#clinging to my mangled toothless plush like it has any life left in it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im finally going through my stuffed animals to choose which ones to donate (most of them. ive been putting this off for a long time ahaha sobs) and each webkinz i put in the box kills me inside

#THE GUILT IS EATING ME ALIVE #both a betrayal to them & my younger self #who would burst out sobbing at the mere notion of parting with a single one #and swore to themself that they'd never willingly say goodbye to any of their plushie friends #im trying to do it quickly and unemotionally but man. Man.... #clinging to my mangled toothless plush like it has any life left in it #GODDDD AND ALL THE WEBKINZ #when i was little i fucking collected them. i was obsessed. id play the online game for hours and diligently add each toy i got #some of them im not sure i can part with... #like milk the cow... dinner the turkey... white fang the husky... orchard the dragon... #ice cream the polar bear... strawberryblast the horse... kevin the bloogaloo or whatever the fuck it is... #why yes i do still remember most of my stuffed animals' names. which is making this infinitely harder #'sorry lovemuffin. sorry ellie. sorry momma dolphin. sorry snakey' etc etc #im keeping the ones with the most emotional value #like High emotional value. devastation to say goodbye level value #this box is Not Small and its still gonna get filled up.... #i havent donated or thrown away a single one in all of my years #eating glassssssss #absolutely unprompted #but it needs to be done!! i finally have a moving date! the uhaul will Be Here in like! just over two weeks! #and i've barely packed Anything!!! its crunch time babey! #its emotional turmoil of a different flavor babey!!! #now if yall will excuse me i will sit here and reminisce #of long past nights sneakily spent awake to play with my stuffed animals #oh the stories i would give them... #cooking shows... assassinations and resurrections... broken marriages.... betrayals... #white fang & milk you were my most iconic couple fr fr #badass lone wolf (husky) / easygoing sweetheart cow.... #OHHHHH THIS IS KILLING ME ITS KILLING ME #gonna go purposefully choke on my leftovers i stg-