#especially bc theres a gay elder at my work and he just thinks im a lesbian 😭 which is like sweet but i feel like such a fraud in wanting-

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ok taking a very deep breath 🫶 i will be ok

#honestly my mental health usually takes the biggest fucking nosedive every october-january bc of . several reasons . and like. #all considered. have done SO well this time around ! but this was kicking around in my head lately #especially bc theres a gay elder at my work and he just thinks im a lesbian 😭 which is like sweet but i feel like such a fraud in wanting- #to tell him im not a woman. i feel like i dont 'try' hard enough #<- feel like that comes across like i think being thought of as a lesbian = i am perceived as a woman ie lesbianism requires womanhood #i dont sorry this is just piggybacking off of my post about not being out as a trans person and being perceived as gay semi-correctly by- #someone older in the community #just not accurate to me