the love u deserve

"get some rest pls you've been training for hours"

"i made your favorite soba, take a break bitch"

istg I'm a mother not a girlfriend

"let's both annoy enji and use his credit card until he's broke"

I CANNOT GUARANTEE THE SAFETY OF YOUR SHIRTS AND HOODIES BECAUSE THEY'RE MINE NOW

like damn id be giddy if he ever looks at me with those cute confused eyes for help with simple things or if he looks at me and ask if he's doing it right

mother mode level 1038104729

also damn id give him every food I can make like I don't need to stress bake to bake him some sweets or whatever

he'd probably do the same for me since I tend to overwork myself when I'm into things

but,, honey,, I don't want you to burn the kitchen

like yes pls pull me away from my textbook because I really don't understand a thing and even if I don't I'm sure my brain will still make me go read it over and over again

im never good with listening to others comforting me

like yes thank you very much but words are never a big impact to me after hearing it so much from people who don't even care anymore

so I'd appreciate his silence when I'm sad and he'd just hug me for comfort

he understands that all I need is someone to keep me on the ground, not force their words upon me

tbh I'd be more sleepy when I'm around him

he's the right amount of warm and cool, he's perfect dkfks let me just rest on his left side for warmth or his right side for some cooling off and boom. sleep.

there wouldn't be much of a fight tbh

I'm an open minded person and even if I don't agree with someone's opinion I wouldn't give a fuck

it's probably going to take the both of us long before we both open up to each other because we're both secretive but it'll probably be me who'd give in first

he'll probably catch me in my sulking mood and ask

I may be a mom but I'm also a dad

I'd fight bitches who think bad of shouto I WON'T HESITATE BITCH

he has to stop me physically from attacking a mutt because these claws are ready for some scratching

we're so similar yet so different at the same time lmao

that's all :D

LERO-RO

have you heard of this man's voice??? have you heard of this man's voice??

because what the fuck

i will not be able to not be in awe whenever he speaks and im sure my stupid self wouldn't be able to stop staring

like please talk to me more

speak with your morning voice pls

bless my ears

bless my fucking soul

idk man how did i end up with him?? im stupid and he's smart and im clumsy and he can kill a bitch for just two seconds??!

pray for me because this man is going to tease me for being 5"0 and he's a fucking tower pun intended

he's probably going to end up teaching me how to use a shinsu because— and I quote— "you're going to end up dying without me" but it'll be a bad idea because there's no guarantee that I won't use it to prank him or mess with people who irritate me :D

he's stressed™

"nO. you can't beat up another admin"

"i swear to fucking god if u do that— oh fuck u"

"please do"

like how did you end up with a quiet evil little bitch like me? go get yourself an angel because you're an angel yourself, we don't fit man

but he's also a sweet mf uwu he'd end up mothering me instead of me mothering him

but it's gonna be nice to be pampered y'all can't understand the pain of being a mother to everyone

and yes we're bam and khun's parents now

excuse me while I climb this 6 ft tree

he probably loves cuddling me from behind and placing his chin on my head

"I'm not a furniture go get your chair"

he's an test admin, he's gonna be stressed and tired of taking care of a bunch of children so it'll be my turn to smother him in love uwu here's your favorite food, a massage, a tea, some cuddles, and a warm bath for u and only u

I can sleep on him so watch me ask for a piggy back ride just to sleep

and he can't deny me of that ride because I'd look sluggish and tired and sleepy and no one can say no to my face

ill kith his two moles uwu

honestly, we'd probably have petty arguments sometimes because of my idgaf attitude while he's more of a respectful + polite + appropriate person

let me have my freedom pls I don't like being uptight :((

and there goes my insecure ass because no, this man is too good for me, and im just stupid for giving it a try

and masking my emotions wouldn't work with him

he's gonna see it from miles away and he's going to confront me about what im upset about and he's going to blame himself for it because that's just how it is

but it's ok, it takes two for a relationship to work

we'd reassure each other from our insecurities and we'll be ok

he's probably going to treat me. like I'm some cat or something which I am

I'm pretty sure he'd be weirded out by my weird habits like yes I can sleep everywhere unless it's noisy and yes I stress bake and yes I drink coffee but still fall asleep and yes I love food give me food

he's an observant man, he's going to notice how I say no to thing even tho I want to say yes because I don't prioritize myself and he's going to scold me for it

we probably have a "us time" every so often because we both need to rest and just enjoy each other's presence

in other words, shouto and leroro deserve someone better than me :'D

#sprouttsse #tags #tag game #bnha #tog

[pokefanbri]

From my heartbreak support fb group, I think these are wise words.

Hello for sure everyone joined this group to get answers from their anxities and depressions caused by a break up.

I am also in the process of healing right now and i want to share you guys what i am doing because it works for me tho may not work for everyone but still try if you want to 🙂

Me and my 8 month relationship ex broke up the day after Christmas. Since it's very fresh what i did is i tried and did my best to get him back.

1. Sent him a long ass letter with our photos

2. Messaged him twice to give our relationship another shot

3. Posted stuff on my blog.. "i learned a lot of things in my life lately blah blah blah" just to show him that i'm changing for myself and the relationship (IF we give it another shot)

4. I gave him the space that he needs that's why i didn't message him at all for 2 days and messaged him again on New Year trying to save our relationship for the last time.

Still, it didn't work out.

Lesson (based on my experience):

— as long as you did your part, did all your best to save the relationship, YOU'RE FINE NO REGRETS. You're allowed to message your ex days after the break up bc you're still adjusting from everything especially if you guys always talk or see each other BUT know when to stop. Usually your heart will tell you when. IT WILL GET TIRED. Tho you will miss him on the next days, it's normal and just keep in your mind that YOU'RE JUST MISSING HIM and that YOU'VE DONE YOUR PART. It is HIS/HER LOSS not yours.

— Now, focus on SELF LOVE. Commit to NC (NO CONTACT). Keep in mind too that you're going to do this FOR YOUR HEALING AND MOVING ON.. NOT TO GET YOUR EX BACK. If he/she gets back, perfect! give your relationship another chance if you guys think it's the right thing to do. If not, ATLEAST YOU'RE HEALING AND LOVING YOURSELF even more. (**i know it is hard to keep the NC rule, easier said than done but do it for yourself not for anyone. think about yourself too. yourself needs love too. and you deserve to be happy**)

Good luck to us all! Take this new year 2021 as an opportunity for self care & self love. Your true love/soulmate will find its way to you. Never chase love because you deserve better dear, never settle for anything less! ❤️

The differences are that I couldn't do my best, I have regrets that I could've done more to save it..just all of it my heart can't heal properly because it hasn't given up on him yet...& oh yes is it exhausted. After all this time im still trying to adjust without proper closure to begin with, cuz what could I do really? I wasn't allowed to make contact days after & months after still so thats bs there, i had no choice in the matter & I don't know if I still do. All that time for space & i bet neither of us has the courage to do it first & probably immature to do a damn thing about it or wondering if we'd be at eachothers throats...just dont know how chill we still could be. Im not sure what I'd say at all but I go over it in my mind sometimes, knowing my luck id stumble on my words & it would go terribly.Or possibly we'd feel completely comfortable speaking & not much awkwardness. What if we're both kinda chicken & letting it go for a while pushing it off til we ready while we focus on ourselves..yea. What if im overthinking again 🤐 ill just be over here listening to my fav love songs while the world still rotates and we age with each passing day not knowing what direction I'm supposed to go later on. Im an emotional person, rn seems like im angry & theres still some resentment yet to get out. It still irks me, i should've had a say i feel so powerless...There were 2 halves to it, it was my relationship too I deserve to be heard & respected more than I was, it all happened so fast i regret not doing or saying more so time would have a better chance. I know our time meant something to him too 😔 I cannot do much of anything else or especially directly & im being good, so how much longer do I stay patient is all im sayin 😕 its his move 😔 nuff said. Im going to bed, keep me in dreamland as long as possible cuz Idk if I like the real world rn. Still adjusting, just keep swimming i guess 🙁 enough with the tantrum already bri lol