#fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

helloooo how's 20 year old virgin? and you, ofc 🥺

I’ve never been so busy in my life. your bitch is just trying to graduate which is why i’m never on tumblr 😅 the jaemin fic is being written and perfected like every other day. I’m sorry it’s taking soooo long

#20-year-old-virgin #jaemin is not even 20 anymore omggg #i’ve dragged this fic out for a year im so sorry everyone #but i swear writing fluff is hard as shit #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

I just binge read all your fics and I’m obsessed. Thank you for making your male characters display vulnerability, it’s so refreshing to see that in fanfics and really just in general. <3

Wow you binge read my fics?? That’s crazy holy shiiiii. I’m glad you like how I depict my male characters!! I’m so sick of men acting/being portrayed as hypermasculine. guys are always more complex and emotional then they let on 🤷🏻‍♀️ Thank you for reading and leaving this sweet ask! Means so much 🤍🤍

#fairy.floss #sickchicc

[winsmoke]

hello! I don't know whether anyone has mentioned this or you have thought of it yourself but since the lsd lucas fic seems really intriguing to me perhaps you could still post it but replace lucas with another member? btw your writing stands out so much to me and I can't wait for ur upcoming works<3

Hi! Thank you for your ask! I’ve been meaning to post about this. Yes, I thought about giving L$D to Haechan when the Lucas situation arose.

This is why I decided against it:

When I began reading and about the accusations against Lucas I was (and I’m ashamed to say it), really heartbroken. I know I’m not supposed to get too attached to idols but the main accusations, gaslighting and sexually assault his alleged ex-girlfriends, were hitting too close to home. As someone who has experienced both in my relationships, it made me think, I would have fallen prey to his manipulation too. I had completely lost trust in a guy who I believed to be exceedingly kind to everyone. For this reason and many others, I completely understand why readers may be opposed to reading anymore fics about him or engaging in any content related to Lucas.

That being said, I believe my initial thoughts towards him were a bit irrational. I 100% am someone who stands behind and believes victims, I know it takes so much courage to speak up. But after more information on Lucas began coming out that the alleged victims have extremely questionable credibility, I couldn’t help but wonder if I fell for the trap. I was conflicted for a while because I had such strong convictions that Lucas was guilty but I also jumped to the conclusion that that he was guilty based on relatively vague statements and blurry pictures.

This whole situation made me realize… I really don’t know the idols I love and frankly, I’m sure that some of them aren’t people I should love. But there is never a way to validate their genuineness as a person.

I don’t want to make decision about his innocence until he speaks out but I really doubt he will. From these articles (1, 2), I feel more assured of his innocence and my faith and love for him has slowly restored. It took a few months but I have grown comfortable with the idea of writing for him again. I will still write L$D for Lucas unless more information surfaces that undoubtedly verifies the claims of his alleged victims.

But at the end of the day, this is my experience with the Lucas situation and I realize many may think differently which is completely fine. I want to encourage anyone to unfollow me and/or block his tags if they don’t want to see Lucas on their dash. I know many people view Tumblr as their safe space and I have no interest in violating your mental safety or invalidating your emotions.

#fairy.floss #lucas #nct lucas

[winsmoke]

Could you also tag me on the 20 year old Virgin fic

for sure!! thank you for staying interested in it after all this time 😅🤍

#fairy.floss #indiana452 #remember to tag

[winsmoke]

Do u have a taglist for the 20 year old virgin?? If u have, please tag me😭 also in your upcoming works! Thankyou

I don’t have a taglist but I’ll tag you! Oh wow thank you for being interested in my writing 🤍 You’re so sweet

#fairy.floss #jjaeyoonoh #remember to tag

[winsmoke]

sorry for disappearing for a week, i’ve been busy but happy. wanted to pop in to say i am writing the jaemin smut but it’s going to be a long process. mostly because I am determined to write a fluff/smut rather than my usual angst/smut

#welcome to all my new readers!! sorry i’ve been awal i promise the jaemin smut will be worth the wait #going to bed but i’ll try to catch up on tumblr things tmrw #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

This is the most random thing ever but have you done drugs before? I see the theme of drug usage in a lot of your writings. I was wondering since I remember one time you said that a lot of your writing is based off of personal experience so I was curious 🏃‍♀️

*throw back to my holiday blues graphic

you probably read that in my disclaimer! uh yeahhhh substances and romance for some reason always happened simultaneously for me (which is why i don’t want to get mixed up in either of them anymore)

#if you’re curious about my time on drugs look no further than my fics they’re like summaries of those happy happy times #also it’s okay to be curious! thank you for sending an ask 🥰 #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

hello i love u

#love you too i’ve missed you 😔 #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

Before I disappear for ONE MORE WEEK (finals ends next wednesday), I wanted to warmly welcome all my new readers! I’m excited to write for you all!

I have 3k written out for the Doyoung smut and I think 2k more and it’ll be done. It’s quite like my yangyang story so I think it’ll become a favorite. Should have it finished after finals next week!

Thank you for being patient with me ❤️

also @weishenkonbini/anyone which pic should i use??? i cannot decide

#time to disappear again #I MISSED TUMBLR SO MUCH IM LITERALLY PULLING MY HAIR OUT TRYING TO FINISH JUNIOR YEAR #im going to make a more formal post discussing why i haven’t been writing lately #not to justify my absence but just to create a safer space for my readers #love me harder #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

hi yuri idk if you've been online lately or not but here's my reminder that i love you and you're talented and i wish you nothing but the best 💞

haha i have not... yikes but it’s summer vacation so i should be more present. I love you too. you’re an amazing writer 😭 i’ll be sure to swipe over to your page soon to check for updates 💗💗

#tinystupidwitch #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

who are some of your favourite blogs?

I feel really guilty only naming three blogs, however, I chose them because of how much I look up to them. I am kinda wowed that they’re my friends because they’re extremely ambitious individuals with writing/blogs lightyears ahead of mine.

@caiuscassiuss

The first blog I followed (so I am very biased). Basically what I aspire to be. Seemless writing and flawlessly executed angst. Highly recommend Whiplash (dark Yuta fic) and Bandages (cute Jisung fic). I keep my fangirling over Cami at bay on a daily basis, and she’s younger than me haha.

@naptaemed

As you probably know, I am not a fluff writer. Which makes it all the more surprising that I suggest this to you. Extremely comforting to read and again, exceptional writing. NCT members are portrayed to a T. Please read the Lonely Hearts Column (mutual pining), I miss writing for Yangyang so much but Jackie does it 372947x better than me. Jackie is the smartest person I know on here and is always giving me the best advice.

@alreadyblondenow

The peak of NCT blogs in terms of graphics, creative storylines, and shitty endings. I cannot tell you how many times I stressed about the angst level in my stories but then I go to B’s page... it’s on a whole other level of twisted. I would have to suggest How Old Is Too Old? (dark Jaehyun fic) because it was gifted to me. B has supported me since day 1, works like a maniac, and has guided me through my masterlist, networks, and Twisted in Purpled Fingers.

* Literally just go read their whole masterlists for me because I still haven’t

#my friends on here are cool asf #im drowning in greatness over here #pretty much the only blogs on here that i consistently go back and read stories #usually i’ll only like one story from a writer’s masterlist but that’s not the case for these three blogs #i bet you already follow these people haha #favorite nct writers #fairy.recs #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

uh yes hello. so once again I’ve been gone from tumblr for all but TWO days (well..) and I have a huge spike in my readers with absolutely nothing to offer you this week. The beginning of the doyoung smut has been written and its ANGST ON ANGST. i think all my frustrations w school has been poured on it. but i just wanted to say hello to everyone new on my blog! I hope you enjoy my writing 🥰

p.s. when i checked my activity page i got nervous when i saw some of my older fics get notes. i’m begging you to check the dates of the fics because some of my older writing is trash but i don’t have the courage to delete my fics YET

#i need to catch up on my friend’s fics😭 #i need to catch up on life #but we’ll start w the fics #love me harder #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

HEY EVERYONE 🥞

🦷 : I’m super super happy to announce that I got my midterm grades and I have three A’s and one B+ 😭. I’m a little pissed about the B because it’s the class I grind the hardest in, nonetheless I’m relieved. Thank you for everyone who has been interacting with me! It does actually improve my mood and motivates me through college. I only had one friend on Tumblr last semester and it’s amazing how different it is this year. So thank you for always making me smile!

#you have love mail! #i gotta go do schoolwork but i’ll be on here tonight #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

do you ever revert back to english music and your brain kinda malfunctions??? My friends are playing mainstream American rap/hip hop and it’s a RUSH. listening to music in a language I can understand – what a concept 😂

#im too far gone i guess #it’s mostly the rap the r&b will always b smooth #im so behind in american rap like holy shit who are these new rappers??? #thank god for j cole he’s the only person who sounds normal #who the tf is this moneybagg yo #like fuck if i go to a party/club will i not know any of the songs?!? #kpop brainwashing #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

Bro how come

A. You're one of my favorite accounts

B. I haven't seen any of your posts in months 😭😭

C. I'm just now putting on notifs cuz bro. I've missed you and your blog, 10000%

Hope this new year will treat you well 💜

I’m honored to be one of your favorites! Ahhh because I really haven’t posted much… oh wow that’s crazy! thank you for turning on notifs for me 😭 thank you for appreciating me and my blog. hope you have a wonderful year as well

#babybinnyboy-main #fairy.floss

[winsmoke]

hello 🥬

i have many wips but no motivation 🦧 how do i finish my wips 😔

i tell myself try to post something significant on friday. but somehow the panic to meet that deadline doesn’t settle until friday night so the wip gets finished saturday.

if you need to be more inspired, if it’s safe for you, try to get out more! I’ve been biking to the library almost every day to study and reading books definitely makes me want to write. tonight i went to a poetry reading and bought some amazing poetry books too!!

#i just think about the victory of being DONE #changing where you write helps #also starting a new document or writing on paper helps me if im stuck in the middle of the story #fairy.floss #naptaemed