#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

hi guys <3 since invisible string has wrapped up, there's been some things on my mind lately that have made posting a little less fun than i would like... i figured that i sort of just wanted to get it off of my chest before i dive into my next fic. i sort of feel like an ass for even mentioning this stuff but i've seen so many other writers having the same issues as well.. nobody has to read this at all - i guess this is just a clue to where i'm at and my relationship with writing on tumblr right now. this might be a bit of a doozy so i do apologize, i don't mean to sound whiny but truly i just want to get it off of my conscience.

also i want to stress that this has nothing to do with the people that have been continuously kind - i've been reading ur messages and comments regarding the final part of invisible string and i am quite literally over the moon with happiness, ilysm

firstly i want to say that you, my readers, have been so lovely. i know my account is not huge and i do not complete requests in a timely manner, but you all have shown me so much love and positivity that i cannot even fathom. i feel silly talking about "negative" things bc all of the love and support that i receive significantly outweighs the bad, but unfortunately i'm only human.

i've seen countless other writers talk about this as well, but the interaction blues are so real. it feels so contradictory to say this because all i'm doing is typing a silly little story, a fanfiction, at that, so i am absolutely nowhere near being a sophisticated writer... therefore i do not at all feel entitled to reblogs or comments or anything of the sort. but at the same time... it is so discouraging to work so hard on a piece, trying to frame it just right and even adding moments thinking, they'll love this... only for the notifs to be flooded with only likes and demands for a next part. and i absolutely know that these readers mean no ill intent whatsoever, it just feels disheartening at times, like guys can we please just appreciate one thing at a time? it almost makes the writer feel like they haven't done good enough, and it's such a shitty feeling after working so hard. just please remember that tumblr writers are people, we're doing this in our free time and writing for free (despite the silly little tumblr tip jar feature) - if there's a piece or a writer that you enjoy, please let them know! comments, reblogs, messages, all of those do so much to help support the writer and it's so encouraging.

the next point being, the echochamber that is fanfiction. i've pretty much fooled myself if i thought that i could come on here and have a solely original idea. it is still so frustrating sometimes despite how hard i try not to take it seriously. it does feel stupid to take fanfiction seriously but anyway... lately i've been torn between supporting all of the amazing writers on this app and the feeling like i don't want to read anything that appears in the ellie tag anymore. i can be working away at a piece for weeks, and then read someone else's work that has something similar and i feel like i have to delete the things that i've worked on because i never want to seem unoriginal, especially when you're on the flip side of it.. it sucks. it feels like you have a special idea, no matter how big or small, and the second that you post about it, it's everywhere. again, the echochamber. i'd be hard pressed to be able to put something out that someone else hasn't also done, or to put something out and not have other people use it too. it still just feels stressful sometimes, trying to make something about your work special so other people want to read it.

which brings me to my next thought... writing for engagement versus writing for fun. obviously we all want our work to be supported. it's sad when you work hard and it's just not. so yes, always support your writers. but with that, i really want to try to keep that joy in writing, and to not get overwhelmed. my next fic is going to be purely for fun. it is frankly so annoying to research the game or replay it over and over just to make sure every single detail is perfect. that isn't fun to me, i don't want to make something that is word for word and scene for scene something that already exists. i want to make it my own, with different worldbuilding and details for my own storytelling. if you're someone who has an issue with creative changes or inaccuracies from the game- my works may not be for you, and that's okay. i'd rather miss out on some readers than have people comment about something that is wrong.

i know this is all so much and it is a bit ridiculous, i don't think i'm the only one though. it gets a bit much to play into the social aspect of this community, not just writing but trying to appeal to everyone or making sure that all of the other accounts like me.. which just, isn't always going to be the case. with that being said, please remember that i'm a person and i have a job and i'm in college, it's hard to get on tumblr and write when i have huge essays due every night. just keep that in mind, if it takes me a long time to update or post it's not because i'm purposefully trying to make you suffer, there's just other things going on. please have courtesy for writers, please support writers. with all of that being said, i do hope i don't come off as a total drag. again- to all of you who have been nothing but kind and supportive, i love and appreciate you all so much. you are actively making this community and this hellsite a better place, so thank you for that.

much love,

<3 elle

#elle 💭💌

[cirixwqnd]

“ still looking for the charlie spring to my nick nelson but platonically.. or romantically? jk jk.. unless? 😏 <3 ”

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i love jamming out to clairo and pinkpantheress *swoon* i always listen to them when i’m busy or bored! 😭

ik i already said i’m asexual but the specific label that i identify is aegosexual! :D any aegosexuals out there? lol

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🗯️ ) fandoms !!ㅤ

— stranger things. heartstopper. 5 seconds of summer. harry potter universe (i do not support jkr!! even if i had the money to do so i still wouldn’t). hot fuzz. the world’s end. mission: impossible (kind of?). the try guys. jacksepticeye. markiplier.

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[stargirlgallery]

„ Son doux visage qui me souriait

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[kynrki]

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[wearewitchiz]

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[elleloquently]

hi i have not forgotten ab u guys or the requests or invisible string !!! super busy trying to make some more free time to write aaaahh how are u all doing today??? <3

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

it makes me a liiiiiiittle bit sad that when i post things that aren't related to invisible string, they get a lot less interaction ): idk if it's just 'cause the writing isn't good... but there's a lot of stuff i'm super proud of??? maybe it's just a lack of interest, i'm not sure.

trying to get over that though because there's so much i wanna share ): just sometimes feel like maybe people don't necessarily want me to share it, idk, brain being silly

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

im so dramatic i was trying to write part 6 of invisible string last night and something was not clicking, i got so irritated and typed up a whole post saying that invisible string was getting canceled

#i went to bed and i feel better now #elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

live footage of me working on invisible string

#this is Real btw …. face reveal #elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

coming up with an idea only to search the ellie tag to find out a hundred other people had the same one 😭 i know fanfiction is basically like an echo chamber but it’s so difficult to find something that hasn’t been done at least once before

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

im so sorry I haven’t been writing/completing requests!! life is coming in crazy rn, i have midterms and im just going through a lot outside of tumblr at the moment.

not making excuses, just explaining bc I don’t want you guys to think im drifting away <3

i see all of your love continuously (and my new followers- hi!! im so happy to have you here!!!) and im so grateful that you’re all so kind to me and have been loving my stories!! I also see all of the messages asking me for updates.. I’m not ignoring or abandoning anything, I’ve just been going through a lot and it’s been difficult to find the time/energy to sit down and write.

I promise I’ll try to get something out soon <3 just have a little patience with me for now if that’s alright with everyone else too

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

trying to write for less common reader experiences but then feeling the need to apologize to those it isn’t relatable for 😭

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

just wanted to give another sincere thank you to those of you who leave comments and reblog the things that I write <3 you are so appreciated and seeing those messages absolutely make my day every single time

and thank you to those of you who have gone over to my new wattpad to leave some love there also 💞

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

me when i write something and have a very specific way that it should be read with a certain tone realizing you guys can’t read my mind 😰😰😦

#I just need to make audio books of my fics at this point LMAO #elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

i feel like i complain about having a bad day every day on this app lol but things are rough! truly i just want to be writing 24/7, especially with how kind and supportive you all are!! seeing you get excited over things i have written makes it sooo worth it, it feels good that they are Appreciated

#elle 💭💌

[elleloquently]

i hate the feeling of basically jumping ship especially since my account was doing so good + getting so many interactions and i abandoned that but everything irl was so stressful and too much at the time and then coming online to drama, hate, and seeing people blatantly coping the things I had written was even more discouraging. i want to come back though and find my writers voice again, even if that means pretty much rebuilding my account from the ground up

#elle 💭💌