#but that´s just my first impression

[c-hrona]

Fear

Super self-indulgent little comic about fears and reassurances.

Lil bonus :3

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #there's nothing s/exual here #i just hc ww to sleep in the n/ude because he's a drama queen and drama queens sleep without shirts on #vash on the contrary is a good boy and puts his sweat shirt on while sleeping u_u #also fun fact: i showed the first two pages to my friend for a style feedback #i told them that it was a super fluff self-indulgent comic #---> first two pages: death and nightmares #let's just say that they were not impressed #ALSO SORRY FOR THE MESS WITH THE REUPLOADSFJGFJGJDFJGO #chronart

[rexscanonwife]

And who says scientists aren't passionate! 😉💖 here's a little comic based off an ACTUAL moment I shared with my irl partner @cherry-bomb-ships last night 😂

Taglist♡: @crushes-georg @changeling-selfship @me-myself-and-my-fos @sunstar-of-the-north @tiny-cloud-of-flowers @adoredbyalatus @dearly-beeloved @squips-ship @sunflawyer @miutonium

#artfarts #self insert #self ship #self shipping community #self insert x canon #fictional other #the powerpuff girls #professor utonium #ppg blossom #ppg buttercup #ppg bubbles #ugh i need a familial tag for those girls cause theyre MY BABIES TOO 😭😭💖💖💖 #but hehe take this for now!! #and for context my partner and i were in bed and i came across one of those 'would u pass a fifth grade science class ' things #that was one of the questions and we DID 100% make out after answering in sync #and a little confession....im not all that good at science #BUT when i was in middle school i memorized what dna stood for cause i thought itd make me sound smart 😂😂😂 #i was trying to impress imaginary people who MAY ask #and tbh my s/i isnt all that smart either shes just quirky #she has my autism after all! #and yeah AUGH FIRST DRAWING OF THEM KISSING??? AAAAH??

[lunarharp]

shirahama-sensei reminded me she has a thing for the teacher from pokemon s/v so i randomly went off on an au where qifrey is the professor. etc

#witch hat tag #orufrey #the first image is qifrey dressed as that guy. i'm glad she has an inexplicable attachment to some dorky pokemon man like i do #someone was like 'wouldn't it make more sense for deanreldea to be the champion' .... well no. not in my world . #it maps onto magic skill. champions aren't like the Rulers of the land they're just the most skilled at this thing #oru as a burnt out champion who's gently encouraging a kid like coco to reach him one day means a lot to me. i like pokemon narratives #agott went shiny hunting for the same thing coco had but cooler - just to impress her. she really is a pokemon rival type girl #pushing myself to the limit to prove my worth to you - to get to the summit first so i'm waiting for you.. #and then realising it wasn't just to be strong - i realised i started wanting to see your smile. i wanted you to have fun. #i think coco would defeat agott at the end of victory road and then defeat oru & i'll probably draw one last thing abt that at least.. #the image is very cinematic..the dialogue and music in my mind..I WANT TO FACE ORU!!!!!!!!!! #the super cool insanely powerful awesome champion is the spouse of my professor and he gave me advice at the beginning...no way.... #btw the elite four would be the sages which is perfect (and maybe easthies as the first guy?) evil Team Brimhats #coustas as their renegade gladion-type figure. the gym leaders would be like sun/moon and s/v combined #travelling around facing the best students from different classes - so jujy and eunie etc. #i've barely thought about 'teams' or anything bc i care amore about the narrative side of things always lol #but idk. tetia with a swirlix - eunie would be ghost type boy - riche with small things but also a ceruledge or a steelix something massiv #and brushbug would have a final form which is really long like an eastern dragon- fluffy and with wings like a fairy. It's beautiful to me #well anyway *tries to move on to the rest of life now the brief obsession has passed* #obviously oru would be fire-type tho and qifrey would be water-type and they set off together and traded their starters etc.....it goes on

[dreamlogic]

so yesterday was my last day of work, and my coworkers & i were chatting about our first impressions of each other

S: honestly at first i wasn't sure, i thought you might be a bit, idk, cunty? like smug and hard to please? obviously i was wrong, you're spicy sometimes but also one of the nicest people i know. but i remember something about your tone when you came out to everyone just made me think "ugh they're gonna be a lot."

me: well yeah i'm used to having to be pretty defensive about my pronouns, i wasn't expecting y'all to actually Get It.

J: can i chime in with a correction? i remember your first impression of charlie, S, and it wasn't that...

S: okay?? what did i think of them then huh :)

J: well after their second interview, when you asked if we were gonna hire them and we said yes, you said, and i quote, "darn, now i won't have the best butt in the branch anymore!"

S: oooh yeah true, i did say that!!! you do have a pretty great butt, charlie.

#laugh tag #ctxt #charlie vs money #S is kind of a bitch but she ended up being one of my closest friends there and someone i trust a lot #passive aggressive and kind of messy? but thoughtful and loyal and a great person to have in my corner #my first impression of her (when she introduced herself as “hi! i'm S and i'm mean!”) #was that she'd either be actually mean or just snarky and secretly kind. turns out it was a bit of both! i hope we stay in touch #and J... i was worried he'd be the conservative Good Old Boy type (likes golf football & fishing. drives a giant truck. business degree) #but pretty early on i think we pegged each other as fellow Kind Souls and just get along really easily. he's a nice soft boi #this interaction was followed by me ceremonially offering S back her Best Branch Butt Crown #i'm gonna miss these people. one of the best teams i've ever worked with. #too bad the manager & company are shit and wouldn't grant me the disability accommodations i would've needed to stay #among other things. but the manager being an abominable manipulative tyrant is like 80% of the reason i quit

[sysig]

We met a darling 💕

#Bug #Insect #I believe she's a female Chinese Mantid (Tenodera Sinensis) - and one of very impressive size! #She's a local! She lives in our front yard! :D #We've actually gotten to see her a few times since this - this was our first meeting! #She'll crawl up onto the mesh of the window frames and like....sunbathe? I'm not actually sure what she's doing there lol #But she is absolutely beautiful <3 And rather friendly! #Just recently I was trying to offer her some food but she seemed more interested in climbing on me haha #I deposited her on our flowers so she wouldn't be quite so high off the ground #I don't usually get intimidated by bugs but there really is something about her intense stare(s)! I worry for my fingers hehe #But no she's been very polite and Very cute #Her little reachy-reaches and jumps and wiggles ah <3 What a delight #She's always welcome around here! I hope she's okay to keep putting up with us haha I hope we're just enrichment #She certainly is for us! #Oh yeah and shoutout to smol for letting me take pictures of her hand when she offered to the star of the show haha #She was very excited ♪ She also loves bugs :)

[buckets-of-dirt]

#I haven't seen a poll about this going around so I made one (though I think I remember a tag survey pre-polls) #yes I did remake this because there was a typo and I couldn't edit #mostly I just wanted to see what the poll-making experience was like #personally I first saw the episodes out of order when dad and I would stumble across reruns in junior high (circa 2012) #which led to me getting the false impression that there was a season where trapper and bj lived in the swamp at the same time #fic writers feel free to take that secret fake season that lives in my head and run with the idea #m*a*s*h

[fabioafterdark]

im rereading 20,000 leagues under the sea for the first time since i was like an actual child and my first impression of captain nemo is that he is so full of shit lol. youve renounced civilisation have you? do u not obey the rules of society? you, alone on your ship, alone in the immense desert of the ocean aside from servants crewmen kitchen staff etc who dont rly count, have perfect independence and liberty here in the depths of the ocean, where systems of power and control cannot reach you? you recognise no masters? why is it then that on receiving three uninvited guests/prisoners, u invite only the one with a high social status to dine with you and have a tour of the most luxurious parts of ur vessel and sleep in an elegantly furnished guest bedroom while the servant and the seaman are sent away with the steward to their shared cabin downstairs below decks. i wonder if your own servants and crew feel similarly free from all hierarchical systems of power and control lmao. i wonder what they get paid with

#i could yet be wrong this is just a first impression but it reads v much like a 19th Century Gentleman`s idea #of what freedom and independence from civilisation would look like #like i have a ginormous library a personal museum a vast cavernous drawing room a genious cook #and everything i could possibly want in my miraculous underwater electric ship #what do the servants and crew want? what do they think? who knows! no man is master of me but i am master of uh... some

[thedeadthree]

SUFFERING IS A TERRIBLE FIRE; IT EITHER PURIFIES OR DESTROYS. [template by @unholymilf ✧ | icons ✧]

#oc: vharion #metroid oc #for the audience of me and my besties and mutuals <3 INTRODUCING THE FIRST OF THE BELOVEDS #i was going to do the other cast members but i don't have fcs for them yet and i just finished prime and was like I GOTTA YELL jsjaa #this is also a part of my master plan to get y'all to play it and make clowns so my clowns can have besties hehe <3 #these clowns have been on my heart since i was like? little? a little bit emotional about them returning to the fold ! #scheduled q #tungle mucked with the quality but he’s my baby and i love him 🥀❣️😭 #(i also meant to schedule this akajjzjz but it’s fine 🥀) #he couldn’t wait hehe <3 🥀 #he turned back on so much for those he loves to learn they thought him a monster anyway 🥀😭 #he aided in the overthrow of his father bc the empress would have zeroed his betrothed for starters! #and becoming the minister of the yllic forces of zebes and trying to zero THEM was another thing :’) #(he wasn’t trying to he was under the impression s*amus was the catalyst of his suffering?) #(like he wasn’t aware her memories were erased and blamed it on the Hunter. his brother who he didn’t know WAS his brother -> #he thought was a traitor (there’s a whole other thing on his brother but!) ) #and the thing is they were both raised by the c*hozo and are two sides of the same coin him and the hunter! #they SHOULDNT be enemies but events and upbringings later on made them that! they should be besties! #a bit of a commercial break from the t*lou and a*soiaf dears for him <3

[catboyfurina]

baizhu x diluc >:3

meow :3

#beeep #query #i had a bad uhhh third impression? is that a thing #with this one #cus my first impression was 1. oh fun thats a neat crackship :) 2. oh fuck did i miss baizhu content on one of my breaks this is all over #twitter?????? #(i did not there was just one guy who introduced me to it that had also made a bot) #and then i was like (second impression) well sure i'll give it a shot #and then i saw the content that was being promoed and i was like. im still giving this a shot but some of this is making me uncomfortable a #hell..... but i didnt say anything cus it wasnt Asked for yknow like. no need to be rude if people arent Asking you to #(like right now) #anyway then that same sort of stuff kept going for a while and some of it was fine and good and others were like oh god what the fuck why i #this good to you.... #and now that baizhu is out and has more canon info its much better #there was a lot of manipulative/bad intentions baizhu or like. femme fatale baizhu? #and that made me rly uncomfy bc there wasnt any indication for that #it was basically just. long haired crop top guy + the voice andthen running with stereotypes #plus it often seemed sooo unbalanced like. less about two guys in a relationship and more. idk. like baizhu wasnt a Character there. he was #just a generic Sexy Guy for diluc to be desperately obsessed with #so a few months ago these answers wouldve included a lot more of eeeggghhhhh but now that the baizhluc enjoyer(s) have been moving away fro #that old dynamic its settling down in my opinions as cute :> altho i wish a certain someone wouldnt be keeping the headcanons as secret dms #(cough cough x*****a)(because im a wimp and don't wanna be too nosy yet) #this might seem like i should add could write essays about it but this isnt essays and i cant write. salute emoji.

[besnouted]

i fully wish she could just be my hrt doctor also ive been avoiding seeing mine for almost a year since the clinic reassigned me to a new one lmao

#my previous one was very similar to this doctor like #she was super easy to talk to and listened to me and wasnt Weird if i requested specific medication #like i was s upposed to start finasteride with her but she left the clinic #and my new assigned doctor is the weirdo who implied i was diy-ing my dose ON OUR FIRST APPOINTMENT #bcus he thought my labs were Unusual #(they werent. i just took them on a less than ideal day on my hormone cycle) #and since that impression i have not wanted to deal with him at all

[vincentspork]

tumblr user posts "999 wouldve been better if akane died", asked to leave the ze tag

ME (im ushering him out)

#like I genuinely think he wanted the game to end at one of the game overs. like dude. just stop playing FHSS FHSJSH S??? #I hate when stories have THEMES and MOTIFS. oh my god maybe he was the guy who said that 999 'hits you over the head w the theme of not #trusting your first impressions of those around you' or whatever #on the ymmv page for 999. I on the other hand love themes & facts & characters & ideas

[bobmckenzie]

every time I think about the backstory I made up for Danny and Becky's mom I have to laugh... the hoops I went through just so I could say they weren't in love with each other... 💀💀💀

#made up some convoluted ass misunderstanding-leads-to-a drunken-one-night-stand-pregnancy storyline FOR WHY #because i want to be his first love 🙄🙄🙄😮‍💨 #IN MY DEFENSE the movie already paints her in a bad light i mean she straight up LEFT her daughter #presumably for another family by the way becky describes it #i don't get the impression that she visits/calls or is in their lives at all anymore. idk if that's what the writers intended #but it sure seems that way #caitiechat #story here for anyone who cares bc i like sharing lore LOL: #basically kevin invites danny to a football party to try to make up for a big fight they had. #probably like the anniversary of his championship game or when he got his heisman trophy. anyway danny's been down on his luck lately and #gets drunk for the first time in his life and is introduced to becky's future mom. who drunkenly assumes that if he's an o'shea he must be #KEVIN oshea. so she comes onto him thinking he's a big football star and he doesn't know thats what she thinks so he goes along with it #bc he's drunk and depressed and just wants to feel something. afterwards she's introduced to Kevin and realizes her mistake and Danny #realizes what she thought. which is just another slap in the face. he tries to forget abt the whole thing but three months later #she tracks him down bc she is preggers with Becky 😶‍🌫️ so they try to co-parent but after 4 years or so she calls it quits #and Danny raises Becky as a single father for 7ish more years nd thats when my s/i comes into the picture 🤡👍🏻 #and ofc in this universe patty doesn't exist LOL don't get me wrong i like her but this is my AU babe 🧘🏻 i am the romantic interest now #sorry creators of little giants for not being normal about your movie <3 #urbaenia

[unhonestlymirror]

Each time people call "ugly" other people, who just don't have a doll's face, makes me wanna ლ(ಠ_ಠ ლ)

#i think the common 'beautiful' appearance is boring #It makes me think the person is boring to me as well #I know there are actually cases when person is just like s/he look but... It's the stereotype of mine #I heard 'people with small eyes are ugly' - as a person with big eyes i say NO THEY’RE NOT???? #Two things that form my first impression are other's mimic and other's voice #it actually helps to understand if a person is dangerous or not #NANAMI ALSO HAS SMALL EYES AND SO WHAT

[nox-artemis]

Even though J.G. left me without a word,

Even though they've caused me a lot of pain in doing that,

Even though I have every reason to wish death on them...

I definitely believe I'd be much worse off if I did find out that they died.

And I hope that they're okay

#break up diary #breakup diary #the last part of my dream i was at J.G.'s funeral #they were wearing the outfit that they met me in at the airport #but i collapsed when after seeing them in the casket #and i woke up #i hope this is a figurative interpretation #meaning that the*old* J.G. is dead #since yeah they were impressive and nice when I first hugged them in that outfit #but that was also the same J.G. who ended up ghosting me :/ #so yeah I hope this just means they're undergoing a transformation to be a better person #and that they're not literally lying in state somewhere #i don't know how i would cope

[theophagie]

I came out to my friends via letters three years ago today and I will never forget how one of the first things one of them said to me after we saw each other again in person was that she had been terrified that they had actually been suicide letters

#explains why she had been so jumpy while i drove her back home that night #and why i received her reply text when i wasn't even halfway home yet like. 💀 she read that thing fast akdkcvkgl #this all says way more about me than it does about her. the three of us had been hanging out watching movies together and then the mood #dropped all of a sudden the second i handed the letters out to them as we were leaving... 😬🥲 #idk what friend2's first impression had been though #mytext #it's crazy because it took me ages to write those letters and give them to my friends but now i don't even remember what exactly i wrote #i don't even think it's (just) a matter of Bad Memory Disease lol i was really emotional writing them but by the end of it i just wanted #to get it over and done with

[the-cimmerians]

It's 2024. I have been participating in fandom for 40 years. This is a ramble commemorating some history I've experienced along the way.

In 1984, I attended my first convention, and made a beeline for the one long row of covered tables in the Dealer's Room that was, according to the whispered lore of my friends, 'the one'. "um", I said, very suavely and coherently, except for how it was totally the opposite of those things, "I'm here for the... for the, uh. For-"

"Come around here," the man behind the table said with exhausted ennui, so I went around, and he lifted up the table skirt next to him and pointed to rows and rows of boxes underneath the line of tables. "It's all under here."

It was all under there. Along with about five older ladies with glasses, graying hair, cardigans. Flipping through slash zines and chatting in whispered voices like old friends (which of course they were). I noticed one of them had the good sense to be wearing kneepads. I was still too young and ablebodied to need kneepads when crawling on a carpeted floor, but I immediately found her preparedness skills to be both impressive and hot. "You're new," one of the ladies whispered to me--a bit warily, which made sense. "Are you sure you're in the right place?"

In the faint light (the kneepads lady had also come prepared with a flashlight, additional practicality hotness points for her) I grabbed a comb-bound book with a heavy line art piece on the cover, featuring a musclebound Captain Kirk getting righteously and enthusiastically plowed by a stern-yet-ebullient Spock. "This," I said, pointing helpfully at the cover, like I was trying to make myself understood in a language I had only the vaguest knowledge of. "I'm here for this."

Outside at the convention, most of the attendees were wearing large homemade circular pins that shrieked 'K/S is BS!!!'1. But underneath the table, we reveled in the forbidden.

***

In 1985, I fell very hard for Starsky & Hutch fandom. Which was simply referred to at the time as 'the other fandom', because there were only two. We were upstarts. Many fannish elders predicted that it was just a phase.

***

The 'circulating library' was a massive stack of barely-legible pages that smelled strongly of mimeograph ink. When you were on the list, you would write stories while you waited for your turn, and when the big box was mailed to you, you would read everything (new finds, old favorites), add your own sloppily-typed or hastily-mimeographed stories, and then mail the whole thing to the next person. For me, at the time, it was an extremely expensive indulgence--but my favorite one.

***

By 1990, slash fandom had grown enough that I no longer knew everyone in it, which was both thrilling and a bit daunting. A young woman at a convention waited for me after a panel I was part of (I think it was 'writing impactful smut' or something like that), and said she had a question she didn't want to ask in a group setting. I'd heard that before. I said that's fine, go ahead and ask; and she came out with: "Why do you have to be gay?"

I blinked. "Is... that a problem?"

She looked annoyed. "Yes, because your stories are on all the recommendation lists and in all the top zines, but if you're gay and I read something you wrote and I get hot from it that makes me gay, and I'm not gay."

"Wow." I grinned, I couldn't help it. It probably made me look very predatory-dyke-about-to-score-a-toaster. Whatever, it was enough to make her back away from me fast.

When I thought about it later that night, I wondered what it would be like not to be the only queer person in slash fandom.

***

By 1997, slash started appearing on the internet. Many fannish elders claimed it was the death knell of slash fandom, or dismissed it as 'just a phase'.

***

Anyway, I wrote all this for myself as a commemoration of sorts, but if you took the time to read it--thank you. Love you, fandom. I always will.

1 In those days, m/m fandom was known as 'slash', which grew from the fannish shorthand where 'K&S' meant a story of Kirk and Spock having adventures or tribulations or what have you, and 'K/S' meant a story of Kirk and Spock getting it on (Kirk divided by Spock or Spock into Kirk--it was mathy fannish humor and I was into it then and I still am now). Slash was decidedly unpopular in the fannish world in 1984, and there was a concerted effort to force slash authors, artists, and fans out of 'mainstream' fannish public life. Hence, under the table.

#fannish shenanigans #fandom history #rare ass personal post